What if one day, i'm not of the same importance anymore..?
This feeling hurts me; i'm being such a possessive asshole but i really couldn't help it..
I'm sorry.. But to me the one being loved is of utmost importance and yearning/begging for your presence is just difficult to keep within myelf at these kind of times and it's really nearly unbearable if you don't try to cheer me up.. But thanks tho', cause you do try and that's why i love you, and definitely would continue if you were to continue to think that i'm worth your love and time.
I really can't stand the thought of not seeing you or the quietness from this fucking hectic life we, as students, have in this place..
I feel like screaming when i had to part with you every single time. why?! It feels as if a part of me is being forcefully torn away from me. The pain. The agony. The frustrations..
But i have to bear with it.
I don't know how much willpower you have to look like you don't feel anything at all during this temporary "seperation" but i do admire it.. but to be honest it hurts a little, and i have to force myself to think that you're doing this for our good because there would be a slight downhill to our relationship if things don't go well for your papers and it does make me feel a little better knowing the amount of effort you're putting into the relationship to stop it from being threatened. But a bite taken out of me still deal quite some pain.
Ah.. People too immersed in the life presented to us by society instead of seeing much of the life that we're actually living, and you're trapped between both forcefully. I hope there'd come a day i'd find a point in appreciating the man made-and-thought ideal life of materialism and help myself and you feel a little better thru tough but necessary times like this.. But for now please bear with me while i get tired of studying and shit like that.. i'm sorry :( But i love you and would always do as long as you're around..
now i've to go sleep because someone said so XD [that's why i love her ttm! ;)]
-Tired-and-empty-slave of the modern day society

Who will be there to catch me when i'm the one who needs a break from reality?

Never had the chance to ask myself that.

ohhhhhhh gosh im kinda tired now and now i'm just gonna shag at home!
Went out at 11pm ytd to lepak with lucas and yuheng! and wellll, get home at bout 5:10 but there's no one awake and the door's locked soooo.. i went for a run :D and gym-ed after that!!!! *chants* ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS *continues chant* ahahahahahahaha well it's kinda refreshing at that point of time, but now after a warm bath, damn...
JELLY YO! ahahaahahahah gosh im justtt sittin in front of the comp and you could say i'm stoning!!
ohhhhh btw food @ rail mall is (Y) esp the prata at AhMei AHAHAHA (randomrandom) and and and THIS MORNING IS A NICE MORNING!!! it's just soo cooling and now i just feel so comfy sittin here :D
wellllll went for CO yesterday and it was kinda good!!! MUAHA dizi owns! esp during sectionals :)
but my wrist and the meaty side of my hand is bruised from all the beating of the table LOL neeeeeeey it's okai~! heehee.. argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh butbutbut was kinda tired, so i kinda slept abit during ensemble :/ while the awesome jrs were trying their best at the choice piece kekekeke although things didn't really go well for themmmm :( butbutbutbut they do ty hard yea?! :D ahhhhh also practiced the keat hong pieces for a little while while the rest were having the ensemble (and the dizi got solo drilled by Mr Sim LOL) andd yess finally go certain parts right!! :D
though i'd screw up agani during KHCO ensemble :/ neeey but imma try AHAHA~ (over enthu horh?!)
yesssss!!!
ohohohohoh andandand though i've ran and gym-ed nowadays while skipping lunch or something, my fatty tummy is still stayign with me :( sigh, kinda upset that i'd never be tall or skinny or good looking HAHAHA cannot be hotguy siaaa~! tsktsk but i feel my muscles being all sore and stuff like that. siiiiiiiiigggggggghhh ohyeaaa bout my health, though my sore throat is gone, there's a very bad cough zzz and and and and a few days or a day before, i had fever or something like that (didn't really check) and was feeling all uncomfortable :'( ahahaha later just die how? then the whole world miss me XD AAHAH just joking, there's no needa puke on the keyboard!!! :o
hmmmmmmmmmmmm saw lotas snails today too! :D cute ahahaha there was this snail on the wall that i saw when i went to the gym! and when i was back it was only bout half a metre away from where it was when i left for gym HHAHA AND THE CUTE THING IS THAT IT LEFT A POOP OMG ( well, i think it's the snail's) LOOOL
wowww there's nothing much to talk bout barhh~! OHOHOH KHCO paticipated in the SCO music competition and got into the finals :)))) proud proud!!! hope i'd be able to contribute more the year after next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wish that our (actually not mine alr)BBSSCO would actually be doing just as well as KH is doing now ><
butttt yea got people like me can't really get alr AHAHA!!!!!!!
wooo poempoem!
I've tried,
died,
nono,
it's just not right?
But no,
that's what i like,
it's my fight,
there'll never be such thing called flight! *FIGHTING AH!*

Would there be results,
or would i end up with insults?
I needa try,
to get what money can't buy,
but i'm always shunned,
so maybe, i can't.

Hello hello December 2012!
welcome to my life hohoho sanata clauss is comin toooo towwwwwnn
yeeeeeeeea babeh~
gosh. I'm exhausted and sweating like a pig, idk why?
and i think i had fever ytd afternoon or something, everything was just BOOM and i was on my bed from 4 to 7  XD
screwed up body, woke up to realize i missed out Calum's bday meeting with HOTGUY ahaha andd now i needa think of something to get for him for his belated bday! gooootttaa make sure it's someting he likes T.T
geez my throat ain't letting me go too :'( and there's KHCO practice tomorrow!!!! which i hope i'd be able to make it to, cause i feel bad being away for so long even though i'm a little lousy and needed sooo much more practice! ohhhhgod Mr Sim! i'll promise you i'll be a good boy and performer by july LOL
Butbutbutbutbut health's ain't on my side soooo maybe this december, i'll be dead... serious about my healthcare or smething LOL (thought i was being pessimistic didn't you, ;) )
ahahahahahah woo!!! bttttwwww! Haven't been doing much excercise (cause of my throat too T.T)
andddd well basically i don't wana my tummy to visit, i mean, he's rude! he creates opportunities for people to make fun of me T.T AHAHA like... getting invited onto the soccer field by the name of prosperity tummy or somefing like dat X.X pheeew and i can't burn the fats on my tummy easily sooooo, here comes long distance runs muahahahahahahah fats, you're gonna have fat hopes of escaping this time!!! >:) bwahahahahahaa DIEEEEEE!! BURRRRN!!!! (swings my excercise schedule around like a sword)
dummmmdumdumumdumdum wanna watch movies so badly! arrrrrrgh boredom really kills (except for things like fats, they're like, really good allies) andd weeeeeeeeeeeeeeellll, watched ted and it was friggin awesome like me LOL jkjkjkjk it was a hell of a movie psssssssssh ohhgawd and i didn't eat anything till dinnertime, which is cause of meh lazehnessssss (another ally of the boredom i was speaking about earlier) kekeke you dead man ken you dead!
Everything ain't going soo well but ahaah least im happy~ woo! causeeeee it's DECEEEEMBER~ YEA TOTALLY~ ahahahaha
GIFTS, GIFTS FOR EVERYYONE!!! :D
though i'm buying for a few only T.T ahhhh Calum needs two now :o
hohoho dance dance dance!
imma buy myself a nice pair of sneakers, a new wallet, maybe some nice shirt at m'sia!
ahahahahaha and maybe if it's possible, anything for the people i'm giving gifts to~
hmmmand my driving license... :P OKAY THAT'S ALL FOR TONIGHT! :D

They call her beautiful,
but,
I'm can only be the fool behind the beauty.
Hey there, girl
It's december,
a part of me fades away
every single day.
So,
Is it okay if you'd hold me tight
or,
Maybe stop me from this fight.
But,
If it's trouble,
i won't make it double..

HAPPY JINGLE BALLS EVERYONE AHAHA :D

YES! It's been a week since the official end of the O's!! ahahah well the whle of the week was pretty eventful! (which sorta explains why i've not been posting!)
WEll, Went for RED CAMP 9 @ NGEE AN POLY!! :D IT WAS AWESOOOOOOME!
Basically it's a tour round the school over a duration of a three-day daycamp! and i'm still feeling somewhat missing something in my life after the camp AHHAH i mean, where ele can you get thousands of people SCREAMING CHEERS and doing a darn well choreographed mass dance together?! damnn! the SLs were awesome too! There was Zah, Milo (super cute guy) Sarah(i thnk) in our sub-tribe! OHYEA BTW IM FROM THE VIKINGS! Well, it's just a very very very very nice experience, and of course, getting to walk around NP was great :D
hmmmm and other than that... WE'VE CO!! WOOWOO
Monday was like a normal day! cept that there's prom afterwards and i'd have to leave early! :(
but they've got their SYF set piece!!! It's.. alright, but idk, i think Journey's a pretty nice piece and expected more for this year's piece. NEY IT'S ALRIGHT BBSSCO WILL DO GREAT EITEHRWAY HAHAHA (GOTMEGOTME TO COACH) AHH JKJK!!
And for CO on thursday, it was pretty awesome! In the morning i couldn't wake up (had very bad nights sleep nowadays) for a table tennis outing and i had to rush and run and rush and run but of coure, i've made it in time for the whole thing itself, and Me, HeeJin, SengChuan, ZhiHeng played while DaHyeon spectate XD AHAHAH alLLL THEE WOODWINDS!! :D OHOHOHOHOHH DIZI PEOPEL DID GREAT IN ENSEMBLE!! :D ahhhh hope everything would be okay by the time SYF comes! It'll be a busy year, esp for the current committe cause of the CNY performances, AAC, CCA showcase and of course the SYF, but, well, i trust they'd do well
OHYEAAA AND had a fun time laughing and getting all hyped with Mr Sim and all the DIZIS! HAA! :D aannnnnnnnnd after co there was this little committee games where we were playing captains ball~! WOO! There's nothing like this in our batch of committee zzz BUT NVM IT'S GREAT TO SEE THE JUNIORS BEING ALL SO BONDED AND THINGS LIKE THAT!!! :D but the only thing's that they can't make steadfast decisions and well, it's fine and everything was basically super super fun!! WOO! THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FOR CO!!!!!
Other than that, i've been out walking the streets, and i went back for KeatHong CO LOL Some Juniors went and wow, it's great to see them there (lotsa improvements to be seen in em) ARGH BUT BECAUSE OF SOME COMPETITION I HAD TO SOLO BANGDI PARTS *paiseh* and basicaly i'm not good and i sort of screw things up a little but well, at least i get most of it rights XD
And after KH, the the bunch of KH/BBSS people went to bpp for STREATS hong kong cafe together for dinner and i had tom yum hotpot... well... Lotsa cheering from red camp + lotsa screaming from the intra-committe capt's ball + tomyum = a disastrous throat and state of health :D HAAHAH
but well, it' all worth the shitty throat. THROAT, YOU'RE A DARN DISAPPOINTMENT! HOW CAN YOU NOT COMPREHEND AWESOMENESS HAHAHA
So i guess i'd be able to get my rest today :) woo! just slacking at home and doing nothing! AHAHAH
maybe watch some dramas, play some maple, listen to awesome songs being recommended by heejin, and just disappear into non-reality *falls into endless oblivion like alicein the wonderland* WOOO!<3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">and neyy, my brain ain't got space or time for any poems for this post HAHAHA oops sorry XD
CYA BITCHES!