30th August 2008

Alright people. SO i'm kinda in trouble here. During the holidays, i borrowed tons of books from all numerous libraries, and i mean TONS. Toa payoh library, National library, Tampines library, Queenstown library, Bukit Merah library, Bedok library, Bukit Panjang library... Goodness knows how many libraries i've been to!! And i was so greedy, that i upgraded my library card to the premium membership, which entitles you to borrow 8 books at a time. Not only did i upgrade mine, i upgraded my mum's too! So i could borrow 16 books!! But there's a reason for this - my granddad's card is no longer in use since he passed away, so...

But alright, i admit it. I overdid it. However, i REALLY could read that many books at that time, except now that school has started, i uhh well, have too many books on my hand and i can't exactly finish reading them. HOW?

Whatever the case, it prompted me to add this little section to my blog, under tagboard. In it states the books i am reading at the moment, and i hope that you'll be inspired to read books as well, this goes mainly to Angel. Hahaha (sniggers). >.<

Oh just an introduction... I borrowed the last two books on my list (by Mary Higgins and Mitch Albom) from Angel, and they're not too bad. If you want to read them too, ask her alright? AND OOOHHHH you've so GOTTA read Kite Runner. Initially i wanted to get the book, since it was listed as one of the 100 greatest books or something (in one of my older posts), but i forgot all about it til Cherie herself borrowed it from the library. It IS available in the libraries by the way. I got mine from Toa Payoh, but i'll probably return it at Queenstown, if you wanna travel all the way to that ulu place.

AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE LIBRARY AT CLEMENTI TO OPEN. I am so gonna be a regular there! =D

Right okay so well, i HIGHLY recommend Kite Runner. It's a bit heavy, as in it's so dramatic and sad, that i simply couldn't read it in a day. But it's really good. In fact i'm intentionally gonna fine myself cause mum wants to read it too, so it's definitely gonna be overdued when i return it. But yeah, do read it! I'll let you know what other books are good along the way alright? Let me get the remaining 14 books in my house out of the way first.

(HUGE SIGH)Yeah yeah, do not comment on my incorrigible habit.

24th August 2008

Alright although the date this post is posted on is 24th... it's about 23rd August.

In the afternoon, my whole family accompnied me to get my beloved camera, and finally I HAVE MY OWN CAMERA. I'm gonna be a professional photographer like AMELIA!! hahahaa whoots!

right.. my hard earned money. I've been working like nuts last semester and during the holidays. Telemarketer, writer, editor, admin, tuition, baby sitting, wash car, real estate, runner, overnight queuer, COOK! You name it. Whew... no wonder i was so tired everyday, but it was worth it =)

And now, i'm broke. So no going out this semester. I gotta get my 3.7 GPA! Yeah right. Let's stick to 3.6. Scrap that. Let's do 3.5 okay? haha okay nevermind. I'll just do my best and i'll be proud of that grade.

Oh yeah, back to 23rd. I got my camera, after loads of calls to Amelia, cause she's the only one who knows anything about them, and i'm a total idiot when it comes to these stuff.

And tada, in the night, it was FIREWORKS with my beautiful girlfriends! Angel darling, amelia sweetheart, and dear o' wei lian. Too bad kim couldn't make it. Next time girl! =D And knowing us, the outing HAD to be a dramatic one -- with rain. So we sat outside the esplanade on newspapers and plastic bags, holding umbrellas. Yeah a little pathetic. Not as grand as i thought it'd be. But hey, with friends, how bad can it be? Poor amelia was running up and down in the rain adjusting and fussing over her camera. I took pictures too! Yeah but you know, obviously my pictures wouldn't be as beautiful as hers! >.<

Nevermind company was lovely enough. I love you girls!

Yeah well, mum and i were bored, so we decided to play with the web cam i bought from Jane. Interesting. We didn't know it was possible to take pictures/videos of YOURSELF, without CONNECTING to anyone else. So yep, what else can two bored people do but experiment with functions?



Alright family picture of mum, dog and me! Dad's out jogging, IN THE RAIN, right now, so i'll get another later...


(25 minutes later... Dad comes home!)

18th August 2008

OKAY great. I am now panicking.

Kenneth and i went for the job fair on 16th August, wait a minute. We THOUGHT it was the 16th August. Instead, it was the 15th August! Huge idiots we were. Total waste of time. Why? Cause the fair starts on 16th! But evidently we got our dates wrong -_- Haha no matter, we met with Kai after that.

Interesting session with soft toys. Heart pain for Kai. He kept trying to win toys at the arcade, but i must have jinxed him or something. And after that, when we visited mini toons (or some toy shop), i eagerly reached out for one specific cute toy and alamak, everything on the shelf came out, so i pushed them back. How was i to know there was no BACKING to the shelf, so everything fell out the other way. Geez. Kenneth ran out of the shop laughing, leaving Kai and me there, embarrassed to death. In the end, we gave up putting the toys back, and just sneaked out.

Okay back to the job fair, which i still wanted to check out. I am after all graduating next year, and SHOOT! I have nothing in mind. No direction, no goals, no aim, no... idea. No specialization either. Jia lact. No particular strength as well. DEAD.

Anyway, William asked me along on the TRUE 16th August, so i went. It was pretty interesting. Was quite happy cause i realized Mediacorp has quite a few interesting job scopes.

BUT NOW, my hopes, my dreams, my LIFE, is dashed. Hahaha okay not so dramatic. What i mean is, i'm not so sure if i can enter the working force properly or not. Next year i'm 19. The legal age for CPF funds or something like that, is 21. And when i just did this DISC report thign on the net, its requirements were for the individual to be aged 21 and above, plus have a minimum of 4 O levels. I don't care, although i'm not 21, i just did it. A consultant will call me up after that. How ah? Aiya whatever.

Sigh... Help! Start praying like mad now.

13th August 2008

okay quite happy. We got all our results back and we didn't do too badly =D

CELEBRATIONS! with ASPIRATIONS! Or something along those lines. It's a song, but can't remember the exact lyrics.

Anyway, I'm happily down with the fever and flu, so now that it's gone down a little, I'm quickly blogging before i forget.

Kenneth and i sent Eileen and Jia Zhen off on 11th august, to the airport that is. Sniff sniff. Their luggage are scary. Ha ha and Eileen's hand carry bag is WHOA super heavy!! How to hand carry? Her arms will be very toned when she gets back. I hope their birthday presents come into good use! =D

Watched brokeback mountain, atonement and my fair lady, in that exact order. Mum was wondering why there were so many sexual references but she had fun. Gah mums who have menopause... well.... you get my point.

My birthday this year was very relaxed. Different from other years, but it wasn't that unpleasant. =) Spent time with family at home, albeit a grumpy family -_- But i played with doogie! heh, and talking about dogs, the cruellas next door (my neighbors who hate pebbles) got a DOG! WHOOA like HUHHH?? This will get interesting.

Oh yeah anyway angel gave me mama mia cookies! Ha ha comfort food. Kept eating until sore throat; serves me right i guess. And i had a birthday lunch with Jane and Cherie! Happy!! They know how to get to my heart, ha ha through my stomach. Actually everyone does. This is not good.

But let me tell you more about the brilliant orgasmic potato i had for lunch that day at Jack's Place. OMMMGGG i forgot how much i love that potato, with the SOUR CREAM, the BACON BITS... and OOOHHHH! I died and went to heaven.

Thank you everyone! <3 *SMOOSH*

Ps: Jocelyn, Eileen, Jia Zhen, Steph! 4 months plus is soo long. Can't wait for you guys to come back in January!

Next semester will be interesting. Wonder who our lecturers (except for mr. bob -.-) and classmates will be. We'll all make new friends i guess! =D

swensons

oh yeah, after that darnn advertising exam.. here's where we landed up!

9th August 2008

okay i am drunk. just drank some alcohol in the fridge cause i thought it was water and i was dehydrating. this post has no real purpose, except for myself to see how drunk i am tomorrow morning, when i wake up with a splitting headache and puffy eyes. just talked to gary on msn and i don't know what rubbish i came up with. which reminds me, i saw some rubbish downstairs, in this huge paper bag thing. then i realized it's actually soil in it. i think they were replanting the plants. for what purpose i don't know, when all the dogs will just dig everything up again. besides, it's unhealthy for the dogs because they use fertilizers. and they don't need fertilizers when the dogs poo are enough. there've been some really inconsiderate people in my condo these days. they simply don't pick up their dog poo. speaking of dogs, i have to a revelation today. the smaller the dogs, the more barky they are, and more defensive they are, they more agressive they are. like my dog, like chi hua huas. probably to make up for their size? the bigger they are, the more mild they are.

and you know, about size.. miss gan told us today about a girl in GB who's really small, like me. She's probably smaller than me now though, but it seems she's very self-conscious about it. i think it's sad. i mean, i hate people judging me by how small i am, as in i don't mind teasing, but not in the offensive side. you may say i'm small, but don't say i'm childish. you know? negative connatations? but my point is, she's REALLY upset about it. and i think "poor girl". people have probably been teasing her about it. and i wanna help her. being small isn't all that bad. in fact, i'm beginning to love my smallness. i mean hey, that's me! and i can say with pride that though i'm small, i can do great things. such as... okay. i don't know. you tell me guys! =)

anyway, did you know my dog's growing bigger? she's so timid, but big. my shorts are big too. i'm sad. i can't wear them properly anymore. i've lost my appetite since i started on this "sick every two weeks" routine. so i think i'm eating less, less carbo definitely. perhaps i've lost weight, or my clothes have expanded, cause now i have to tighten my belt a lot! and the front is so crinkled. i'm thinking the clothes singapore makes are ridiculous. Loisa's conclusion -->

If they're too tight, they crumple.
If they're too loose, they crinkle.

either way, bottoms rarely look good on me now. and speaking of bottoms, there's this fish at the bottom on the pond at my place. it looks dead. but dead fish float right? upside down right? they don't sink, do they? maybe tomorrow i'll go poke it, see if it's alive. the last time i put my hand in, the catfish tried to bite me though. cause me to step back and slip into the opposite pond. mmm duckweed doesn't taste nice.

ooo my dog's nose is cold. i'm tired. washing's done now. i'm gonna fold clothes and sleep. bye world.

zzz

Warning: This post was written when my emotional mood is very unsettled. English is therefore quite bad, cause i'm writing in a bad state of mind.

okay i am quite upset. i have an exam tomorrow and now i'm too upset to be studying, and in a way i'm kinda blaming my mum. is it wrong?

i feel her job is consuming her. I mean it's fine, i'm grown, i can handle it on my own. I don't even need her to fetch me from school. I can make my own meals, i study on my own.

BUT, it becomes an issue when everything she forgets, becomes my fault, because she doesn't recall it, and therefore, i did not tell her.

1) i don't even care about my birthday. i mean, not that i don't care, but it isn't necessary for the family to like throw a party, or give me presents. but my mum INSISTS on having a family dinner for me, and she was so excited about it. So i felt touched, and became excited too. So they said they couldn't make it on 8th, i said fine, 9th or 10th. I have plans on 8th anyway, and i was telling her how plans were constantly changing and that i was a little frustrated with it. and just now, while planning my schedule, i just asked if the dinner was 9th or 10th And she can tell me," you tell me lar. you always changing your plans." So i was like huh? My plans are always on the 8th, nothing to do with 9th or 10th. So in the midst of studying, i got annoyed, and shot back (not even impatiently but perhaps my words weren't nice enough?).

"huh, i thought you couldn't decide on 9th or 10th? you said 9th maybe shouldn't cause of ndp."

Wahh, then because of that, she went "I DIDN'T SAY BECAUSE OF NDP. I said because of national day!!! You keep changing your plans.. SO NOW WHAT? You want 9th or 10th??"

I was quite annoyed by then, cause she keeps denying stuff, and say i don't tell her properly. She herself forgets, then shoot it back at me. But i have learnt my lesson, i feel i have become a better person because i have learnt not to argue. Instead, i force everything down, and said...

"okay, i will not argue. Which day will be more convenient for you?"

i thought this was quite nice already. she still not happy, said i have a very patronizing tone. IN what way? the, "okay i will not argue?" i REFUSE to say "okay, which day will be more convenient for you" simply because that means i am wrong and she is right. That to be, is simply unjust. and i am tired of ALWAYS being in the wrong. Sometimes, i doubt myself, and upon reflection, realize i was rude or etc. But in this case, and others of course, it is just ridiculous. She's simply deleting whatever i said.

there is a difference between respect, elders, filial piety, and unjust accusations.

2) she says picking me up after school every day is a token of affection. I would certainly agree. HOWEVER, if it is going to take up so much of her time, which leads to her being grumpy, and consistently FORGETTING EVERYTHING i tell her cause she's always in the rush, WHAT IS THE POINT? i would rather take the bus home on my own. It makes no difference. Cause everytime i wait for her at the atrium, it takes so long, the time for me to go home by public transport is sometimes faster. AND it saves petrol if i take the bus. so why bother? what's the point, really? if it only makes everyone so unhappy?

I'm so so so upset as i'm typing this. I hate having bad blood between mum and me. i gave up communication with dad, cause it's really no use. At least he gave up on me too, so i don't have to constantly fight with him.

Sigh nevermind. After prayer tonight, we'll all cool off. Have a good night everyone!

6th August 2008

I'm dying trying to memorise every single word on the powerpoint slides for my exam tomorrow. This is ridiculous. Who learns by memorizing for their life within a few days for a major exam that takes up 30% of their entire grade? z_z

Us. Right.

ZZZZZZ

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