what's the world coming to?!

i'm angry... i'm pissed, i'm piqued... any other words that come to your mind?

i can't sleep. it's a nightmare.

i was pretty happy this afternoon as i made my way down to woodlands to meet alfred and jovin for work. we're promoting cable tv and maxonline (internet service) for starhub by the way, so if you are interested, you know who to call... =) haha anyway as i was going down the escalator i met so many GB girls! and THEN i saw 34th's very own sec 2s! haha was so happy, didn't realised how much i miss them.

BUT.... BUT... from then on, my mood went downhill. tell me, where's the love and concern HUMANS are SUPPOSED to have for one another? i mean, isn't it common sense, or simply a thought from the heart?

i was joking around with alfred, leaning against a pillar at the mrt station. we were waiting for jovin. a stick hit my foot. i turned around. a blind indian man apologised. he was trying to find his way around. i was wondering if i should offer my assistance but was unsure how to go about it, so i waited a little while. meanwhile, this poor man was using his stick and hitting everyone in sight, no pun intended. majority of the HUMANS around moved away to avoid being hit, while others just "tsked" the man for tripping them up. they are actually annoyed with him and tsked him!!!! it's extremely appalling!

at the passenger service corner, an indian woman was sitting at the couter of the control station. there was a man behind her too. i absolutely CANNOT figure out WHY, not one of them could not have offered their arm to the blind man? i mean, they were just sitting there!! i remember VERY clearly that a while back, the newspapers featured a section on helping the blind or something like that. they highlighted two events in which one, a young malay boy consistently helping 2 blind women order food at a coffee stall, and two, a man working at the interchange helping a blind person find his way to the bus, or something along those lines. so what's with that article, or does no one read the newspapers?

fine, i couldn't stand it anymore, so while carrying a heavy sling bag and a folderble stand (for roadshows) under one arm, i awkwardly offered my arm to the blind man. he needed to go to the bus interchange where he had to take bus 963 to bukit panjang for work. the most incredulous thing? his work is door-to-door sales, and i thought i had it bad. this guy faces more rejections than i do! he explained to me that many people banged the door in his face and stick (he sells chocolates btw) and some people actually made fun of him. what is wrong with people these days? this man does not need pity, but he does have a heart, and a mind. so treat him with a little respect people. he may need a little help in getting around, so what? we have arms and legs, is it that difficult to go up to him and say "hi, may i help you?"

and.... i was doing my roadshow yet again today, guess what? i was told to "screw myself", and to "f_ _ _k a spider". wow! a simple no would have been sufficient enough, awww come on, i'm just a kid. smile, pat me on the back, reject me with a polite no, and you would still have made me a happy kid. but noooooooooo, my dear fellow singaporeans, whom now i'm ashamed to call homo sapiens, told me to play with a spider!!!!!

i am so mad, plain mad. what's that song? "just a little kidness" etc. obviously nothing has gone through these people's heads... i'm truly embarrassed... and MAD!!! fuming!!!

now i can't sleep... i was thinking, that man was following the raised line in mrt stations for the blind, but unfortunately it leads only to the mrt station. how about the government do something nice for us and make one that goes to the interchange? i didn't know where bus 963 was, but the minute we reached the interchange, the man knew exactly where to turn. i just guided him through. so how about it huh? a line towards the interchange?

enrolment service 2006

my body clock is all wrong... in fact, my entire system is wrong. i can't sleep at night. and i always wake up early, so i feel so tired during the day. YET when night comes around again, i can't sleep. sigh... my big beautiful brown eyes are beginning to look small and black... haha okay, i'm exaggerating and making my eyes sound more attractive. haha okay not the point.

well anyway, i slept at around 2.30am last night, and i had to wake up at 4am!! (arise, go forth!!!!) one and a half hours of sleep... not good, not good at all... i woke up with a funny itch in my throat, and i sounded like a strangled mosquito in the morning... ever heard the mosquitos calling each other with that eeee sound? yeah i sounded something like this... "eEeeEeEEEeeE" horrible... haha but after drinking lots of water, ah yes... haha much better. oh yeah, i really have to complain about the water cooler in the canteen. it is a MENACE i tell you, a TOTAL DANGER to everyone. i every single time i drank from there, my tie got caught, and i was half choked. it is so unglam to have water shooting up your nose and more water spluttering out of your mouth... haha okay i will stop being so long winded...

anyway, my whole batch was promoted! pretty cool eh? sam and i were talking on the phone, and we were prepared not to receive anything as we believed once we supposedly took leave from GB, our attendance was kaput! but ah well, God works wonders... AND the best thing was, everyone in the whole pbb gang 2005 was present to receive the plague together! how cool is that? haha did i mention i love those people?

oh oh and for the D.I.R.T guys... haha COOL! my julie, and carol! haha they deserve it really, they do... i'm proud of them... haha beginning to feel old, like a mother... for the D.I.R.T team (squad) wah sammie!!! haha, poor aud and me. haha, ever since we were in sec 1, we've been telling each other, okay, next year next year ESTHER will receive that award, and we did work towards it you know. sigh, we can next year next year til the next century... nvm congrats to hannah all the same! haha may the best squad win! esther will get you some day, hannah! julie was displaying the dirt team award in the GB room, and i was thinking "the plague had NO esther!!! haha in that case, cannot display" anyway, the shelf was not cleaned yet so haha they took it down... haha

mr chiang was present too! spoke to him a little and as usual, he enjoys teasing people about the dirt award. i'm the old dirt, while julie and carol are the new dirt. -.- lunch was good too... haha the dumpling was nice! however, the ones mdm li makes are nicer... haha

did i mention jolene? she was the usher for mrs foo, the guest speaker and principal of st. hilda's primary... haha she was really cute! she practically RAN to usher mrs foo and just stuck out her hand akwardsly... haha... godo thing jolene saw the funny side of it too and was not worried that we were laughing...

talked to mrs koh a little too... she looks taller and seems to have lost weight... maybe it's the children... haha i hear children are a bundle of joy but are also a handful, so maybe she has her hands a little full... she asked me about sim and ngee ann... haha... well as i've said before i'm going to go to sim, no one is going to confuse me anymore... haha except myself that is... =)

on to the church service. it was cool! i'm always revived again whenever i go for service. i'm feel alive!! =) sermon was good too, it talked about getting to know God personally, and having a relationship with him, and not just "acting" as a good christian... gotta reflect on that and my life...

okay i'm talking to too many people at the same time, so i've lost my trend of thought. i think i have more to tell you about, but..... maybe another time yeah? for now... God bless and good night =)