ranks and pbb brooch

whew today was one long day... it was promotion adn dedication service at ACJC! haha... well basically raq, sun, julie and me were supposed to meet at tampines to buy ms gan her birthday present. it was a cross! hee... anyway, julie couldn't make it as she had to pack for the overnight stay at ms gan's place... and i was kinda late. but got reason one. haha, cause the night before i had pattern pattern burned 3 fingers, so couldn't polish boots, hurt like mad. so this morning i was to polish my boots but didn't realise it would take so long. in the end, i polished like a bit only? yeah.. so i met raq and sun around 10.45, half hour after meeting time. heh sorry... sun told me that mount zion was like second last floor of century square, but when i went there, i couldn't find anythign? realised shop was closed. so nvm, we just bought it from life book shop. saw ben tan there... haha.. he was goign for the band graduation thing i think...

well anyway, after that we headed for the coffee shop near faith's place. ate erm, nasi lemak.. quite nice leh.. but was darn full after that. met up with sam, adu and julie there. wah after that arh, mad rush okay! went to school and started changing into uniform like crazy... haha... oh then we boarded the bus that would take us to ACJC. that was the start of my horrible day. i got scolded about my total defence badge and kidna disappointed ms gan and ms lee. sorry. you see, raq, julie adn me had formally received our td gold badge but sun, sam and aud had not. so we were plannign to wear our silver one instead so as not to let the others feel left out. in the end, they had brought their gold badge, while the rest were given theirs on the bus. i did not have mine, so ms gan was pretty mad at me. sigh.. felt like crying... ms lee said i had to run 10 rounds for punishment. sigh... well we gave ms gan her present on the bus anyway, and she cried! she actually cried okay... felt like crying myself.. i think she was touched... hee..! =)

okay then we arrived. we were ushered into our seats... haha then we waited quite long. sm gan was in the colour party! haha, no wonder we had to go at like 1.30 while the service itself starts at 3pm. well anyway, saw jami in her white officer's unufirn! haha, quite funny... she looked cute though.. loved her click clock shoes... was kinda waiting for her to fall but nah, nt so mean. okay we waited and waited, and waited... sigh... saw my food com 1 group members! wahahaha hee! =)

FINALLY it started, and it was message after message. by then the girls were all feeling quite tired... julie aud and me were in one row, sun and sam behind us. raq was collecting ranks for the sergeants. (congrats by the way) aud julie and me were nearly falling asleep, but whatever did get into our heads, it was truly inspirational. =) well the long awaited moment arrived. promotion time! avril collected the corporal ranks, raq the sergeant ranks, and for the ssgt, it was individual collection. we were cheering for the sergeants like crazy, but they didn't seem too excited about our pbb or ssgt. it's okay though, cause i guess they were tired. long weekend after all. no congratulations and stuff but again, it's okay.. positive thinking! =) it would have been nice for a loud crazy cheering... but ah well, they do need their energy. haha, scarly i was deaf but hardly like it. anyway, after that was PBB brooch. the mam asked me why my hand was so cold and commented that our company had so many badges! haha hee.. so proud of the girls! =) it was so cold and nerve wreaking at that moment that i truly needed to pee so badly. haha. oh ya, and i was selected to present the guest-of-honour her token of appreciation, which was like a HUGE bouquet of flowers! haha and when i mean huge, i mean GIGANTIC! and the mam told me, where's your face, i can't see your smile... i was like heh sorry, the flowers are quite large... had a bit of trouble carrying them too.

okay i was quite happy then cause everyone was in quite a high hyper mood, BUT i kenw my face was like super super horrendously BLACK after the service. when the sec 3s went for ndp, and i saw pearlyn without her hair net, i was told with much CONVICTION by EVERY sec 3 ndp girl that "the other girls dont need to wear leh, it's OKAY, ms angeline didn't say anything. pearlyn has not been wearing it for quite some time so it's OKAY." and the careless thing i did was not to double check with ms gan, since i thought pris was handing it. and today? i saw peralyn wearing hair net, so innocently i asked her "why are you wearing one?" and she like gave me this innocent face too and said "can don't wear meh?" i should have said "YOU tell ME!" but i was so angry i faced the wall. was kind of punishing myself i guess cause everythign was rushign through my head, like discipline adn hwo i wasn't a good example to the juniors if i myself had to do pinishment later (run 10 rounds). thanks carmen and avril for making me feel better... i felt like a total failure and was angry at the whole world at that point of time... =)

oh then on the way home, had motion sickness... bleh... i never was good on buses.. sigh head was totally spinning... then ms gan wanted to pin the brooch on for us but erm, in my confusion i gave her the plastic instead... heh... she wanted to pin the palstic on me!!!

well all in all, a tiring but rewarding day yeah? have fun at the happy happy carnival girls! be happy! SMILE! it increases your face value.. hee

!!!

gosh i just dislike some people soooo much... goodness i'm like so mad now... ARGH! whatever did i do to make people so crazily mad at me?! forget it.. really not my problem... i don't care... i hope.. yes why other? first time i shall use this.. what the hell? i apologise right now for saying it.. but it makes me feel better looking it so i'm not gonna delete it... pissed man.. now all the words are coming out of my mouth shoot..

Lord, help me to forgive and forget.. preferbly forget first... if i'm in the wrong although i don't see how i can be, please show it to me so i know... Thank you Lord... In Jesus' name i pray.. Amen

devotions! haha

22nd August 2005

• Do not give up. Take things as an encouragement; a propelling force to spur you on
• Perservere and "jump out of the pit"
• No one promised a life that is easy, but when you come head on to a difficult situation, have the courage to carry on
• Never, never, never give up
• The winner has to try

25th August 2005

• We have to stop hiding behind our weaknesses and strive
• God has the power to change things

26th August

• You don't always have to take the credit
• You don't always have to shift the blame onto others

yup, that's what i've learnt for this week... haha =)

25th August

nothing much happened today leh... walked home with angel, had quite an interesting talk with her.. but yesterday was hectic! again, my friends had some misunderstandings... yet AGAIN... sigh... black faces AGAIN... tears AGAIN... goodness.. history kinda repeats itself but thank goodness everyone is back to normal today... yeah all these happened thanks to some finger poking fella... you're my successor (heh, GB would know what i mean)... try not to do that too often k? well anyway, we were all weird but it's over... =) ha promotion and dedication service is coming... don't really feel that UHHMMM feeling... that "faster-come-now-i'm-excited feeling"... weird... i feel so studious all of a sudden leh.. quite proud of myself cause i feel that i'm striving for my chinese.. but we'll see yeah? there's GB meeting tmr too... it's been changed to friday jsut for this week due to p and d service... we're gonna get our brooches! haha, felt i should at least announce that... heh...

talked to raq just now... our batch is going to have lunch on sat! haha that one i can't wait... but Sam and Aud! argh! those two arh... a bit scary... sigh... nothign much left to say leh.. it's as if i'm posting for the sake of posting.. i guess i betetr continue to pin my badges huh... sigh... ahve been re-pinning them since last sat.. just can't seem to get the right way to do it.. argh! i'm NEVER washing my harversash again.. nvm stinky.. it's okay.. at least i don't keep poking my fingers.. it's as if i'm pinning my fingers more than i'm pinning my badges lar...

oh yeah, pris if you read this... don't give up! you're a great person... just look to God and think positive... walk with God... and don't cry yeah? don't waste your tears... be strong and go on... i'm behind you all the way even though you can't see me.. so sorry i can't help you out now thanks to my o levels which i am beginning to be tired of, but nvm. spiritually i'm with you eyah? we'll see each other on sat and sun! wahahaha keeping you in my prayers always heh =)

ps: joyce! basia! happy birthday two days ago! =) sigh happy birthday jazzlyn yesterday! and happy birthday feline today! GOODNESS, hwo come so many august babies one... but nvm. they rock yeah? shi tou! hee

haha i'm back!

okay okay raq! haha goodness, yes finally i'm blogging again.. anyway today can you believe it? i got scolded by mr. chiang... for NOTHING... haha... during mornign devotion, i decided that it would be good to jot down notes and verses which are useful and good for reflection.. so i was happily doing doign doing.. but no one said anything.. later during pe.. mr. chaing came up to me and said i should be paying attention and should not be writing so vigorously during assembly.. wahhhhh.. oh well nvm.. hee oh ya, today pe was kinda of a flop too... like sigh.. i somehow doubt it's due to our short stature leh.. somehow.. the ball NEVER comes to us.. i repeat NEVER.... yes... angel, hui ping and me were like standing in the middle of NOWHERE, meaning EMPTY space.. like at the other end of the court, while everyone was congested at one side. yes, i really somehow don't think they cannot see us leh.. it seems to em they don't want to throw it to us? hmm.. nvm, i shall not be so negative. i shall put it down as kan cheong, then really cannot see... haha, maybe they believe that the "one-two, one-two" approach will help them score goals.. yeah i guess, but it leaves some of us out! NVM. =)

anyway, before pe was humanities.. sigh... mr. rashidi lost my literature notes! argh! yet he said he gave them back to me! cannot be leh, i'd have most definitely stuffed them into my lit file cause i'm this kind of kan cheong spider person.. yeah.. besides, angel who knows mroe about me than i know myself, said he didn't return anything to me! AND she sits right beside me! sigh, so for like an hour i had nothing to do lar. then the last hour.. haha.. kidna funny, mr. rashidi locked jonovan and jeremy inside the com lab! haha! i thought he locked people inside... angel said no, but when we looked back, we saw jeremy inside. was hilarious. haha, angel called after mr. rashidi but he ignored her and just continued walking on. haha i panicked and started using my hairband to try to get them out. haha then angel passed me her hair pin and we became the lock picking duo. anyway that should be about the end of my day.. can't remember anything much after that cause i was in a weird and feddupping mood...

ha! i haven't finished pinning on all my badges neatly yet! argh! and promotion and dedication service is fast approaching! YIKES! better get to work louie... no study first.. THEN start pinning til 4am again.. jsut make sure i don't drop my uniform into the toilet bowl again like the last time... sigh

ps: happy birthday ms gan! happy birthday to jeremy too!

ha!

happy birthday carol! haha hope you like your present.. though the colour combination is hmm.. not very you but nvm.

i just realised something.. i grew fat and TALL since june! never mind the fat but TALL! WOOHOO! you see, during the pbb camp in june, i could still wear my GB uniform.. but now arh.. my belt cannot even buckle, so i've gained weight! finally... and also FINAL FINALLY, i've GROWN. yes, my harsersash is too SHORT! haha, now i'm so happy to say the word short.. haha okay feeling a bit nonsense now.. effects of studying chinese... learn all the cheng yus until i think i'm gonna have nightmares

pbb

okay today we received the results that everyone received the pbb title thing. actually i was thinking that everyone would get it but ah well... nvm. should have betted. haha... anyway not the point. i feel that i OUGHT to be like SOOOOOOOOOOO excited... but i'm only excited which feels funny somehow. and i realised i used to have time to walk around the house practicing salutes and marching in my bedroom last year. but now, i ahve so little time to do that! the little time i have, if i don't talk to my parents who seem VERY the unresponsive nowadays (communication is important okay!), i'll blog and read raq's blog, and whosever's for that matter. it makes me feel good in a way cause i know that i'm studying harder than i've ever did before, but i feel so tired. now when i get home from school i feel like a stone fish. in the night i'm a kan cheong spider, but by 9 plus, i feel so dead... so pooked!

oh and i made a decision just now. i have decided to write nicer english posts in order to improve my english. since i have so little time, i use my blogging time to practice english! haha... erm but that's starting from tmr okay? not today... sigh just finished 2 math papers and 1 physics paper... i feel like a pufferfish... weird.. i msut be getting fishy... oh well, i'm also ain't too sure what i'm talking about now... haha..

PS. Juli! where's our blog arh? i've been typing all sorts of urls just to find it but it's not working... haha

carol, happy birthday tmr! will pass you your present tmr... =)

story

One night a man had dream. He dreamt that he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him so he asked the Lord about it.

"Lord, you said that once i decide to follow You, You would walk with me throughout the way. However, i have noticed that during the most troubled times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I do not understand why You would leave me all alone then. "

The Lord the replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you. " =)

that's really sweet eh? it's true you know.. He will never leave nor forsake you.. there's a verse somewhere about it right? gotta find it... =)

haha

something weird happened today. was kinda funny actually now thinking back about it... i went to seek help for chinese from mdm li dong mei... then arh, she told me that actually she taught that i was pretending about my asttocious chinese during GB. like whenever she talks in chinese i would siam or speak some funny chinese back to her. she taught i was playing! probably playing a fool. very funny arh. why woudl i bluff and pretend my chinese is poor? if it really is good, i'd be proudly prouting it by now. haha kinda funny. no wonder she was more patient with me today. now she finally knows the truth about louie's chinese. i feel a bit uncomfortable in school actually. teachers' eyes roll round and round in their head...some of their mouths turn downward and their lips curl cruelly... and they seem to taunt me about chinese. they shake their heads in disgust and mutter about teenagers these days losing their roots! (okay fine, i'm exaggerating... suddenly felt like doing a paragraph on descriptive essay. haha... but the eyeball part is true) most teachers smile sympathetically though. but i don't want that. i don't want anything. i just want HELP. and no chinese teacher seems to have the time! nvm, louie will do what she can, and God will take care of the rest! =) okay shall stop about chinese.

on to pbb! haha, finally i decided to heck with everything. just ask ms gan about pbb! so i smsed ms gan and she argh! goodness.. like so cute like that... told me "soon you will find out". i was like hopping all over my room. i actually kinda asked on behalf of aud... she seems dying to know. haha i admit i'd lvoe to know too... but i wasn't really willing to "waste" my sms.. but nvm. oh then i called audrey on her hp about it. but she seemed so angry goodness. i can only hope that she sounded angry because she was sleepy, or she was studying. she even hung up on me before i could finish talking. very cool. sigh... sometimes audrey does things like which kinda makes me feel uncomfortable. nvm. aud's still my aud. =) anyway, pbb letter is coming in either tmr or thurs.. hee! shall wait for it... i don't feel kan cheong though... funny... now maybe all the waiting has caused the anxious effect to be lost.. oh well.. tmr i'll be excited i guess... haha

sigh...

you know? i was actually beginning to get used to my chinese.. cause i know i can do better the next time. no way is louie from nui ren brigade ( i've GOT TO learn the chinese word for it) giving up! no way san hosea!

anyway as i was saying.. i WAS quite okay with it.. but maybe nearly the WHOLE school is hmm... showing a bit TOO much concern? like you know, i don't mind the people i know, knowing about my chinese... but i kinda feel funny about EVERYONE knowing about my chinese.. yeah.. i feel kinda funny. maybe i'm paranoid or something but it looks as if everyone is talking to em as if i'm going to become a fountain any time, or that i'll jsut break and melt away. very funny people! sorry, no show for today. show's over. i don't care. i'm just gonna do my best and glorify Him. ha! maybe another day yeah? same time same place... oh goodness i'm begining to become crappy again... sigh...

no actually i'm kidding myself. if people would start remidning me about chinese, i'll stop becoming paranoid, and i'll be fine! =) when i'm learning chinese or if there are chinese lessons, i'll jsut concentrate and do well. jsut don't remind me of chinese when i'm happy please! it'll crumble that fragile wall of security around me! okay let's not talk about it anymore. i have confidence... but not THAT much yet yeah? =)

oh ya, avril gave a letter today encouraging me about my chinese. that was so sweet lar... godnes felt like crying. haha... i just feel so touched when juniors come up to me with a small word or two you know? i don't know... it just feels like hey! the love is going both ways! we're a family! the old ones care for the younger ones, the young ones encourage the old ones! ha... actually truthfully, i feel funny sometimes when i think about it. when i was free last year, i wrote mass letters last year to like almsot the whole coy lar... but i realised... it's kinda not reciprocated.. haha there's such a word right? my mind isn't thinking properly.. in fact, i don't qutie understand what i'm saying right now.. thoughts are too jumbled up. oh well... i shall end up with the same thing.. study hard people! you can get only so many chances! do it right the first time and be a testimony to others! =) God bless ya

hmm

i've realised i'm not as strong as i hoped to be. i'm having my break from physics papers now. after i did them i was quite pleased because i feel i can pass my physics but then i realised i may not score. from there i thought about my chinese and the fact that i failed my oral too. so now i'm wondering, where do i go from here? i hate it when funny negative thoughts come into my mind. makes me feel as if the devil is pulling me away from God and i'm letting it happen. i don't know how to stop it. maybe i do, but in the night, in the dark, it's like more lonely, there's no more light, it feels.. scarier somehow... and images play on your mind. for my case, horrible thoughts. i've torn up one packet of tissue paper. i'm so angry... but then i stopped being angry, and i started crying, which made me all the more angry. oh how i hate crying. makes me feel so lost. oilam gave me some chinese books. made me cry more. i feel like a fountain. yuck. i'm afraid i won't have the motivation to strive hard for the second one. hate it hate it! no hate is too strong a word. i find myself getting more... ji dong. i didn't use such words before. now it scares me. the more i get scared, the more panicky i become, the more i become ms watery, the more i get more fed up. it's a cycle. can't stand cycles. hmmm...

i'm going to youth service tmr with juli... hope raq is going too... maybe i'll pray then... i guess what i'm afraid of most is losing that faith

chinese o level

okay that's it! this has been a wonderful wake up call. i'm quite thankful about it too. decided to be positive about it. it's God's test for me. i am going to get at least a c6 for my second chance at chinese.. if not, c5... i CAN and WILL get it. i am determined to. today s few of us flooded the toilet. couldn't stop the darn tears coming.. hate crying at school. felt as weird as i did when the gb girls cried in school once. NVM. cry once over. chinese here i come! i'll take you on!

do not fear, for I am with you
do not be dismayed for I am your God
I will strengthen you
I will help you
I will uphold you with My victorious right hand
Isaiah 41:10

after carmen returned my bible to me today, i started turning to the bible and reflecting on all i've done for chinese. decided i can do better. yes, i am not just ms english. i am ms singapore (bilingual). haha nah, starting to talk a bit of nonsense here. oh well nvm. gonna study now. see ya! =)

ps bhavna! =) we have big plans for mt yeah? let's hit the road! yenny! hmm not quite sure what happened but nvm, if it's the exact same thing what we've been through, then keep your fighting spirit up and get through this! =)

thinkers

you know.. i got so tired of seeing the same post in hoi shek's blog for goodness how many umpteen years... so i asked him to update it today since he's so free and basically decomposing at his com... and he goodness did what.. started thinking for hours on end, took centuries to type.. so exasperating... sigh... i realised when people are bored.. they like to think. think about life, it's meaning, governments.. national day... studies.. blah blah blah... but he a bit out of the box leh... TOO out fo the box.. out of the universe liao.. but nvm.. continue to update k? have fun! =)

national celebrations in school!

haha, today was one hella crazy day! a dirty and well, stinky one too... basically on the night of 7th august, i was feeling weird and soft. so decided to write letters to my frends! haha,a fter all i've been oweing them their replies for like erm.. months? terms? haha... i tried to be creative and attmepted to fold the notes into stuff like angels (angel), flower (kim), bird (amelia). but of course everything had to backfire and they all pretty much look like ordinary triangles. kim's one turned out to be a slanted box. oh well. i tried.

okay anyway, school was lunatically insane! i did turn out in my nat camp shirt. haha, met eileen on the way in and she passed me a present. so sweet! gave her a giant hug. did i mentiona she's pretty small? hey i am too. okay i get it. oh and before i could think, audrey and sam came running over and started doing something funny. for one moment i thought they were going to strip me. they made me a birthday tee! haha.. actualyl it was for sam's birthday but don't know what happened.. haha.. it was really great! but erm, a bit hot arh. thanks aud, sam, raq, sun and juli!

oh, then after that, angel and amelia were weird. they kept asking me "to go with kim and valda.. there there there!!! " so right... okay hmm.. THEN I SAW FOOD! haha cake! haha, blueberry.. too bad wasn't green berry or green bean.. haha but thanks guys! really nice! ahhh, then they just HAD to sing a birthday song.. they just HAD to.. but nvm.. it was this angel.. this ANGEL.. who had this amazingly bright idea to smash a plate of whip cream on my face... yes fantastic. emily was kind and gave me some on my hand first. but i didn't what they were trying to do. i thought maybe i was to eat cake with teh whip cream on my hand? before i could another thought, i found whip cream and foan on my back, hair, face, inside my shirt, on my skirt.. EVERYWHERE! yes thank you.. somehow it didn't quite fit a facial of any kind. so i went to the bathroom with angel to wash my face, but even the shower was against me. the minute i switched it on, the whole shower WHOOSH, and i was bathing! flooded the whole toilet. then had to go to the general office to borrow a skirt. hai ya so mah fan. (oh psst, i managed to get some ship cream on angel and kim/emily too. mostly on angel. hee) amelia was slightly sick... poo thing... hey if youré reading this now.. are you feeling betetr? hee =) Fop was great eh? next year let's go.. and please brush up on your directions. haha, okay i shall too.

well all in all, angel and me both stunk of hmm.. vomit? yeah.. so we couldn't stand it and kept hoping the hall programme would finish fast. after that we cheong home already. hee thanks everyone! ( kim, emi, val, jia min, professor crazy -maggie, lian, angel and amelia! haha weirdest birthday i've ever had but the most fun. 16 is old huh ) have fun everyone! =)

thoughts for today...

morning devotion on 5th august 2005

destress
depressed
definat

these 3 are the attacks from the enemy

it is tiring to hate. today's generation are leaders of tomorrow and they will not be exiled.

okay, anyway, today was spring cleaning day. and a touching day. haha, i was clearing my room and goodness you won't believe how many lost items i found! under the bed lar, behind my cupboard, between the walls and drawers... etc. i even found erm, some food, but well... so i sweeped, moped, and vacummed my WHOLE room! you can't believe how tiring it was. well anyway, found a lot of notes as well. thsoe small small notes from gb girls, friends, neighbours... the whole wide world! well let me go down the list

every GB girl wrote the sec 4s a small note for our farewell thing... super super touching! i was reading every one and couldn't stop sniffing. they're my family! =) esther squad - they've the best group anyone can have! thank you foe encouraging me throughout all those squad duties and stuff. haha, we did good. we learned yeah? pris and debbie! you're now the leaders of the squad.. hope i've taught you guys something! i believe in you guys! the dear sec 2s and 1s... support the sec 3s yeah?

publicity committee - noticeboard and photo boards and newsletters are your babies. take good care of them!

34th!!!!!!!!!!!!! you rock shi tou! =) da da de shi tou! hee

girls! as in erm, amelia, angel, emily, jia min, kim, maggie, wei lian and valda! without you people, my life would be well... hmmm... clumsy and miserable. okay this is too mushy but anyway love you guys! =)

neighbours! hmmm... well love your neighbour as you love yourself eh? and guess what, i love myself very much so go figure... =) shouldn't be so tough

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm in a happy mood! God has truly blessed with with a loving family, great friends, wonderful seniors and juniors, and caring teachers plus officers! love my world. so louie has now decided, i'll give back to God what he had blessed me with. i shall study hard for His glory. whatever turns out in the end, it's the best i have done, so i just pray i'll continue to be motivated and hopefully, be a testimony to others... everyone out there! God loves you! haha

i'm just gushing out here lar... but anyway yup! happy national day! oh ya, i don't have any red shirt.. sigh.. guess i have to wear my national camp shirt! sigh haha

FOP!!

Fop was greaat! haha, well basically everything was a big mad rush at first. after school. rushed through lunch and ran upstairs to class for english oral practice. oral was nonsense, pure nonsense. it was about national day, and i was just sprouting thigns that had absolutely nothing to do with national day. and then on to the conversation. i couldn't even register the topic, or what mdm norhani was talking about. bah. oral phobia. and my oral's like on thursday lar! sigh... okay anyway, mdn norhani gave up on me and told me to do it another day... so i flew down the stairs, ran for the silly 293 bus which seemed to accelerate faster the more i ran, anyhow cooked my maggie, then satrted calling ans sms-ing the whole world to tell them meeting time and palce. crazy... elisa, sam, aud, shawn, and juli... silly juli.. haha... nearly went crazy with her... she was changing and i was bathing... both of us were on the phone.. haha... in the end we gave up, decided to just hang up the phone and call each other back later. haha, ah well, our original plan didn't quite work out and we realised we were running late, so our impromptu back up plan was to take a cab down to the kallang mrt staion.

FINALLY, juli and i are on our way. in between we started squabbling. haha, juli told the driver to go to kallang stadium. -_- i started yelling that it was kallang MRT station. so okay. we WERE on our way there, when don't knwo what happened, we were on our way to the INDOOR stadium. sam called me and jacintha walled juli at the same time, so everything was in a mess. in the end, we just headed straight to kallang mrt staion. and then what happened? when we reached there, we realised raq, rebecca and carol were not there yet. BUT jami rushed us into a cab to go to indoor stadium. juli adn i were like bah bah bah the whole way, we should ahve gone striaght to indoor stadium. haha so funny. juli was like scolding me the whole way haha. but then in the cab, we forgot all about it when sam started on ricky. she arh, quite funny... poor him. haha oh well. but she was like a pro.

ah, then we went to the east gate. hears ricky, abel, emlia and gang were all at north gate! bah but nvm. haha... we were so totally squashed at the stadium lar. all sat on the floor. only juli had well, erm, a bit of a problem lar eh? haha. so well, we split up and half of us stayed to queue, while the otehr half went to buy lac. (dinner). but they were stuck below and couldn't come up! haha, raq so funny, she sneaked up, like a fugitive like that. following was rebecca! haha, all so cute. well finally, 34th reunited! =)

okay then in the stadium, amelia and i were like trying to find each other, but we were both blind. i stood up and waved like a lunatic yet it didn't quite help. sigh... 2 blind mice named amelia and loisa... tried to look for ricky too but bah, everyone looked the same in the there... oh ya, then ms gan and me lee arrived. haha, my whole batch kinda tried to look at her, trying to hint for our pbb results, bit in the end it didn't work. haha...

okay i'm kinda tired of typing but basically it was at. God's presense was truly there and it was the first time i spoke in tongues! MY FIRST TIME! i was practically screaming in sam's ear. then that juli kept wanting to jump until i was so tired... haha... we walked a long long long way out of the indoor stadium okay. we met charmaine, ee ling and thiam along the way. then we went home. sigh, by the time i arrived home, it was like 12.30am... haha felt so hungry.. sigh... jsut heard that raq went for the fop today again.. sigh.. power seh she! haha ohw ell i'll end off here.. quite tired.. i think i'll scream if this post doesn't go through...

3rd august 2005

okay today i loved raq so much... she wrote me this letter thing ahhh so sweet! haha, couldn't help giving her a giant hug.. and a group hug from sam aud and me! haha, you see i was feeling a bit down today as i failed my enlgish compre... it's never nice to fail anything right? but it's okay.. i can always do better the next time. oh ya, then jolene saw my note and i came to a sudden realisation... notes are something special... a little something from well.. raq to me! all for me! gosh i was so touched lar... thank you raquel! =) and i heard her talking about devotion adn recreation.. wah so busy like that... haha, we both agreed not to touch anythign and concentrate on our studies for His glory... hee

okay then in school, i had this ntoe passing session thing with angel and a few others. we went crazy.. drawing pictures and stapling everything in sight... and i don't care what you say angel, my cow does NOT look like a submarine. so there! and you amos! fop is on thurs fri and sat! haha, elisa told me so. i was actually going to laugh at him and told him he cna go by himself when he told me he's going on sunday... but in the end the tables turned and he told me this time, I could go by myself on thursday... fed up

ah yes, and i walked home with jemima today! haha.. she was so eager beaver when she told me she lost 3 kg.. haha, so cute. you should hear the way she weighed herslf. her motto - "everything take out so i would be lighter! off with the shoes, wallet and watch? socks? that too mr. sham!" haha.. was laughing so much... okay yes yes jemima, we'll go jogging soon. with bhavna too! what are jogging partners for? haha

well see you all around! will pray for all of you and the exams k? God bless! =)

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO HUI! =)

sigh

you know, after talking to raq about how we feel kinda weird with the sec 1s, and how it's cometimes hard to talk to them... i suddenly realised it about the sec 3s too...! like after not being in GB meeting and no more poking and no mroe LITERALLY PHYSICALLY working with them... it's like suddenly ties are cut off. i don't know.. maybe it's my mind haha.. the effects of studying... study too much.. brainwashed... nutty nutty fruity nutty! i must have also ate too many fruit bars... i love them okay.. kinda sweet but filling also. convenient to bring around.. it's so small lor. only problem is that it's kinda crumbly... so all the crumbs always drop everywhere... and i mean EVERYWHERE.

i'm beginning to feel funny again... well don't think too much. think about fop! quite excited.. fop's coming soon. i know for sure juli, raq and sam are going. sze ern too! perhaps zhi yin! haha, i'll ask jolene tmr when i meet her for lit. i'm teaching her lit! cool huh? maybe it'll help to improve my lit too.. then maybe if i train her hard enough, she can do o level style of lit for her sec 1 work! haha, nah that's a dream.. cannot push too far lar...

i KNOW i have something important to share... but i just can't seem to remember it. and that worries me more. if i cannot remember a simple thing like that, how am i supposed to review notes for all my subjects in school? how how HOW???!!! okay no panicking.. trust in the Lord your God with all your might, all your soul and all your mind. is there a "with all your strength" some where? or am i getting the verse mixed up with "my life, (LIFE!), is in You Lord my strength, (STRENGTH!), is in You Lord my hope, (HOPE!), is in You Lord in You, it's in You, IT'S IN YOU! =) hee love this song... =)