i just figured out my life!

as the title shows, i've made a fascinating discovery on my character! i was eating tim yam noodle and was practically dying of thirst and spiciness when i had a brainwave! or a spicy wave... well now i understand myself! the reason why i poke my little fingers into the many chicken puffs or curry pies around me is that i like to solve problems and be done with them! there's the satisfaction that you have helped out in doing away with annoying thorns that stand in one's way! that's why i go around with my nose in other's busines.. it's not exactly to the entent of k p o... but more to the border of over doing it... if that makes sense.. am i making sense at all? i hope so, cause it was so clear to me during my noodle eating.. it's nice to help.. but maybe i'm helping too much? spoonfeeding? and while i was in the loo and reading today's newspapers.. i had another thought. i may not only be spoon feeding them, but i may be annoying them too? perhaps they'd like to do it themselves, but i'm not giving them the chance? life's questions eh? sounds so psychological.. hmm.. psychological warfare perhaps...

oh and this branched out when i thought about discipline (GB) and games day (council). hah! there's this rule that the girls'are not allowed to wear the gb uniform in shopping malls and etc, but i ain't too clear on the reason. and i was only reminded of this when i saw the sec 3s' ndp meow meow print whatever thing. so you see, i'm sticking my figners into their pie again? oh goodness when will i ever learn? i can't even differentiate between sticking and helping.. sigh.. and for games day, i was trying to think of a suitable nice date for the councillors to hold their games day.. but then again i realised.. i was never really in the council family.. it's was weird enough that suddenly i did this bonding games day thing.. and besides, i've stepped down. the thing has been handed over to shawn, or bundit, or the exco, or whoever. so basically, i'm out of council... if i was ever in anyway.. i feel weird about council sometimes you know.. like yeah, i'm wearing the tie and balck shoes.. but everyone's somehow out... not like a big family similar to GB.. i feel comfortable with ANYONE in GB... but not in council.. it's just... weird! hmm.. nvm.. i shall think about it and perhaps eat another cup of maggie noodles.. maybe then i shall find my answer... hee =) i'm thinking too much really.. i should be studying.. i've done my revision for today so i guess i'll go to my wonderful la-la land now.. night everyone! =)

cell group dinner

wow i had such a nice dinner today! haha so happy... nice nice food! haha.. today daddy left for seoul so dinner was just mummy and me.. well anyway, cell group's on tuesdays, but it's just for the adults, and mummy was invited to the newest member's house for dinner.. leaving me all alone! haha, but it's okay.. mummy was nice, she brought me along. actually all the children went along.. except that moo fella... we're both pretty much the oldest there.. then that shaun pang seh me lar... very smart... in the end.. i babysat all the kids there and brought all of them home. and guess what, the second oldest kid there who's pri. 4.. she's 153cm.. goodness.. she was bigger than me and it looked as if SHE was walking ME home.. ah well.. i played babysiiter today and went from block to block ensuring all of them went home... but nvm.. the dinner was good. it was some curry fish head thing and steamboat! haha, ate so much crabmeat i'm feeling a bit crabby now.. sigh... so satisfied.. but i can bet you i'll be hungry later.. hee can't wait to eat! hee =)

oh ya i nearly forgot... i got a new stationary box and two magnets which are totally not magnetic at all lar... today was... interestingly sleepily fascinating... we were having assembly.. i was erm falling asleep.. at the LAST part only.. i emphasise, at the LAST part, meaning i was good for the first half. well anyway, i woke up when they were announcing the nkf thing... haha, angel represented our class! hahahahaha... was like laughing so happily cause she was so blur... she was sleeping too.. (at least i woke up faster than her hee) yup, and she went up to collect her prize... lalala... then there was the overall nkf champion thing... mrs leong announced that the fella was from 4 a... i thought it was angel! i was like poking faces at angel and gearing everyone up to clap and cheer and embarrass her or something.. in the end it was louie! thanks to GB and council camp.. took all the pictures and used them for the nkf thing... (ndp, christmas charity item, council camp, my pet bird ditto) hee.. not abd eh? as i said above, i won a purple stationary box (not green!) and 2 magnetic motivational stuff that cannot magnet anything lar, so in the end, i used scotch tape and banged them onto my wall. yup.. nice! =)

ps. thanks angel for the rabbit stickers! super sweet.. though they're pink... i always thought sticker rabbits are either white or browm! not pink! haha... but thanks.. oh yah, there's the frog sticker too! haha.. thank you! =) love them!

picture!

jami and me!

i have no idea when this was taken but ah well.. haha.. she said it was in school... i seriously cannot remember... hmmmm ah nvm.. haha nice! =)

poems

elisa actually sent me this poem a while back... but anyway, here it is! =)

its all a mess
without a doubt
compression, squashed up
brain juice squeezed
just want to release everything
fast furious
harsh words
meaningless at times
frustration
admiration
jealousy....probably
what to do, when to do it
advice, time spent waiting
wanting it
blue, black, yellow, purple
all but red
peace admist is hard
solace in trouble
love in hatred
light in darkness
silence

haha, now this is the one i came up during lesson time.. erm, during math... haha

once a fellow met a fellow in a field of beans
said a fellow to a fellow
if a fellow asks a fellow
can a fellow tell a fellow
what a fellow means?

why field of beans? well hey don't blame me. i was trying to find something which rhymes with means... anyway beans makes one sounds kinda dense right? after all if a fellow can use the word "fellow", that fellow shoudl know what a "fellow" means right? uh it's just a poem anyway... the things a math lesson can inspire to do.. haha.. we were going through statistics and cumalative curves btw.. haha... i was getting sick of the curve ruler as it wasn't curving my way. the only way i could control it was if i held one end down with my foot and the other with my left hand, the middle with my chin, THEN i could use my right hand to draw the curve... contortionist eh?

founders' day

wheeew! today was founder's day! haha we were all released at 10.15 am so we could go home and rest. since we did not have recess, i was as usual very hungry so i had to eat lunch, or breakfast, or just anything! when i got home, found mummy still sleeping so i went to cook instead. hee, made somethign really cheapo and easy. cambel soup! with beaked beans amd bread! haha... it's enough for mummy cause she doesn't eat much since her operation, but i knew i'd still be hungry... especially since i have to be in school again at 3.45 and we would not get to eat dinner til after the parade! therefore when sam called me, i decided to make maggie noodles to eat, to last me through the parade. haha... oh ya, regarding the parade, i was actually not in it, then i become the reserve, then the rerserve of the reserve, and now judith's boots were stolen, so i went into the parade. pretty cool huh, how my role changed within 3 days.

ah yes anyway, when i went to school, i found the girls in the d and t washroom. they were all changing already okay! i panicked and went to work. then this jami sprayed sam's and my hair.. supposed to be 6 inches away she prayed right to out scalp lar. (no wonder later our hair had turned to ice and couldn't move even a bit -_-) okay anyway after that, it seemed we had miscalculated all our time so we were behind every other uniform group. we rushed like siao okay! no time to do discipline and stuff, we had to go and fall in at the front gate liao. goodness kia nang leh. we were all like dehydrated there. kept drinking and drinking and drinking... haha.. bottle after bottle, we sucked it all out... hee

okay well now on tp the parade itself. when we went in, gosh it was super nice lar! woohoo! felt so united so nice! =) but erm hmm.. when we pandan that time.. erm not quite sure what happened lar arh, but after that all our arms all sala... but nvm! the point is to learn and be betetr next time eyah? the sec 1s were good liao, to be able to learn so fast! good job too sarah for the erm.. timing though in the end we didn't hear anything but nvm yeah? and SAM! you're the best man! aud too! thanks for training the contingent and all yes? there was lots of frustrations and erm, weird miscommunications too but that's where we can do better and learn from mistakes! hee... not bad not bad.. can't wait for the next one! for now, let's study til we drop! hee.. but aud, slow down a bit k? too much ain't too good for you too! =)

okay then raq sam and me went for dinner. raq brought us to this fish and chips place to eat. not bad! haha, very nice! thanks raq! oh ya, then we had to rush back to school as we suddenly remember about discipline. we ate a little in school too.. haha, free buffet! =D yup, then sam and i had to leave, so we walked out (wanted to collect donations but teachers seemed so busy so heh, nvm), but mr kwok caught us! haha so funny, he was quite insistent! haha, he told us thee's a lot of food so please eat. he ESCORTED us to the buffet table lar.. haha quite funny, he was like watching us to make sure we ate. haha, but int h end, sam and i escaped when something else caught his eye. Outside school, i remember that sam and raq had won the gb award thing.. cool eh? so i started congratulating sam on it... then alamak! remembered that i ahd not congratulated raq yet! so again, sam and i walked back into school. haha, luckily we met raq walking out so i congratulated her and we all went our separate ways. sigh.. a truly satisfying day.

HOWEVER, today i woke up with a backache, headache, arm ache, leg ache, ai yar everything ache lar. i guess i deserve it as i haven't had pe and have not been exercising. first day of pe had GB day, the next week was sec 3 camp so pe teachers were not around. next monday arh, it's my check up alr, i think i will not be exercicing for one whole month lar arh. oh well. GB girls! please rest k? don't want all of you to be walking like some fragile ah ma in school.. hee..

Thank you Lord for making founder's day a success and for giving us great weather. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen! =)

20th july 2005

i'm seriously running out of titles. usually one would write about his or her day right? so what kind of title can there be other than "today" ? that would be kind of boring right? either that or i have no imagination so i'll just stick to the stuffy method of writing dates instead. anyway today was a weird day.... graceful here graceful there... during recess my silly fish floss thing kept flying everywhere.. amelia never laughed so much in her entire life put together i believe. (psst! first time i've actually heard SOUND from her laughter okay!) anyway, i'm getting quite tired of angel and amos. these two arh, can just kill everyone around them lar. the way they argue and scold and debate arh, makes no sense lar. i say one word, or rather OPEN my mouth to comment on something they shoot like an essay of paragraphs lar. in the end i'm so tired it's like just forget it. they argue until makes no sense, then they say they win. okay, whatever they say, if it makes them happy. haha

well angel and i stayed back today with the prospect of actually "asking mr yap physics questions" in mind, but anyway mroe of that later. the point is, i've been talking to my GB juniors quite a bit, and i've had founder's day and stuff, so angel's pretty mad at me for not spending time with her. so she devised this revengeful plan during lunch. we bought this fries thing from the canteen, i put a LITTLE bit of chilli in mind, but i couldn't tahan the spicey-ness, so i went to the water cooler in the hope of cooling myself down. goodness knows what happened, i came back and saw my fries practically drowning in chilli can, like chilli-ed tsunami... i nearly died finishing those fries lar! and that angel happily sat there laughing and drinking water herself! no alr, she gave me some also lar, but she was gleeful. that i am sure of. word of advice... NEVEr, and i mean NEVER agitate angel. the consequences are disastrious. believe me.

ah eys, so we FINALLY landed up outside the HOD WAITING for mr yap from like 2.32 to like 3 can. we found him in the meeting room, and mr philip advised us to show our faces at the window, then maybe he'll remember about poor us waiting for him. SO, we did! we plastered out faces to the window, and flapped our arms like some lunatic chicken in distress, but they totally couldn't see us can. i mean we're not that short bah fed up

okay so we landed up at the library.. as usual.. that's pretty much our sanctuary.. so anyway, we had a good talk outside the HOD room and we continued in the library... cool eh? but anyway, ask me no questions and i tell you no lies... see ya! =)

racial harmony day and chinese listening comprehension

you know i actually typed out one VERY nice, long ad detailed post about today.. every event, every discussion and blah blah... but erm, i think i was doign too many things at the same time on the comptuer so it hung, and i couldn't recover my dear post. well i shall do like a 160 word summary here...

Racial harmony Day - an exciting day, a colourful day... very cool. there were kimonos, adn quasrul had this funny southy arabian thing... plus a fake beard! well a shrub of it alr.. but it was funny all the same... very cute. suanned amos quite a lot during a maths, and then i walked angel off to erm, the second storey to say bye! then i went off for my GCE O level listening compre

Listening - scary! totally scary... but sam made me laugh, she made me feel all better. amos was on my right ( what did i do to deserve that? it's traumatic sitting within one 5 metres of him.. hee, it's nice teasing him), and jean was on my left! so sam told me that if i wanted to copy answers, i MUST turn to jean instead of amos as he'd get all the wrong answers. haha, how true isn't it? =) well i prayed before the listening and after again... but before the listening started, this orchestra thing was playing some symphonies.. almost feel asleep.. haha... but anyway it's over yeah.. thank goodness

ps: pearlyn jia you! don't quit before you have even started!

bah bah black sheep

argh argh i feel so annoyed nowdays! what's wrong? or do i expect too much... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... cannot tahan... maybe i'm too picky... or fussy.. the problem is i don't even know if it's me, or that i have a right to feel super annoyed and piqued. i better drink water.. water is good.. it calms people down

do you like sometimes feel as if you're doing everything and no one is doing anything? you keep reminding and people keep forgetting.. and the problem is your job is not to remind BUT you just can't help yourself but remind just to get the job done faster, and because the actual reminder is not reminding, but forgetting too! does that make sense?

now i'm talking to carol.. and it's kinda sad... she's having the same experience as me.. first time i feel so connected to her.. like she's the second bigger version of louie... fed up! this cannot be right.. it's so not louie... maybe i'm not louie anymore.. i'm loisa now... sigh.. what am i saying??

anyway, just spoke to ms gan. shes's what sunshine would calls tower of strength. very calming... haha... gotta meet yvonne soon to collect discipline books... sam... hai ya.. sad right? nvm. like what raquel says.. pray... and He will make all things right in His own time

GB DAY!

you know.. i was kinda dreading this day.. it was exciting at first cause for this year, our whole batch was together and doing you know.. SOMETHING.. like flags.. commanding... contingent commanding.. it's like so cool! but i'ts scary too... i thought audrey would be standing with me.. goodness i almost died when i realised it's like i'm one man show.. thank goodness the contingent was supporting me. i so lvoe them can! thank you sarah too! she kept consoling me before i fall-ded in.. sigh.. love her so much. was a bit stressed up at first... cause i woke up kidna late.. so sleepy lor.. i thought i was late for the GB thing! scareded me.. in the end.. i was one of the earlier ones... -_-

anyway, we were so behind time. was panicking a bit. was quite frustrated too cause sigh.. everything was so messy. i like suddenly had mind block, and i couldn't remember what to brief the girls. thank goodness for audrey sam juli and raq! they reminded me and calmly told the girls to follow instructions. audrey was a bit scary though. felt a bit intimidated cuase when i made a blunder, she'd be like NO! uniform imspection FIRST! wah, aud and her loud voice.. embarrass me in front of contingent. felt quite bad. but it is kind of her way and she was trying to help i guess.. but sometimes it just makes me feel worse, cause the contingent kinda knows i don't know something in a way. nvm. i still love my adurey. oh ya, then a few people were sick, and there were also some who turned up for school but did not wear uniform. THEN THERE WAS THE GIRLS' HAIR! goodness i can vomit blood. i don't know what happened to the girls lar arh, but i just find it so weird. like they don't have that sense of urgency, i mean such a simple thing as hair.. just get the HAIR INTO THE CAP! then they like so mah fan... but still trying to be nice... and during the national anthemn, while i was saluting.. my legs were trembling like nobody's business... couldn't stop them, was so nervous... then after keluar baris, i know the contingent has been standing still for quite some time, but they're like, after that their posture.. they just slouched like some chicken in FRONT of the WHOLE school... but i forgot to brief them on that part.. so maybe that's why i'm so angry. i'm not angry at them, i'm angry at myself. i don't know... my squad kinda disappoints me, i don't even know if its good writing it here. but i've got no where else to write so i'm just going to continue.

like after the sec 4s have stepped down.. my squad is dying. it's can be heartbreaking. i have absolute faith in esther's sec 3s, but well, somehow, they don't seem to be showing good example. like they're wonderful people, but things like uniform, punctuality... argh! i don't know.. i'm jsut so sad.. it's as if, everything has gone down the drain. raquel say something to make me feel better. going to cry soon. forget it. pray tonight. i am off to tear tissue paper. my thoughts are so jumbled up i don't even know if whoever is reading this understand what i'm trying to say. but don't take it the wrong way... i love everyone in GB, love the company, love the work. i just don't know what to do with everyone!

ps: good thing no one fainted! =)

breakfast

hmm let's see.. i woke up at 8am today, or rather 7.30. but i switched off the alarm and went right back to sleep then woke up at 8. today was breakfast day! haha. mdm norhani was treating LAST YEAR'S debate teams to breakfast at swensons! haha. there was karthi, qashrul, amos, timothy, keefe, kim and me. i think thiam's supposed to be inside but opps, we forgot him. ate some toast thing. kinda dry but tried to quickly finish it up. mdn norhani asked if we knew the other word for sunny side up. we had bulls-eye, sunny side down, rainy front down... but it sounded all wrong. then we asked karthi what is was in tamil.. he didn't know! chinese? hmm... tai yang bian shang? or yang guang pang bian shang? oh well

anyway just talked to bhavna. amos and hwee koon did not record the speeches! she said maybe they had too much fun.. i think she really wanted to hear bundit's speech. nvm, the memories of the juniors will always be in our hearts. that's enough! =) cheer up bhavna! at least we got to watch tv that night!

messy day

feel so messy now.. in the end, i didn't go for the council farewell party, don't ask me why, just feel weird i guess. i'm at home, and like sms-ing so many people at the same time. kim,bhavna, angel and amelia. and i was talking on the phone with sam and jami. wah i feel like a telemarketer. maybe i should become one instead of some bartendar or prison warden. i don't really seem to know what i'm doing nowadays. i do things yes, but i'm not conscious of what i'm doing.. as if i'm in a dream or some auto world. oh well

today. ( i've run out of titles)

let's see.. what happened today? i honestly don't remember. let's jump to recess. i met juli in the canteen. she looked so sad. i hope she's not feeling depressed over the attendance thing. i just sent her an sms... see if it encourgaes her. some verse thing. anyway, after that, i hung out with my usual group of friends.. blah blah.. laugh laugh.. as usual... form of de-stressing... jia min was crazy today. she laughed until she cried.. thanks to angel who kept ridiculously imitating her laughter... (wait til she sees carol and her fanning action) yup, went back to class late.. it was chinese.. but somehow the whole world was still hanging around the corridor so heh our teacher was late... so lalala, we just sneaked in. well, after that, audrey told me about some founder's day thing, so last minute i couldn't attend. bah. sad. nvm.

when i came home, ms gan sms-ed me about GB day! haha, aud's the parade commander, sam and juli are the flag people, raq's the ndp flag fella, sun's in the contingent, and i'm the contingent commander! lalala, i just love my batch. best batch in the whole world! haha, okay so i'm biased. well basically that's how loisa's life goes... school, GB, home.. no more rabbits... =( oh BUT, my aunt came abck from australia! or rather she came back to singapore to visit! haha, i was kinda more interested in the photo albums she brought back lar cuase there were pictures of all the animals. i'm not very close to her family.. probably cause all my cousins are like bullys. nah, they didn't quite like me as a kid. i was too small and boring for them. by the time i grew up, they moved, so i'm kinda the baby of the family and i hang around the adults. but as the saying goes, children are seen but not heard. so i eavesdrop. heh. i'm beginnign to feel lor sor and i wannt read my story book liao. hopefully it improves my english. it BETTER improve my english. or not i'm not loisa from nui ren brigade!

my future career

and ah yes, after doing my career thing, guess what careers moe has chosen for me!

1) bartender
2) Prison warden
3) Physiotherapist ( i don't mind)3) all the counsellor stuff and teacher stuff AND children's nanny, volunteers, nurses, doctors... (i don't mind doctors.. if it's vets)

sigh... this must have been due to the survey i did... all the people related questions i clicked "i don't mind", and all the electrical mechanical stuff (such as changing a tyre) i clicked either "i THINK i can do it" or "i can't do AT ALL". i mean i've never tried changing a tyre right? or fix some electronic plug. i've only done about two plumbing jobs! i feel very long winded.. i shall stop here. will study my bestest best and who knows, maybe i will become a bartender or a prison warden.. so.... see you in a pub or prison cell 10 years down the road.. cool! =)

computer lab

hey! haha, i'm now currectly in the computer lab.. supposedly to check about careers and stuff, but the thing is so super laggy, we're all doing other stuff, probably causing the com to be more laggy but nvm. anyway, on my right is amelia! my left would be angel, and on my left left is kim! amelia is asking me what nonsense something something something, angel is doing some neopet thingy, and kim is doing the career thing! oh ya, my career page is up! let's go and see what stuff or future career i can do. btw, amelia is looking at my fascinatingly fascinating blog. she looks forlorn... lalala, poor girl. extremely lonely and deprived of life's enjoyments. she is obviously taking revenge on me and annoying me BY editing my spelling, or rather typing. good bye amelia, i am logging out before you annoy the hair of me

this purple font colour is dedicated to amelia who is laughing like a heyena beside me. in other words... loooooney...

aha!

now i remembered what i wanted to say earlier! i've learnt something new from Oilam. she told me that one has to force oneself to gain confidence as one cannot be so timid forever. allow me to start from the beginning.

i was telling her that when audrey told me she was advisor for facilities (is that correct? or it is equiptment? about the same lar arh), i went to check the notice board too. i met sam there! haha, she's advisor for devotion! it's so her... anyway, i found out that i am advisor for publicity! so scary... feel so old.. like wah.. ADVISOR. haha, no longer doing newsletter and rearranging photos until eyeballs entangle. now it's ADVISING. quite funny, i was laughing with sam. anyway, the fascinatingly fascinating thing was, i'm nco i/c for drill.. with yvonne and pearlyn again! i'm somehow always stuck with yvonne, especially! haha, she's my csf and mentor! hee, so cute. anyway, yes, to cut the extremely fascinatingly fascinating story short, i told oilam i don't really feel competent enought to be like in drill. cause after going for the drill instructor course, i felt really lousy. like my commanding so weird, no confidence, i kept giving the wrong commands, and argh! i even said rendang chicken in a command can! the sizing part. yuck. everyone else sounded so good and smart, felt so small, as if i wasn't small enough. then now yvonne and pearlyn quite sud arh, feel more weird. bah. but oilam told me to try. pray i guess. =)

so now people, the moral or this fable is, do your best adn try no matter what. if you feel small, pray to God and He will give you strength. after all, you never know til you try right? that reminds me.. read 1 Timothy 4:12! haha, it so relates to my moral... hee

crazy day

today was weird.... super weird... kena scolded by parents about everything and anything.. the thing was... i felt so numb i didn't even have the usual maddening fed up thoughts in my head.. felt so tired i jsut bit back my tongue and yes yes the whole way! so proud of myself. i should do this mroe often. think positive and understand scoldings are GOOD! they have my INTERESTS at HEART! i msut not be SARCASTIC! but it's hard.. i feel like i'm contridicting myself but i don't care. my enlgish is dying. my math is improving. mayeb my english marks are going to my math marks. nowadays i find my sentence constructure so funny. i read in a newspaper once that one should always have a blog so you can write in it and improve your english. however, the more i blog, the more it's evident my english is ahhhhhhhhh.. i cannot stand it! i cannot express myself. so frastrating. and another thing, my thoughts seem quite jumbled up... that means i cannot organise my answers.. that means my lit is also dying!

now what was i saying? yes be positivie... viki just thanked me for her birthday present so now i've forgotten what i wanted to say before.. nvm.. on to something else.

i've decided on a new hobby. to collect torn tissue paper. i realised that i'm wasting quite a bit of tissue paper (when i get angry or sad i'll start to tear tissue paper) although i try to reuse them for projects (decorations). therefore, i thought of something really fascinatingly fascinating to me! i'll collect a small plastic bag worth of tissue paper (msut be evident how often i get mad or sad, not very good huh) then i'll recycle, reuse, NOT reduce them! i'll just jumble all the torn tissue paper up and start re tearing them again! okay, i've made myself so happy now, i've decided to reward myself my getting something to eat! haha so fun! eat! food! yay!

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY! haha, lalala, in 4 more minutes time, it'll be liting's birthday.. so many britdhays in june and july.. sigh.. a bit tiring leh, i made 4 birthday cards in a row liao... all look the same actualyl but heh nvm. hee! well happy birthday again emily! you, kim and amelia are 16 already! time flies. now just wait for angel, weilian and me! haha! too abd our birthdates are during o levels.. so not fun...

chinese oral today!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, today was the chinese o level oral! i didn't know about it til like tues... goodness... on my o level slip it was written it'd be somewhere in 15 july.. now all of a sudden it's like TODAY!

i was so talking rubbish. the examiners had to re explain the topic to me in ENGLISH can. oh ya, and i'm not sure if they were fed up with me for saying lau shi men zao an!! i forgot it was noon time liao.... oh someone kill me...

but anyway, i'ts over, so life goes on yes! leave the rest in God's hand.. shall just pray about it! optimistic yes that's the way uh huh uh huh