hmmm

argh today during maths, shiping amos and i kept arguing... why do people like man u and liverpool? i dont know.. arsenal and real madrid are better ain't they? hmm.. but everyone agreed liverpool's the worst.. hmm...

today i was like zombie like that! shoot lar.. woke up like 7.05 today.. latest i've ever woken up... don't know what's wrong with me.. pris agrees too.. like the more we sleep, the more tired we are.. don't know what's going on.. finally i am so tired.. i cannot even open my eyes. good night! i've done my english holiday compo liao.. i am so going to bed! maybe tmr i'll get kenneth to explain to me the chinese compo thing.. and btw, chinese o levels is on monday! lalala.. HOW?! fine, feeling a bit grumpy... i'm sick! what if i cannot do my chinese well. i just realised my answer to that is to sleep NOW. don't like.. fed up... sgh.. feel so sad all of a sudden.. this year i don't feel like myself... not as carefree as before... i should study or go to sleep now. okay i'm officially off the com til tues! that's my goal and aim and vision and mission.......................

dedicated to juli ong!

hey i am super proud of my juliana ong chao ying! the commander of 34th's contingent for inter ug...! wah, speechless... she was so smart can! her uniform, her hair, her boots, her posture, her voice.. her commanding... haha, voice didn't crack. not bad! haha... woohoo! goodness.. i just love GB! they worked super hard can! every time i see them wah super proud! goodness.. raq also.. see her as the right marker wah fantastic! super cool! cannot stop gushing about my girls! lalala.. you go juli! great job in training the girls and all... love you man! =)

council outing

okay like finally!!! council outing ended yesterday. i think the councillors had quite a lot of fun lar arh. well that was great! but it seemed we did so much work for nothing since groupings were not carried out, and so few people came. AND the certificates were like... argh nvm!

anyway, i'd like to officially thank nicholas, shawn, ben and carol! you guys made my day! i was feeling so tired and sick that day, but you all went around doing practically everything! nicholas, for buying that food thing for all of us (roti boy btw, not roti john! ) shawn for giving out the certificates and acting as emcee, ben for calculating until siao, and for making me laugh so much. you sjtu have that question mark face mixed with exclaimation marks everywhere. carol, for sharing with me green tea! haha, hope you like that lime green star i gave you. shine like the star you are! haha... (excuse my habit of writing as if i'm telling you all this directly)

hmm.. and ALSO, i finally managed to finish all the discipline updating! goodness.. nearly went crazy with all the stuff all mixed up! argh! well good luck pris, with all those disciplinary stuff.. haha! okay i'm feeling mean...

anyway as i was saying.. the council thing was quite a success lar, but i feel weird in council really. don't belong. like the sec 3s are one batch, and because i don't know... the sec 4s are NOT a batch. so i'm like neither here nor there. weird! but nvm. will nto dwell on it. it's wastes my brain power only.

okay realised how messy i am. i ahve so many windows open on my com, and i'm doing so many thigns at the same time that i forgot what i wanted to say earlier about the council outing, and i don't have the energy to rethink again. and now i jsut remembered. i wanted to talk about the turkey.

yes, anyway, i learnt something new today. a turkey is 3 consecutive strikes i think. yup. joseph is a turkey. or rather he got a turkey. yup not bad eh? yup. okay i'm done. just wanted to share my knowledge of a "turkey". see ya! =)

inter ug drill com

YIPEE! today was the inter ug drill com! and guess what? uh huh! GB was the second runner up! lalalala... haha, well, finally, the planning committee can come to a rest. i went home with pearlyn today.. had a nice talk with her. i wasn't really satisfied with the planning though. personally, i agreed with mr chiang. the planning was fine, but it's the consistency of tasks done and the overall committee i'm not happy with.

even though this is our first time planning this giant event, but basic things such as updating each other, and finishing tasks delegated to us on time should be done well. personally, i felt ultra stupid today. i THOUGHT i was sure of everything on my part, then after that so many changed was made, until i became blur, then had to keep referring back pearlyn and audrey who suddenly knew everything, it was scary. especially the part about the ushering. goodness, majoy hoohah over that. miscommunication. pearlyn told me on the last meeting that ushers are to bring contingents back to holding area, but today BY CHANCE i found out that they were supposed to be in canteen. AND THEN, suddenly i was informed, or rather scolded that contingents are supposed to be ready THE MINUTE contingent before has marched out. goodness....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, oh this one best arh. the timing of the whole drill com was pushed back.. due to some unforseen circumstances, then i kept asking when my ushers and emcees had to report. i was told to wait. then a few minutes later, kena scolded on why emcees and ushers are not at their places.

AND i was super fed up with ushers today, but after that i felt bad cause maybe they were as blur as i was and i did not inform them properly. but i explain the reason first. okay, duties of ushers were to yes, usher contingent to destinations, but it was ALSO to keep contingents quiet. but they seemed more intent on watching the drill. i guess so lar, but it's not really helping lar, cause again got scolded cause drill participants were so noisy. hai ya, i don't want to be angry at others if it's my fault, so is it? oh my, there i go thinking again. sometimes, i think 'i'm becoming more negative, and my brain is not helping by thinking so much.

i'm tired. i don't feel like talking anymore. nor do i want to complain. feeling grumpy. now it's 7.40. i gotta meet jemima and bhavna at 8.30 for a jog.. haha... anyone care to join? =)

oh ya, today was also the day i went broke. i kept fretting over whether everyone had eaten and drank water. haha, feel like a mother hen (talking about mother hen, tell you about this turkey thing later in my next post). then alamak i went broke! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh had to pay for everyone's lunch and drinks. fantastic... nvm. they did me proud anyway. not bad liao lar, sec 1s had to cheong for this drill com. i salute you guys! =)

and oh yes, must thank planning committee. we worked hard and received like superbly a huge number of scoldings right? nvm, it's OVER! and i wanted to say i almsot cried when sarah hugged me! it's super touching... like i don't know.. feel like i've touched someone's life! like i'm appreciated... sarah cheong! i love you! haha... touching lvies ans saving nations.. i'll start from there! =) anyway, pearlyn and sarah, you guys did a wonderful job! whew, we ran all voer the carpark doign thigns right? and can tell both of you stressed, cause your hair messy.. haha (sounds like jami). and audrey! we'll jia you for o levels! argh, my chinese is in 5 days time! then arh, after that we all cheong for GB yeah? this should be our last activity.. whew! we're done! =)

opps

heh, i forgot to add one thing last night. the GB girls went for the hike on saturday! sniff... sam and me are so super sad.. ms gan actually gave us the consent form, but we felt we should not go as our parents would prefer us to stay home.. saddd... but nvm. zhi yin told me the walk was super tiring.. haha... heard they walked for over 11km.. heh...but they took some pictures.. maybe i'll go and harrass ms gan for them.. haha =)

okay sam! we'll organise a similar outing for raq, sun, aud, juli and us to go k? oh ya, not forgetting jami..! haha, she couldn't go either right? nvm.. we'll go after o levels! lalalala

lalala

oh this is fun! lalalala...

left to right: wei Lian! haha angel... there you are amelia! and well, some creepy crawly thing.. nvm about that.. not the point

this was hmm... taken right after cca council outing right amelia? that lunch thing mr chiang treated us too... haha.. we were like running up and down the whole of tampines mall trying to hide here and there... we are busy people of society... =)

amelia!

amelia amelia! finally after 2 gruelling hours last night and 2 more today, i've managed to fang ni de lian here... okay.. felt like using some weird chinese... =) have fun!

yi-yi-yi

i'm feeling blur again... whenever i talk to germaine.. i feel extremely awake and normal... but after that, start feeling blur.. i think we talk too intellectually liao.. haha.. nah, just like teasing her... feeling a bit weird... i FAILED MY HUMANITIES! you know? they should have offered us pure lit! this is tiring... i cannot stand COMBINE humanities... i was like hoping and hoping that i could score an a1 for humans to cover my other subjects... then i was super happiyyyyyyyyyyy yi-yi-yi-yi-yi when i got A2 for lit... how i know my ss so cute one.. 13/50.. so cool... i failed social studies.. hahahahahaha! sigh... i feel so sarcastic now... i want angel...

oh YA! can you believe it? i PASSED CHINESE! hahahahahahahahaha.. this time it's for real... bhavna and i were going seriously senile... laughing over our 6 points for mother tongue.. hahahaha! i passed! congratulate me... i'm not chinese bbbbbbbbbbb standard! sarah you were right! haha.. we and our chinese bbbbb.. nonsense...

btw, i just realised amelia is alive and kicking.. guess what.. she TALKED to me!!!!!!!!!!1 isn't that cool.... she's BACK!!!!!!!!!!

stressed, depressed, opressed

untahantable.. distahantable... buay tahan....

today kena scolded until wow! yi zhi bei ren ma bah..... sigh...

inter ug - mr chiang
bowling outing - mr kwok
duties - mr tay
GB - ms lum

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... today wrong day very wrong day.. daddy shouldn't have gone to see ms lum about gb! i am being stereo-typeddddddd! wahhhhhhhhhhhhh wrong day.. very wrong day

oh ya, today i walked home with jemima too, we had a nice long talk.. and did you know how fascnating her file is? it's like, there's a GIANT hole at the side, and i mean GIANT can... and the sides are like taped up until don't know what.. and she says she's too lazy to buy one.. NVM jemima! i'll get you a new one.. i also cannot tahan your file....

and ALSO, today my girls found this fella's wallet, what's his name? ronald i think.. yup... now i don't know what to do with it.. made me panic only... hmmm... oh well, that's the end of my day....

inter ug

okay today's meeting was i don't know the worst ever. i don't understand my role. i'm supposed to be in charge of pa crew, councillors, and emcees, but the one briefing them is i don't even know. oh my goodness, my brain is mumo jumbo up. this is tough. it's really tough. i don't know. feel lousy. today kinda wasted everyone's time. i mean, yeah, i understand what they're feeling too. they came down to school for nothing in that sense. but is it that difficult to understand? we are trying. we're all school mates. help each other out a little. is that too much to ask? or is the society that cruel? i feel like i'm in the working world and everyone is against me. or am i thinking too much about me and not about them? i hate thinking...

i wonder how's pris. it's hard for her, for pearlyn, for debbie perhaps? what's wrong with everyone? why is it not working out all of a sudden? life was good, in sec 1, sec 2, sec 3... is this year weird or what? like super emotional or sensitive or something? i'm thinking everyone's under pressure. the sec 3s mostly. perhaps it's a turning point for them? see if they can work under pressure? feel helpless sometimes. i see me in them, the sadder part, the raging part, yet i see their sweet side. they've got really beautiful personalities, but they don't have the time to show it.

oh dear, Lord, just give them to strength to carry on. don't let them fall.

lift experience

sigh... just the other day... i was going up and down the lift.. thanks to angel... i tell you arh... she is mean okay!

she told me, DO NOT PRESS THE BUTTONS EVEN IF THE LIFT DOORS CLOSE. i REPEAT, do NOT press ANY buttons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so well i followed her... and then super smart.. how i know she HELPED me press the button to first floor liao... her finger very itchy... haha... cute angel though....

anyway, after that heard she went on some peanut pancake eating spree... without me, and NEARLY conned a classmate to buy her food... okay now i'm mean... oh well...

okay anyone up for some tom yam noodle? feeling a bit hungry liao... bye!

prayer

dear Lord,

there's so many things going on that are just not right. could You help me? i know You can, You've done so so many times.

i pray for the upcoming exams. everyone's been so fretful about it. they do not have confidence. i pray that You will grant them the wisdom to study well and give them concentration during the paper itself. help pearlyn too, as she's afriad she will fail every subject, and might retain. i do not believe so. help her to see that she can do it.

i pray for pris and debbie too. esther is in good hands, but they seem to be feeling insecure right now. a heavy load is on them, they feel down, tired, and even frustrated. please carry the burden for them, teach them, guide them, help esther cooperate with them. help pris especially with the discipline. it's a tough job, and she may not yet be ready. mould her to be what you want her to be, lead her, and show her how to lead others. give her the strength to do what she has to do, and give her no regrets.

ah yes, the council committee too. shawn, ben and carol. they're the best committee i can ask for. but sometimes, it can be hard to work together. help us to unite as one, to serve as a whole. help us to understand each other, and to come up with the best outing ever, to bond councillors and to have fun at the same time.

not forgetting inter ug. now that pearlyn is the i/c, give her to courage to stand tall and organise well. give her the talent of speaking well and being concise in her instructions. help the committee to be able to carry out their duties systematically yet with a passion, to serve willingly and happily.

i ask these in Jesus' name,
Amen