被风吹过的夏天

蓝色的思念
突然演变成了阳光的夏天
空气中的温暖
不会更遥远
冬天已仿佛不在留恋

绿色的思念
回首对我说一声四季不变
不过一季的时间
又再回到从前
那个被风吹过的夏天

还记得昨天那个夏天
微风吹过的一瞬间
似乎吹翻一切
只剩寂寞更沉淀
风依旧在吹

秋天的雨跟随心中的热却不退
仿佛继续闭着双眼
熟悉的脸又浮现在眼前

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心中的热却不退， 闭着双眼，熟悉的脸又浮现在眼前

random

ASP :: w(n) :: White Gaussian random noise
DSP :: x(n) :: Random input to FIR filter
Commsnet :: Tunneling :: Random assignment of IP to MHs in foreign network.

Joseph :: brain :: state of randomization.

3 days to examinations. 22 days to end of examinations. 9 papers to go.

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我爱你, 穿越了时空象限

Dun race against time, Move with it.

Hui Min has been repeating that to me, so I shall repeat that to myself.

dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it.

A little stressed from the serious lack of time and lack of practice. That's the problem with 3rd year.. no tutorials meant that you are all on your own during exam time. 5 days left. Panic..

dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it.

There's this module where I've put in quite a bit of effort during term time to make notes from textbooks and understand what the lousy lecturer is teaching. But after I looked at his exam papers, all you need to do it to reproduce his power-point notes, FRAME for FRAME, and you are guaranteed the marks. So at this point of time, I am beginning to doubt my education. Am I learning what I should know, or like Alvin says, the exam smart will triumph, while the hardworking ones who probably will learn more than enough to propel them in their careers in the future, suffer now. Sigh.. British education...

My nerves are still in pieces. Need a bit of tranquility from Windermere, so I posted this photo heh... "Everything the light touches is our kingdom" ~ Lion King =PpP

dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it. dun race against time, move with it.

~~~
世界因你,更添光彩..

Bits and Pieces

1. Numerous things happened in the past few days, leaving me really drained in spirit and in emotion. I guess, its perhaps that lack of verification that I am heading in the right direction or doing things right that left me very confused and unsure. My self-confidence ain't something I can boast of. Now that I've gotten my nod telling me that I am not chasing the wind, that more or less settled me in. Simple words from a person could lead to complex reaction.

2. I'll continue to be there. Simply because I want to be.

3. Last week of exam preparation. For the first time here, my nerves are actually in bits and pieces. There is a serious lack of preparation time. Doris: Good luck next week too.

4. Even my thoughts are in bits and pieces. Hope I'll stay in a piece after the next 4 weeks.

Nightmare

I got home from school feeling really drained and tired, with a throbbing headache to top it hop, and I had expected myself to just plop onto my bed and just drift off into dream land.

Tick tock tick tock 1am, 2am, 3am..Kept flipping over to look at the clock face. I still couldn't get to sleep. Something is wrong. The headache is still there, the fatigue is still there. Just couldn't sleep. I guess I drifted off thereabouts, because I do not remember 4am.

But I do remember lots of clock faces thereafter. Huge ones.. All of them just ticking away, all of them showing different times.. I kept hearing alarms, but none of them resemble the ring tone I use for my alarm. I couldn't wake up from this lousy nightmare. I was just wandering around the many clock faces, trying to find my way out. Accompanied by the relentless ticking of the clocks, I just kept repeating to myself, 'find a way out, find a way out'. I couldn't.. The movement of the hands made it impossible for me to recognize my way, where I have passed, and where I haven't. Its a hopeless situation.

I give up. I plonked on the ground in despair, tired. I know I lost the fight. (I dunno what fight, but that was how I felt in the dream.) I drifted off again. I slept (in the dream). For how long, I do not know, because when I woke up, the clock faces are no longer there. The instant jubilation that there's finally a way out turned into sheer horror. Nothing was in sight. Absolutely nothing. I am all alone in that god forsaken dimension.

I think my mind couldn't endure any more immensity from that dream. I woke up. 6.30am. That's it, I'm not going back to sleep. Its one of the worse amongst the very few nightmares I've had, and I know I will not have nightmares or no good reason. I think I know what the dream is trying to tell me.

And the days continue to creep by..

Was studying, studying and studying.. and as usual, my mind started to wander and this thought just came to mind.

The days are creeping by without me noticing.

Without actually wanting it to, even though I have been subconsciously noticing it, it has been almost 3 full years spent in London. One more year, and back I go to Singapore. So ends my life as a carefree student, back to face the challenges of a working life, and to the problems and headaches that adults cringe at. (Hey.. I am basing upon the assumption that I am not considered an adult, yet..)

Have I learned enough, done enough, experienced enough in my three years here? Will I learn enough, do enough and experience enough in my one remaining year? My technical modules don't seem to have taught me anything useful for my career needs, while the management ones seem more to be superficial lecturing than any in-depth honing of my managerial skills.. o_0

Mm not really wise to be thinking about the usefulness of what I will be examined upon in 3 weeks time now heh.. but yeah.. you get my point..

梦想童话

有梦想的人就不会寂寞

对我来说，
有梦想，就相信里面一路一的童话。
那个童话，
可以是在一个海岛上，拥有自己梦寐以求的房子。
可以是跟一个人幸福快乐的活到老，
也可以是为心爱的人做的一件事。
甚至可以是做一件没有人会相信我们做得到的事...

相信童话，就像相信我们的梦想会实现一样，
应为我们就是这个童话的主人。
我们就是这个童话故事的作者，
我们决定故事的结局。

每个人心中都曾拥有好多的梦想，
这些梦想不应该消失。
相信自己的童话，
相信梦想会成真。

Ramblings

I have just booked my ticket from Emerald's travel, will be returning to Singapore on the 25th June, landing on the 26th. I have just one day to play around with before I start work the next day.

The person dealing with me is sooo funny, soo Singapore. I haven't heard that much Singaporeanish accent since returning to London. Then in her email she describes herself as : Retail Section Supervisor of EVERYTHING AND NOTHING..

Haha.. weird person. The only drawback is that this is a 3 month ticket. That means I have to come back latest by the 25th September. Hmm.. but after giving it some thought, I dun mind I think. Since its going to be my last year anyway, its time to explore a bit of London. For example, Buckingham Palace haa... astonishingly I have not been there yet =P

Yup, its time to return to school. I hate this mugging life. The weather is soo good. I want to play.