Friday, December 26, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Woohoo!
rOx Xmas dinner was yesterday and it really brings back a lot of memories. Lol.
As soon as Windy asked if he had been in rOx for a year, I recalled myself joining rOx when I was sec 1 or 2. lol. But besides this, the food was the ultimate!
The crab was da best!! SHIOK MAN.
The salmon was ew. And oyster.. ok ba. No second one for yilin and I. And when I came home, the rawness took effect. Like immediately. Thankfully it didn't occur during the movie.
Well, twilight was ok I guess. Hmms, signing off now. Making chocolate mousse later! Whees (:
MERRY XMAS EVE!
rOx Xmas dinner was yesterday and it really brings back a lot of memories. Lol.
As soon as Windy asked if he had been in rOx for a year, I recalled myself joining rOx when I was sec 1 or 2. lol. But besides this, the food was the ultimate!
The crab was da best!! SHIOK MAN.
The salmon was ew. And oyster.. ok ba. No second one for yilin and I. And when I came home, the rawness took effect. Like immediately. Thankfully it didn't occur during the movie.
Well, twilight was ok I guess. Hmms, signing off now. Making chocolate mousse later! Whees (:
MERRY XMAS EVE!
Friday, December 19, 2008
How long has it been since I last blogged..
Well dear blog, I'm back now!
I know you miss me, and I miss you too! Just that.. my fingers don't.. hence the inertia to blog.
No lah.. there's a more acceptable reason for not blogging regularly.
So I've spent the last 2 weeks of my dearest dec hols in not the most fun way but still, it did me some good. At least that's wht i hope (:
Now I'm having trouble over what I should wear for the buffet dinner on the 23rd. I know.. BUFFET. Like.. B-U-F-F-E-T. How much I dread that would certainly be how much I'm anticipating it.
Paradox yeah.
Really wanna just catch up with old friends.
Nothing beats a good old cup of bitter-sweet sourish coffee with friends whom I so very cherish.
Nothing at all .
#And yes, I'll try to post pictures soon.. when I'm er..bored. Hee.. See you soon dear blog!
Well dear blog, I'm back now!
I know you miss me, and I miss you too! Just that.. my fingers don't.. hence the inertia to blog.
No lah.. there's a more acceptable reason for not blogging regularly.
So I've spent the last 2 weeks of my dearest dec hols in not the most fun way but still, it did me some good. At least that's wht i hope (:
Now I'm having trouble over what I should wear for the buffet dinner on the 23rd. I know.. BUFFET. Like.. B-U-F-F-E-T. How much I dread that would certainly be how much I'm anticipating it.
Paradox yeah.
Really wanna just catch up with old friends.
Nothing beats a good old cup of bitter-sweet sourish coffee with friends whom I so very cherish.
Nothing at all .
#And yes, I'll try to post pictures soon.. when I'm er..bored. Hee.. See you soon dear blog!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
storytime...
In ancient times, a king had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it.
Many loudly blamed the kind for not keeping the roads clear but none did anything to get the big stone out of the way. Then, a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. On approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After a great deal of pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. As the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a coin pouch lying on the road where the boulder had been. The pouch contained many gold coins and a note from the king indicating that the gold was for the person who removes the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many others will never understand.
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve one's predicament (:
In ancient times, a king had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it.
Many loudly blamed the kind for not keeping the roads clear but none did anything to get the big stone out of the way. Then, a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. On approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After a great deal of pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. As the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a coin pouch lying on the road where the boulder had been. The pouch contained many gold coins and a note from the king indicating that the gold was for the person who removes the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many others will never understand.
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve one's predicament (:
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Right... Haven't been blogging for quite a while now.
Hee.. I wonder where I left off.. but anyway.
No more exams for now and I'm slacking.
Hopefully it won't be that way for long.
Gosh I haven't bought myself a decent piece of clothing ): Well, hopefully I would be able to buy that jersey dress. Let's patiently wait for DECEMBER!
Next week ; job shadowing commences. Gosh, this unexpected piece of news just spoils my entire holiday plan laid out ): But well, it would be an enriching experience i hope.
Class chalet was last week. HAVOC SIA.. Very fun and bond-ful! REally love the class sometimes (: No pictures though.. Hah. No good ones to upload and didn't have time to take many good photos. THE NAME GAME is the most ultra uber fun!! So was .. err..TABOO. Funny lah.
And Econs tuition has started.. So has H3 chem. As usual, I could only understand..err..2% of the lecture earlier? nah..maybe 5% =D Now is to read up and understand at least 75%. Still got tutorial to do man.. aiks.
Tmr we're going to charissa's hse for bel's farewell! Wonder wht good food there will be (if there is even food at her house xD) Miss those classmates ): Well, hopefully I won't miss the last bus or train tmr. Laa...
And uh. my lil bro's O levels just ended! Like finally.. Now it's time to pray that he will get into a JC (:
What else is going to happen this hols? Wanna go KL eat bak kut teh! oh..I rmb. I was supposed to blog about how I got scammed today. AGAIN ): These people really piss me off. Always kenna scammed. Ruined my mood. Plus my ewww haircut by that crappy @$#!^&*$%# guy at shunji. Damn I'm not visiting that !~$#@!*# salon forever!!! Back to the good old HDB salon at woodlands (:
Ok, I shall stop complaining.
Now.. I should: PERSEVERE AND CHANT: GROW, HAIR GROW!
Take care dear blog. LOVE YOU
Hee.. I wonder where I left off.. but anyway.
No more exams for now and I'm slacking.
Hopefully it won't be that way for long.
Gosh I haven't bought myself a decent piece of clothing ): Well, hopefully I would be able to buy that jersey dress. Let's patiently wait for DECEMBER!
Next week ; job shadowing commences. Gosh, this unexpected piece of news just spoils my entire holiday plan laid out ): But well, it would be an enriching experience i hope.
Class chalet was last week. HAVOC SIA.. Very fun and bond-ful! REally love the class sometimes (: No pictures though.. Hah. No good ones to upload and didn't have time to take many good photos. THE NAME GAME is the most ultra uber fun!! So was .. err..TABOO. Funny lah.
And Econs tuition has started.. So has H3 chem. As usual, I could only understand..err..2% of the lecture earlier? nah..maybe 5% =D Now is to read up and understand at least 75%. Still got tutorial to do man.. aiks.
Tmr we're going to charissa's hse for bel's farewell! Wonder wht good food there will be (if there is even food at her house xD) Miss those classmates ): Well, hopefully I won't miss the last bus or train tmr. Laa...
And uh. my lil bro's O levels just ended! Like finally.. Now it's time to pray that he will get into a JC (:
What else is going to happen this hols? Wanna go KL eat bak kut teh! oh..I rmb. I was supposed to blog about how I got scammed today. AGAIN ): These people really piss me off. Always kenna scammed. Ruined my mood. Plus my ewww haircut by that crappy @$#!^&*$%# guy at shunji. Damn I'm not visiting that !~$#@!*# salon forever!!! Back to the good old HDB salon at woodlands (:
Ok, I shall stop complaining.
Now.. I should: PERSEVERE AND CHANT: GROW, HAIR GROW!
Take care dear blog. LOVE YOU
Monday, October 27, 2008
Righty. Got to make this fast.
Hmm, just wanna blog about saturday.
Aha, my day started off bad.
With mummy forgetting she had to see my teacher, that isn't really nice of her.
But I understand, so I had to cancel my appointments with both science teachers
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Well, Ms salina was alright I suppose, I've improved for Econs big time! Who to thank?
Mr Fock? Ah.. Myself! HEE.. nah jk. I don't need to get to the top. I'm contented with just a bit of improvement ((:
Oh, and then PW was a disaster. As usual, that idiot who said he wanted to get things done quick..sort of promising to be 'efficient' turned out to be the most super ineff. WHAT THE HELL. he pissed me off with his bluntness, just when the world came crashing down (no lah, not so extreme..but the idea's there xD)..
Seriously he.. isn't nice. Not at all.
Even though after having the impression that I was 'emo', he came running back to check if I was ok.
i felt super super..more pissed?! LOL.
he's just so.. crappy. But yeah, although I appreciated his gesture, it kinda turned me off a lil'. Still, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
And then, there's dy. Well, sweet person I suppose.
And he kinda freaked me out while I went to fill my bottle. He was absolutely right. Spot on.
His 'gift'. HE could feel I was somewhat emo. I wonder how he knew that, but I had a hard time concealing it. In front of him? Difficult.. I appreciate his concern as well.
but sometimes, people just need to be alone. Doubt they know that.
Well, I'm sure not as weak as they think I am. If they even think so.
Gtg now, bye dear blog!
Hmm, just wanna blog about saturday.
Aha, my day started off bad.
With mummy forgetting she had to see my teacher, that isn't really nice of her.
But I understand, so I had to cancel my appointments with both science teachers
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Well, Ms salina was alright I suppose, I've improved for Econs big time! Who to thank?
Mr Fock? Ah.. Myself! HEE.. nah jk. I don't need to get to the top. I'm contented with just a bit of improvement ((:
Oh, and then PW was a disaster. As usual, that idiot who said he wanted to get things done quick..sort of promising to be 'efficient' turned out to be the most super ineff. WHAT THE HELL. he pissed me off with his bluntness, just when the world came crashing down (no lah, not so extreme..but the idea's there xD)..
Seriously he.. isn't nice. Not at all.
Even though after having the impression that I was 'emo', he came running back to check if I was ok.
i felt super super..more pissed?! LOL.
he's just so.. crappy. But yeah, although I appreciated his gesture, it kinda turned me off a lil'. Still, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
And then, there's dy. Well, sweet person I suppose.
And he kinda freaked me out while I went to fill my bottle. He was absolutely right. Spot on.
His 'gift'. HE could feel I was somewhat emo. I wonder how he knew that, but I had a hard time concealing it. In front of him? Difficult.. I appreciate his concern as well.
but sometimes, people just need to be alone. Doubt they know that.
Well, I'm sure not as weak as they think I am. If they even think so.
Gtg now, bye dear blog!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Ah yes.
I'm finally blogging again..really wanted to blog over the weekend.
Frustration put me off.
A dinner with the supposedly besties turned out well.. not what I was looking forward to.
Just when I finally got myself to be nice, she just ruined it all for me.
She's selfish. That doesn't mean I'm not. This just teaches me something; shut up.
I shall adhere then, to this unexpected lesson learnt. Reflection.. ah yes. I'm very very reflective today.
Talked to 2 of the second-intakers. Rather unanticipated. RUBE-... lol. Yes, fortunately he was there to hear me out coz I really needed that. Hope that he won't see me as some freak trying to sort things out with myself + hope he won't find my said-aloud reflections annoying. Damn, now i've spilled so much out. Revealed bunches... it's not mysterious anymore. AND I FEEL EXPOSED. Grr... IN A FREAKIN' UNPLEASANT WAY.
And yes, I'm vengeful. Thanks for that peeps, denigration - again.
TO KRISTYN:
CONTROL YOUR IMPULSIVITY.
Hah, like what Mr Chan used to tell Audrey. Yes, and that means.. I'd have to crawl back into my lil' shell. It so isn't a sanctuary. I wonder if I'd be able to achieve that... Let's see (: No, it isn't going to be a pretense, of course not. It's about controlling my emotions right? YES GIRL YES! TADA... Hope it works.
SELF-RESTRAIN FTW.
LABEL -> REFLECTION -> ACTION => vicious cycle
I'm finally blogging again..really wanted to blog over the weekend.
Frustration put me off.
A dinner with the supposedly besties turned out well.. not what I was looking forward to.
Just when I finally got myself to be nice, she just ruined it all for me.
She's selfish. That doesn't mean I'm not. This just teaches me something; shut up.
I shall adhere then, to this unexpected lesson learnt. Reflection.. ah yes. I'm very very reflective today.
Talked to 2 of the second-intakers. Rather unanticipated. RUBE-... lol. Yes, fortunately he was there to hear me out coz I really needed that. Hope that he won't see me as some freak trying to sort things out with myself + hope he won't find my said-aloud reflections annoying. Damn, now i've spilled so much out. Revealed bunches... it's not mysterious anymore. AND I FEEL EXPOSED. Grr... IN A FREAKIN' UNPLEASANT WAY.
And yes, I'm vengeful. Thanks for that peeps, denigration - again.
TO KRISTYN:
CONTROL YOUR IMPULSIVITY.
Hah, like what Mr Chan used to tell Audrey. Yes, and that means.. I'd have to crawl back into my lil' shell. It so isn't a sanctuary. I wonder if I'd be able to achieve that... Let's see (: No, it isn't going to be a pretense, of course not. It's about controlling my emotions right? YES GIRL YES! TADA... Hope it works.
SELF-RESTRAIN FTW.
LABEL -> REFLECTION -> ACTION => vicious cycle
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Ok.
Promos are over. And I've been wasting time.. Sad huh. Have to start doing chem assessment chapter by chapter..plus physics. Sigh.. I've been shopping.. Sat... Fri... Sunday? Monday and definitely today. How should I put it? Shopping with others has its pros and cons. Shopping alone too. I ended up spending around 45 bucks today, including my meal. Seriously, Why did I spend so much on food. Grr... I went all the way to sch, then to paya lebar. School .. I was there for 1o mins?! Gosh. But ah well, I have loads of time to spare anyway. Err, I mean 'waste', not spare. Then I went to This Fashion at paya lebar. IT was huge as usual. Got my jumper, had a really tough time deciding. As usual, but it's like half the price you would normally get one for elsewhere. So ok ba. Then headed to toa payoh. Gosh, seeing those IJ girls make me wanna don that AWESOME-LY GORGEOUS sch U on. And their belts have really gone higher up their waist. Besides that, I bought a cardigan for 8 bucks. A steal I tell you! Then of course, I kenna scammed by that ?!$@*&#! shop. There goes my 7.8o.... T____________T I could have bought another cardigan ok. Scammerrr!!! Now how long will I take to get over this ?.. Foolish, asinine! ... And the jumper wasn't all that great... I thought I could depend on myself to make it look a tat nicer or so.. Arghhh.. But it failed. Didn't really go the way I had planned, so now, i'll try something else. Hopefully, it's more ideal this time round. So tmr, I guess it's shopping again. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
Promos are over. And I've been wasting time.. Sad huh. Have to start doing chem assessment chapter by chapter..plus physics. Sigh.. I've been shopping.. Sat... Fri... Sunday? Monday and definitely today. How should I put it? Shopping with others has its pros and cons. Shopping alone too. I ended up spending around 45 bucks today, including my meal. Seriously, Why did I spend so much on food. Grr... I went all the way to sch, then to paya lebar. School .. I was there for 1o mins?! Gosh. But ah well, I have loads of time to spare anyway. Err, I mean 'waste', not spare. Then I went to This Fashion at paya lebar. IT was huge as usual. Got my jumper, had a really tough time deciding. As usual, but it's like half the price you would normally get one for elsewhere. So ok ba. Then headed to toa payoh. Gosh, seeing those IJ girls make me wanna don that AWESOME-LY GORGEOUS sch U on. And their belts have really gone higher up their waist. Besides that, I bought a cardigan for 8 bucks. A steal I tell you! Then of course, I kenna scammed by that ?!$@*&#! shop. There goes my 7.8o.... T____________T I could have bought another cardigan ok. Scammerrr!!! Now how long will I take to get over this ?.. Foolish, asinine! ... And the jumper wasn't all that great... I thought I could depend on myself to make it look a tat nicer or so.. Arghhh.. But it failed. Didn't really go the way I had planned, so now, i'll try something else. Hopefully, it's more ideal this time round. So tmr, I guess it's shopping again. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
Friday, September 05, 2008
The scolding just made me feel so sick of life. Like c'mon. This is a HOME. Isn't it supposed to be our bulwark, sactuary and just a haven replete with peace??
I really pity those who have to live with chides every day..
He was really really furious... It scares me and ruined my mood for chem.
Sleepy
i will never let music replace oxygen.
I really pity those who have to live with chides every day..
He was really really furious... It scares me and ruined my mood for chem.
Sleepy
i will never let music replace oxygen.
Monday, September 01, 2008
Yes, I just feel like going online.
Wondered what to blog about. Nothing interesting in my life to blog about. But then.. ah!
There are many things outside of my life interesting enough to mention.
I know it's kinda bad to just look at those 2 'kids', (okay teens) at the playground.
Gosh I tell you.
The M is like just hugging the F and they're kinda lying down in the hut thingy at the playground. Is this the trend nowadays? Ok, here comes the rain. I am really sorry if I just happen to look in the direction of the mini playground and really just happen to blog about it =x
Yes and I just ran. Vented my frustration. Gosh. New recipes really take a toll on me. The cookies came out not ideal. As usual, and I made another really stupid mistake again. The second time. Right the first, a few years back, I retardedly just baked plastic. this time it was cardboard. Somehow, I fell for the aluminium facade. Aside from that, I kept thinking..what went wrong? I'm bound to get things right the next time. I won't give up on baking the perfect cookie!
And i'm being bitten by the shopping bug again. I'm trying to suppress that (c'mon Le Chatelier's Principle).. let's see..what favours the backward rxn? No money! But I have $ i don't know where to spend them on. Can't wait for 26th sep!! Darren's birthday! Last day of promos! Then can start planning for the Cebu trip. Amitabha.
Right, something close to heart now:
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Seriously, I really find that I'm super honest. Like I don't lie. I really don't!!!
I merely lie about lying. That's why jy can't trust what I say xD She really needs to learn how to 'trust' me. But I guess huan chin knows the truth. Well, I guess that serious look on my face when I lie about lying pulls everything off. Hee. The first thing that comes out of my mouth (normally) is true. The next thing just conceals the truth. That's why, learn the art of deception.It pays to be discerning enough. It really does (:
I LOVE .. IJ. Weird, i love the place, not the people. And oh! high belt short pinafore length is the IN-THING now! Quirky but yes! I'm so glad I was from the low belt short pinafore length era.
Honoured & misses some dear 4.1 peeps.
Wondered what to blog about. Nothing interesting in my life to blog about. But then.. ah!
There are many things outside of my life interesting enough to mention.
I know it's kinda bad to just look at those 2 'kids', (okay teens) at the playground.
Gosh I tell you.
The M is like just hugging the F and they're kinda lying down in the hut thingy at the playground. Is this the trend nowadays? Ok, here comes the rain. I am really sorry if I just happen to look in the direction of the mini playground and really just happen to blog about it =x
Yes and I just ran. Vented my frustration. Gosh. New recipes really take a toll on me. The cookies came out not ideal. As usual, and I made another really stupid mistake again. The second time. Right the first, a few years back, I retardedly just baked plastic. this time it was cardboard. Somehow, I fell for the aluminium facade. Aside from that, I kept thinking..what went wrong? I'm bound to get things right the next time. I won't give up on baking the perfect cookie!
And i'm being bitten by the shopping bug again. I'm trying to suppress that (c'mon Le Chatelier's Principle).. let's see..what favours the backward rxn? No money! But I have $ i don't know where to spend them on. Can't wait for 26th sep!! Darren's birthday! Last day of promos! Then can start planning for the Cebu trip. Amitabha.
Right, something close to heart now:
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Seriously, I really find that I'm super honest. Like I don't lie. I really don't!!!
I merely lie about lying. That's why jy can't trust what I say xD She really needs to learn how to 'trust' me. But I guess huan chin knows the truth. Well, I guess that serious look on my face when I lie about lying pulls everything off. Hee. The first thing that comes out of my mouth (normally) is true. The next thing just conceals the truth. That's why, learn the art of deception.It pays to be discerning enough. It really does (:
I LOVE .. IJ. Weird, i love the place, not the people. And oh! high belt short pinafore length is the IN-THING now! Quirky but yes! I'm so glad I was from the low belt short pinafore length era.
Honoured & misses some dear 4.1 peeps.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
WHEE?
Yes! I went out with my hot date yesterday.
God I feel super bad making her shop even though she's really tired.
Hmm.. But if I hadn't done that, I wouldn't have had peace. Like yeah..
REally needed to just shop during the weekend but it was never realised. Sorry bel x_x!
But yeah.. Hope she finds her perfect dress (:
Well. I feel insulted. Stupid MT wutw.. Spelt my name wrongly -_- But thanks for the balloon anyway. 2 separate matters. MT wutw in-charge, you suck. Hah jk =x
Right. There's tuition on thurs. GG. I forgot! damn.. x_x!
Randoms: Carrot cereal bread is really good. Like healthy and tasty?
Going back to IJ this friday. Have to go buy roche roses. Yay..more shopping.
I need folders and files and ... PEACE with myself.
Let's not feel exasperated when we don't mug, shall we?
I can't let my life revolve around notes. yay. That's why I went shopping yesterday.. hee. and i don't feel bad abt those 2 plus hours invested in my hot date =p Party on sunday. yes i am excited.. and I've drawn up my study time table! I feel less stressed overall. That's why I'm blogging. because i'm just so free. No pw for me today.
She said our pw group's wr was good! It really improved. Right..just that bit of changes. But yes.. like finally... ok. I've talked a lot. But I don't know what to do now.
Oh dear blog. TV? C'mon..nothing much to watch. Right. Let's take a bath now.... CEBU! IPOH! SINGAPORE?
I'm still saving money, like i always do. I wanna go for a 2oo buck shopping spree at the end of the year! OMG. I'M GOING.. M.A.D.
Yes! I went out with my hot date yesterday.
God I feel super bad making her shop even though she's really tired.
Hmm.. But if I hadn't done that, I wouldn't have had peace. Like yeah..
REally needed to just shop during the weekend but it was never realised. Sorry bel x_x!
But yeah.. Hope she finds her perfect dress (:
Well. I feel insulted. Stupid MT wutw.. Spelt my name wrongly -_- But thanks for the balloon anyway. 2 separate matters. MT wutw in-charge, you suck. Hah jk =x
Right. There's tuition on thurs. GG. I forgot! damn.. x_x!
Randoms: Carrot cereal bread is really good. Like healthy and tasty?
Going back to IJ this friday. Have to go buy roche roses. Yay..more shopping.
I need folders and files and ... PEACE with myself.
Let's not feel exasperated when we don't mug, shall we?
I can't let my life revolve around notes. yay. That's why I went shopping yesterday.. hee. and i don't feel bad abt those 2 plus hours invested in my hot date =p Party on sunday. yes i am excited.. and I've drawn up my study time table! I feel less stressed overall. That's why I'm blogging. because i'm just so free. No pw for me today.
She said our pw group's wr was good! It really improved. Right..just that bit of changes. But yes.. like finally... ok. I've talked a lot. But I don't know what to do now.
Oh dear blog. TV? C'mon..nothing much to watch. Right. Let's take a bath now.... CEBU! IPOH! SINGAPORE?
I'm still saving money, like i always do. I wanna go for a 2oo buck shopping spree at the end of the year! OMG. I'M GOING.. M.A.D.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Saturday, August 02, 2008
I wanna save money. Loads of them!!!!!!
Now I have about 7oo bucks to spare.
I wanna save money!!!!!
So I could bring my dad to Japan. Or rather, just send him off to Japan. I won't be able to afford 2 persons.
I wanna save LOADS of $$$!!
So I could go to Florida and be taught by those 2 boys the art of fishing.
I wanna save loads of $$$$!!!
So I could.... go for that last time.
Friday, August 01, 2008
I'm very happy with my life now.
Looking back the whole of 20o7, it just wasn't white enough.
It was grey and black, ie. it wasn't the preferred manner of sourcing for happiness THEN.
Now, things have changed.
Clearer now.
Brighted and whiter.
Without externalities, just school.
This has to be what I've wanted right;
I suppose so.
Looking back the whole of 20o7, it just wasn't white enough.
It was grey and black, ie. it wasn't the preferred manner of sourcing for happiness THEN.
Now, things have changed.
Clearer now.
Brighted and whiter.
Without externalities, just school.
This has to be what I've wanted right;
I suppose so.
Friday, July 25, 2008
我不想我们的故事挂上句号
I've been at this pm for a few days alr. Hah. I'm really afraid and fearful that another r/s is going to end. Esp since these kinda r/s are all so valuable to me.
I've been very intolerant.
Come to think of it, it may not be your fault.
It may just be me. Again.
For wanting you 2 to be the perfect friends, when I'm fully cognizant of the fact that perfection doesn't exist in reality.
Flaws do.
Yeah, it could just be me alone.
That's why I complain and am so particular with whatever you 2 do.
Well then, I'll try to be the most understanding I could be; AND CONTINUE BEING NICE. HEE..
erase the negativity, embrace the positivity (:
Is it because yall are just SOOOO important to me?
I've been at this pm for a few days alr. Hah. I'm really afraid and fearful that another r/s is going to end. Esp since these kinda r/s are all so valuable to me.
I've been very intolerant.
Come to think of it, it may not be your fault.
It may just be me. Again.
For wanting you 2 to be the perfect friends, when I'm fully cognizant of the fact that perfection doesn't exist in reality.
Flaws do.
Yeah, it could just be me alone.
That's why I complain and am so particular with whatever you 2 do.
Well then, I'll try to be the most understanding I could be; AND CONTINUE BEING NICE. HEE..
erase the negativity, embrace the positivity (:
Is it because yall are just SOOOO important to me?
Monday, July 21, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
I'll check my mail later.
for now, I really have to drop my weapon.
I've not been nice, though the recent news pieces have really proved to be juicy.
#1; REFRAIN FROM REPEATING THEM
#2; REFRAIN FROM TALKING ABOUT THE SAME PEOPLE OVER AND OVER AGAIN
#3; CONTROL MY KP-NESS
#4; KEEP PERSONAL VIEWS LYING LOW.
Hopefully I'm able to adhere to those. Gosh.. What have I turned into man.
i'm annoying myself.
#5; REFRAIN FROM DISCUSSING PW EXCEPT ON TUESDAYS.
abstinence is white;
for now, I really have to drop my weapon.
I've not been nice, though the recent news pieces have really proved to be juicy.
#1; REFRAIN FROM REPEATING THEM
#2; REFRAIN FROM TALKING ABOUT THE SAME PEOPLE OVER AND OVER AGAIN
#3; CONTROL MY KP-NESS
#4; KEEP PERSONAL VIEWS LYING LOW.
Hopefully I'm able to adhere to those. Gosh.. What have I turned into man.
i'm annoying myself.
#5; REFRAIN FROM DISCUSSING PW EXCEPT ON TUESDAYS.
abstinence is white;
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Yay. cleared my mails.
Things are getting better now. It has been busy coz I've always perceived it as busy.
When actually, my life now is kinda rather fulfilling with packed schedules.
Well, Pw went from bad to good today.
Phews and thank God.
After BJ left us, Dy showed us his blog and read stories for us.
He revealed some of his deepest darkest moments/secrets.
It was shocking definitely.
And yeah, we have been gossiping.. And I found out another thing abt another OG mate.
VERY surprising this one. Lol.
Back to dy, not surprising about his '3 weeks ago'.
Kinda expected.
As I felt there had to be fairness, I shared my story too.
hah. I went around and around the table... and make gravely misleading statements which everyone felt they were wrong.
x_x
But the air's been cleared.
Fly declared himself free from any arms.
Joey.. lol. As naive as usual.
that's about all I have to say.
I can't divulge anymore. not here.
And I hope I don't leak out too much in the next pw discussion. gg lah.
But my thoughts.. I really wanna share them. Like spontaneously, I just want someone to know.
But my closest friends aren't there when I wanna burst them out.
Like err.. how much I detest the kids in my class?! [PURELY AN EG (:]
Things are getting better now. It has been busy coz I've always perceived it as busy.
When actually, my life now is kinda rather fulfilling with packed schedules.
Well, Pw went from bad to good today.
Phews and thank God.
After BJ left us, Dy showed us his blog and read stories for us.
He revealed some of his deepest darkest moments/secrets.
It was shocking definitely.
And yeah, we have been gossiping.. And I found out another thing abt another OG mate.
VERY surprising this one. Lol.
Back to dy, not surprising about his '3 weeks ago'.
Kinda expected.
As I felt there had to be fairness, I shared my story too.
hah. I went around and around the table... and make gravely misleading statements which everyone felt they were wrong.
x_x
But the air's been cleared.
Fly declared himself free from any arms.
Joey.. lol. As naive as usual.
that's about all I have to say.
I can't divulge anymore. not here.
And I hope I don't leak out too much in the next pw discussion. gg lah.
But my thoughts.. I really wanna share them. Like spontaneously, I just want someone to know.
But my closest friends aren't there when I wanna burst them out.
Like err.. how much I detest the kids in my class?! [PURELY AN EG (:]
Sunday, July 13, 2008
wow
In the past, it used to be my lil' bro sitting on my lap. Now?
I'd sit on his.
Well yeah. Unbelievably.
Tre is really strong now. Oh boy, he can really knock me out.
Brandon - Usual self. Introverted; we share a similar characteristic -> both of us don't like being around people.
Things have got busy and are going to get busier.
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1. Sorry for the misunderstanding. Your ambiguity just kills me.
2. Sorry bro for sitting on your right leg -_-.. making it numb.
3. Sorry bacon T_T... I hurt your leg.
who else?
Nobody else.
Bacon's cute. Very strong though. smart, friendly and kinda obedient during the first acquaintance (:
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Cousins fretting over having met the wrong guys.
lol. And 2 outta three prefer singlehood.
Count me in man.
Don't you find being single, just going around crushing people quietly without having to make a single commitment very free and just so happy?
Lol.
It's pleasant enough to just think about it, not being in it.
Ok, time to sleep.
In the past, it used to be my lil' bro sitting on my lap. Now?
I'd sit on his.
Well yeah. Unbelievably.
Tre is really strong now. Oh boy, he can really knock me out.
Brandon - Usual self. Introverted; we share a similar characteristic -> both of us don't like being around people.
Things have got busy and are going to get busier.
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1. Sorry for the misunderstanding. Your ambiguity just kills me.
2. Sorry bro for sitting on your right leg -_-.. making it numb.
3. Sorry bacon T_T... I hurt your leg.
who else?
Nobody else.
Bacon's cute. Very strong though. smart, friendly and kinda obedient during the first acquaintance (:
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Cousins fretting over having met the wrong guys.
lol. And 2 outta three prefer singlehood.
Count me in man.
Don't you find being single, just going around crushing people quietly without having to make a single commitment very free and just so happy?
Lol.
It's pleasant enough to just think about it, not being in it.
Ok, time to sleep.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
OK. I AM STRESSED. LIKE FOR ONCE I CAN REALLY FEEL THE STRESS COMING TO ME..PENETRATING MY CELLS AFTER CTs.
Everything seems to be toppling on me, and I just have to blog it all out.
This week is hectic and long. Plus little sleep.
Seriously, I can't understand where he's coming from. In fact, I'm damn pissed with him for making me do things. Lol. Ok fine. I shall try my best?! BUT Why is he coming up with all these UGH stuff and pple have to do those sub UGH stuff? Ok, I'm not gonna apologise if you can't understand what I mean. Lol. Jk (:
And 2, I have unfinished business. Like loads of 'em! And more is piling. Like what the.. But thanks BJ for that fish necklace. It's very sweet of you. Lol. but I doubt he'll ever come across this. Ok, I suppose the minor conflict we had is kinda resovled, because he's finally opening up.
But that's not the point. the point is! I have uncompleted Math, which I CANNOT do. I have econs and chem to go through, which I haven't really done so. And my dear bro kinda dragged me to sing K with him like.err..TODAY?! Really fish man.. I wonder..am I condoning him? It was the most unbearable K experience in my entire 16 years 7 months 9 days 22 hours 17 minutes 55 seconds on Earth. Still, I can't get Physics! Fly told me..CHILL. Ok, I listen to him. (only for phy)
No. 3, I need to do PW research! Why am I doing it? I really wish I could pass this burden on to the other members. Why did I volunteer to do it at first? btw, it's done. Just that I copied and pasted everything without reading it coz i just don't feel like reading anything now, except words i'm typing.
4,.. wht's 4?! I'm just so tired. Like I'm not exactly ok with doing things I just don't have the aptitude for. Esp art related stuff. God oh God. And I curse myself for using vulgarities. Dy told me to stop swearing. I'm a lady!! Ok. Girl. But nothing very very very bad came out. Just the normal stuff I speak.. multiplied by infinity..tht's why everything I said started becoming pretty vulgar. As if I'd wanted that.
5; I still can't view DY's blog. Like I've tried for a few hours but my efforts came to a nought.
Brain: SEE!! I told you not to care alr. Why should you even bother trying when it's so annoying and it makes you feel.. screwed? Why do you even care and want to know?
ME: I'm curious lah dey. like uh super. I wanna know who his gf/crush/bf is . Hot news eh.
well, I guess I will never find out.
I WANNA SLEEP ALL THE BAD STUFF AWAY. but tmr when i open my eyes..no wait. even before that..when my brain is switched on, everything will start to rush to me.. the stress will be there again. Tmr. Until I get it done.
Ok i'm going through chem. It'll make me sleep.
Everything seems to be toppling on me, and I just have to blog it all out.
This week is hectic and long. Plus little sleep.
Seriously, I can't understand where he's coming from. In fact, I'm damn pissed with him for making me do things. Lol. Ok fine. I shall try my best?! BUT Why is he coming up with all these UGH stuff and pple have to do those sub UGH stuff? Ok, I'm not gonna apologise if you can't understand what I mean. Lol. Jk (:
And 2, I have unfinished business. Like loads of 'em! And more is piling. Like what the.. But thanks BJ for that fish necklace. It's very sweet of you. Lol. but I doubt he'll ever come across this. Ok, I suppose the minor conflict we had is kinda resovled, because he's finally opening up.
But that's not the point. the point is! I have uncompleted Math, which I CANNOT do. I have econs and chem to go through, which I haven't really done so. And my dear bro kinda dragged me to sing K with him like.err..TODAY?! Really fish man.. I wonder..am I condoning him? It was the most unbearable K experience in my entire 16 years 7 months 9 days 22 hours 17 minutes 55 seconds on Earth. Still, I can't get Physics! Fly told me..CHILL. Ok, I listen to him. (only for phy)
No. 3, I need to do PW research! Why am I doing it? I really wish I could pass this burden on to the other members. Why did I volunteer to do it at first? btw, it's done. Just that I copied and pasted everything without reading it coz i just don't feel like reading anything now, except words i'm typing.
4,.. wht's 4?! I'm just so tired. Like I'm not exactly ok with doing things I just don't have the aptitude for. Esp art related stuff. God oh God. And I curse myself for using vulgarities. Dy told me to stop swearing. I'm a lady!! Ok. Girl. But nothing very very very bad came out. Just the normal stuff I speak.. multiplied by infinity..tht's why everything I said started becoming pretty vulgar. As if I'd wanted that.
5; I still can't view DY's blog. Like I've tried for a few hours but my efforts came to a nought.
Brain: SEE!! I told you not to care alr. Why should you even bother trying when it's so annoying and it makes you feel.. screwed? Why do you even care and want to know?
ME: I'm curious lah dey. like uh super. I wanna know who his gf/crush/bf is . Hot news eh.
well, I guess I will never find out.
I WANNA SLEEP ALL THE BAD STUFF AWAY. but tmr when i open my eyes..no wait. even before that..when my brain is switched on, everything will start to rush to me.. the stress will be there again. Tmr. Until I get it done.
Ok i'm going through chem. It'll make me sleep.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Ok.
I promise and swear dude:
I'm not going to expect anything from them anymore.
Let's keep the expectations to negative.
Then we'll see how the project goes.. when I stop nagging them to complete their tasks and at least fulfill their duties as group members.
Be more tolerant towards them.
THEY ARE NICE PEOPLE.
也许只要以一颗平常心待他们，我就不会感到那么困扰。
Is it really about tolerance?
Or indifference?
I swear I'll be passive towards them and their work from now on, lest both parties suffer.
Unecessarily.
There can't only always be one source of fuel.
The vehicle we're in has 5 people, and the fuel has ran out.
So goodbye.
Yes, indifference is the key.
I promise and swear dude:
I'm not going to expect anything from them anymore.
Let's keep the expectations to negative.
Then we'll see how the project goes.. when I stop nagging them to complete their tasks and at least fulfill their duties as group members.
Be more tolerant towards them.
THEY ARE NICE PEOPLE.
也许只要以一颗平常心待他们，我就不会感到那么困扰。
Is it really about tolerance?
Or indifference?
I swear I'll be passive towards them and their work from now on, lest both parties suffer.
Unecessarily.
There can't only always be one source of fuel.
The vehicle we're in has 5 people, and the fuel has ran out.
So goodbye.
Yes, indifference is the key.
Friday, June 27, 2008
It was supposed to be a happy day, wasn't it?
Going out with the og.. though i didn't expect many pple to turn up. except the same few people.
Well, things are changing, for sure.
More couples, more deaths.
Distressing.
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New friends, old friends!?!?
i don't know anymore. that distinction... how do you define old friends? is there even such a person who's an old friend to you?
i pondered over that, but gave up.
aha..
yes and i'm jealous.
Jealous of the rp people. they have little 'old' friends. coz all their friends are still with them. like 99.9%?! whereas for us, even close friends in the same college now are becoming more distant. and not so close friends are becoming closer.
Yes, we make new friends. To the extent we forget our old ones? Damn i tell you.
It really needs constant contact and communication to keep any r/s going. or else, another death.
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sometimes, don't you feel that whatever comes up of your mouth is becoming increasingly fake? even when they're nothing but the truth? like you're repeating the same whole story over and over again such that they seem like.. plain lies.
how scary.
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I don't know which is it.
Family? Friends? Og? Class? CTs? Or just me.
Going out with the og.. though i didn't expect many pple to turn up. except the same few people.
Well, things are changing, for sure.
More couples, more deaths.
Distressing.
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New friends, old friends!?!?
i don't know anymore. that distinction... how do you define old friends? is there even such a person who's an old friend to you?
i pondered over that, but gave up.
aha..
yes and i'm jealous.
Jealous of the rp people. they have little 'old' friends. coz all their friends are still with them. like 99.9%?! whereas for us, even close friends in the same college now are becoming more distant. and not so close friends are becoming closer.
Yes, we make new friends. To the extent we forget our old ones? Damn i tell you.
It really needs constant contact and communication to keep any r/s going. or else, another death.
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sometimes, don't you feel that whatever comes up of your mouth is becoming increasingly fake? even when they're nothing but the truth? like you're repeating the same whole story over and over again such that they seem like.. plain lies.
how scary.
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I don't know which is it.
Family? Friends? Og? Class? CTs? Or just me.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
It was enlightening.
Yes. Maybe some people just like to be alone.
They've tried enough; to be who others want them to be.
But if you don't accept yourself, how do you expect others to accept you for who you are?
They may seem to be anti-social, self-centered and just another loner.
Maybe..
I should acknowledge that nothing's really wrong with him.
I should ought to stop what I've been thinking, abt him. All the negative stuff x_x
When really, it's just his nature.
我无需认同但需理解. Shao's words of wisdom.
Hah. That wasn't really my purpose of blogging now.
But I just can't seem to rmb the unhappiness?
Ah wells.
Right, the convo brought me back here.
And now, tada!!
Maybe it's not wrong anynore. It never was right. Neither should it be vilified by our morals, if we have any. I don't have to accept what they're thinking and feeling. I'd just have to understand that.. at the end of the day, what matters the most is that they're happy. Afterall, different people have different OB markers. I'm glad that she's happy doing what she's doing. Even if I still think it isn't very correct.. Maybe time will change all that.
As for me, I'm still trying hard to deny instead of escaping. Are they the same?
Maybe it isn't denial, it's what my heart speaks. It's the truth!!
So well, I shouldn't be bothered by me thinking what I think is true, when actually, it's nothing but an invisible wall. No.. no wall dude. Just nothing. NOTHING. Get it?
Ya know, sometimes, the more you think about something that doesn't exist, something that just aint there, the more it starts to form and just begin to appear like it exists, when actually it doesn't. understand? Hah.
Taz and great night.
Yes. Maybe some people just like to be alone.
They've tried enough; to be who others want them to be.
But if you don't accept yourself, how do you expect others to accept you for who you are?
They may seem to be anti-social, self-centered and just another loner.
Maybe..
I should acknowledge that nothing's really wrong with him.
I should ought to stop what I've been thinking, abt him. All the negative stuff x_x
When really, it's just his nature.
我无需认同但需理解. Shao's words of wisdom.
Hah. That wasn't really my purpose of blogging now.
But I just can't seem to rmb the unhappiness?
Ah wells.
Right, the convo brought me back here.
And now, tada!!
Maybe it's not wrong anynore. It never was right. Neither should it be vilified by our morals, if we have any. I don't have to accept what they're thinking and feeling. I'd just have to understand that.. at the end of the day, what matters the most is that they're happy. Afterall, different people have different OB markers. I'm glad that she's happy doing what she's doing. Even if I still think it isn't very correct.. Maybe time will change all that.
As for me, I'm still trying hard to deny instead of escaping. Are they the same?
Maybe it isn't denial, it's what my heart speaks. It's the truth!!
So well, I shouldn't be bothered by me thinking what I think is true, when actually, it's nothing but an invisible wall. No.. no wall dude. Just nothing. NOTHING. Get it?
Ya know, sometimes, the more you think about something that doesn't exist, something that just aint there, the more it starts to form and just begin to appear like it exists, when actually it doesn't. understand? Hah.
Taz and great night.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Maybe chelNg's right.
The Dinos died perhaps coz they were just too lazy to multiply.
Well well.
Am I like a very naggy/lousy sis? Hah. I wonder.
I keep nagging my bro to mug. like..err. GO MUG AND STOP PLAYING THAT CHILDISH GAME. -_-
And he never does listen. We've tried talking some sense into him.
I told him, as long as you start mugging now, you sure can get in JC.
He wants to get into college. He believes he can and he will.
I think otherwise. And I said if he can get into JC, i'll give him a hundred bucks. As for which currency, let's not disclose it yet.
I told him to mug. Like how I do.
Then he replied: I also not going to RJ.
That's very true. And how proud would a sis be when her younger bro could study in the same sch as she does.
Maybe I'm too..uhh.. forceful towards him.
I really don't know what I know and don't.
The Dinos died perhaps coz they were just too lazy to multiply.
Well well.
Am I like a very naggy/lousy sis? Hah. I wonder.
I keep nagging my bro to mug. like..err. GO MUG AND STOP PLAYING THAT CHILDISH GAME. -_-
And he never does listen. We've tried talking some sense into him.
I told him, as long as you start mugging now, you sure can get in JC.
He wants to get into college. He believes he can and he will.
I think otherwise. And I said if he can get into JC, i'll give him a hundred bucks. As for which currency, let's not disclose it yet.
I told him to mug. Like how I do.
Then he replied: I also not going to RJ.
That's very true. And how proud would a sis be when her younger bro could study in the same sch as she does.
Maybe I'm too..uhh.. forceful towards him.
I really don't know what I know and don't.
Friday, June 06, 2008
Ok. I forgot what i wanted to blog.
But yesterday was err... not good?
PW... Gosh. Why don't the two boys understand.
It's becoming more ambiguous.
Am I working for my own A? Or am I also working for their Aces?
(life's fair)
Ya know... the closer you are to someone, the more you'll be affected by the slightest thing they say/do.
The best part?
they don't even realise it.
Wowness..
Today! though. LiKi really helps cheer me up. Hah like xue errrrr. 2 happy people in kneo's life.
symposium was damn good.
like ... the fun part was there.
The insightful bit. The networking and making friends though i wasn't in the befriending mode today.
Well.. i guess things would always turn out different from expectations.
Oh..!! now i remember what I wanted to get across in this post.
Hah..Lame but true.
Well..dinner was horrid.
2-days-old food really tasted like vomit. though they looked freaking fresh and good... See!...
It really is true that looks are deceiving.
Gosh... Life's fair. So accept it (:
But yesterday was err... not good?
PW... Gosh. Why don't the two boys understand.
It's becoming more ambiguous.
Am I working for my own A? Or am I also working for their Aces?
(life's fair)
Ya know... the closer you are to someone, the more you'll be affected by the slightest thing they say/do.
The best part?
they don't even realise it.
Wowness..
Today! though. LiKi really helps cheer me up. Hah like xue errrrr. 2 happy people in kneo's life.
symposium was damn good.
like ... the fun part was there.
The insightful bit. The networking and making friends though i wasn't in the befriending mode today.
Well.. i guess things would always turn out different from expectations.
Oh..!! now i remember what I wanted to get across in this post.
Hah..Lame but true.
Well..dinner was horrid.
2-days-old food really tasted like vomit. though they looked freaking fresh and good... See!...
It really is true that looks are deceiving.
Gosh... Life's fair. So accept it (:
Thursday, May 29, 2008
FACED WITH A MORAL DILEMMA NOW.
DAMN LAH.
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE CAREFUL.
GOSH. THINGS TODAY DIDN'T GO WELL. NOT AT ALL.
SCREW THAT @#@!#~!#$# PERSON.
Isb is right. Dao him. really an A double S. ughhhh!!!
Heck him!!!! How I wish i could.
The way it came to me; i could really just feel he meant i was completely hopeless. screw my ROS.
I have a lot inside me to deal with right now.
Haven't seen my mum for 3.5 days alr. Only heard her voice yesterday.
Pathetic me.
Have been mugging. Only form of recrea.
I'm always alone at home. WHY??!
And now I have to find lil' bro coz he's MIA-ing after his XXXXXXX surgery.
Amen and bye bye.
DAMN LAH.
I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE CAREFUL.
GOSH. THINGS TODAY DIDN'T GO WELL. NOT AT ALL.
SCREW THAT @#@!#~!#$# PERSON.
Isb is right. Dao him. really an A double S. ughhhh!!!
Heck him!!!! How I wish i could.
The way it came to me; i could really just feel he meant i was completely hopeless. screw my ROS.
I have a lot inside me to deal with right now.
Haven't seen my mum for 3.5 days alr. Only heard her voice yesterday.
Pathetic me.
Have been mugging. Only form of recrea.
I'm always alone at home. WHY??!
And now I have to find lil' bro coz he's MIA-ing after his XXXXXXX surgery.
Amen and bye bye.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Why does such a happy day have to end up so miserable?
God doesn't like kristyn to be happy till the end.
He brought her up to the 18th floor and made her fall.
She fell, sank deep.
Went beneath the ground.
It was hard, concrete. Slammed.
She's incoherent now.
That wave of misery and undue guilt had slapped her real hard.
(不知者无罪) doesn't work for her.
What's done has been condemned. Denigrated. Vilified.
Coming home and being slapped with (don't you go out anymore) didn't help. Not at all.
But does she care? No.. not really.
Coz she doesn't wanna go for class outings no more. Though she's aware her classmates love her.
She's ashamed. Utterly.
Ashamed of being unaware, of being too insensitive. Just for that minute.
Where was her observant being at that time?
It was in that machine.
That machine - a curse.
Luckily I have bella to rant at. To just get it off my chest. Even if it means for a while. I love you bellaaa. Thank you. Very much.
快乐可以和你分享。痛苦由自己承受就足够。
No, i'm not gonna share it. Not with you.. Once again. I'm sorry for being so selfish. Even though friends are supposed to be there for one another. Good and bad times. The latter just doens't work for me.
If only (sorry) would help.
It doesn.t
God doesn't like kristyn to be happy till the end.
He brought her up to the 18th floor and made her fall.
She fell, sank deep.
Went beneath the ground.
It was hard, concrete. Slammed.
She's incoherent now.
That wave of misery and undue guilt had slapped her real hard.
(不知者无罪) doesn't work for her.
What's done has been condemned. Denigrated. Vilified.
Coming home and being slapped with (don't you go out anymore) didn't help. Not at all.
But does she care? No.. not really.
Coz she doesn't wanna go for class outings no more. Though she's aware her classmates love her.
She's ashamed. Utterly.
Ashamed of being unaware, of being too insensitive. Just for that minute.
Where was her observant being at that time?
It was in that machine.
That machine - a curse.
Luckily I have bella to rant at. To just get it off my chest. Even if it means for a while. I love you bellaaa. Thank you. Very much.
快乐可以和你分享。痛苦由自己承受就足够。
No, i'm not gonna share it. Not with you.. Once again. I'm sorry for being so selfish. Even though friends are supposed to be there for one another. Good and bad times. The latter just doens't work for me.
If only (sorry) would help.
It doesn.t
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
I need you right now.
HUAN CHIN!!! DU YAO!! FOO LAI!!
PRO PPLE!! I NEED YALL!!
GG x_x
How I wish I'm able to just solve all those phy questions all by myself.
It really just destroyed my mood for the entire day, esp since i started doing them in the morning. like a good whole 2.5 hrs at the very least on phy. with 1+ hr on those 3 qns alone, which duh. I eventually didn't manage to solve.
Was rude to mummy. I apologize.
Well well. Something happy though.
My tooth's mended!.. like woah..
i guess that's a blessing.
HUAN CHIN!!! DU YAO!! FOO LAI!!
PRO PPLE!! I NEED YALL!!
GG x_x
How I wish I'm able to just solve all those phy questions all by myself.
It really just destroyed my mood for the entire day, esp since i started doing them in the morning. like a good whole 2.5 hrs at the very least on phy. with 1+ hr on those 3 qns alone, which duh. I eventually didn't manage to solve.
Was rude to mummy. I apologize.
Well well. Something happy though.
My tooth's mended!.. like woah..
i guess that's a blessing.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
A 'thank you' alone aint enough.
It's supposed to be GROUP work.
It really is absurb to say or even think that work is delegated according to how much free time the member has.
Ok. That didn't occur.
BUT there's really insignificant difference b/w volunteering to help you do your job (because you do substandard work or rather.. plagarism) and 'work delegation'. because you do such a lousy job, someone HAS to intervene, no??!
OR the average mark per member would just continue it's roll down the slope. As if the gradient aint steep enough.
Enough of being nice, it's time to get things..SERIOUS BUSINESS into your head, mate.
I really wanna just remain indifferent and expect much less from you.
Be glad i'm still EXPECTING something from ya.
Cheero.
It's supposed to be GROUP work.
It really is absurb to say or even think that work is delegated according to how much free time the member has.
Ok. That didn't occur.
BUT there's really insignificant difference b/w volunteering to help you do your job (because you do substandard work or rather.. plagarism) and 'work delegation'. because you do such a lousy job, someone HAS to intervene, no??!
OR the average mark per member would just continue it's roll down the slope. As if the gradient aint steep enough.
Enough of being nice, it's time to get things..SERIOUS BUSINESS into your head, mate.
I really wanna just remain indifferent and expect much less from you.
Be glad i'm still EXPECTING something from ya.
Cheero.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
The hectic week just passed. damn my poor mental strength. but well.
phy is really screwed now. as if i didn't study enough. well.. lil' exposure to diff genres of qns and freakin' weak concepts.
now for chem.. Mr lee says can finish in 1o mins. i can, ya know.
If i'm as pro as him. -_-
All alone at home now. Bros went out. Parents coming back later.
The past 2 days were ok at home. Actually..i reached home only after nine for both days.
So.. didn't feel tht bad being with the 2 of them at home. coz i was hardly there.
family didn't feel like family.
many many many things happened the past 4 days..like..those events still linger around.
thought trail back to the past.
very very stressed. like..tests and gp CT. freak.. i've not read/touched the newsp for 5 days!! like wth.. i could only gain access to the rest of the world via mobtv. -_-...
i'll read the papers after i return from sch..which would be around 10. well well. then sleep. then the next day aka sunday PW in sch at 7.3o!!!
i have to wake up at err.. 6.30. wow...
ok. shan't let the stress get to me anymore!!
YAY.
stress prevents the neurons from transmitting impulses.
SHoooooo.
LET'S MAINTAIN A MEGA HIGH LEVEL OF OPTIMISM (MHLO) FOR THE REST OF UH..THE WEEK. = D . . . MHLO is directly proportional to MHLExhaustion.
BYE BYEEE.
phy is really screwed now. as if i didn't study enough. well.. lil' exposure to diff genres of qns and freakin' weak concepts.
now for chem.. Mr lee says can finish in 1o mins. i can, ya know.
If i'm as pro as him. -_-
All alone at home now. Bros went out. Parents coming back later.
The past 2 days were ok at home. Actually..i reached home only after nine for both days.
So.. didn't feel tht bad being with the 2 of them at home. coz i was hardly there.
family didn't feel like family.
many many many things happened the past 4 days..like..those events still linger around.
thought trail back to the past.
very very stressed. like..tests and gp CT. freak.. i've not read/touched the newsp for 5 days!! like wth.. i could only gain access to the rest of the world via mobtv. -_-...
i'll read the papers after i return from sch..which would be around 10. well well. then sleep. then the next day aka sunday PW in sch at 7.3o!!!
i have to wake up at err.. 6.30. wow...
ok. shan't let the stress get to me anymore!!
YAY.
stress prevents the neurons from transmitting impulses.
SHoooooo.
LET'S MAINTAIN A MEGA HIGH LEVEL OF OPTIMISM (MHLO) FOR THE REST OF UH..THE WEEK. = D . . . MHLO is directly proportional to MHLExhaustion.
BYE BYEEE.
Monday, May 05, 2008
Sunday, May 04, 2008
WHAT'S UP WITH FOOD AND ME LATELY?!?!?!?!?!?!
DAMN LAH.
started with cup noodles which were half uncooked??! water at 6o deg is useless.
next was that mint candy which chewed part of my tooth out.
then came that freaking apple which was rotten on the inside, + I still unknowingly chewed on it w/o realising it until that bitterness penetrated my tastebuds.
ok. no more swearing.
I ONLY TRUST WATER NOW. NOTHING BUT CHILLED TAP WATER.
AMEN.
DAMN LAH.
started with cup noodles which were half uncooked??! water at 6o deg is useless.
next was that mint candy which chewed part of my tooth out.
then came that freaking apple which was rotten on the inside, + I still unknowingly chewed on it w/o realising it until that bitterness penetrated my tastebuds.
ok. no more swearing.
I ONLY TRUST WATER NOW. NOTHING BUT CHILLED TAP WATER.
AMEN.
Monday, April 28, 2008
When i heard she was leavin'..was i happy?
I don't know. hmms.
Then on.. my dearrrrr friends sounded so .. uh.. kinda upset.
Now that affected me.
I was supposed to rejoice aint i?
But clearly, i didn't.
Well.. We've spent time together.
Went through the harshest and funniest moments together.
Things can get a lil tight.. uh. the r/s part, that is.
Now I can't really bear to see her go.
If only indifference could be manipulated by me.
Now besides that, parents are leaving for genting next week!! T_____T
damn damn damn. i'll be stuck with my bros. bros who don't bother to clean up after themselves. bros who expect me to iron their clothes!! (how'd i wish i was more indifferent to them) And i'll have to learn how to function without parents by that time.
Like..DAMN... i'm already functioning without a maid. grr.. ughhh!! I want my mummy and daddyyyyyyyyyy.
All rightsss. Let's see how i'll blog abt the experience next week.
Till then dear blog.
Lovesss
I don't know. hmms.
Then on.. my dearrrrr friends sounded so .. uh.. kinda upset.
Now that affected me.
I was supposed to rejoice aint i?
But clearly, i didn't.
Well.. We've spent time together.
Went through the harshest and funniest moments together.
Things can get a lil tight.. uh. the r/s part, that is.
Now I can't really bear to see her go.
If only indifference could be manipulated by me.
Now besides that, parents are leaving for genting next week!! T_____T
damn damn damn. i'll be stuck with my bros. bros who don't bother to clean up after themselves. bros who expect me to iron their clothes!! (how'd i wish i was more indifferent to them) And i'll have to learn how to function without parents by that time.
Like..DAMN... i'm already functioning without a maid. grr.. ughhh!! I want my mummy and daddyyyyyyyyyy.
All rightsss. Let's see how i'll blog abt the experience next week.
Till then dear blog.
Lovesss
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
He doesn't know me well enough to say : this doesn't sound like you.
lol. that's true. We didn't get to interact that much. And half the time, what I appear to be is just not who I am. it's just what i am. Get the diff? Hah..
So I'll tell you, I say what I feel but don't show how I feel.
yayness. PW sux man. yes.
And tht stupid KFC with no shrooms burger. -_-
lousy loh.
hah.
Yes i still can't get my mind off it.
lol. that's true. We didn't get to interact that much. And half the time, what I appear to be is just not who I am. it's just what i am. Get the diff? Hah..
So I'll tell you, I say what I feel but don't show how I feel.
yayness. PW sux man. yes.
And tht stupid KFC with no shrooms burger. -_-
lousy loh.
hah.
Yes i still can't get my mind off it.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Ok. Du yao went to write our names on the whiteboard. The queue for our essay analysis to be analysed by Miss Vig. Hah. He wrote my nickname. What the.. Then everyone was asking who that was. Lol. Kist -.-.. when his handwriting meant Kirt. lol loh.
And i told him..
kristyn: it's supposed to come with the fullstop behind the 't'. -_-
Du: Orh.. why?
kristyn: Coz fullstops signal an end??
Du: Oh..
Silence for a while coz miss vig seems to be eyeing on us =x
Du: So do you prefer the Chinese fullstop or the English one?
kristyn: Diao -.-... *paused for a moment*.. The English one.
Du: why?
kristyn: Coz.. The english one's a solid dot. And this shows the end is complete. The chinese one's just a boundary. The empty space in the middle shows the end's just not strong enough..just so.. umm...just not wholesome enough i guess.
Du: I see.. -.-ll
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And I was thinking how selfish i could be:
I'd rather God take me away and make my loved ones suffer than God take my loved ones away and make me suffer.
And i told him..
kristyn: it's supposed to come with the fullstop behind the 't'. -_-
Du: Orh.. why?
kristyn: Coz fullstops signal an end??
Du: Oh..
Silence for a while coz miss vig seems to be eyeing on us =x
Du: So do you prefer the Chinese fullstop or the English one?
kristyn: Diao -.-... *paused for a moment*.. The English one.
Du: why?
kristyn: Coz.. The english one's a solid dot. And this shows the end is complete. The chinese one's just a boundary. The empty space in the middle shows the end's just not strong enough..just so.. umm...just not wholesome enough i guess.
Du: I see.. -.-ll
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And I was thinking how selfish i could be:
I'd rather God take me away and make my loved ones suffer than God take my loved ones away and make me suffer.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Actually i don't feel like blogging now.
I feel .. like i'm being watched. Somehow.
Maybe by my shadow!
Hahs.
yes. my bro just said the second line aloud. slap him lah. -_-
he's so..@#$!@#$^@$!
He sees everything. lol. I don't care. yay.
Wouldn't you be more liberated if you hadn't cared?
Well, i would.
Hah. I never realised some things were so unreachable.
Even if they were just before you, the distance seems greater.
Now that's hell.
Big time.
Is it really me to be that hyped up and that.. 'cheerful'?
WO BU ZHI DAO.
Whee.
THE END.
I feel .. like i'm being watched. Somehow.
Maybe by my shadow!
Hahs.
yes. my bro just said the second line aloud. slap him lah. -_-
he's so..@#$!@#$^@$!
He sees everything. lol. I don't care. yay.
Wouldn't you be more liberated if you hadn't cared?
Well, i would.
Hah. I never realised some things were so unreachable.
Even if they were just before you, the distance seems greater.
Now that's hell.
Big time.
Is it really me to be that hyped up and that.. 'cheerful'?
WO BU ZHI DAO.
Whee.
THE END.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
This is going to be dead till i feel like it.
Sorry.
Life just has been about complaining and me being super un_nice and just crappish.
Annoying & Annoyed.
I should really ought to ..
Just be more forgiving. Less complaining. Less repetitive. Less annoying.
Nicer. More neutral.
Just try to be who I want to be.
Who I really want to see myself become.
The journey to perfection won't even end till after death.
Let's just see who and what and how I shall become.
That's it .
Sorry.
Life just has been about complaining and me being super un_nice and just crappish.
Annoying & Annoyed.
I should really ought to ..
Just be more forgiving. Less complaining. Less repetitive. Less annoying.
Nicer. More neutral.
Just try to be who I want to be.
Who I really want to see myself become.
The journey to perfection won't even end till after death.
Let's just see who and what and how I shall become.
That's it .
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Yo blog!
I feel kinda stifled now.
So tada! here i am! (:
I never knew our OG was that happening.
I never even thought abt the possibility and probability of such things happening.
And I seriously didn't know it happens to like.. almost everyone?!
Hmms.
And I know the situation I'm in can never get any worse.
Too extreme.
Find joy in it.
Afterall, the process is the more impt one right? Not the outcome eh.
And the process will equate to NO outcome at all.
So it's basically just walking right into a deep hole.
LOL. Ouch.. it hurts right?
That's supposed to be it.
But I dun feel that very strongly = i'm super lucky the hole didn't kill me =D
Others would react differently.
Afterall, we're in diff situations.
Just try to get the most out of it (:
Which is basically nothing again.
Hmm..
I blogged this junk coz the words just appeared in my head and i like to construct sentences with such random words.
TADA! And that's what you get. (:
No of times the random word may be used = unlimited~
I feel kinda stifled now.
So tada! here i am! (:
I never knew our OG was that happening.
I never even thought abt the possibility and probability of such things happening.
And I seriously didn't know it happens to like.. almost everyone?!
Hmms.
And I know the situation I'm in can never get any worse.
Too extreme.
Find joy in it.
Afterall, the process is the more impt one right? Not the outcome eh.
And the process will equate to NO outcome at all.
So it's basically just walking right into a deep hole.
LOL. Ouch.. it hurts right?
That's supposed to be it.
But I dun feel that very strongly = i'm super lucky the hole didn't kill me =D
Others would react differently.
Afterall, we're in diff situations.
Just try to get the most out of it (:
Which is basically nothing again.
Hmm..
I blogged this junk coz the words just appeared in my head and i like to construct sentences with such random words.
TADA! And that's what you get. (:
No of times the random word may be used = unlimited~
Monday, March 10, 2008
Waha.
I bet you missed me a lot, dear blog =D
Hees..
Didn't feel like blogging the past few weeks.
Hahs.
Or maybe i didn't have the time?
I'm sure.
La la la.
I'm still stuck at that silly phy Qn!!
BJ couldn't solve it either. HAh. For once, he had to look at my paper for an ans to the next ''cheem'' qn.
Right.
Life has been really boring.
Class and OG class and OG. I love them both.
Hah.
Whatever it is, I picture...
I'm obstinately walking towards this hole. And of course, I feel myself falling into it. Just a matter of time. Despite BJ's comments and stuff, i find myself happily enjoying that walk, or rather fall. into that super deep hole. HAh. not as if it's my first time falling from such height.
It's a blissful fall (:
YAY.
I'm sure i can't wait for photog camp man. To keep me away from boredom. yay.
maybe we could do some GP during the camp! =D
Like instead of bridging overnight, we could GP overnight. xD
Hahs.
I bet you missed me a lot, dear blog =D
Hees..
Didn't feel like blogging the past few weeks.
Hahs.
Or maybe i didn't have the time?
I'm sure.
La la la.
I'm still stuck at that silly phy Qn!!
BJ couldn't solve it either. HAh. For once, he had to look at my paper for an ans to the next ''cheem'' qn.
Right.
Life has been really boring.
Class and OG class and OG. I love them both.
Hah.
Whatever it is, I picture...
I'm obstinately walking towards this hole. And of course, I feel myself falling into it. Just a matter of time. Despite BJ's comments and stuff, i find myself happily enjoying that walk, or rather fall. into that super deep hole. HAh. not as if it's my first time falling from such height.
It's a blissful fall (:
YAY.
I'm sure i can't wait for photog camp man. To keep me away from boredom. yay.
maybe we could do some GP during the camp! =D
Like instead of bridging overnight, we could GP overnight. xD
Hahs.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
How i wish I could slam this into her face:
ONLINE PERSONALITIES AND REAL LIFE PERSONALITIES ARE SO SO DIFFERENT DUDE.
God. I'm beginning to dislike civics and GP!!
Seriously, the teacher affects a student's liking to that subject.
I don't pay attention during civics and my face's black most of the time when she teaches.
let's try to change that, shall we? (:
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
ONLINE PERSONALITIES AND REAL LIFE PERSONALITIES ARE SO SO DIFFERENT DUDE.
God. I'm beginning to dislike civics and GP!!
Seriously, the teacher affects a student's liking to that subject.
I don't pay attention during civics and my face's black most of the time when she teaches.
let's try to change that, shall we? (:
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
Monday, February 18, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Hope comes with letting go.
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Right. One man bridge is boring. -_-
Blah..
oh god.
give me the mugging mood.
there's nothing much to do at home.
I need to go popularrrrrr
then return with stuff to do.
ah ah ah.
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don't you feel hopeful thinking abt things you know will never occur?
dare to hope?
Nah..I dare to think. Not hope.
Aha.
thinking about useless stuff - like..trying to recall my new password. I just changed it. Oh damn.
Redundant but it keeps my brain active. =D
lol.
it's really time to move on.
Away from IJ.
Regardless of separation.
From sch. From friends. Especially newfound ones.
Time is just slipping away. So quickly.
TADA! It's like..mid feb now.
And orientation seemed like it took place just yesterday.
Now waiting for Orientation 2.
I don't feel a thing. For the next orientation.
It affects me.
Indirectly.
JAE results.
Crap lah.
affecting friends = affecting me.
TADA!
Ok.
Hoping that no one leaves tuk tuk and 6N is really pointless.
It's always better to be more practical right?
Degree of disappointment is directly proportional to the highness of hope.
yay. there's such a word --> highness.
Internal reshuffling.
I don't want any of that. NOT AT ALL.
Ugh!
What's to be faced has to be faced.
Reality is never kind.
TADA!
Screw myself.
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Right. One man bridge is boring. -_-
Blah..
oh god.
give me the mugging mood.
there's nothing much to do at home.
I need to go popularrrrrr
then return with stuff to do.
ah ah ah.
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don't you feel hopeful thinking abt things you know will never occur?
dare to hope?
Nah..I dare to think. Not hope.
Aha.
thinking about useless stuff - like..trying to recall my new password. I just changed it. Oh damn.
Redundant but it keeps my brain active. =D
lol.
it's really time to move on.
Away from IJ.
Regardless of separation.
From sch. From friends. Especially newfound ones.
Time is just slipping away. So quickly.
TADA! It's like..mid feb now.
And orientation seemed like it took place just yesterday.
Now waiting for Orientation 2.
I don't feel a thing. For the next orientation.
It affects me.
Indirectly.
JAE results.
Crap lah.
affecting friends = affecting me.
TADA!
Ok.
Hoping that no one leaves tuk tuk and 6N is really pointless.
It's always better to be more practical right?
Degree of disappointment is directly proportional to the highness of hope.
yay. there's such a word --> highness.
Internal reshuffling.
I don't want any of that. NOT AT ALL.
Ugh!
What's to be faced has to be faced.
Reality is never kind.
TADA!
Screw myself.
Friday, February 15, 2008
My flowers are withering. T_T
My chocolates are going down my digestive system.
Woahs.
Barely a day eh, and i'm almost done with the chocs x_x
Right. I didn't get many.
In IJ, it would be a bag full.
Aha.
Today's class outing was super fun!
And we won the Captain's ball competition!
3rd.
Better than nothing. and much much better than expected.
bridge bridge bridge!
My newfound addiction =D
It'll probably subside tmr. (=
YAY.
6N ftw!
i love tuktuk!
=D
My chocolates are going down my digestive system.
Woahs.
Barely a day eh, and i'm almost done with the chocs x_x
Right. I didn't get many.
In IJ, it would be a bag full.
Aha.
Today's class outing was super fun!
And we won the Captain's ball competition!
3rd.
Better than nothing. and much much better than expected.
bridge bridge bridge!
My newfound addiction =D
It'll probably subside tmr. (=
YAY.
6N ftw!
i love tuktuk!
=D
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
It's stereotyped for guys to hold the door for girls.
I've just realised.
Well.. today was another fiasco.
Horrible.
The guys didn't even touch the cake.
Though it was not some fanciful cake, still. Show some appreciation man.
So we've decided.
Next time, we'll only celebrate the girls' birthdays.
The guys. they can all go d.i.e.
>_>
Ok lah. The birthday I/C will see how it goes.
My econs sux.
GP sux.
Phy sux.
Chem sux.
everything sux.
yayy.
I've just realised.
It's stereotyped for jerks to not hold the door for girls.
yay. Well.. today was another fiasco.
Horrible.
The guys didn't even touch the cake.
Though it was not some fanciful cake, still. Show some appreciation man.
So we've decided.
Next time, we'll only celebrate the girls' birthdays.
The guys. they can all go d.i.e.
>_>
Ok lah. The birthday I/C will see how it goes.
My econs sux.
GP sux.
Phy sux.
Chem sux.
everything sux.
yayy.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Friday, February 08, 2008
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Monday, February 04, 2008
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Saturday, February 02, 2008
yay.
i've let go.
Of the joke. yay again. That joke shall become history. A memory worth keeping and recollecting. yay. Come to think of it, only have myself to blame . But I've crawled out of the hole! Yay. Despite it being a horribly deep one and myself being vertically challenged. I did it.
yay.
one burden less.
+
no more consuming myself.
letting go has been difficult. but i'm pro! WAHA.
Yay. All thanks to dear blog and myself and myself and myself.
lols. And of course!! my beloved tuk tuk!
My brother sux! yay.
Is he just tht lazy to even use his brain?
Or is his mind somewhere else?
Dude! Its e math. yay.
Oh god. Sum of Angles in a triangle = 36o deg.
How funny.
Blur pig seh.
Lost his focus..and he's trying to get it back.
Yay. I'm helping him do that.
By constantly chiding him.
yay.
I'm still his beloved + one and only sister.
yay.
I LOVE TUK TUKKKK.
YAY.
I LOVE 09SO6N. YAY.
i've let go.
Of the joke. yay again. That joke shall become history. A memory worth keeping and recollecting. yay. Come to think of it, only have myself to blame . But I've crawled out of the hole! Yay. Despite it being a horribly deep one and myself being vertically challenged. I did it.
yay.
one burden less.
+
no more consuming myself.
letting go has been difficult. but i'm pro! WAHA.
Yay. All thanks to dear blog and myself and myself and myself.
lols. And of course!! my beloved tuk tuk!
My brother sux! yay.
Is he just tht lazy to even use his brain?
Or is his mind somewhere else?
Dude! Its e math. yay.
Oh god. Sum of Angles in a triangle = 36o deg.
How funny.
Blur pig seh.
Lost his focus..and he's trying to get it back.
Yay. I'm helping him do that.
By constantly chiding him.
yay.
I'm still his beloved + one and only sister.
yay.
I LOVE TUK TUKKKK.
YAY.
I LOVE 09SO6N. YAY.
Friday, February 01, 2008
like finally.
I'm home and blogging!
Whees...dear blogggggggggggggggggggggggggggg... T_T
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It has been a rough week.
Indeed. Creating something out of practically nothing.
What a joke eh?
Digging a hole was your fault. WAlking right into it is mine.
Oh god... How I wish I couldn't bring myself out of it. Like.. KNRS!! Climb outta it now.
I'm sure.
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False hope. Feels cheated and being used.
Lol.. I know I shouldn't be feeling that way. But.. To add on.
Feelings weren't taken into consideration. Of course they weren't.
Though the context is entirely different,
My kinda situation is like..
Mass media making the educated feel they're educated.
Totally wrong noun there. But..in the same kind of predicament I believe.
__________ making _______ feel ___________ . Aha. Fill in the blanks.
Nah..don't be so wu liao yeah.
It's like..a subtle influence. Something so subtle you won't even know it's changing you and making you clogged with thoughts and Qns waiting to be ans-ed like..NOW.
This whole joke made me think I think that i think I... And so it carries on with a final outcome which I shan't reveal.
Aha. It's so insignificant anyway. Don't bother guessing coz it's just so unimportant.
Made me so emo for the past week. Tsk tsk. If only I hadn't allowed it.
Like talk normally so the friendship doesn't sink.
If only I hadn't bothered.
Well.. I need some tuning back to the mugging. To the correct frequency.
Just plain wishful thinking that the joke was reality.
Well.. I'd prefer it this way.
Without boundaries.
How.. free.
Just a reminder;
Guys and girls are really from two completely different worlds, with extremely different reactions, thoughts, feelings to the same situation/scenario.
Oh god oh god. Dear bloggggggggggggggggg!!!
Pissed, angry..they aren't the only adjectives that could be used.
Pissed with myself.
Angry at myself.
Upset really makes up the big picture.
Hurt?
Probably. To be like..the sacrificial product to entertain just that bunch of pple. FOC. Well, they've earned it.
I'm home and blogging!
Whees...dear blogggggggggggggggggggggggggggg... T_T
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It has been a rough week.
Indeed. Creating something out of practically nothing.
What a joke eh?
Digging a hole was your fault. WAlking right into it is mine.
Oh god... How I wish I couldn't bring myself out of it. Like.. KNRS!! Climb outta it now.
I'm sure.
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False hope. Feels cheated and being used.
Lol.. I know I shouldn't be feeling that way. But.. To add on.
Feelings weren't taken into consideration. Of course they weren't.
Though the context is entirely different,
My kinda situation is like..
Mass media making the educated feel they're educated.
Totally wrong noun there. But..in the same kind of predicament I believe.
__________ making _______ feel ___________ . Aha. Fill in the blanks.
Nah..don't be so wu liao yeah.
It's like..a subtle influence. Something so subtle you won't even know it's changing you and making you clogged with thoughts and Qns waiting to be ans-ed like..NOW.
This whole joke made me think I think that i think I... And so it carries on with a final outcome which I shan't reveal.
Aha. It's so insignificant anyway. Don't bother guessing coz it's just so unimportant.
Made me so emo for the past week. Tsk tsk. If only I hadn't allowed it.
Like talk normally so the friendship doesn't sink.
If only I hadn't bothered.
Well.. I need some tuning back to the mugging. To the correct frequency.
Just plain wishful thinking that the joke was reality.
Well.. I'd prefer it this way.
Without boundaries.
How.. free.
Just a reminder;
Guys and girls are really from two completely different worlds, with extremely different reactions, thoughts, feelings to the same situation/scenario.
Oh god oh god. Dear bloggggggggggggggggg!!!
Pissed, angry..they aren't the only adjectives that could be used.
Pissed with myself.
Angry at myself.
Upset really makes up the big picture.
Hurt?
Probably. To be like..the sacrificial product to entertain just that bunch of pple. FOC. Well, they've earned it.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I'm utterly utterly..tired.
God. from all the work.
Gonna mug tmr in sch till seven again .
Need help with math. Can't and don't get it. Too tired to even do a few Qns.
Ahhhss..
Pop quiz tmr for econs I hope. Get it over and done with.
I'm done with Physics! With the phy pro's help! Aha. Phews.
How abt..chem? Right..need to mug tht too coz I don't get anything. REdoing everything once again.
Yay la la~
Mental torture to keep thinking if what they said was for real or just to..
Screw me up. Badly.
Well.. If it's the latter, they've sorta succeeded.
But still.. I shall seriously just have to stop thinking abt it or it'll be more detrimental to my
baby brain cells.
GAHHHHHHHHHH!
God. from all the work.
Gonna mug tmr in sch till seven again .
Need help with math. Can't and don't get it. Too tired to even do a few Qns.
Ahhhss..
Pop quiz tmr for econs I hope. Get it over and done with.
I'm done with Physics! With the phy pro's help! Aha. Phews.
How abt..chem? Right..need to mug tht too coz I don't get anything. REdoing everything once again.
Yay la la~
Mental torture to keep thinking if what they said was for real or just to..
Screw me up. Badly.
Well.. If it's the latter, they've sorta succeeded.
But still.. I shall seriously just have to stop thinking abt it or it'll be more detrimental to my
baby brain cells.
GAHHHHHHHHHH!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Tired.
Today's debate went smoothly despite being very unprepared.
Nervous as usual, pushing the start and the end to zi yao. =x
Lol. But he did well.
And we won the debate! Aha.. Didn't even foresee that. But ah wells.
I still don't quite get chem. Copying really sux man.
Phy has been much better.
Math - The GC's freaking heavy.
WIth the thick thick ultra thick guide book.
Oh god. Now i have to practise playing with it.
Yay! Super mario!
Nothing much has been happening;
The sun still rises from the east and sets in the west.
And I shouldn't really be bothering myself with people who do not love themselves,
and live in self degradation.
''Aiyah I cannot make it one lah..'' Has to be erased from my collection of quotes! Ahah.
ALl in all, I cannot wait for CNY to come!
I WANNA WEAR MY NEW CLOTHES !
One thing's for sure, I have to restrain my junk food & CNY goodies intake. x_x
Time for baking again!
Today's debate went smoothly despite being very unprepared.
Nervous as usual, pushing the start and the end to zi yao. =x
Lol. But he did well.
And we won the debate! Aha.. Didn't even foresee that. But ah wells.
I still don't quite get chem. Copying really sux man.
Phy has been much better.
Math - The GC's freaking heavy.
WIth the thick thick ultra thick guide book.
Oh god. Now i have to practise playing with it.
Yay! Super mario!
Nothing much has been happening;
The sun still rises from the east and sets in the west.
And I shouldn't really be bothering myself with people who do not love themselves,
and live in self degradation.
''Aiyah I cannot make it one lah..'' Has to be erased from my collection of quotes! Ahah.
ALl in all, I cannot wait for CNY to come!
I WANNA WEAR MY NEW CLOTHES !
One thing's for sure, I have to restrain my junk food & CNY goodies intake. x_x
Time for baking again!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
I never knew my class cared so much.
In the first place, don't suan till like that ma.
So shang ren xin.
85% of the time emo-ing yesterday.
The rest would be being high.
THAT SO DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE A SPLIT PERSONALITY DUDE. (:
Anyway.
Today was a hot warm hot day!
Lousy forecaster who ''predicted'' it would rain today.
Perspired like hell.
x___x
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There's always a limit to everything . (:
I love taking pictures of my shadow!
Stop waiting if you are.
Just move on or you'll regret wasting your time.
Time will never wait for anyone.
The world will continue to rotate and revolve.
In the first place, don't suan till like that ma.
So shang ren xin.
85% of the time emo-ing yesterday.
The rest would be being high.
THAT SO DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE A SPLIT PERSONALITY DUDE. (:
Anyway.
Today was a hot warm hot day!
Lousy forecaster who ''predicted'' it would rain today.
Perspired like hell.
x___x
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There's always a limit to everything . (:
I love taking pictures of my shadow!
Stop waiting if you are.
Just move on or you'll regret wasting your time.
Time will never wait for anyone.
The world will continue to rotate and revolve.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Dear blog!!!!
It's just so hard to convince myself when there's no trouble calming others down.
The same form of consolation I used on my friends.
Which doesn't even help me clam those crappy nerves.
Why can I tell them that [there's no point thinking and feeling this way now] ?
And Those words just wouldn't even find their way into my freaked out mind?
AHA! -__-
The clouds ain't fluffy enough today.
The sky's blue hue doesn't look as if it'll last.
True enough.
This world wouldn't even stop rotating for one second when anyone's down.
The wind continues to blow.
There continues to be differences in pressure.
The trees won't cease their sway.
People won't stop walking.
I won't stop thinking too!
Lols.
When will i ever be able to follow the words;
dare to hope
?
It's so difficult. I dared to hope and what I received was pure crap.
Lols. I mean.. Nothing but empty disappointment.
And that's deterring me from hoping now.
But
Are hope and confidence like linked?
Do you feel that..If you had the confidence, you'd hope ?
Ok. The opposite.
If you had like neagtive blah blah confidence, would you hope?
The optimists would!
Pessimists would think;
The greater the hope, the bigger the disappointment.
No difference if I were to reach the peak of Everest and fall to death.
LOL.
Whoa ho.
Dare to hope;
A great feat I'd say.
It's just so hard to convince myself when there's no trouble calming others down.
The same form of consolation I used on my friends.
Which doesn't even help me clam those crappy nerves.
Why can I tell them that [there's no point thinking and feeling this way now] ?
And Those words just wouldn't even find their way into my freaked out mind?
AHA! -__-
The clouds ain't fluffy enough today.
The sky's blue hue doesn't look as if it'll last.
True enough.
This world wouldn't even stop rotating for one second when anyone's down.
The wind continues to blow.
There continues to be differences in pressure.
The trees won't cease their sway.
People won't stop walking.
I won't stop thinking too!
Lols.
When will i ever be able to follow the words;
dare to hope
?
It's so difficult. I dared to hope and what I received was pure crap.
Lols. I mean.. Nothing but empty disappointment.
And that's deterring me from hoping now.
But
Are hope and confidence like linked?
Do you feel that..If you had the confidence, you'd hope ?
Ok. The opposite.
If you had like neagtive blah blah confidence, would you hope?
The optimists would!
Pessimists would think;
The greater the hope, the bigger the disappointment.
No difference if I were to reach the peak of Everest and fall to death.
LOL.
Whoa ho.
Dare to hope;
A great feat I'd say.
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