Scrubs
Ok so call me a slacker...
I spent quite a copious amount of time which i could have used doing revision or on projects watching scrubs.
Brilliant use of time bro...
Anyway it came to one of the episodes which struck a thought.
And I realised suddenly why all the problems in the past were there in the first place. Things that weren't problems before were overnight were suddenly problems..
Yup...too true. Been there done that.
I don't usually blog but I guess sometimes I will. When i feel i have something to write about.
I don't know if my dearest still reads this blog (in it's otherwise dead state),
Realizing what went wrong in the past gives me all the more to fuel the engine to keep going and to keep giving more.
Count on me to be there. Count on me to be faithful.
I love your quote.."Absence Sharpens Love, Presence Strengthens Love".
If love was like a blade...by the time I'm home in December, you'd cut me right in half with just one motion.
Although I'm glad to know I'm not the only guy battling with distance.
Marcus too...I wish him all the best in this hard phase.
It's hard but for as long as the partnership keeps working together. It'll stay together.
I miss those massages, I miss those lips, your hands, and that warmth from a hug.
Bring on December...I'm waiting.
8/12/2012 07:57:00 pm
Sunday, August 05, 2012Visions of tomorrow are the directions of today
Well perhaps it is true? What we think we want for tomorrow, or in a few years times and maybe in our lives are the directions we give ourselves today. If you want a specific kind of food for lunch tomorrow. You make preparations for it hours before. If you're like me, with class in the morning and no time to cook inbetween. You'd prepare it the previous night and chill it. If you don't you'd prepare your ingredients early and make sure you can REALLY make it for lunch tomorrow. You want a good future, you study hard and network to make a good future for tomorrow. Today, I had a vision. While i was at church. I envisioned a night after work..coming home to MY family. Not my father's family. But mine. She was there in that vision. She prepared dinner. We had a nice dinner as a family with the kids. After dinner, we watched tv together. They're sitting there with me. It's night time, they go to sleep and I'm alone with her. It's like when we were younger and then we fell asleep. Next thing i know. I'm back at church. For all the hard things married couples go through, at the end of it...if there's enough love left to make it last forever. If the words "Till death do you part" meant anything. I'm no married man, hell I'm still a 22 year old, studying at university. Who am I to talk? I had girlfriends before. They weren't perfect. They didn't last. We had issues. I had issues. Though perhaps maybe god made it such that I would go through it all for a reason. At the end of the day, I would find myself someone who was deserving of my love, my compassion. Someone who would give the same back. And suddenly perhaps the vision of tomorrow, is to make this one work. I have a girlfriend, she's the best friend I've ever had. We're from different worlds, different family backgrounds. Though no matter how different, how unappealing she might find herself to be. She isn't unappealing in my eyes. She's beautiful, loving and full of personality. There are things in this world that can't be explained be words or quantified with numbers. This is probably one of those. Like all those people who've ever said that love is something you can't describe but you can feel it. I think I'm understanding it. It makes so much more sense now. My vision of tomorrow (or rather years later), its something i can start achieving today. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks of your value compared to mine. In my eyes, You're always worth much more.