Went for the mayor's debate competition won't say much bout it...except I HATE RAFFLES INSTITUTION!
What a bad public show of your attitude! Mocking your fellow debaters while they are talking is not the attitude of an RI BOY. You are a DISGRACE. Even BPSIANS are better then you buggers. Grow up will you!?
How can anyone even side these kind of sick btards? Some are nice but for RI!? I had the impression they all had good behavior, now i've seen everything! Fuh...Bloody RI boys think so smart right? Look down on the neighbourhood schools ah? What kind of a person you are , attitude beats knowledge any day.
8/27/2005 12:18:00 am
Wednesday, August 24, 2005I thought it was a difficult day and it did. But it was very fun.
After school there was a problem to settle regarding actors and what time to meet later. Song Wen, Kai Yang and Hui Han were going to meet us at my place. I went with the other girls with Nash and Markus. Amazingly slow eaters the girls are and quite funny too. Saw a really TALL family. They are like TALL!! Anyway we walked back to my place and the walk was slow. When we reached...boy boy...there were some 3e1 peeps some extra 3e2 guys and Tien Yeh waiting with Kai yang, Song Wen and Hui Han..We went up first and sorted the script. By the time we finially got rolling was at 4pm. It went great! These guys are natural actors, although failing to do so the first few times they are great on screen just fabulous and funny! I actually found the joke about my hair funny. Markus and his BEN TOH NEEDS A HAIRCUT project LOL!!... lots of bloopers and funny scenes for all to see. The main show aint very long but the content is there together with bloopers. It'll be great. Tommorow is games day...sigh...here we go! Zi Wei! SWORD PLAY at PE! WEE!!!
8/24/2005 08:09:00 pm
Tuesday, August 23, 2005Service, Honor, Commitment.
The values to live by.
I shall never fail to do my duty as a catholic in serving my fellow people and take pride in doing so. I shall never be underhanded and serve with honor. I will never quit, I am commited, I will not be beaten!
SHC. The morals that are quite the guide. Service before others, Doing it honorably and being commited they are all like how a true catholic should be. Doing the right thing without need of reward, doing it honorably and being commited to it.
I've passed my maths test. Just did the Circles test today, English and Filming tommorow, Bio and Social studs on thursday, CL B letter writing next week.
And somewhere all this i will enjoy myself. I may seem harsh to many of the sec oness this year. I never wanted to be harsh on you guys, but be fair, Ryan is a councillor he deserves some respect from being one, at least give him the respect he deserves. I hate scolding or giving detentions, but force me and i will. I will protect the weak. I'm not trying to be the oppressor, just give him his living space.
To the people who have beef with me. Kai Shen you and your cronnies have a problem with me then be a man and lets settle it. The Men's way. At the discussion table. What does fighting have to do with being a man? Women can fight too, so that means they are men? I don't think so, a men above all have the ability to make decisions, even though women have a say the shots are called by the men. So lets come to some agreement, you want to piss me off and continue doing it and we can hate each other for all eternity...or we could settle it and live our lives happily knowing that we never held hate in our hearts for each other. Whats your say big guy?
To the people who know me. I may not be the most interesting person. I try my best, some may find me too boring but thats just the way i am. I try my best to try and adapt to the environment. Give me some Historians i'll talk history. Give me teens i'll talk teen language. Give me some kids i'll talk barney or the worse Teletubs. I try my best to fit in with the environment. Be fair and let me be who i am. Don't try to change me because i know that i'll never lose touch with my inner self, no matter how much someone changes on the outside the inside mostly stays the same.
To Poh Soo. You know you don't belong with the punks, you belong with us, the muggers the studious. They may be cool , however in their own way but you have to accept that sometimes you just can't fit into some places. The punk's life is not for you, you don't have to force yourself to fit in. Its the place you try to fit in, try to fit with the nerds as your true self and you may find the acceptance you desire. Let it be your choice, your ticket to the future is always blank.
To Marleen especially after reading your blog. When life seems down and theres no ladder out of the pit of darkness. Don't just sit there and do nothing about it. Fashion what you can and climb out of the hole. Life may seem fucked up as according to you, but its not the end. Everyone swings into this pit sometime in their life. Someone once told me, Be brighter then sunshine. Let this be a motivation for you. Remember the future is what you make it out to be, and your ticket to the future is always blank.
Signing off honourably.
8/23/2005 10:51:00 pm
Saturday, August 20, 2005We lost man...crushing defeat. The nuts beat us bad. But we'll be ready this time. Knock us down this time we'll keep getting up till we beat them. Now Pagn net has a new Ranked server wow. I just had a ton of practice with Bro for tmr. I'm very nervous, i'll be in god's house, he'll watch over me. I went to that new national library. FRICKIN HUGE! 14 stories ++ tall. Nearly died going all the way up with Kenneth. But the Exhibits are great, especially the one about Zhang He the Chinese Admiral. Really interesting. Their Fleet was 1700 ships big. OMG. Our modern fleets although powerful are only about one aircraft carrier and two destroyers , the normal stuff that is in peace time. The Commander's Ship is 500 feet wide! That is like LARGE!
Outtie.
8/20/2005 09:31:00 pm
Friday, August 19, 2005Accencion mass on monday was great.
Tuesday's Maths test was sorta ok.
Passed Chem test.
Had dinner at cass's grandmums place.
Highlights for the week as above listed.
Hmm, life is starting to pick up again, i think. If it stays this way i'll be glad. I just got back my flute from the store. Its working again woot. This sunday will be great!
8/19/2005 05:57:00 pm
Tuesday, August 16, 2005CURSE YOU JACK THOMPSON!! Ban the games? You're NUTS! have i said you're NUTS!? NO WAY. Games have nothing to do with higher crime rates or murders. Its a source of entertainment it gives people a wonder . So what if it makes us sadistic thats our problem right? not yours so go jack off and stuff the rest in your mouth jack ass.
8/16/2005 11:48:00 pm
Rattle rattle..whats this do? Boom....
Haiz...how i wish for some good humour that i could share.... life is sad, miserable and reptitive. Theres nothing new. I find myself on a desert island away from civilisation living on my own with only the people who believe in the same ideals i do. Why? Because we're outcasted. We're different. Is it really through that a negative needs a positive to become neutral? Does a negative person need a postive person to be neutral? Is it the truth? Is it the answer that i need to my problems? I've wanted something to happen to make life different, i wanted life to be more important , not through having to lead people but to have to do things other then study or work. Everything is the same. Life is dull. Thats for me. Whenever i need the fun, i'm too packed with tests and a busy week. When i'm free theres no one to go out with to see the world with. Even Tien Yeh is busy somedays. Whenever i go out i only get to enjoy the serious talk that gets me going.What are things that make my life brighter? Fascination with the unknown, music, gaming, history. These things make me happy but something is missing that will make my life full and whole. Just like a puzzle needs every piece to tell a story. Am i missing one piece? Why do i feel so bored by the world? Why do i feel that the new age has brought a black cloud over the youth of today. Wasn't life before the new world much simpler and more sacred? Murder, crime, war. Furthermore our youth find that public display of affection is a desirable thing and that wearing revealing clothes is a good way to gain attention from men. Its two ways it does the same for normal men and perverts. Why do our fellow humans do this? God made us original, why must we change ourselves and return to him what is not original when we go?
I find myself searching for my morals and principals. But the morals i uphold are considered out of place in the world of today. Why is it this way. Because one answer. Life's like that.
Over and out.,
8/16/2005 11:18:00 pm
Sunday, August 14, 2005I've done all my work and i'm ready for school tommorow, i've helped Kai Ting's group with their debate, i've full confidence behind them i am sure they will win.
Through out most of the evening since 8pm to about 11.30 i've been chatting with Cass , a person i knew a long time ago. She messaged me earlier wanting to know if i've changed and same for my brother. The last time i met her was when i was like in pri 5? Since i last met her from what i know she has changed, from the pale girl i once remembered her to be she is now an active netballer in henderson secondary. Since she last met me i've changed alot too. From that slacker who failed his exams and slugged on the PC non stop i've become a model student in the eyes of a number of teachers, i've been able to pass my tests well(perhaps not CL and A maths), i'm in the band, i'm darker, I know some German. I'm damn tall since she last saw me. When i last met her in p5 i was like...150cm? Short fart yeah but she was shorter that time too. Wonder how short she is now? Anyway she is the daughter of Gaya's ex-employer, her mother has invited brother, Gaya and myself over for dinner on thursday. I really look forward to meeting her again. Its always nice to meet a new person, well perhaps not new but its always nice to meet again.
8/14/2005 11:59:00 pm
Saturday, August 13, 2005Let us never be afraid, to have to change our ways.
Why this sentence mean so much that i quote it now? Many of us are too afraid to change the way we act, dress, talk etc in fear that people may look down on us for being different. For myself i have to change my ways. The teachers like my work attitude, but my fellows probably dispise me. I openly say sorry to the proposition team this morning. I should not have rushed you guys. Its just that it the bid to hurry off to A maths class and the desire to prove my point i forgot to listen to the person in me that is saying, let them go on. I'm very sorry for being that pest. But anyway i say you guys put up a good fight, but honestly i feel you guys did not feel confident and its just your first try. But i stress first time. There are always more times for you to try again.
Together we make a difference, one voice on destiny.
Tommorow the teams from Bishan Park Secondary school shall embark on the PET rocket competition at NUS high school. Together we can claim a name for the school, we can make a difference if we work together that is the one destiny we can acheive.
To what i've been feeling about. I find life boring and uninteresting. There is nothing new and exciting. Everyday we do the same things; study, play , eat , talk, sleep. We spent 3 quarts of our time in school every year. Wheres the interesting part in that? I've also alot of very disturbing feelings i cannot explain. I feel that there is something that i've never accomplished before. Time will tell me what that puzzle is. But what does a Pawn in the game of chess mean?
I shall explain. Everyone of us now, students that is, we are just Pawns in the world's game of chess. Some of us are sacrificed to save the better people or supposedly better. But then when your future comes and you are a bigger piece, a bishop for example. Can you ever forget that you were once the most important tool in the game? Without the pawn how could your predecessors survive? Life is a living chess game. Everyday we take new moves and we finially end at the unavoidable checkmate at the end of our game , we either win or we lose. It all depends on how we led our life. There i go again...i'm getting too old before my time.
On a happier note i passed my A maths test at last. 10/20...Pathetic.....Linear Law....I hate A maths, is it really a necessity in life? What are the goals of life? To prepare us for something after life? To let us suffer? Why were we created? Were we created to study and torture ourselves with our own personal problems and the problems the world creates for us? What is the reason?
I shall say no more..A pawn knows when he has made his move. Checkmate.
8/13/2005 12:43:00 am
Wednesday, August 10, 2005Wouldn't it be nice if we were older...
Ah...the beach boys...although i have never been in the good ol' days i sorta feel nostalgic. The carefree days in the times after the war, the good warm days at the beach and just kicking back and relaxing. Then a sudden explosion, suddenly i'm brought back to earth....DAMN , chem test tommorow...crap...
Chapter 4, 5- 5.6....I haven't done much i'm still at isotopes...Isotopes are atoms of the same element with the same number of protons and electrons but different number of Neutrons.
Cobalt-60 is used to treat cancer patients, Plutonium 238 is used as a heartbeat regulator..
haiz...California Dreamin....weeee....Bang back to earth...just one thing left to do...study chem....i'll be back.
8/10/2005 10:45:00 pm
Monday, August 08, 2005Sunday did'nt turn out too bad, but i was shivering so badly. At least i could be heard properly. Anyway next sunday i hope it will be better. Happy B'day Singapore...in advance.
8/08/2005 03:56:00 pm
Saturday, August 06, 2005ARGH its Saturday already! and i still haven't got my Flute repaired!!, Just because one key is overweighted or smthing. It keeps going down when i press another key NOT related to it at all! ARGH!!!
Yesterday went out with Kavi, Eoin, Donny and Wei Zhen. I actually enjoyed myself very much. Wei Zhen is a very nice guy when he's not pissed with you. Glad we could be friends!
I for sure fail my A maths test i'm like condemned to fail A maths. If i'm condemned whats Zi Wei? He hasn't passed a thing...shivers...
Crud...Tommorow i need to use my flute and i can't play F sharp...Crap....I'm urgently trying to repair on my own thats how i realized the key was "overweighted"...argh....still can't get nuts done to it...
8/06/2005 07:57:00 pm
Monday, August 01, 2005Recently i've been very bus to update so now i'll speak my mind. I've been very bored at school and at home. I haven't had the right state of mind to do much. I've not studied for A maths tmr, i've not fully understood so many maths problems. I feel like a pawn in the world's game of chess, where sacrifices must be made. Am i do be defeated by the enemy? Just another pawn to be lost at a game? I enjoyed Tien's BBQ on Saturday. I love his friends and his relatives. He had this cool cousin who was damn nice to talk to, his brother to. He has this feminine cousin of his who is the exact opposite of me. I speak no chinese and understand near nil, she is the same but she speaks no english and understands near nil. At the BBQ all was merry, the whole bunch of us guys were having fun. We sang , we danced abit and we spoke starwars in hokkien at the loudest of our voices. I think we pissed neighbours off..oopsie. Anyway i hate maths.