Mark My Words
No parent should EVER tell their children that.
You would sooner side your stupid son who knows nothing about it than your daughter.
You would threaten her with the prospect of her losing her job JUST to prove a point.
YOU are a DESPICABLE MOTHER.
YOU deserve no respect.
YOU DO NOT DESERVE SUCH A GOOD DAUGHTER.
You claim to love god and that you are a good christian.
WOULD A GOOD CHRISTIAN DO THIS?
FUCKING HYPOCRITE.
Don't expect me to show you any quarter in the future.
A fake smile at best.
Remember, I have no love for you.
Good luck with the future.
You better PRAY that god calms my soul so that I show you some form of mercy in the future you pathetic bitch!
Good Luck.
10/29/2015 01:07:00 am
Sunday, October 13, 2013On the thirteenth of the tenth on the year twenty thirteen anno domini
I'm sorry we fought last night but I'm happy we could resolve our disagreements. I never wish to cause your anger or discontent.
For today, I remember that it's the twenty second month since we've been together. We've seen a fair amount of arguments but yet a far larger amount of good times shared together.
So today, as I came in to the lab early.. To set up my experiments.. Since I have time while preparing and because it's the 13th today.
I love you LHH (Dear)
<3
Labels: 22nd month, hui han, love
10/13/2013 06:24:00 am
Monday, September 03, 2012Songs
First heard this song performed by Gabriel and Victoria when I was recording with the music interactive club from SMU. It's been one of the songs i kinda really enjoy listening to really often. The MIC version that is.
The song speaks about how lovers are sometimes what the other person needs to be comforted by. Though sometimes, love is obstructed because people are holding back, afraid to let down their guard; afraid to be hurt again.
Hence "This..could be good, it's already better than that but nothings worse than knowing you're holding back"
In all sense..this song speaks about how important it is to trust the person you love. If you're going to keep your guard up, never admitting your true feelings, all your sadness and happiness you will block someone who really matters out.
Like Dad used to say "People write songs about their feelings, when they are sad they write sad songs, when they're in love; they write love songs."
We're all terrified of being hurt...and that's a fact. Its whether we can get over the fear. Sometimes if it means putting ourselves lower than the other, or if it means saying sorry or just understanding what the other person has to go through. Thus be one of the greatest mysteries of life.
Terrified - Katherine McPhee
You, by the lightIs the greatest findIn a world full of wrongYou're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonelyTo the other side
You said it again, my heart's in motionEvery word feels like a shooting starI'm at the edge of my emotionsWatching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in loveAnd I'm terrifiedFor the first time and the last timeIn my only life
And this could be goodIt's already better than thatAnd nothing's worseThan knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you needIf you let me try
You said it again, my heart's in motionEvery word feels like a shooting starI'm at the edge of my emotionsWatching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in loveAnd I'm terrifiedFor the first time and the last timeIn my only
I only said it 'cause I mean itI only mean 'cause it's trueSo don't you doubt what I've been dreaming'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you
You said it again, my heart's in motionEvery word feels like a shooting starI'm at the edge of my emotionsWatching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in loveAnd I'm terrifiedFor the first time and the last timeIn my only
Life...
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With love to my girlfriend
Hui Han
9/03/2012 07:49:00 am
Sunday, August 12, 2012Scrubs
Ok so call me a slacker...
I spent quite a copious amount of time which i could have used doing revision or on projects watching scrubs.
Brilliant use of time bro...
Anyway it came to one of the episodes which struck a thought.
And I realised suddenly why all the problems in the past were there in the first place. Things that weren't problems before were overnight were suddenly problems..
Yup...too true. Been there done that.
I don't usually blog but I guess sometimes I will. When i feel i have something to write about.
I don't know if my dearest still reads this blog (in it's otherwise dead state),
Realizing what went wrong in the past gives me all the more to fuel the engine to keep going and to keep giving more.
Count on me to be there. Count on me to be faithful.
I love your quote.."Absence Sharpens Love, Presence Strengthens Love".
If love was like a blade...by the time I'm home in December, you'd cut me right in half with just one motion.
Although I'm glad to know I'm not the only guy battling with distance.
Marcus too...I wish him all the best in this hard phase.
It's hard but for as long as the partnership keeps working together. It'll stay together.
I miss those massages, I miss those lips, your hands, and that warmth from a hug.
Bring on December...I'm waiting.
8/12/2012 07:57:00 pm
Sunday, August 05, 2012Visions of tomorrow are the directions of today
Well perhaps it is true? What we think we want for tomorrow, or in a few years times and maybe in our lives are the directions we give ourselves today. If you want a specific kind of food for lunch tomorrow. You make preparations for it hours before. If you're like me, with class in the morning and no time to cook inbetween. You'd prepare it the previous night and chill it. If you don't you'd prepare your ingredients early and make sure you can REALLY make it for lunch tomorrow. You want a good future, you study hard and network to make a good future for tomorrow. Today, I had a vision. While i was at church. I envisioned a night after work..coming home to MY family. Not my father's family. But mine. She was there in that vision. She prepared dinner. We had a nice dinner as a family with the kids. After dinner, we watched tv together. They're sitting there with me. It's night time, they go to sleep and I'm alone with her. It's like when we were younger and then we fell asleep. Next thing i know. I'm back at church. For all the hard things married couples go through, at the end of it...if there's enough love left to make it last forever. If the words "Till death do you part" meant anything. I'm no married man, hell I'm still a 22 year old, studying at university. Who am I to talk? I had girlfriends before. They weren't perfect. They didn't last. We had issues. I had issues. Though perhaps maybe god made it such that I would go through it all for a reason. At the end of the day, I would find myself someone who was deserving of my love, my compassion. Someone who would give the same back. And suddenly perhaps the vision of tomorrow, is to make this one work. I have a girlfriend, she's the best friend I've ever had. We're from different worlds, different family backgrounds. Though no matter how different, how unappealing she might find herself to be. She isn't unappealing in my eyes. She's beautiful, loving and full of personality. There are things in this world that can't be explained be words or quantified with numbers. This is probably one of those. Like all those people who've ever said that love is something you can't describe but you can feel it. I think I'm understanding it. It makes so much more sense now. My vision of tomorrow (or rather years later), its something i can start achieving today. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks of your value compared to mine. In my eyes, You're always worth much more.
8/05/2012 07:50:00 pm
Sunday, June 17, 2012Sleep deficient
Due...I'm not able to stay up as late as I used to. Aging or army life causing the change. Due..yet another long day. Better have that coffee on standby tomorrow. Dangerous...
6/17/2012 02:08:00 am
Thursday, April 19, 2012Superman
The fallacy of superman is that we all want to be able to do anything and everything.
We are not comic book characters come to like from paper.
Unlike our favourite imaginary heroes...no matter who they are. Superman, Batman and god knows who else...
We are human, we have our imperfections and our imperfections make us stronger.
One thing about our human imperfections is that we don't need someone else's perfection to make us perfect. Their imperfections make our imperfections whole and therefore not an imperfection.
Like every musician wants an audience. There's no joy in performing to an empty hall..but someone who takes delight in your effort to entertain?
Like every pure element needs to react with another element to make a stable compound. Their electron imperfections make them a perfect stable compound.
I don't need someone who's perfect. I want someone who's equally as broken as me in different ways. I hope you know that I mean you.
If I've done you wrong I'm sorry. Forgive me because I still love you.
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