受伤

第一次受伤：
一张纸条，不到十个字。可是却伤得我很深。看了讯息，顿时的环境变得鸦雀无声。然后可以很清楚的听见，心，就象玻璃一样、相陶瓷一样，被打碎的声音。当时的面无表情，没有伤心，没有哭。就如若无其事一样。当时年纪小，回了信。现在想了想，貌似也伤了那人的心。


第二次受伤：
第一次在当众面前放声大哭了，而在场的所有人都认识我。哭了大约5至10分钟。有人上来安慰，不，应该说是解释。


第三次受伤：
与第二次受伤隔了一段很久很久很久的时间。这次受伤让我了解到原来人被伤到一种极点真的什么感觉也没有，只有眼泪一直流个不停。这次，我独自一人在一餐之中吃了五至六人份的食物。不想说话，很想独自走一走。然后也哭上了五个小时。这次没人上来安慰、没人给面巾。在场的人认识我的人五只手指数得清，剩下的都是陌生人。哭了以后，拨了电话，发泄了情绪。可是后来还是弥补不了这个伤。


第四次受伤：
绪第三次受伤。她说了一句话，顿时的心很疼。不懂如何形容。压抑不住，然后回了两句也很伤她的话。后来了解到了“当一个人被伤的时候，也会伤回那个人”这句话。真的。

Money beach + escape park 记

Yeah... I like adventure... I like do something's that have the adventure feeling....
Went to monkey beach with buddies last couple week and escape park with brother last week...
Year, they are fun!! So much fun!! This two places is totally like adventure....
But escape park is much much more harder than monkey beach... It require more energy than you thought....
Yeah, i like it undoubtly... It has all those make you excited and scare facilities.... I personally like the 'Tarzan' game very much... :D
And the 'monkey climbing' thingy make you exhausted.... But very challenging....

I found something about myself during this two trip... It's that I'm really really independent.
When people offer their hand to help, I don't accept it when I know I can do it....
And this makes me wonder...
How and since when I become sooooo strong like this??
And what makes me so strong like this?
Why I become so strong like this?
Is it good or bad to being strong?
Sometime it makes me wonder does people will take care of those already being strong girl?
Sometime I really wish that I'm not strong, so that people will take care of me....
But sometimes I just wanna stay strong enough not to depend on others....
How contradict it is..... Life is always like that...
There is so many things that we wish for, and yet somehow we cant do it....
There is so much 'if' in our mind, and yet we can't do anything but it...