I used to be a cold blooded person, but now I'm not. (Btw, I still prefer cold blooded more. :p)
I used to be bad tempered, but now I'm not.
And I start to miss a lot of things.
I miss secondary school life, I miss wushu practice time, I miss National Service life, I miss my homies a lot, I miss my babes a.k.a JMs, I miss my home(thou am will back there weekly) and etc.
I don't know when I start to change.
Is the change better or worse?!
For me, yes for some and nope for some.
I learned how to cherish, I learned how to appreciate.....
But I dislike that I can be touched easily. Why?! Cause I dislike to cry, even just tears dropping down. I dislike this feeling. Don't ask me why.
These changes make me feel that am getting older again. ><
Cherish all the moment.
Arm me - Get myself ready for every challenge lye ahead
Recently fall in love with Justin Bieber's song. ♥
He is just 16 years old and released 2 album..
1st album, my world during 2009
and 2nd album, my world 2.0 in this year..
besides, he won several prize this year. Impressive!
Here come his Baby in My World 2.0
Baby lyrics
Ohh wooaah (3x)
You know you love me,I know you care
Just shout whenever, And I'll be there
You want my love, You want my heart
And we will never ever ever be apart
Are we an item? Girl quit playing
Were just friends, What are you saying
Said theres another, Look right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time,
And I was like
Baby, baby, baby ohhh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine mine
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine,mine (oh oh)
For you, I would have done whatever
And I just can't believe, we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool, But I'm losin' you
I'll buy you anything, I'll buy you any ring
And im in pieces, Baby fix me
And just shake me til' you wake me from this bad dream
Im going down, down, down, dooown
And I just cant believe my first love would be around.
And I'm like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine, mine
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohhh
I thought youd always be mine, mine
Luda
When I was 13, I had my first love,
There was nobody that compared to my baby,
And nobody came between us or could ever come above
She had me goin' crazy,
Oh I was starstruck,
She woke me up daily,
Don't need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound,
And skip a beat when I see her in the street and,
At school on the playground,
But I really wanna see her on the weekend,
She know she got me gazin',
Cuz she was so amazin',
And now my heart is breakin',
But I just keep on sayin'...
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine, mine
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine, mine
(I'm gone)
Yeah, yeah, yeah (6x)
(Now Im all gone, now im all gone, now im all gone)
Gone, gone, gone,(gone)
I'm gone.
I was very emo.. nope.. can't say so.. I was in a very down mood.. I cried.... I can't control my tears... Don't ask me the reason.. I also don't know why... I cried out just because of a simple question. "Do you happy?" My feeling at the moment was "No, I'm not happy" But I answered "Yeah, I am."Anyway, want to thanks my mum for calling me.. I love you, mum. :) And JJ is coming to Malaysia.. so.. I put all my hope on him.. Hope that he can cheer me up.. And luckily I can finish all JJFC stuff in time.. Honestly.. The very main reason I go JJ's promo tour not because of he himself, but for JJFC and liweng's birthday party.. :)
Weekend....
We(Ginjia, Jenson and me) start our journey to KL on friday.. 5.30bus... Btw, I skipped my photojournalism class.. :p okie.. As I know, the lecture will only talk abt course outline.. so.. I skipped it.. shhhhhhhhhhhh............. Reached KL abt 10.30... Wait auntie liweng come fetch us.. and we meet the taiwan fans, peng peng. Then we go Thatcher house.. the place which always overnight when we visit KL! haha~ :p Thanks, Thatcher. Meet Dory, Debra and Thatcher... I miss u guys alot!! We chit chat the all the night.. Till 3.00++ then just go to bed.... wake up at 8 something.. if not mistake... depart to Sg.wang at 11.++ >< quite late actually.. cz we got a meeting at 1... but we start it at 2.. >< 3pm registration.... and there's no table for us.. thou we requested.. :( then we was like messed up again.. =.= no choice.. I have to take too many thing.. then i just sit there and wait ppl come to me.. =p skip skip skip.. finally.. HALO crew come.. finally.. we got our counter.. it's quite small thou.. >< okie la.. at least we got a counter.. :) then busy busy busy.. oh ya.. I got screwed.. =.= I really hope that the guy din't come to me ask for the VIP tix at the moment.. I was like get scold bcz of nothing.. >< and there's some performances before JJ arrive... but, I was busy all the way.. including arrival of JJ.. Liweng and I stand at the counter there with HALO crew and help them sell the albums.. :) quite enjoy.. after sometime, we just join our JJFC gang.. it's crowed in the VIP zone... gaming time.. and we scream for our member definitely.. haha~ after that, JJ sang <100Days>.. and you know wat?! he throw the poster to my direction.. oh no!!!!! my 1st action was not go catch the poster BUT try to avoid it so that I got no hurt.. please.. nex time dont throw to my direction.. I wont catch it!! and I was damn hot in the crowd.. feel like wanna go out of the zone.. but.. tat was the last song.. okie lo.. skip skip skip... as usual... we're the last one who get JJ signature... and I give him the booklet I made on behalf of JJFC.. and ask him to flip thou it.. after the AS, we went to liweng's house for her b'day party!!!! quite enjoy... oh ya.. I forgotten to mention my lovely BB, beatrice. :) It has been a long time din meet her too.. take alot of photo in liweng's house. :D
we back home at around 1.. i think... :p back there... we chit chat again.. haha.. untill 5.. >< and we found out tat the jelly HALO gave us.. is the jelly in JJ's press conference.. Thanks HALO.. btw... the jelly.. not that nice.. :P sorry~ the nex day.. all of us.. were late.. we suppose to wake up at 7++.. and depart at 8.. but we by the time we wake up.. it's almost 8.. >< luckily.. we depart at 8++.. :p btw.. we got more thing to bring back.. >< really hope tat HALO can help us to bring along.. haha~ but, it's impossible.. and.. I want to mention here!!! I WILL NEVER TAKE SUPER NICE AGAIN!!!!! why?! previously when I went singapore.. bus spoiled in the half way, leave me at the kastam and now.... we bought 9.30 bus.. but depart at 10.30.. and drive till very slow.. we estimate tat we can reach penang b4 4.. but.. shit!!! totally LATE!!!! and.. It's the 1st time I take taxi in malaysia.. >< but not official taxi la.. :p
Gurney.. JJ arrive there quite early.. 5 something.. surprise!!! I saw his visvim shoes... haha~ at 1st.. I was happy.. YES.. I can spend at least 15 min with him at red box private gathering.. but.. have to give up the chance.. as i know all the fans want to see him... beside.... HALO said 20 ppl at 1st.. but tell us want 30ppl b4 the gathering.. wasai... no choice.. have to ask the other fans who already waiting at the stage there.. >< they said gave us 5 min to complete it.. 3 ppl said 5 min.. so overall.. 15 mins.. XD luckily.. I almost done all the registration thingy.. now just need to ask newbie register themselves and go for the gathering.. and.. I standing at the counter there all the way.. b4 fans gathering, b4 the AS start.. untill the time I go up to the stage to get his signature.. totally din enjoy his performance... and.. want to thanks to HALO crew again.. for giving me the 1st chance to buy the 100days souvenir.. thou not for myself.. and.. when the AS start.. JJ will appear at myside there... I call him.. and wat?!?! HE TOTALLY IGNORE me.. :'( suak........... I just want to show my new kicks, Greedy Genius Cool Breeze Black Bird to him.. :p skip skip skip skip skip..... when I get his signature... I asked him... did u flip thou the booklet.. No.... =.= suak suak suak...................... disappointing me nia...... oh ya.... I suddenly down, and feel like wanna cry when I back to counter from buying pandan cake for tw fans... I donno why..
after he AS.. I totally takda selera to eat.. >< and I remember I scold JJ Lin when he's having dinner yet I was busying and very hungry.. hahaha~~
and I wanna add on.. He totally ignore me leh... including the FM interview.. okie.. mayb he read my msg.. but din give any reply.. but i really doubt that he read the booklet or not.. and i really hope tat he bring it back to tw or sg... I just look into his eye twice only for this time.. and I'm not miss him at all.. haha~~~ I miss JMs more... want to cheer with u guys again again and again... jessipi.. wait u come back!! then we can meet during Jun or July again!! :D
This Week...
I totally dint have appetite and no mood to eat... Feel like keeping fit.. >< and my mum call me again.. Thanks for calling me when I need some comfort... :) and... I'm okie now.. the time I start typing this blog... yeah.. I'm okie now... no more down or sad mood..
I got alot of assignment this sem.. but.. I still got no mood to do them.. >< just give me sometime.. I need more time to cheer.... :P
She phoned me just now.. And I was like very polite... and again.. my tears dropped down. :( why?! what's the reason?! at first, I was thinking that it should be another thingy.. but now... it doesn't seem tat it's tat..
why? why? why?
what's the reason? what's the reason? what's the reason?
Finally, new semester started.. I should be "YES! Finally, they're out of me!" and YET, it seem to be opposite way..... I was questioned "Are happy living there?" And my answer was "No, I'm totally not happy at all." But, it's not the matter of the living place. It's the matter of my soul. Yeah... I'm totally in a bad condition. :( I need an output, but I don't know whom to talk to. And I hope that his arrival will cheer me up. I need to cheer my soul up. Shortness happiness doesn't help. You can see me smile, but it'll just end up like that.
