died-ed

i died.

terrible test.

and it's not that i didn't know how to do.

but loads of careless mistakes.

questions were terribly tough.

2 tests. i died on both.

it only means something.

time to mug even more.

but before that, sleep.

+ catch up with tutorials.

midterm tests + labwork + unfinished tutorials

i'm dying!

MA midterm later, i'm so dead. I can't remember alot of things, thank goodness there's helpsheet.

alot of concepts and proving questions. RAH. i dislike them.

lack of sleep.

spent more than 10 hours on programming lab on wednesday night to thurs morning to get the program running. spent another 3 hours on thurs or so thinking how to pass all dynamic testings. not bad, at least i did it myself, and debugged it successfully. it's done! *heaves a major sigh of relief*

and this weekend is going to be hell. loads of unfinished work, thanks to lab and studying for MA midterm. ahh. two webcasts. 5 tutorials. 1 homework. 1 midterm practice.

and one mid term test on wednesday to study for. LP duality. plus whatever crap stuff in front. kill me.

i really want to sleep. i'm really tired. *yawn*

I need a release!

Help!

I'm dying. I'm homesick. I'm so super sick of school.

I can't stand doing tutorials and the never-ending pile of work which is just growing day by day.
I miss my family so much, I think I'm homesick. And now my only motivation is to pass each day as it is, and yearn for Saturdays and Sundays where I get to see my parents, my beloved brother and my dasao.

I cannot stand the thought of having a dreadful three weeks ahead, two labs, three midterms. Dunno how many projects to complete...URgh. Who says being a student is easy?

I love my parents! They just celebrated their 28th wedding anniversary on Saturday, and I was at our mini "celebration" - Sizzler's @ Suntec! Food was yummy. I loved the salad bar. I love my dad. I love my mum. And they were holding hands while we were walking from Suntec City via City Link Mall to City Hall MRT! So sweeet. My dad's a family man. My mum's wonderful. I wonder what I really did to deserve such wonderful parents. Seriously!

And my kor. Well, I think the whole world knows that he's an awesomely stunningly wonderful brother! He treated me and mum to dinner on Sunday and he drove us both to Sengkang to make a pair of new spectacles! YAY. New specs. I'm so excited!!!!

Sigh. I really have to buck up, and focus. I really don't know how come I'm always feeling so miserable and homesick these days, and it's not as if I don't go home every weekend! I go home, promptly every Saturday, but simply dread it to the core when I have to leave home on Sunday. How I will time will crawl on weekends, but fly by on weekdays! LOL.

*back to studying... how....~yawn~ boring...*

Determined

I don't know what I have done to deserve such a wonderful brother. He's such a darling, a fabulous person, and no one in this world is comparable to him..

I'm determined to make my life good, to study hard and pull my cap up. I'm not going to let him down, or my parents, and I'm most certainly not going to let myself down.

I love you, kor! Thanks for everything, your little sister here is really grateful for everything you've done!

Feeling good!

What a wonderful morning!

Woke up with a slight ache in the abdomen (thanks to kickboxing yesterday - it was fun!), went for class, then came back to hall to meet meatabala for a swim! The swim was absolutely refreshing! Too bad the sun wasn't as sunny as I hoped it was, it was drizzling slightly, but nonetheless, we just decided to go ahead and swim.

Our target this morning? Twenty laps, or swim an hour, whichever we acheive first. However, we managed to finish it in fifty mins! Whee! It is certainly an achievement, considering the fact that the both of us hasn't swum in ages. Heh. I'm feeling abit tired now though, it was a wonderful exercise Thursday-Friday, but my limbs feel good. (: They feel... worked out. Perhaps I'll make it a habit to swim on Fridays. Hmmm.

Well, the rest are thinking of going to Swensons for ice cream buffet this afternoon, later at three pm. Should I go?