Wednesday, July 30, 2008
10:38 PM
10:38 PM
my darling, i dont deny that though we might not have spent as much time as we would like to, but we do really make the effort to try to understand each other better. of coz like what u mentioned, its not really about the duration, but the bond.
this reminds me too, when i knew zhenyi few years ago, it was quite a short time too, but we do have that bond as well.
i think the more accurate sentence is, we just clicked. just like you, me, and zhenyi can bitch around during the cny at my place, even when you guys just met a couple of times. lol
we are both very similar, as in we do not have many girlfriends. and guess what, quantity dont matter as much as quality. lol.
and hor, dont anyhow say we gossip about ppl ok! this kind of unglam thing, u know i know can liao lor. hahaha.
oh, speaking of your birthday. lv bag ah? hmmm.. i think i'll help u to convey this wish of urs to kenneth ok? hahaha
u know why no one starts asking u out for ur birthday? because everyone knows that you are blissfully attached and another reason is probably because you haven put up your birthday wishlist. LOL.
so what are you waiting for? do up your wishlist now!
this reminds me too, when i knew zhenyi few years ago, it was quite a short time too, but we do have that bond as well.
i think the more accurate sentence is, we just clicked. just like you, me, and zhenyi can bitch around during the cny at my place, even when you guys just met a couple of times. lol
we are both very similar, as in we do not have many girlfriends. and guess what, quantity dont matter as much as quality. lol.
and hor, dont anyhow say we gossip about ppl ok! this kind of unglam thing, u know i know can liao lor. hahaha.
oh, speaking of your birthday. lv bag ah? hmmm.. i think i'll help u to convey this wish of urs to kenneth ok? hahaha
u know why no one starts asking u out for ur birthday? because everyone knows that you are blissfully attached and another reason is probably because you haven put up your birthday wishlist. LOL.
so what are you waiting for? do up your wishlist now!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
11:27 PM
11:27 PM
now that i am free from burden (as in i have already finished my sup paper, and there will be no more exams), i began to start thinking about some stuff, just to keep my mind occupied.
and today, i am going to dedicate this entry to my dearest girlfriends..
actually, i've always wondered whether am i capable of writing philosophical stuff, or a very fluent and yet deep entries, like mel darling. but anyway, my english is not that good.
do not be deceived by the way she behaves, or look. she is one of the most intelligent person i've ever met. she may appear to be very friendly, giddy or even blur, sometimes a little crazy (maybe more than just a little), with a pretty face and a wow figure, people always thought the worse of her, or think that she is some bimbo with an empty mind.
as jiayi and mel remembers, i first introduced mel to jiayi as someone who can talk to anyone, anywhere, anything.
u have no idea how many thoughts and ideas are running through her mind. i am always amazed by the depth of her mind and entries, though i know i shouldnt be, since i am aware of her intelligence. and u certainly wont want to get into her way when she is angry.
mel darling always commented that i am the only person who understands her the best, though i do not know her for a long time. actually i have no idea why i always seem to be able to guess her thoughts, or even moods. maybe its because we spent almost 5 days a week together during our schooldays and we just clicked almost instantly. when you spent time with someone everyday, sooner or later u will understand the person, even if its only a 3hour interaction. after all, we are quite alike in character, and our thinking. except that she is much more intelligent and well-sought-after than i am.
we always seem to agree with each other over some issues.. and i dun think we ever even argued once. probably we love each other too much. haha.
even after we graduated, we always try to meetup for coffees for catching up. since her bf and my bf are so fond of mahjong-ing, and we like to watch soccer, it gave our boyfriends some common topic to busy with, while the both of us start with our "girly stuff", without any worries of neglecting them.
otherwise, the meeting times will just be on birthdays. of coz, for mel darling n haze birthdays, we always try to arrange a mini celebration, and definitely do some catching up.
i remember she first interact with haze was because they bought me Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince as i really wanted that book when i was in a financial difficulty at that point of time. and we have only known each other for just a couple of months!
they both behaved sneakily on that day and they written a short note inside the book;
dearest kailin,
please dont NAG at us for getting this book for you. just like to encourage you to 加油! 20k only, very fast over 的!
love, haze
siao char bo!
haha, this is the surprise, the so called "Big Plan" the both of us planned and kept u in the dark! no angry ah, just wanna give u this book to cheer u up and hope it distracts u from ur problems!
明天会更好!
love ya, mel
i was really very surprised, and happy of coz, that i've got such wonderful friends. but that doesnt stop me from keep thanking them and nagging at them. haha.
they have helped me during my down days, but i've never been there for them when they are having bad days. i've always feel guilty about that..
haze doesnt tell me her problems, i dun actually know the real reason behind it. or maybe she thinks that i will keep scolding her or something, so she just keep it from me.
as for mel, she does confide in me, usually after she got everything settled or after she made up her mind. for this, i know why. mel is someone whom u can never pry anything out of her. if she is ready to tell u, she will tell u. so usually i dun go harping over it, i wait for her to tell me instead.
so, there isnt many chances whereby i can help them, or even share their sorrows and troubles. not that i can be of any help, but at least i am there for them when they need someone to talk to, or seek advices.
nevertheless, i am still happy for them when they got everything under control.
another of my dearest girlfriend is zhenyi.
though we really seldom meetup, probably once during the chinese new year, and a couple of times during birthdays or just some random meetups. same as mel, we clicked almost instantly too.
we are very alike, we both like soccer, we are boyish, we have similar thinking and character. among all of my friends, and net friends, she is probably the only person that dear really approved of.
not to mention, dear got along well with her bf too.. we used to go prawning together, and they even intro each other new prawning place. -.- and of coz another thing is mahjong lor, what else. haha
apart of that, she is the most wuxim person. every chinese new year, she will come my place without fail. and making jellies, buying cakes for my family. even when her family went for holiday, she also bring us some stuff that they bought from overseas.
although we seldom meetup, our ties are always there. i am not sure if she treats me as one of her dearest girlfriends, afterall, she has many many friends whom she got along very well with. i dun mind if she doesnt treat me as one of her dearest girlfriend, but she will always be one of my dearest girlfriend.
sad to say, i do not have many girlfriends, or many friends to begin with.
or rather, the more important question is probably even if i look them as my close friends, do they also treat me as their close friend?
i've always gotten along better with guys, probably because i am very boyish myself. but ladies always need other ladies for company. guys are nice enough i suppose, but they just lack of some womanly substance that unite all ladies as universal sisters. im sure the ladies will understand.
dear has always chided me for doing so many things for friends, not that its a bad thing, but usually on friends who doesnt appreciate what i am doing for them.
i have no idea, but i really do not have many close friends around me. they dun usually call me out as they are always busy with their own stuff, like boyfriends/girlfriends, other friends n all. so i tend to treasure my friends, putting in effort without realising whether are my efforts being appreciated.
so, many of them took advantage. that is when dear got really pissed and were anti to most of my friends.
i can understand though. so now, i am trying to just putting my effort on people who are worthy, who will appreciate, and willing to put effort on me too.
i am still looking for these people.
birthday is one of the easiest way to see who really treat u as a friend, and who is willing to put in effort.
i've always been very envious when other people have their birthdays planned by their friends, or even surprise parties/celebrations for them. i've planned several parties and surprises. but most importantly, i also planned my own birthday. and the only person i can consult with planning my birthday is dear.
i never found anyone to bother to plan a birthday celebration or surprise for me, i have to plan myself. and the best part is, i have to plan for people who thinks that its a sin to organise their own birthdays. but i dun see them planning birthday for me.
not that i am complaining, i dun mind the planning. but i certainly mind when they dun even bother to find out who made the effort to plan, or not even saying a single "thanks".
oh well, i've met too many of such people. so lesson learnt, never to plan anything for them again.
anyway, i have my own plans for my birthday this year. maybe a chalet this time..
no offense to anyone, i've always think its quite crappy when people say they dun celebrate birthdays or please don't plan a celebration or anything for them. comon, its YOUR birthday, and u are entitled to getting spoilt and having people fussing over u!
no one is too old for birthdays. it might not be a big thing, but to me, i try to make it a point to celebrate birthday every year with friends, or just family and boyfriend. even a single dinner is good enough.
even my family celebrates my ahgong n ahma birthdays, we celebrate birthday for my parents too, with just a cake.
its the effort that matters.
alright.
from words about my girlfriends, to some minor rants;
ok, end of entry. thanks for taking time to read my essay again. :P
and today, i am going to dedicate this entry to my dearest girlfriends..
actually, i've always wondered whether am i capable of writing philosophical stuff, or a very fluent and yet deep entries, like mel darling. but anyway, my english is not that good.
do not be deceived by the way she behaves, or look. she is one of the most intelligent person i've ever met. she may appear to be very friendly, giddy or even blur, sometimes a little crazy (maybe more than just a little), with a pretty face and a wow figure, people always thought the worse of her, or think that she is some bimbo with an empty mind.
as jiayi and mel remembers, i first introduced mel to jiayi as someone who can talk to anyone, anywhere, anything.
u have no idea how many thoughts and ideas are running through her mind. i am always amazed by the depth of her mind and entries, though i know i shouldnt be, since i am aware of her intelligence. and u certainly wont want to get into her way when she is angry.
mel darling always commented that i am the only person who understands her the best, though i do not know her for a long time. actually i have no idea why i always seem to be able to guess her thoughts, or even moods. maybe its because we spent almost 5 days a week together during our schooldays and we just clicked almost instantly. when you spent time with someone everyday, sooner or later u will understand the person, even if its only a 3hour interaction. after all, we are quite alike in character, and our thinking. except that she is much more intelligent and well-sought-after than i am.
we always seem to agree with each other over some issues.. and i dun think we ever even argued once. probably we love each other too much. haha.
even after we graduated, we always try to meetup for coffees for catching up. since her bf and my bf are so fond of mahjong-ing, and we like to watch soccer, it gave our boyfriends some common topic to busy with, while the both of us start with our "girly stuff", without any worries of neglecting them.
otherwise, the meeting times will just be on birthdays. of coz, for mel darling n haze birthdays, we always try to arrange a mini celebration, and definitely do some catching up.
i remember she first interact with haze was because they bought me Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince as i really wanted that book when i was in a financial difficulty at that point of time. and we have only known each other for just a couple of months!
they both behaved sneakily on that day and they written a short note inside the book;
dearest kailin,
please dont NAG at us for getting this book for you. just like to encourage you to 加油! 20k only, very fast over 的!
love, haze
siao char bo!
haha, this is the surprise, the so called "Big Plan" the both of us planned and kept u in the dark! no angry ah, just wanna give u this book to cheer u up and hope it distracts u from ur problems!
明天会更好!
love ya, mel
i was really very surprised, and happy of coz, that i've got such wonderful friends. but that doesnt stop me from keep thanking them and nagging at them. haha.
they have helped me during my down days, but i've never been there for them when they are having bad days. i've always feel guilty about that..
haze doesnt tell me her problems, i dun actually know the real reason behind it. or maybe she thinks that i will keep scolding her or something, so she just keep it from me.
as for mel, she does confide in me, usually after she got everything settled or after she made up her mind. for this, i know why. mel is someone whom u can never pry anything out of her. if she is ready to tell u, she will tell u. so usually i dun go harping over it, i wait for her to tell me instead.
so, there isnt many chances whereby i can help them, or even share their sorrows and troubles. not that i can be of any help, but at least i am there for them when they need someone to talk to, or seek advices.
nevertheless, i am still happy for them when they got everything under control.
another of my dearest girlfriend is zhenyi.
though we really seldom meetup, probably once during the chinese new year, and a couple of times during birthdays or just some random meetups. same as mel, we clicked almost instantly too.
we are very alike, we both like soccer, we are boyish, we have similar thinking and character. among all of my friends, and net friends, she is probably the only person that dear really approved of.
not to mention, dear got along well with her bf too.. we used to go prawning together, and they even intro each other new prawning place. -.- and of coz another thing is mahjong lor, what else. haha
apart of that, she is the most wuxim person. every chinese new year, she will come my place without fail. and making jellies, buying cakes for my family. even when her family went for holiday, she also bring us some stuff that they bought from overseas.
although we seldom meetup, our ties are always there. i am not sure if she treats me as one of her dearest girlfriends, afterall, she has many many friends whom she got along very well with. i dun mind if she doesnt treat me as one of her dearest girlfriend, but she will always be one of my dearest girlfriend.
sad to say, i do not have many girlfriends, or many friends to begin with.
or rather, the more important question is probably even if i look them as my close friends, do they also treat me as their close friend?
i've always gotten along better with guys, probably because i am very boyish myself. but ladies always need other ladies for company. guys are nice enough i suppose, but they just lack of some womanly substance that unite all ladies as universal sisters. im sure the ladies will understand.
dear has always chided me for doing so many things for friends, not that its a bad thing, but usually on friends who doesnt appreciate what i am doing for them.
i have no idea, but i really do not have many close friends around me. they dun usually call me out as they are always busy with their own stuff, like boyfriends/girlfriends, other friends n all. so i tend to treasure my friends, putting in effort without realising whether are my efforts being appreciated.
so, many of them took advantage. that is when dear got really pissed and were anti to most of my friends.
i can understand though. so now, i am trying to just putting my effort on people who are worthy, who will appreciate, and willing to put effort on me too.
i am still looking for these people.
birthday is one of the easiest way to see who really treat u as a friend, and who is willing to put in effort.
i've always been very envious when other people have their birthdays planned by their friends, or even surprise parties/celebrations for them. i've planned several parties and surprises. but most importantly, i also planned my own birthday. and the only person i can consult with planning my birthday is dear.
i never found anyone to bother to plan a birthday celebration or surprise for me, i have to plan myself. and the best part is, i have to plan for people who thinks that its a sin to organise their own birthdays. but i dun see them planning birthday for me.
not that i am complaining, i dun mind the planning. but i certainly mind when they dun even bother to find out who made the effort to plan, or not even saying a single "thanks".
oh well, i've met too many of such people. so lesson learnt, never to plan anything for them again.
anyway, i have my own plans for my birthday this year. maybe a chalet this time..
no offense to anyone, i've always think its quite crappy when people say they dun celebrate birthdays or please don't plan a celebration or anything for them. comon, its YOUR birthday, and u are entitled to getting spoilt and having people fussing over u!
no one is too old for birthdays. it might not be a big thing, but to me, i try to make it a point to celebrate birthday every year with friends, or just family and boyfriend. even a single dinner is good enough.
even my family celebrates my ahgong n ahma birthdays, we celebrate birthday for my parents too, with just a cake.
its the effort that matters.
alright.
from words about my girlfriends, to some minor rants;
ok, end of entry. thanks for taking time to read my essay again. :P
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
10:32 PM
10:32 PM
yes, i am officially a fulltime employee of symantec effective today! meaning, i am entitled to their benefits and stuff. their benefits are quite attractive, especially if u are married.
nuff talk.
right now, i am mugging at home coz i've got a sup paper on thursday. so, i took 3 days leave from work. :\
i am definately out of touch, from books i mean. i've only touched less than half of the notes that i have written. my attention is just too shortlived, it wandered around just after like 45minutes, and after that, i keep forgetting what i've memorised.
probably i will take a short 30minutes nap to let my mind refreshed for a bit before i can get the notes into my brain.
the maths is ok, except some part where i keep forgetting the formula.
i don't hope to pass with flying colours, but at least let me get a minimum of 25 marks so that i don't have to remodule.
i hate studying!
nuff talk.
right now, i am mugging at home coz i've got a sup paper on thursday. so, i took 3 days leave from work. :\
i am definately out of touch, from books i mean. i've only touched less than half of the notes that i have written. my attention is just too shortlived, it wandered around just after like 45minutes, and after that, i keep forgetting what i've memorised.
probably i will take a short 30minutes nap to let my mind refreshed for a bit before i can get the notes into my brain.
the maths is ok, except some part where i keep forgetting the formula.
i don't hope to pass with flying colours, but at least let me get a minimum of 25 marks so that i don't have to remodule.
i hate studying!
