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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
1:59 AM

wooo

yeah i've finished reading harry potter~

so sad.. so many ppl died!! i even cried during certain parts of the book... its just so... hmm theres no word to describe.. u just have to read urself.


the first thing that came to my mind was, how on earth are they going to make a movie for this book? i think it will be damn bloody long, damn action packed.


im not going to spoil anything by blogging about the book though. lol



ok now 1 thing done.. will be reading for the 2nd time of coz. i've to catch up on my dramas next.. think i will stop playing that game, abit sian already.. its time to start looking for a new job too, will be doing up my resume soon..

been wondering whether should i start full time job right after sept? since my last day of school is sept 28th.. but of coz some of the days i will have to go back to school for the final year project, n exams during november.


i also duno what kind of job should i go for.. banking again? or other industries? or just go n help lingjian?

tried discussing with dear, but he isnt of any help coz.. he said its all my choice, n he duno what i want. duh! i told him i just wan opinions. obviously he dun understand, until now. i got so fedup talking to him about it that i just shut my mouth n think on my own.

bah! guys!

Saturday, July 28, 2007
2:41 PM

now finally!

now u guys r at the correct site.. dun be amazed by the background song. haha!

i've been abit crazy over this song during the past few weeks..

everytime when me n dear heard it on the radio, we try to imitate his "erp".. but we only made it sound like we r burping. hahaha!



alright, im free now! exams r over!! yippie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today's paper is abit tricky? i duno the right word to say but.. we r quite uncertain about the stuff its asking for.

anyway, should be no big problem..

i just hope to pass for all anyway.


oh i just collected my harry potter 7.. haven read it though.. going to sleep first. din manage to get a wink last night. -.-


alright! time to party!!! but first, let me sleep. lol!

Thursday, July 26, 2007
10:53 PM

2 down, 1 dead, 1 to go

ok. today's paper was an absolute disaster!


all of us were like wtf? the questions r so tricky, n the main popular favourite question didnt came out! piangs! most of us studied that lor..

sigh... prepare to fail this paper already. just hope i wont fail too badly n affect my aggregate..



anyway.. just finished writing another question for cibm.. spent 2 n a half hours writing. duh. n the first piece of paper that i wrote was not relevant at all!

now im running out of time.. have to memorise as quickly as i can..


last paper..............

then i am free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for the next few months anyway. lol

Wednesday, July 25, 2007
2:58 AM

mind blocked

i think i've overused my cells.. i cant seem to remember what i memorised... or maybe i am too tired...

my mind is like so full, so blocked, so tense that its like a rubber band being stretched at its maximum n going to snap any moment.



going to sleep early tonight, hope to wake up earlier tml n resume studying the next 2 question.. theres just so much to memorise!


pls pls pls

Tuesday, July 24, 2007
1:31 PM

2 papers left!

yes! 2 papers left!!

i've also set a new record for myself - memorised 6 questions in 4 days. -.-

well at least what i studied came out, although i study probably too many questions.. never mind, but after the paper, i sort of feel a weight lifted off my heart.. ehh.. part of the weight anyway. lol


entered the hall for paper 5 minutes late coz we were outside doing some last minute recap.. and this time again, i scribbled through coz i was damn afraid i cant finish on time. in the end, i finished 15mins before the duration.. -.- i hope this wont happen again..

theres just so much to write! i wrote 9 pages for gbe n around 8 pages i think for today's rsm. -.-



ok from today onwards, time is going to be flying.. 1 n a half day to study 3 questions. -.-"


i've not decided what to study for backup.. will be napping first then decide again.. slept for only 2-3 hours.. this happen everytime on the eve of exam. zz

i am so tired!!!


going to nap in awhile then start studying!

i simply cant wait for this week to end!

Saturday, July 21, 2007
7:12 PM

1 down 3 to go

yeap, had my first paper yesterday.. no much issues, should be able to pass if nothing goes wrong.

i was so scared yesterday because i thought i will be running out of time. for the first time, i spent an hour doing just 1 question! i quickly scribbled n managed to finish 20mins before the duration.

phew


as i said, im more afraid of the next 3 papers in a week rather than yesterday's paper. im running out of time actually. by now, i have only managed to memorized 1 n a half question. not to mention i have some problems trying to remember certain points of this 1 n a half question.


i've been aiming for a pass for near 2 years.. its just too much to study, memorized. i duno how other ppl can managed to get As.. now if the exams r based on harry potter, im sure i can ace all the papers. lol


speaking of harry potter, i din collect the book.. now 1 of my friend from ebuzz told me many characters died. aw damn.



i cant wait for my exams to finish.. i know everyone is concern about me, obviously they have not seen this stressful side of me before. lol. dun worry ppl, i will be fine eventually. i probably just have to stop stressing myself.. even dear also asked me to stop studying yesterday, give myself a break. which obviously i didnt heed his advice, i managed to memorized half a question.

its very important to manage my time now. even half a question is good enough.. i have to study 6 questions ok!


ok, now waiting for my pizza delivery to arrive.. trying out the new cheese fondue too!

Thursday, July 19, 2007
9:14 PM

stress

i think this is the most stressful term.. i think the stress level i am feeling now is at its peak.

this is probably the only time i want the exams to come much faster, so that i can get it over n done with.


i am not afraid of tml's paper.. but next week papers.. tues, thurs, sat.. n its ALOT to study n memorise..

i cried, teared, stressed everyday. i see ppl cry on tv, i also feel like crying. lol


i am still ok, just that suddenly i can feel very pressurized n suffocated.. other than those times, i am fine - i can eat, watch tv, chat, blah blah.


i still duno what to study. theres no favourite questions for some of the modules.. i still duno what to choose for cibm..


i've been fantasizing my itinerary after exams.. or, can i just mia n dun take exams..

of coz i am not being rational lah.. but it doesnt hurt to just think lor.


i hate it when its 1 paper in the first week n 3 papers in the next. this certainly add on to our stress level.

why cant it be 3 papers first then the last paper in the next week?


can someone wake me up when july ends?

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
2:12 AM

harry potter

stopping for today's studying.. theres only so much of information my mind can take in a day. i wont want to overload my mind, coz it will just make me forget what i memorised.


just realised i didnt blog about harry potty movie.

anyway, caught it last week, n sadly, im rather disappointed.


ok i know its impossible to cramp hundreds of pages into a 2 hour movie, even if 3 hour also not enough. but i am still damn disappointed lah.


there was alot of talking, though its necessary in order not to let ppl feel lost. but they over simplify everything, especially the fightings.

despite the talkings, they still omitted many things! there are also so many interesting happenings, they didnt show.

they didnt show cho n harry went dating.
most importantly, cho is NOT the one who betrayed them.

they didnt show about dobby.
they didnt say much about sirius's house elf when he is the main culprit of everything that happened.
they didnt explain much about bellatrix.
they didnt show how dumbledore explain everything to harry
they didnt explain what the prophecy meant by "one cannot live while the other survives" - its actually talking about neville n harry, not voldemort n harry.

they didnt explain how sirius talk to harry about how their gang used to bully snape.
they didnt show ron n hermione were made prefects.


n blah blah blah.


but they did show that harry has now grown up, n is no longer the mild tempered child he used to be.


those who read the book will know what i am talking about actually. believe me, the book is MUCH better. im sure many will agree with me.


anyway, i cant wait for the 7th n last book to be released. but its this saturday! meaning, exam week! bah!!!!

i seriously hope harry wont die, i mean, he already survived so many times! but 2 characters will die, as jk rowling said.. i wonder which 2.. probably snape, since he is so unpopular. :X


i wont be collecting the book (i've already reserved ages ago) this saturday, coz i know, i sure will be VERY tempted to read it. i cant afford to get distracted...


i hate exams!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007
2:50 AM

emo II

due to pre exam stress, i break down again on friday.

was about to start writing for rsm, and i was flipping those bookes, trying to find answers.. i really duno what to write, what the questions are asking..

i was feeling so damn helpless..


of coz i got myself to blame for not preparing earlier, oh well, its too late for regrets now.


anyway, i was really confused. halfway through the flipping, i just cry - i was feeling so damn helpless.


i think dear was pretty shocked.. i hugged him suddenly n just break down n cry.

dear was asking, what happen?

i just said i feel very stressed n i really duno what to do.

he was planning to go malaysia with roy n guys, i didnt want to go because i was really behind with my notes..

upon seeing me cry so badly, he took tissues n wipe my tears, asking me to follow them to malaysia, take a break n relax. with that, he attempted to close my books n stuff.


though i really feel like going out, escaping from my stressful room.. but of coz, i didnt lah..

after dear left, i released my emotions.


after crying hard for several moments, i packed all my unstable emotions n go back to writing my notes.


dear called n sms several times to make sure i am ok, asking me to rest earlier and stop stressing myself.

once again, i felt loved.

sometimes its just these little things that will touched a girl. there is no need for any fanciful surprises or whatsoever.


poor dear. he is always the one to tolerate my temper n emotions. who else can i be so open to? i can only be the real me infront of him. there is no need for me to put up my strong front, coz i know no matter what, he will still be there for me.. i have no one to turn to anyway, besides him. i really duno how did i manage before i know him, i also cannot imagine what will be my future like without him in the picture.

sounds mushy, i know. it is so unlike me to be so vulnerable. not that i am really very strong, but i've always refused to show my weakness to others. of coz, not many ppl really understand me. they see me as someone very blissful, happy go lucky, very protective n defensive. no one probably understand why i am always so aggressive in certain manner. somehow, no one will probably believe that i am someone sensitive, i need lots of care n concern, n i need to rely on someone.

ah well, i guess im just babbling.


anyway, i've finished writing for gbe, n its so much! i spent 4 days writing it. it consumed so much of my time that i cant write for other modules before i finished it. so i decided not to continue writing for ibs, will just study from the book. tml will continue writing for rsm, was stuck at 1 of the question.. n also start writing for cibm..

i dun think i want to further my studies again. i am one person who cannot handle stress, this has been proven again n again, when time n time i broke down due to exam stress.


ok. time to sleep.. waking up earlier tml n continue writing.

Monday, July 09, 2007
9:20 PM

emo

been rather emo lately.. probably due to the time of the month..


as i was walking to tm to buy toto, i was listening to my mp3, which was playing colin raye - love, me, at that point of time. its a song i've listened to umpteen times, but i duno why that day, as i was listening to it, i was about to cry.


then just now, i was watching tv while having dinner.. can u imagine that i was chewing my food n cry at the same time?

sounds gross.


i was trying to stop the tears.. once i finished my food, wah. lol!


bah.

watched die hard yesterday. not bad, imo. maggie q is so hot!

cant wait for harry potter this week!


ok, gonna start writing notes.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007
7:28 PM

siansation

i don't know how to start this entry..

i think the pensive, sensitive mood came back again. don't ask me why, i don't know..


what do i get in return for trying to be helpful?
irresponsibility, sai kang etc etc.


what do i get in return for trying to express concern?
snappy, irritable, 敷衍, eng siew, etc etc replies.


or maybe i deserve it, afterall, i am not very good with words, or expressing my care n concern.. even though closer ones may know that this is just me, but sometimes u cant expect anyone, everyone to understand, they r not obliged to 迁就 u.



so i concluded that since nothing good comes out of it, next time i shall just mind my own business, keep my bloody mouth shut, close both eyes to everything n stop asking things.


don't mind me, i am ok. just need a "listening ear", n blogging is the main source for me to vent my frustration.

Sunday, July 01, 2007
2:51 PM

transformers

the movie was great!!!!

for a 150million budget movie, its already good enough imo. i love the sound - "voice" when the autobots talk.

i'll give it 4/5 stars. its a must watch, especially if we r of the same generation, transformers is 1 of the cartoons that i always watched! though i forgotten most of it. hahaha.

i used to have many transformers toys.. but all went missing lah. i was already a tomboy when i was young, i got many legos, toy cars, transformers n such.. even more than soft toys or barbie dolls. lol


was quite disappointed at yesterday's match; singapore vs australia. why cant sg score a last goal at the stadium before they tear it down?

was even more disappointed at the fireworks, if u call that fireworks. i was at indoor watching christina aguilera's concert last night. after the concert, it was around 10pm, just nice to watch the fireworks. so dear n i waited for around 10mins.

at last the fireworks started, but it started for less than 3 mins! just a few of them n 1 misfired. everyone there was like, har? like that only ah?

theres this family next to us was even more disappointed since they come down to indoor specially to look at the fireworks.

damn budget lah. cant they have a grander fireworks at the stadium before it closed? its such a disgrace! the foreigners must be laughing at us for the poor fireworks display.


anyway, speaking of christina aguilera's concert.. it was fantastic. initially i wasnt really keen on going, dear wanted to go..

till yesterday evening, we both dun really feel like going, but in the end, we still go since we have already bought the tickets ages ago.

but, we are really glad that we went. she was great. anyway with the rumours of her being pregnant, well, i duno if she is really pregnant, but she was dancing with high heels, climb on the tables, piano blah blah. her figure is very good, her costumes are all very nice.

the stage layout is very simple, but i like the curtains.. even the musicians, playing trumpet n all, came to the stage n dance, same with the back up vocals. every song has an ending, showing their expertise in instruments.


alot of ppl were dancing, since she was singing mostly fast tracks. everyone was high n screaming, cheering. but when she sing hurt, the whole stadium went quiet, very very quiet. once again, we can hear the powerness of her vocal.. i nearly cried when she was singing hurt, it was so good, so full of feelings.. its really very different from cds..

my goosebumps were up most of the time, the way she drag the last notes, the way she express herself through her voice..


to sum it up, its entirely different experience from those chinese concerts. im glad we went to her concert.. she is really a very good singer, i cannot find the suitable word to justify her powerful vocal.



anyway after the concert, we meet up again with roy n guys.. we went to rent a room at cine level 9.. $10/hr but there are 7 of us. haha. so in the end everyone just paid $4 for a 2 hour room n dvd rent $6. quite good, next time we are going to book again, n bring our own dvds!

too bad they dun have my game there.. but ok lah.. got 2 pc in the room, if u wanna play xbox, u have to rent the games n controller at additional price. if want to play ps3, have to pay even more.


hmm.. now have to start saving for dear's birthday. -.-"