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Sunday, July 31, 2005
7:43 PM

damn frustrated.

u think i wan to fetch people to and fro? u think im not angry as well? if i got the freaking car, i wouldnt even want to ask u to help to fetch my brother.

can anyone fucking understand how i feel? can anyone understand the pressure i am facing?

can anyone just freaking give in to me when im throwing my temper? can anyone just dun fight with me, just be understanding when my blood is boiling?

can anyone let me nag after i am being kp by my father and by my boyfriend?
who can i turn to after being kp from both sides? why do i have to see other people's face when i am doing them a favour?

who can understand how i really feel?

can anyone tell me why i have so many fucked up "friends" around me? can anyone tell me why people like to bet over their limits? can anyone tell me why my "good friends" can do these kind of shit things to me? can anyone tell me why people like to owe people $$ but they dunwan to return? can anyone tell me why people can still kp us when they r in the wrong? can anyone tell me why do i have to bear all these shit when its not even my fucking problem?

can anyone tell me why i have such a life? can anyone tell me what is wrong with me?

can anyone tell me why?????

Thursday, July 28, 2005
11:09 PM

damn dulan. the p5 ger's ahma "chase" me home sia.. here goes the story...

i asked her to do a compre las week, i ask her to try la.. she say ok.. den todae i went, she say she forgotten, so i nm, u do now.

so i go thru the story with her again. den i ask her to do. she stuck there again.. so i ok, i explain the qn to her, den i ask her, so u noe the ans? she say ya, n she even say the ans to me.

so i ok, so now u write lor. den she stuck ther again! so i ask her, probably with a firm voice.. i said,
"how come u stop? is ther anything u dun understand?"
she kept quiet.
"i've oreadi go thru this passage so many times (las week oso this passage). u noe the story, i also explain to u the qn, u also noe the ans. den y arent u writing?"
she kept quiet.
"wat isit tat u duno? i understand that ur chin is weak, but i've already explained to u, n u oreadi told me the ans. so all u haf to do is juz copy the ans fr the passage n write."
she kept quiet.

den the ahma pass by the kitchen n heard, den she said,
"duno how to do dun do, just close the book la"
i said, "its not that she duno how to do, she noes the ans, but i duno y she dunwan to write. all she haf to do is just copy fr the passage"
den the ahma kept quiet.

after that i gave up, i said, nm. so i gave her the exercise book wher i written all the basic words like, 有, 能, 可以 all these. with hanyu pinyin n english explaination n sentence. so i ask her to read to me. again she kept quiet.

so i asked her wat happen? cant b she duno hw to read wat, gt hanyu pinyin all these, with eng explaination summore.

den the ahma come again n say,
"u make her angry she will keep quiet wan, i noe her pattern wan."
i said, "i made her angry?!" i was like wth? i haben flare she cum n say my fault."
ahma: "she also duno how to write, u keep asking her to write. she dunwan to write, u dunwan to teach"
i was like har? excuse me, is she dunwan to learn ok...

den the ahma ask my student to go into the room, forget abt the tuition. she said no pt sitting ther for 1½hrs wasting time.

so i ask the ahma, i say :" does this happen to other tutors also?"
den the ahma sibei sarcastic, say, :" las time she with other tutors very happy n cheerful wan. duno wat happen today."
jitao yi si qian qian say its my fault liao lor.

i keep asking my student, i say, r u nt feeling well, or r ur moody? wat did i do to make u so angry? u can juz tell me, i wont b angry, i wont scold u. in fact i nber even scold u b4..
she keep keeping quiet lor. zz

i told her, i say u haf to put in effort.. ur mom spent $$ to let me teach u. dun waste her $$.. i can teach u, but if u dunwan to do, thers nth i can do..

den the ahma ask the maid to keep the stuff n take her back to room.. den suddenly she cry! i was like har? wats happening? so i said, if u wanna go back inside, just go, its ok.

coz the time was ard 11am oni.. supposed to end at 1130 mah.. so when i was at the void deck, i called the mother n told her. so she ask me to go back home 1st lor. zz. coz cfm + guarantee when the mother get back home, the ahma sure *&^%$#@!~ den behind me can stab me.. so i call the mom n explain to her 1st. zz

my fault meh??? i told ju they all abt it. they were like, har? y got like that wan. oso nt ur fault. dun bother la.

anyway i think after this thing, dun think i can teach her le, dun think they wan me oso la.

previous lessons back when i ask her to check the dictionary on the words tat she duno, the ahma oso say, "she dun even noe hw to read, hw to check."
so i said, charissa (my student's name) noes hw to check. chin dict beri ez wan"
so the ahma ll lor..

den i think the ahma go complain the mother la.. so when i ask her to check, the mother came n say i cannot like that ask her to check, coz she is VERY weak. it will take alot of time. the mother wan me to go thru with her, read to her, explain to her.. meaning wan me to spoonfeed her la. although i've tried but not successful.. but i juz say ok lor.. wat can i say? she paid me mah..

i really tried my best le la.. i mean, i tried to spoonfeed her already.. tat time oni 3 sentences.. i go thru duno hw many times, explain duno hw many times, den when i ask her, so wats this, den her most common sentence: "i duno"

-.-

think on the las day, i will juz say, ur daughter is too pampered by the ahma.. pamper is gd, but over pamper will hai her.. n, she's nt putting in any effort to learn.


sibei dulan the ahma sia!

den the blardy agency.. keep referring me to whoever whoever. when i call, tmds juz hold me on the line n tok to other ppl, do other things.. wait damn long.. when i call again juz nw, make me wait liao den kup the blardy fone. *&^%$#@! den tsf the line to fax.

anyway i've oreadi told the bedok res abt it, i said 150 is too low.. my charge is actually 170.. i let u consider for these few days lor, coz nx wk is the 8th time.. i will juz take it as 150, but fr nx time onwards is 170.. if u think its ok den we cont, if nt den nm.

oh yeah, the arrogant m2 is OUT!! nber find him yd lor.. me n dear both find tat he look beri xl.. got the kiap pa face. LOL

Wednesday, July 27, 2005
7:59 PM

oh forgot to write about the wedding dinner hor. haha

anyway, its at orchid country club, we only rent the place.. the cooking they ask other ppl to cook. so the table cost $688, den coz we rent the place fr occ, so each table cost 300+. so altogether each table cost ard 1k... n thers a hundred tables. -.- so 100k spent on wedding dinner ONLY. lol.

but we got good food la. 1st dish = bird nest. wah lao eh.. i nber ever eaten bird nest in a wedding dinner! 2nd dish is lobster.. 3rd sharks fin.. its not those normal soupy sharks fin leh.. its those like thai sharks fin village restaurant lytat wan.. 1 whole piece wan leh.. den 1 WHOLE abalone for EACH person (not 1 slice ok!) den the rest normal la.. fried noodle, garoupa, herbal soup and tang yuan! lol.

den u noe the red carpet.. they not WALK in wan leh.. they sit those car come in wan leh.. u noe those golf course car.. its tat! with flowers all these of coz. lol. so special.. n they haf their rom ther too.

when i get married.. its either this grand, or grander.. not as grand oso ok.. but not too han suan la... lol... but it will be damn exp.. lytat who wan to marry me? LOL


sucky agency.. tmds lie to me.. tell me tat person resigned. when i call, he's still there! still lie to me say its his colleague. tmds.

i think i really dunwan to teach the p5 chinese liao.. u noe yesterday i go teach her, i ask her to check the dictionary herself coz i dunwan to spoonfeed her anymore. she juz take it for granted.. everytime i spoonfeed her, when i ask her back, she say i duno. -.-

anyway, i ask her to check dictionary.. den her mom came n ask me not to ask her to do that. coz she ALOT of words duno, so if she were to check dictionary, she will take a LONG time.. she say i haf to spoonfeed her.. read thru with her afew times, den explain to her..

well, i DID all these! just tat when i oways ask her the words that i juz explained, she say DUNO!

tmds..


eh, if no ppl gonna tag, i will remove the chatboard.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005
5:36 PM

here r the pics i promised.

these r taken at my room!

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these r taken at the wedding dinner at occ (orchid country club)

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my sis, me n my bro. i look like the youngest instead of the elderest hor. haha

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me n my sis

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i look so fat hor.. :( *diet*

Monday, July 25, 2005
5:41 PM

oh ya.. that day forget to post about me giving seats to 1 ahma n ahpek.. the ahpek sit dw den the ahma keng with me sia. tok alot. tok until they alight at bedok. lol

damn dulan leh.. the stupid agency call me say both my assignments, supposedly should be $170 and $140. but when they go collect the money, the parents only give $75 and $60 respectively. i was like wth? u told me is $170, so i should get $85, not $75. den $140 i should get $70 not $60. short of $15 leh. wtf? she keep saying she duno, den ask me how. i was like har? i shld be the one asking u how leh. den she say the guy who gave me the assignment resigned already. i told her, tats not my problem. initially ur agency tell me this price, so it SHOULD be this price. now i agree to teach, u tell me the price is wrong? that is UR problem, not mine. so i ask her to go n discuss with her superiors or whoever, c wat they gonna do. tmds.

wat i guess is, coz initially the price is $150, but i say too low. so the guy called me back n say the parent agreed to $170. so probably the parent dun agree la, but he just heck care lor, since he's quitting.

really damn disgusted lor. irresponsible.

later i will post some pictures of me n dear. hehe

Sunday, July 24, 2005
4:09 PM

so tired this week leh.

i think dunwan teach the p5 le.. so angry with her... duh tok abt it liao.. tmds.

beri farnie thing happen on fri in class. wendy ask me wher is pool junction, so i say ard bugis there lor. den juliana was like, har? since when bugis got swimming pool? we were like stunned for awhile, den i say, play pool de pool la, wat swimming pool. -.-

we burst out laughing when we saw the Click to add text. hahaha. den the whole class look at us.


went to weiwei's house yesterday... i think he n his wife give ppl drink tea until they seh.. lol. our family is just too BIG~ of coz me n the younger cousins also must greet them as a form of courtesy mah. den we got angbao take. lol. oni only $4 la.. he haf to give so many ppl leh. LOL.

after that go back home and nap, den go devils!

god.. 1st clubbing ever since 1yr!! bad ventilation.. music soso only.. but got free show. as we sit near the dancefloor, den got fight sia! a grp of 7 ppl beating 1 or 2 ppl. den the bouncer so slow den come sia.. den the crowd move back coz they fight until luan 7 8 zao, push here n ther den luan hoot! den dear put his arms ard me, so protective hor. -.-

i think i still prefer zouk

going to learn makeup n tie hair liao. hehe. later weiwei's wedding dinner wor.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005
8:00 PM

felt so tired lately.. especially today.. having insomnia recently.. duno y leh.

anyway.. something interesting happened in class today.

we were copying notes for economics. we were talking la as usual, so we din really pay attention. then the lecturer starts to type the notes via her laptop. then wendy sit beside me mah, so i ask, "eh, this wan under what category ah?" coz the lecturer only type the explaination, but not the topic title. then u noe she type using power point, so its like in layout form, so above where she shld type the topic, it put "Click To Add Text".

so u noe what wendy reply? she said, "Click to add text lor"
i was like, har?

then me and juliana started laughing. den its ok..
we thought wendy is just joking with us u noe.. den we saw her book, she write "Click to..." then she cancel it away.

thats when me n juliana really started laughing. then monica they all know about it.. then we all started laughing too.

its real funny lor..

ok.. having a shopping session tml with them..

will upload some pictures we took this afternoon.

here it goes.

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jeanette

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jeanette n monica

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me, wendy n juliana

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wendy, jeanette n juliana

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wendy n jeanette

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jeanette n juliana

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me, wendy n jeanette

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monica n kevin

Monday, July 18, 2005
10:36 PM

wah damn tired leh..

sunday went weiwei's house. so bored. zz. anyway i left at ard 5+ go petfarm with dear.. see the dogs there sooooooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me n dear were like, wah.. so cute.. how we wish we can bring it home... -.- but no $$.. zz

after that went expo for the career fair. stupid sia.. i think less than 100 ppl there. -.- stupid. we walk for i think maybe 5mins den we walk out n enter the next hall, home design n deco! lol.

went back to dear's house to nua.. watch tv.. was watching kangxi halfway den dear say go 85 meet kidzgal. -.- so we go there lor.. eat le go back liao. lol.

we had lunch at mac.. it was raining so heavily that the whole place was FLOODED.

school is sooooooooooooooooo boring. our pom(productions n operational management) lecturer is SO BORING. me n mel nearly fall asleep lor.

luckily dear came and fetch me back home.. so i got ard an hour to nua n iron my clothes ( i got no more clothes to wear if i dun iron) haha. den sweet dear fetch me to my student's house at bedok res. hehehe

so tired...

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Saturday, July 16, 2005
8:06 PM

met up with mel n alvin again yesterday. plan to go broadwalk at marina sq.. but duno whether open anot.. n its quite exp also.. so in the end we went beach cabana at ecp..

quite surprised to saw roy n his gf, youyi n simon they all. lol. so in the end all sit together lor.

but they chat theirs, we chat ours of coz..

tok abt alot of things bah..

sit until ard 4am den we go home.. lol. so dear n alvin ki siao.. keep honk each other. lol. den race abit. -.- lame hor. haha

sian duno wan go wher now leh..

Thursday, July 14, 2005
2:44 PM

receive timetable liao. abit fucked up lor.. all afternoon sia. -.- lytat can only have 1 more student leh.. some morning some evening. zzz

met up with mel n alvin yesterday night at ecp mac. had quite a good time chatting. lol

nowadays nothing much lor.. its either scv or initial d anime. haha. quite nice. but once school starts (which is next week), i dun think i got the time to watch tv n anime le. :(

tml duno got go sentosa anot leh.. waiting for mel to cfm now.

i think i dunwan to teach the p5 chinese liao. really toooooooo weak.
天, 点, 东, 西, 三 can read until 二. duh. really lor.. ask her read her textbook read 1 story need 30minutes. -.- every 2 or 3 words she stop. pekcek sia. i admit i got no patience. but dun u think she's too weak? think i go find other students better. zz

nothing much to post le. so anyone can let me know where can upload mp3?

ohya recently the nkf news very big hor? orbi sia that durai f*cker. anyway i knew this long ago lor.. think heard from my lecturer that a huge part of the donation goes to the pockets of the ceo, den a small part goes to the patients. even the toilet bowl is gold plated.

tmds.. 1 mth salary so much liao.. den bonus can get 12mths bonus. wtf? non profit organisation can get 12mths bonus? out of wat? must be out of the ppl's donations la!
even if he quit oso no use. the next ceo, next next ceo blah blah will also have a high salary n many mths bonus.

i dun mind donating la, but y must i pay $5.80 - $5 for patients, 0.80 for gst n processing fee n administation fee. wtf? donate to charity still must pay gst all these shit? my god. wats the world coming to!

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
3:11 PM

went out with kidzgal, seng, glan n cancergal on sunday.. meet up at kallang kfc.. lol. then the person from kfc go chase us away at around 12mn say they have to wash the floors n stuff.. so we move to mcdonald lor. lol. den seng they all complain say dear's car so dirty, den they started "drawing" on the car bonnet coz too dusty. haha.

in the end i bth, ask them to clean! so go toilet take water den clean the whole car. lol. everyone clean for him leh. hahahah.

after that we went jalan kayu for some prata then we chatted till 2+am. lol. talk about dogs, tuition blah blah. told dear that after he found job, we can have a dog! lol. he likes dogs.. i like dogs, but im also scared of them. -.- anyway seng say can no need to buy dog de.. so expensive.. can go adopt mah. he say the most pay 50-100 for what donation blah blah. lol.

yesterday night after tuition, met up with grace they all.. after that went 85 for porridge! haha. later gonna drive to another student house le..

tmds mdis sux.. next week supposedly to start school, but timetable not here yet! tmds.. i wanna plan my schedule leh.. if time permits, i will look for 1 or 2 more student.. zz

Sunday, July 10, 2005
4:25 PM

went out with kidzgal, ahbeng, ahseng yesterday.. quite fun lah. they very funny. we had steamboat for dinner, then go pa pool. waiting lists alot of ppl, but luckily dear saw his friend playing and they were leaving soon, so we waited for them to finish up n "punch" the table, den we play~ haha, cut queue sia. lol

kidzgal left soon after we were there. actually planning to go fisherman, but they play pool until quite late, around 1 or so, so never go liao. we go for supper instead at hougang there, punggol nasi lemak!

ahbeng lent me his burnt cds of initial d!! hahaha


ok la, i go have my breakfast + lunch + tea liao. hungry!!!

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oh yar, added more info to my profile. hehe.

Saturday, July 09, 2005
3:17 PM

hey.. anyone know where can host mp3? i wanna change my background music to mp3 instead of midi leh..

sians.. 1 thing sucky about scv is that there are NO PROGRAMS to watch during weekend. -.- think better watch my drama again..

later still have to do sai kang. mom la. always like that wan. ask me to do this n that. not that i mind doing, but its really OUT OF THE WAY. im only going to parkway. yet she wants me to bring wantan to my grandma's house at ALJUNIED just because she FORGOT to bring the wantan along with her when she's going to my grandma's place. this is NOT the first time. later sure kana nag by dear again.

I HATE IT

Friday, July 08, 2005
7:32 PM

might be changing my blog skin liao.. think sumthing wrong.. no picture leh!!

lol

meanwhile, bear with it~

Thursday, July 07, 2005
1:35 AM

pls scroll down for Dream Cars Asia pics!!

went shopping with mel, jeanette, kevin, monica n wendy. initially only me and mel meeting up for shopping. but last minute all call and say joining us. only ju came at dinner time. lol.

only mel managed to bought stuff.. she's a great consultant. lol. she choose clothes very good sia.. thinking of going bugis village some other day with her.

had dinner at nydc. i ordered mushroom ham rice (got pasta also) but i was damn hungry.. so i ordered it with rice instead. veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy nice sia.. LOL. or maybe because im too hungry.. but its really nice lah. but not cheesy enough leh. lol. next time must try their cakes.

watched war of the worlds with dear at cine after that. ok only lor.. effects were good, but the ending was abit disappointing. but den again, angmor movies are like that. they simply love "no ending" shows.

wanna watch fantastic 4.. but dear say these kinda marvel heros come out too many liao, so not nice de. :
will be starting my first tuition assignment tml.. er, its today actually since its already 1+am. teaching a p2 and k2 kid together for 2hours per session, so meaning an hour each for each of them. initially they wanna pay me at 150, so i asked ju and mom about it, and they say its too low! so i called back to the agency and request for 170 (since ju say i should ask for 170-180) and the parents agreed!

duno how to teach the k2 sia.. teach abc? lol. think better go online and find out about their syllabus. thinking of driving over, since dad is overseas.. hehehe.. lazy to take public transport.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005
11:41 AM

wah quite long no update liao.. ppl complaining liao. lol. u guys better TAG ok!!!
been at dear's house these few days... watched amityville horror dvd.. dear fall aslp as usual.. but i woke him up whenever he starts to snore. LOL. yesterday watched the kungfu mahjong. very funny sia. lol

went to dream cars asia on saturday.. not very nice lor.. the cars also abit, girls also not pretty. anyway i've already upload them. ALOT of photos though. get ready.

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my fav skyline~~

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another fav.. z4!!

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alot hor? haha