Thankfulness

There is a great sense of thankfulness in my heart since Sunday. On saturday, i finally found myself breathing normally again, with good news starting to find its place in my life. For the last 6 weeks, bad news after bad news caused me to hold my breathe and in tension for i do not know what can i do apart from praying that God have mercy.

To the point i totally broke down and bow on my knees cos i realised im tired, im weary and i have no more strength to hold on and fight. However, God's assuring love and words gave me strength, encouragement and hope to continue believing that all things work for the good of those who love Him..

Saturday was breakthru day! My freaky fren no.2 finally can put her injured foot down on the floor and walk with crutches. Today, she is proud to say that she can try to walk slow slow without crutches! Hallelujah! Not my faith thats big enough to bring healing but God sent a skilful doctor to treat her. Praise God for doctors!
My the other darling set her heart at ease as we finally received clearance from docs that her dad is cleared of lung cancer.

Im jus so so so so thankful that He brought all of us through. So thankful that they stood the test of faith and passed. Thankful that in the midst of all these, though im as helpless as they are, they still believed in me and continued the race with me.
I am so thankful to His grace and mercy, love for each and everyone of us.

Nara's Playground Maiden gig @ Magicbox

A band formed by some of my dearest brothers in church. Composed their own songs and sings them. Tonight was their maiden gig... dreaming with them for greater things to come.
Check them out at NUS Kent Ridge Hall on 2nd Nov, 4pm -6pm for their 2nd public gig.

if not just go to this link : http://amp.channelv.com/narasplayground

By the way.. im the official groupie of their unofficial fanclub.. haha.. bought over by Paradise + 溫柔 for unlimited time ^_^

Quality Time

Quality time vs Quantity time.

What is the difference between those two? The former cannot measured in terms of the amount of time spent together but what took place during the time spent together. However, the latter is simply measuring the length of time spent between people but it may not necessarily be fruitful, be satisfying etc.

What kind of person is most difficult to love or keep as a friend? I guess someone whose love language is quality time. Gifts and presents are easy to give, words are easy to formulate, acts of kindness and services are relatively easy to do if u love that person.

But in the society we live, the kind of lifestyle we choose to keep, time is but one of the most expensive thing to demand from anyone of us. Who is not busy in this fastmoving century? Or rather who is so free to wait for people to come and date them for cuppa?

I wont demand time from people, neither will i feel upset when people dont have time for me, i wont scream and shout neither will i be insecure. I will only feel upset when i know and acknowledge that i do not have your precious time,even 5 minutes but your remaining time.
What is the difference you may ask? The difference is great. The former is making time for a person even through business, the latter is "im free now, i got nothing to do, i give this time to you."

After sometime of receiving the latter or looking for me simply needing a favour from me, I will simply hide one side and disappear into the background gradually till you remember one day that i was once there. Sad to say, when you do remember, i may have already moved on to somewhere else, no longer there to be found.

Yes! I can make the first move to call, to date for cuppas but the knowledge of busi-ness will keep me away. For im weird... i dont like to impose on others, i can live perfectly well without your presence either, cause i will learn in the painful process of disappearing.

This is me. I need quality time, not quantity time. If there is an inability to give me quality time, then dont give me any time at all. I dont want it.

Wireless!!

Yay!! After so many months and years of using modems and comps.. i can finally go online at home wireless!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!

Its like a newfound freedom and mobility! Wireless @home with lil' mac-cy... hahah!! overjoyed!

Im loving it~!

Week 1

Its been a week since things changed. I feel the change, i see the change.
I missed the old yet excited about the new, cannot deny that change sometimes are good.
Its been challenging for a month, at the same time, its been a blessed month.
Its been a wonderful week overall as i returned to a time where i have the priviledge to follow people around to watch them serve people, love people, sit at their feet hear them speak. May it be teaching proper, may it be sharing lives, dreams or in a sense discipling me.

God said its a new furnace to mold me to purer gold. God said its new training grounds. God said its time to sit and hear, observe and learn humbly from one who have things God wants to teach me. I jus have to learn.

Learning is fun yet.. its intellectually challenging for me now,thats y abit tough. hahahah!! CHEEEM has been the word on my lips for a week.. and i still think its cheeem... i need to be smarter, thats my conclusion for now. Lest God decides to bless me with people who speaks my language - the SIMPLE language.

For now.. im happy where i am, for i know vaguely where He is leading me on to.

Jus walking...^_^ lalallalallalal

Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed...not by mundane secular work, neither by the things happening around me, in my life, though things seems to be getting abit out of hand for people who are close to me. Shall not talk about that, cos that itself is another long story.
Im overwhelmed this week by God's love and heart for me revealed through the things He brought me through thus far, through the plans He had for me, through the way things turned out to be far beyond what i can imagine or ask for.

Overwhelmed to the point that im so touched by His faithfulness, His love and grace. Telling me that He remembers His promises, He still thinks that im special and unique, He has paved out the way and i need not fear nor worry, jus scale the mountains with HIM. I cannot describe how one feels when you are overwhelmed by the lovingness of the Great Father, assuring you of His love through actions. I can only cry... lol.. my only way of expressing my gratitude and awe for Him.

Overwhelmed by His love and heart for me, i know im in safe hands, i know i can just be who i am ^_^ i just want to enjoy this special moment of intimacy with Him for as long as i can, cos i don't remember when was the last time i was so overwhelmed with love, joy, thanksgivings, gratefulness and awe. So please do leave me alone for now.
Im an introvert, as introvert as can be! hahaha! see it coming out these few days... so just let me be.

An end is always the beginning of something new

Today is the day.. been thinking about today for a month. Today my emotions are finaly released, Today i can finally let it run all the way. Today marks the end of an important journey in life yet it is the beginning of a new journey that lays ahead.

From the first day i stepped into TouchNTU reluctantly in Aug 2000, i never knew this would be the place i will grow, nurture with a group of lovely people for the next 7 years. Growing up together has its fair share of stories, jokes, moments of joy and sadness, farewells, welcomes, changes, encouragements, disagreements etc..

Never never thought i will one day be moving on to another new place, thinking that the last moving was the last. I was wrong, yes, in the last 7 years, there has been thoughts of leaving, speaking of leaving but... it never happened. But when it was served before me for good reasons,good change, i realised i have taken this family for granted slightly... cos i realised its hard to say goodbye to them, its hard to keep tears from falling.

Recounting the many memories in the last 7 years... its really been a good 7 years.

From NACLI retreat to Desaru to Sentosa retreat to Penang to Kluang! East Coast we've been there,KTV we've cheonged,Japan (Tokyo) too. So many places, so many photos taken, so many unforgettable jokes, so many tears accumulated, so many 'wantons' we made.
From reluctance to knowing, from foreignty to familiarity, from an alien to a part of the family, from an outsider to an insider; i have received so much from so many people here.

That explains the sadness in my heart when its time to say goodbye. NEVER knew its so hard...but i know ONE thing... YOU people are my family still! Must JIO me when u go and play k?? PLEASE...... ^_^

I LOVE U, u , u , u , u , u , u,.....thank you for the wonderful 7 years :)