Malu...

Hahaha!!! Yes.. thats the word that came to mind today when i look at my super big bruise on my left knee this morning. Never had one as big and as painful as this ever before.

And i had to get it in CLASS!! Yes! In class! in front of my 24 lovely kiddos all watching... u can imagine the laughter that rang throughout.

Malu! Super duper malu! :P

But there are heartwarming kids in the class though, who will ask me how am i, am i okie, can i walk etc. Today, one of the bigger boys actually told me that i should not wear heels anymore in this condition. They asked how my leg was and requested to see the ugly bruise... it warms to know that the children care, their hearts are not that cold.

Looking forward to its healing, so that i can run and jump normally again.. boohoo.

Got the KEY?

Have you ever been locked out of your very own house? Imagine this, you are already at your doorstep, all the things you lugged from somewhere are on the floors waiting to hear the crystal clear clanging sound of metal. As you reached your hand into your bag, searching and fumbling, there were no other metal you felt apart from the round ones you use to buy things with. You cannot believe it, you squatted down right at your doorstep, took out all the things you think are hindering your search for the thing that will let you into your property, you look and look, there were NONE!

AAArrrrgggghhhhh~~~~~~~ thats how i felt right at my doorstep today! Was looking forward to putting down the heavy things that made my arms sore, to a nice, hot shower to put my aching muscles at ease, nice background music to accompany me when i do work. Alas, there were none that greeted me other than the great dissapointment and loss when i realised i had forgotten my KEYS.

As i was thinking where to head to, there was a sense of wandering and lossness that i felt in a long long time. Its been donkey donkey years since i last forgot my keys, so that sense of wandering has been long forgotten. I decided to head for my latest favourite hideaway, Starbucks at holland V with my lingo (jap), while waiting for a cab, God spoke at that moment when i felt so lousy....

He taught me a lesson about Keys. He said, daughter, do you realise the importance of keys? i stunned for a moment, He continued, its the same for the kingdom of heaven, its the same for your life. Without the key, there is no entry. I was dumbfounded as He continued, thinking as He speaks. He said, daughter, though you are mine, though you are created by Me, i cannot claim ownership over you until you give me the key to your heart. I went ' what?' He said, yes, I need the key to enter your heart, your life, to claim proprietorship over your life, to call you Mine.

Its the same for the kingdom of heaven. You may be at the doorstep of the heaven, all ready and eager to enter the home that you called yours or you claim to be yours, jus like my house. But without the key, the door will never be open. Even though its your house, without the keys, you are shut out from it all the same. You can do nothing about it apart from going to look for the keys. You claim its your house, but you are not given entry till you HAVE the keys.

You felt 'sian', wandering, lost, no idea where to go.... thats how you will feel and worse when you realise you dun have the keys to grant you entry into the kingdom of heaven.

I was like..... GOD.....nothing else came out. My heart was heavy from the revelation. This is for you and me, children of God. Are you sure you have the key to open the door of heaven, to grant you entry to your house? the house you claim God has prepared for you? Have you given the key that grants entry to your heart and your life to God? You knew Him for so long, but you say there's little or no transformation, no changes, no blessings, no nothing... i would like to ask you, as God has asked me: Have you given the key that opens your heart to God, so that He can claim total proprietorship to your life? Have you given Him the liberty to come in and stay in your life like you do in your own earthly house?

A lesson of the key, the little that unlock the great.

G12 Conference

G12 conference - sensed that it will be different this year.. was waiting for the big bang, was waiting for God to speak in an unexpected way. He did, though not directly but through affirmation and actions.

Affirmation - things i felt with regards to the nation He gave me a heart for, through the words of prophecy that was given during one of the session, Japan is not forgotten, her time will come. Yes, her time will come, though not now, it will come, the land will be ready for harvest soon. - my calling, yes, how can i forget the thing thats so close and vivid, so real. - my desire for this new year, Eunices and Esthers. Women of valour, courage, faith, beauty and love. The time is now....

Actions - He came and blessed. Huijing, my first Esther, was blessed, was touched, was given the gift of the Holy Spirit. He has been encouraging me through this life bountifully, truly blessed. My heart of love and compassion was revived, for a very long time, i have forgotten how to cry, really cry for the lost, but on saturday evening, God revived it. God pumped blood into it once again.... so fresh, so clear, so painful.

Hahaha... i cant run nor hide from the hand of God what He has desire for my life. All i ask now is that He wil keep my heart moldable, teachable, humble and courageous to rise up and be all He wants me to be. The time has come, no doubt about that, as i wait and see His works unravel bit by bit, this year, will determine what is the next step for me in the coming. Only my Esther knows it, cos it came out in a slip of tongue on sat night, if she still remembers :)

Whole week!

Im back! yes... back for 3 whole days actually from beijing. God is good! In fact, He is awesome! He provided everything and all i could do is give thanks!

Weather was fantastic, and how do i know that God's hand is in this? It snowed heavily 3 days before, wind was blowing at 5 knots on ground the day before we arrived. But when we were there since sunday, its bright and sunny! Wind was not blowing strong, in fact, we had good weather for the climb at great wall of china.

Kids were well and good generally, except for a couple of stomachaches here and there, though i ended up sleeping with my boss's boss... things turned out alright. Not so stressful as i thought... kekeke

Though im exhausted from the trip, but i was so loooking forward to go home and attend the church conference, cos i know i will be blessed and im waiting for my Almighty to do something in my life... will talk about that later in the later blogs.

MEGA BIRU *_*

Ling meimei with her mega big beer on her birthday... she finished it though amazingly.... hahaha :)


nana with our fave stonepot unagi rice.... YuMmY!!!!!! never have enough of it....

Shots 3

CLASSIC... i love it :) niki!!! cheerios!

Shots 2

a shot we both like cos of the colour combi.... resemble a set of beatles books we saw in melbourne but never laid our hands on it regretfully..

Shot with Alfie

i met Alfie at starbucks one day... with the pointed nose, its undeniably true. I met Alfie at starbucks one day....

Alienic shots

things people do when they are bored and have a photo booth on hand... hahah.. nearly laff ourselves to death that night! hahhaha..

Feb over in flash!!

wah... february's over in a flash and im into the first week of march already. And yes, i have not been blogging much in the last 2 weeks. Busy to the max... busy working, busy playing :)

First term of school is coming to an end... been busy, up to the neck most of the time. Never worked so hard before, never spent so many hours thinking about work either. But i did both in the span of 10 weeks, not successful in packing and going much in this first term, however, there are much to give thanks for. Not going to touch on that here. Not this post.

Holidays are in sight, but not much of a holiday for me though im flying on a jet plane. With 17 kids in tow and 2 bosses in lead, not very much of a holiday i guess. Was jus thinking about flying in a job.... used to think how nice will it be if i have a job that allows me to fly around the globe, seeing things, meeting people etc etc etc. But now with one in my lap, i realise its not that nice after all. On top of that, i have frens who do fly on the job, for a couple of weeks for an assignment. It looks glam but not so glam. What an irony! I jus laughed at myself on the train the other day when these thoughts came, and yes, im glad i did not have a job that allows me to fly around the globe, but rather a job that allows me the freedom to fly around the globe when school is over.

One of my bosses commented during one of the briefing, I have a dream to travel around the world. I was stunned for a moment, for i never say anything to her regarding that ever before... hhahaahah.. maybe my boss did know me. Jus giving me grace daily... :)