Most Ridiculous Week Ever

Back to work, before I FAIL AT LIFE.
No time to rest. Sigh.

Masquerade

I'm SOOOO into 'black' music right now.
(Apologies if I'm politically incorrect for labelling it as such)

"Blame it on the a-a-a-a-alcohol"

"Kiss me thru the phone, kiss me thru the phone, see you later on.."

"Insomnia..ooo-woah-oohh"

"Day n' Nite, I toss and turn, I keep stressin’ my mind, mind"

"And it's all because of you..."

"Cos you're so beeaautifffulll..."

"Circle, circle, dot, dot, I got my cootie shot"

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Anyway, I just thought it was interesting that people have thought that I am:

Hongkie, Korean, Japanese, Singaporean

Personally, I think I'm look/act pretty Malaysian in general. Don't see how I could possibly be any of the above?!?
...Hmm, Interesting nonetheless..

I always feel like I'm wearing a mask when I'm outside/going out. Everyone thinks my life is peachy except for the heavy workload. Sometimes I just want to show them another side of me, but then it's not particularly fun/comfortable to be around that part of me. So I guess I just save it for alone-time..

What you see...
Outgoing, Fun, Popular, Crazy, Friendly, Interesting, Bubbly

What you don't...
Insecurities, Sadness, Loneliness, Confusion, Tiredness, Fear

Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

There's no one to fix me now

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Annoyance of the day:
Me: Mum guess what I found out my cons dent mark! I think I got the highest in the class!
Mum: Oh, how you know?
Me: demonstrator gave us results today..
Mum: SO you know King St traffic is just IMPOSSIBLE, look at that, traffic lights change 4 times also cannot move...
Me: *blasts radio*

So that is proof that my mother doesn't really care if I fail/pass in everything academic. No one ever believes me, but here you go. I kid you not, she doesn't care.

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Sentiment of the day:
"Fix You" came on radio on the way home.
I listened to the first stanza and had to change channels.
That used to be my lullabye.

I miss him so much, but he'll never believe me.
I wonder if he really understands why?
Maybe I just made the biggest mistake of my life.
But I guess this is the only way to learn.

I know there's no going back, even though I wish so much that there would be a better day.

I know I can't find anyone better;
But I hope to God that he does, because he deserves someone better.
And I hope that girl will bring out the best in him, believe in him and help him realise his potential.

I hope she realises how lucky she is and cherishes every moment.
I hope that she'll make him happier than I ever have.

Light of Day

Music Plug: "Some people say that I want you for your money, but I really want you for your body"
yes, it sounds so wrong, but it's such a catchy song!

8am lecture today. WHAT a pain. Was awake for it, then kinda zoned out for neuro (it was just boring stuff we've learnt before). Then was 100% asleep for microbiology. Why am I always so tired nowadays???

Anyway, I had a break from 11-2pm. Was supposed to meet up with Jen, but she had to raincheck, so hung out with Steffie, Elsa and THOMAS instead!! We went to Mark's to have that awesome Tangy Chicken Supreme.

Mini-Rant: That bitch @ Mark's is SO annoying. Won't serve us tap water, won't let us drink our own water in the restaurant, won't even let us drink outside it! She told Elsa, "You're really pushing it!" when Elsa went out to drink her water. Um, HELLO woman, I'm not paying for bloody water, what's wrong with drinking my own? Seriously she must have a giant stick up her ass or something. People like that will die of heart disease - too much anger/stress = hardening of arteries. Or at least I hope so. >=)

After Mark's we went to grab a coffee at Roy's. It was such a fun catch-up session. WESLEYANS! :) Gossiped about everything and anything..funniest thing I heard today "Dev blew up the chem lab at WMS by mixing hydrogen & oxygen, so she got demoted to being an art teacher" - no wonder she was always so freakin pissy all the time.

Went for clinic - Infection Control in Radiology. Washed my hands like 5 times in that 1 hour. Seriously! I guess its all about being safe and clean, but no wonder everything takes SO LONG to get done! Wash Barrier-Wrap Wash Mask Goggles Wash Gloves Procedure

Note to Self: Serious Studying starts this week & figure out bearings in clinic =S

Some Days

Some days are harder than most.

Keep thinking, all the flashbacks..
Makes me so sad.

So I distract myself as much as I can
Because this is the right decision for us both
Even though it's hard
So hard..

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

I hope it's temporary
I hope we'll grow up quickly

I still hope....

Well...Yeah

Yeah I'm sad, who wouldn't be?
But I'm holding up, I guess that's the key.

Perhaps now we're both ready to take off.

It's been a great run, I don't regret a thing.
It has made me who I am today, and I thank you
With all my heart, thank you.