Recuperation

Past week has been actually insane.

MONDAY:
(ref to previous post)

TUESDAY:
lovely weather! randomly got called to St Kilda beach with Michelle, Ricky, Kenneth and Jarrod (nerf's friend). Spent a lazy day on the beach then hit some cafes for dinner. :)

WEDNESDAY:
Predrinks at KeCh/Yini's - was nuts. I had about 10 shots in 1 hour. was seriously DEAD after that. Dvd was pretty much just as gone as I was, but he somehow helped me into Barb's car. (I dont even remember barbs coming omg). Apparently I was whinging for water the whole way, and Barbs just stopped the car and got some SOLO out of the boot. Then he parked at crown I think (?) and somehow LEFT 4 DRUNK PEOPLE (2 of which, completely wasted) in a MULTISTOREY car park. Anyone know thats is VERY bad idea?? Lincoln/Stef weren't as gone as me/Dvd..thank god.. So they were helping us get out even though they were both just as lost. Then I don't remember much. I remember stairs, I remember puking.. I remember more stairs.. apparently I slid down the stairs at one point cos I couldnt walk anymore..WTF haha! Then apparently we all got into a cab.....and suddenly was at Embassy.

Can't believe I got in!! Foam party was AWESOME. Best night ever!! Even though I don't remember much, but seriously..... DEF GOING AGAIN NEXT YEAR WOOOOOOOOO =D It was the best time. Saw Dilara, Annie...3rd years..4th years.. it was seriously pretty mad. =)

We left about 3.30am, somehow managed to get a taxi to take us.. Then went back to Kech's place..Yini made us some indomie, then Kech, Stef, Linc and I walked back to Stefs.

THURSDAY:
Mini recuperation for like 50minutes, then off to Jackjack's birthday =) Had sushi at Nori's (yays) then back to Stefs to talk and stuff. Went home around 10.30pm.

FRIDAY:
Woke up at 2.30pm then started getting ready. Got picked up at 4.45pm then dropped off at ChoGaos for MDSS EoX. Surprised to see so many 2nd years turned up! Went around catching up with people then headed off to 7 after (very contentious issue...). Was actually quite bummed, cos I really wanted to go to SSS EoX. But tis not to beeeeee =( Anyhoo, met up with Colleen, Jeff, Rong there. Was so much fun. OK, actually apparently it wasn't that great but I was so high it didn't matter. But I have to say I enjoyed previous friday @ seven better =) Maybe cos last week everyone was together. This week we all kinda split up.

The other boys went to BLVD (fail, biggest fail ever). We met up with them after that for HJs..and they were trying to convince us they had a better night. (point and laugh at them.) Then two of them (won;t name names) hahaha were just crazy. Apparently they were saying, "When we're your demos we're gonna fk you up your asses!!" LOL WTF!! It got to the point where it was just 10 drunk people trying to out-yell each other until we (the more sane ones), just got up and left. LOL.

SATURDAY:
recuperation

SUNDAY:
Just had yumcha with Chris, Stef, Kech and Yini =) was a good time.. first time seeing everyone SOBER in the past week. LOL

Coming week is pretty boring. Everyone's leaving so I have nothing planned.. Hopefully it turns out to be a good week.. *cross fingers* Flying back to KL on the 7th.. can't wait to see Sammie, she has ALOT ALOT to update me on seeing as she got FLOWN TO THE UK TO SEE JOBRO/TAY SWIFT!! =O !!

OK i think it's time for a nap. =)
xox

Tonight Tonight Tonight, I Wanna Be With You Tonight

can I get a WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finished Cons Prac Exam today. Was so strenuous :(
9-11:30am did mesial/distal boxes + MOD + cervical
2-3pm did amalgam for MOD + RMGIC for cervical + rubber dam

I've never been so efficient in my life. :O

Cavity preps were not the most flash. Messed up 1 mesial and 1 distal box. But meh, I had FLAT FLOORS. No one cared about posture. My face was like inches away from the actual tooth. After 2.5hrs, my back caned like crazy.. :(  oh, and can I just say that my favourite instrument of all time is the SPOON EXCAVATOR. Seriously, it can do everything. I likey very much :)

Also, I appreciate the softness of plastic teeth.. Pretty much used the spoon exc. to carve out the final flat floors/walls. =D

The last 1 hour was SUPERSTRESSFUL. Amalgam took me forever cos I overfilled so much -__-" Then realised I had a HUGE overhang on the distal. FML. Was trying to scrape it off then realised had about 10 mins left to rubber dam. So proceeded to punch the holes... and guess what... THE LAST BLOODY HOLE HAD TO RIP.!@#$%^&*( so had to do another one..and while putting it on, THE LAST BLOODLY HOLE HAS TO RIP. !@#$%^&*!! Had no time to do another one, so just left it and crossed fingers.

Anyway, its over.

After that went for a couple of drinks with people @ MC Lion.. went shopping.. went Cho Gao.. Then dinner @ OldTown Kopitiam!! =D Got everyone hooked on the curry laksa (mmmmmm) Then we pretty much talked for like...3 hours?? Nuts. And we were so loud. The tables next to us kept giving us hate-eyes but meh.

Then everyone left except Stella, Anna, Sim and me. we went to get crepes =D

Then home. So tired. So happy. So relieved!!

Wake Up in the Morning Feelin' Like P.Diddy

Dont stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party dont stop no
Woah-oh oh oh

FINISHED ALL THE WRITTENS!! (on friday) wooooooohooooooooooo!
Headed out for drinks with the girlies then went out dancing!!
It was so much fun, everyone was so happy cos we're all (pretty much) done.
Except for some vivas and cons exam. But really, you can't really study for that, can you?

One thing I always enjoy when I head out, is the energy in the room.
Everyone's always happy, and there's just so much energy - and i don't mean the kooky-spooky type.

Anyway, right now am trying to look at pictures for tomorrow's test. (I've been 'trying' for 3 hours I still havent looked at anything..fail much)

On another note, had the strangest bimbo-dream last night. I dreamt I accidentally wore a dress that was meant to be for next year's cocktail ball to one of the end of exams parties, and felt positively devastated!!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE LAST EXAM TO BE OVER!!
Desperately want to do some shopping!! :) :) :)

Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes

"If he wasn't so damn good looking, things would be so much easier"

Neuroscience felt ace. Came home and streamed 90210, Glee and Californication instead of study.
Next day went to frank tate to start studying for Cons.
Day after (today), went back to frank tate to finish Cons.

Right now? SHOULD BE MORE EFFICIENT.
Am trying to finish a 8page journal and its taking me forever. Cos im sooo not in the mood to learn/study or whatever. I just feel like a bum. I just want to bum and not do anything and revel in the blankness of white noise in my head.

Is that too much to ask?

Also, I AM SO EXCITED FOR FOAM PARTY.
Must stop thinking about post-exam plans. They make me too happy = cannot concentrate.

SIGH. such is life.

Need to Rant

I know so much Microbiology. Seriously.
I know so much, I could write an essay for each part of each question in today's exam.
But we had only 2hr and 15min to do 40mcqs and 5multipart short answer questions.

My brain, was EVERYWHERE. So hard to articulate all my thoughts into a nice paragraph/point form written format for the examiner to read.

Right after they took the papers, my ranting overflowed. Like seriously, I think I whinged so much that Phyllis just got scared or something. Sorry Phyllis =( but thank you for listening.

I studied (maybe overstudied?) so hard for Microbiology!! But somehow I get this feeling that I'm not going to get the mark I deserve for it.

I think I feel abit stoned as well. WTF right.
I was supercalm going into the exam. Spent like HALF AN HOUR on the denture question before realising, "SHIT I'VE GOT ANOTHER 4 Qs TO GO!!" Then panicked a little bit.

But even walking out of the exam feeling like crap (how much detail do they want?!?!?), I still felt calm. Heck, I still feel calm now.
To be honest I think I'm PANICKING BECAUSE I FEEL CALM. @#$%^&*!@#$%!!

Tomorrow: Microbiology Prac Exam worth 20%
Day after: Neuroscience worth 100%

OMG I SHOULD BE WORRIED BUT I'M NOT
HAVE I HIT A WALL AND JUST LOST MY STUDY-MOJO??
I JUST FEEL TIRED AND SLEEPY.

AAAAAAGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRHHHHHHHH

I shudda went straight to franktate/library right after the exam.
Not doing anything remotely productive at home (eg: this blogpost)

You and I Collide

My SwotVac:

1. Have covered: Oral Radiology, LA, Microbiology, Neuroscience, Oral Anatomy
2. Still to cover: Perio, Cons, Diagnosis
3. Currently revising: Neuro & Microbio
4. Somehow managed to make new friends?!
5. Made Frank Tate my 2nd home - well, very nearly
6. Loss alot of sleep: stress-related, post-exam-excitement-related
7. Whinged about everything in life, constantly.
8. Got a much needed pick-me-up message in church yday :) :)
9. 3 red bulls so far.
10. FREE SLURPEE (aka liquid caries)
11. Met Ken Duncan!!!
12. Started learning how to ride a bike (TQ carolyn hehe!)

Current dilemma: free dinner tonight? or be good and study up?

On another note, I am seriously losing all my social-abilities. (eg: language, vocabulary)
I can't even speak properly anymore. I'm losing my words so I can't express myself properly, except through frustrated grunts. GAAAHH :( :( :(
All I can think of is scientific/dental terms.

Am also totally blur/zombie-like. I don't notice things around me, or people around me.
It takes someone yelling out my name/poking me before I turn around, take about 5secs (delayed response) to recognise them, and then go, "OH! HI!!!!!!!!"

Am gonna come out of this exam period a complete social-retard -_______-"

WHY AM I SO EASILY DISTRACTED & UNMOTIVATED.

SIGH.

Pour Me a Heavy Dose of Atmosphere

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

On the Count of Two

Ever wondered what it would be like if you just took the leap?
Whether life would be that much sweeter, if you had the courage to make that change?
Perhaps, the leap is not yours to take
But you're hoping, praying that someone else would step up to it
To change everything as we know it..to something new and exciting.

It could be magical, it could be tragic....
But I'm up for it
So give me a holla when you're ready.

Contrast

Muzeek Plug: “If you were a beautiful sound and the echoes all around, Then I’d be your harmony and we’d sing along with the crowds, Beneath the candy coated clouds of strawberry avalanche, please crash over me”

Been frank-tating ALOT this week. Studied up for the Oral Anatomy test today, study for Perio/Microbio.. Don't exactly know how much I've done, but hey any progress is good.

Oral Anat test surprisingly ok. Everyone seemed to have got >80. Hopefully this test counts for something massive for the oral anat section!!! *cross fingers*

Today was a massive dent-party at ftate. Seriously.. we pretty much took up 3/4 of the first floor LOL.
Reina started playing icytower on facebook, so Kevin got sucked in... then so did Stef, and Jack.. and KERRY. -_-" hahaha.

Did about 4-5 microbio lectures today. But SO TIRED, i hope it all went in...and stays in. At about 10.30pm, seriously couldn't take in anymore. So gave up and went home.

Everyone's so stressed out this time of year. It's kinda interesting to see the massive contrast in your average DS during exam time vs during events. The people you've seen go nuts having fun at a club are the same people who are in ftate, with glasses on, earphones in, focused but frustrated at the amount of material that has to be covered before exams. It's such a big difference!

Somehow I feel like, well this is what its all about. We have fun together, we study hard together, then we have MORE fun together. It's always nice to see familiar faces in good times and hard times :)

So to all the DSes, good luck for exams! I hope we all pull through! :)

Oh Dear.

Muzeek Plug: There I was, sitting on the top, of the world, in a coin laundry

I could have been, royalty, sitting in her palace just like a queen

CRAP. it's happening. And i cannot give in.

Not now. Not ever.

What I need now, is a distraction, a decoy.

Alternatively (and preferably): A sweep-me-off-my-feet-person.

At the same time, I'm just not in the mood for it

Exam stress, Assignments due, Class Tests....
Datelines datelines datelines!!

They want to kill us. Clearly.

Shall resume social life after 23 Nov 2009.
I pledge to myself to paint the town red and party it on till da dawn.
Something to look forward to =D 


Also, ugly-month + hermit-life begins as of today.
If you need me, I will be (albeit incredibly unattractive):
at home, at erc, at frank tate, at IH. *repeat*

Focus FAIL

Instead?

I play with mini-smarties.

Yes Ai Lin, good job indeed. -_-"

Stupid Awesome Dream

Made me smile too much. Made me too happy.

Then I woke up with a smile on my face to realise, it was all a dream :(

Yet, thinking about it still makes me smile. AGHHHH!!

Must. Return. Expectation Level. Back. To. ZERO.

Feeling Kinda LAME :)

Are you feeling guilty about anything right now?
yeah not using time efficiently :( but... not feeling very motivated atm..

When’s the last time you had fast food?
a looooong time..

Who was the last person you got a text from?
carolyn. more study time = exciting. :(

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i REALLY hope not. lol

Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
nope.

Are you excited for winter?
 NO. winter go away. bring on the summer sunnnn

Have you kissed or hugged anyone today?
yup! hugged my fellow awesome 2nd years! yay-yah!

Are you disappointed about anything?
yeas. certain things dont turn out the way you expected.

How many cellphones have you had?
5.

Do you believe that there’s good in everybody?
Yeah.

Do you like anyone right now?
perhaps.

Is it okay if you kiss people when you’re single?
isn't that the point of being single?

When was the last time you saw someone attractive?
Today. Netball. hhahaha ;)

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
yeah.

Whats something that happened at 12pm today?
Rushing out to Netball cos stupid alarm died on me :(

Is there someone you will never forget?
definitely.

What is something you currently want right now?
new camera, new macbook

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
"ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!!??!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!", then proceeded to jump out of bed and throw clothes on, then rushed out the door.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
1

Is life good?
Busy, busy busy.

How many people do you 100% trust?
A few. :) i love you guys :)

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
Just now when watching the ugly truth LOL.

Has a boy/girl ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend for you?
...

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
No. I just wish they were mine.

When’s the last time you had a late night phone conversation?
Last night.

Do you honestly believe that good things happen to those who wait?
i think good things happen to people who plan and make the right choices.

Do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yes.

Do you trust all of your friends?
not all of them.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
no should really study more and procrastinate less eep!

Are you a forgiving person?
Yeah usually I am. Depends on the level of the crime (hehe) but I usually try to forgive anyway

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
yeah just let them know im going out.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yup. I value a man's opinion, teehee!

Would you like to go back and change any part of your life?
I would take back a few things. But I guess its all about butterfly effect.. wouldnt be where I am today if the bad things didn't happen!

When will your next kiss be?
Mm...who knows... =) 

Where were you at midnight?
i is here. doing this and feeling quite lame.

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
duh! studybuddy love?! hahaha

Last person you saw other than your family?
carolyn. lol. i see too much of her near exams.. ><

Will tomorrow be better than today?
i doubt it since it's a monday.  but hey, here's to hoping!

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you drank?
Water.

What does your hair look like right now?
it's doing its thang.

Is there a night you’d like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
YES.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
a friend....

Do you know anyone who doesn’t smoke pot?
LOL what a question!! I guess I will have to say YES?

Name a time you thought you were going to die?
yeah exams come close. or maybe that night where i had 3hrs of sleep and drank coffee. that was bad.

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
SIM.

If you found out you got pregnant, what would you do?
I'd cry. A LOT. then become quite depressed.

What annoys you?
people who think they're popular. give it a rest, you're in uni for goodness sake.

Next vacation you’re going on?
Road trip hopefully and HOME. and hopefully travel around the area.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah.

What was the last thing you ate?
umms... dinner.

Ever sneak out the house?
yeah a few times. teehee! ;)

What’s your favorite beverage?

fruit smoothies, fresh juice, chai lattes

Ever dated a blond-haired, blue-eyed person?
daym, gimme some of thaaat!

Do you ever lie about your age?
no need to.

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Yes...

What side of the heart do you draw first?
left.

Can you dive without plugging your nose?
what if i can't even swim :(

What do you want right now?
to graduate and not have to study for exams.

What else do you want?
a sweet as apartment overlooking bondi beach.

What color is your phone?
Black.

Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
someone interesting?? LOL

Where are you right now?
my roooom.

How do you feel about carrots?
i like em crunchy.

What is something new today? 

Alan & Alex... cross-dressing. GLAD i didn't miss it!

How many chairs at the dining room table?
i...forget

Do you know what time it is?
0024 eep.

What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
press the emergency button and try not to FREAK OUT

Do you use big words that you don’t know the meaning to? 
*guilty*

Do you like to sleep?
yessums! if only i had more time to!

Potentially the BEST NEWS of the YEAR

Waiting on confirmation.

Perfect Smile ♥

I think I got hit pretty hard.

#$%^&* !!

WHY ME :(

"All the right moves, in all the right places"

"Can you meet me halfway?
Right on the borderline is where I'm gonna wait, for you.
I'll be looking out, night and day,
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish"

"Sometimes I run, Sometimes I hide,
Sometimes I'm scared of you,
But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, Be with you day & night
Baby all I need is time"

xoxo

Mm Bop Ba Doo Ba Bop

So much has happened in the space of 5 days!

Sunday:
Mad rush to the city to help Steffie & Jack with grocery shopping. We bought an INSANE amount of food. Like SERIOUSLY INSANE. Also had to run back to Jen's place to start getting ready for Yilin's dinner and Silk Road after! Jen made this amazing black forest cake that just made me go nom nom nom mmmmm :) Just when I got my hair all done and pretty, it started to drizzle -_-" Had to walk to Hardware Lane for Yilin's thing as well =_=".

Yilin's dinner thing was pretty fun. Kevin went as well so that was cool, didn't think I'd see him after his Bday party last sem! Lin was entertaining us with her food-scabbing habits and arguments about how she wants to help children from broken families but at the same time she HATES kids (???). Rach and Rod were back from Sydney, MIRANDA also came (haven't seen her in forever!!), so did Lena and Charlie. Also got to meet Yilin's new man - Twanson (fully approve!!, btw)

Then had to go back to Jen's for quick pre-drinks (which we did on the move!), then trammed it to Silk Road to meet Steffie, Alice and Chris. Can I just say that Silk Road is.... everything that epitomises high society life. Felt rather GossipGirl-like walking in there! The atmosphere was amazing, it was so classy so grand so everything! Definitely best clubbing experience EVER. Even when our feet hurt, there were so many comfy couches to sit on to chill.

The music was great (this rarely happens), they played a really good range of songs, including grease lightning, M.J., BACKSTREET BOYS, NSYNC, BRITNEY SPEARS (when she was good) some other old-skool stuff. Was really good!!! The energy on the dance floor was just.. exhilarating! Some of the 3rd years went as well, so that was fun! We actually spent a good 20mins with Leighton talking about GossipGirl hahaha!

Things turned out really well that night, ended up staying till 3am! (when the lights came on hahaha) Then went back to Jen's.

Monday:
Woke up, and went home. Started cooking some more cos Jin came back from camp and there's literally no food left at home and mum's coming back on Wed. Everything went really well until I had this brilliant idea of mixing pasta with its sauce. I put it all into a big box, put the lid on and then shook it really hard. Worked really well, until a corner of the lid came undone and pasta just went flying everywhere. Jin looked at me with this "OMG WTF DID YOU JUST DO" look.. and I started laughing so hard.

After cleaning everything up, this HUMONGOUS fly came in and we both screamed and ran upstairs. Then I decided we had to kill it somehow. So I cautiously came back down and whacked it really hard with some magazine, and guess what it got hit into a box with a glass bottle -_____-" Still semi-alive, it was trying to get out. Eventually managed to tease it out somehow and we basically hacked it to death with a dustpan. Mission accomplished.

Did some work after, then started packing for the road trip to Mt Martha with Steffie, Jack, Kwee Loong and Eric.

Tuesday:
Woke up 7:45am. Walked to tram stop, then took tram & train to flinders. Met up with the others..and then began our hour long train ride all the way to FRANKSTON. Was going to visit Arthur's mum's shop there, but decided against it after realising we'd probably get so lost in the process.

Hopped onto the bus, and 1.5hrs later... got to IGA - to buy drinks. WOO! Then walked to our rented beach house :) At first it was really scary, cos the door was unlocked and open. And we were trying to lock it but it wouldn't work!! But after we tweaked it and stuff, it was all good!

THE HOUSE IS AMAZING. It's like the house that keeps on giving: lots of food, drinks, dishwasher (thankgoodness), washing machine, dryer, beddings, lots of towels, kitchenware, board games, comfy sofas... *i miss it already!*

We unpacked then started cooking lunch: Chicken & Mushroom pesto pasta + honey chicken wings. YUMMMMM.. After lunch, while waiting to digest, I did a neuro lect while people played pictionary. Then we slip, slop, slapped and headed to the BEACH!!

Beach was good. Not as good as Bondi, but pretty good for Victoria. Played a game of catch on the beach for about 10mins, then everyone decided we were just too UNFIT so it's time to sunbathe. LOL. (Sport FAIL). Tanning worked!! I am a shade or two darker now, and that makes me a happyful Lin :) We stayed for so long till it got cold.

Headed back and somehow ended up in IGA buying more FOOD??? That's when we bought about 6 packs of TimTams for $1.29 each. I have no idea why it's so cheap in Mt Martha! Then went back home to crank up the barbeque.

We had the meatiest dinner of my life. Sausages, steaks, beef slices, prawns, chicken wings. It was actually insane. Have never seen so much cooked meat in front of me in my life. (Buffets don't count).

After dinner we played Uno Attack. Which Kwee Loong won like 4 times in a row. -______-" I went to bed at about 3am, the others turned in at 4.

Wednesday:
Woke up at 1.30pm. Everyone else was awake already (naturally). They were busy cooking a very late brekkie/lunch/brunch. Pancakes, Sausages, Eggs, Garlic Bread, Chicken Wings (we had 4kgs). I just lazed around and did some more neuro (too much work aaahhh). Started eating at 3pm. Finished at 4, and then we pulled out the kayak (I KNOW RIGHT!!) and went to the beach.

Unfortunately it got really cold at about 4. So we couldnt even go into the water or sunbathe. :( But it was fun nonetheless. The boys were making stupid bets about Eric sleeping with the doll tonight (he's doll-phobic). We went home and played Uno Attack instead (seriously might as well stay in Melb right? hahahaha!). After 2 hours, and after another 2 consecutive wins by Kwee Loong (-_____-"), we decided screw this time to make dinner.

Once again, we had only meat. WOO! Spent hours eating dinner and talking over empty plates. Had a little counselling session for me. Kwee Loong was so funny I seriously almost died laughing hahahaha. Very interesting convo that night, helped me with a very important (dont laugh) decision! =P

Did some laundry, and the drying process, seriously took 5.5 hours. double-you-tee-eff.

Wed/Thursday
Later on we played Pictionary, and seriously.. there were MANY literal-ROFL moments.
--> "Head Dick", "New Zealand", "Canine ≠ Bicuspid", "Rabbit", "Vacuum ≠ Swan", "Avenue K"

OHHH man it was hilarious! Played pretty much half the stack of Pictionary... ended up being 4am. Then we kinda sat around gossiping/debating if we should go to bed. It was 6am when we all decided to move from the comfy couch. 6:30am I proposed we don't sleep at all, we just wing it and go home at 9am. Ate instant noodles, then tried to talk some more... but people started dropping off..

I crawled into bed.. slept till 8.30am when Eric came in to wake me. Then there was a mad rush to pack up and get ready. Left the house and ran to IGA to buy more TimTams, then caught the bus back to the train station. Slept on the bus and train, got off at MC, then made my way home.

It was so much fun, so relaxing, so nice to get away from it all. Wish we could go back :(
ROAD TRIPS ARE SO MUCH FUNNNNNN

Well, time for more work now :( Gotta focus and get things done.. only few more days before Uni starts (noooooooooooooooooo)

Home Alone

Music Plug: Do you have a dollar? Do you have a dollar for me? Could I be the girl that you met at the coin laundry? - Lisa Mitchell (loovving it!)

FINALLY on the midsem break. Have been trying to catch up on all this work that been piling up to week 8, but somehow this isn't proving to be as productive/effective as it should be. It's probably neuro's fault. Yes it is, because I do 2 neuro lects a day, and it's enough to KILL ME. Bear & Paradiso sucks. They use these little analogies that go on for about 3 paragraphs, so you read along and halfway thru you go, "Um, where's the important bit?" CLEARLY NOT VERY GOOD AT BEING SUCCINCT! They should be fired.

Melissa told me that Kandell is even worse,  so Bear to her is like a nice little bedtime read. And im like WHAAAA...T! I conclude that neuro people are impossible at english/writing good books that make sense.

While I'm on a bitch about neuro... WHY AM I LEARNING IT ANYWAY? Is it going to make me a better dentist? No. Do I need to understand how Hearing and Vision works? No. Will I gain anything from doing this subject? N-to-the-O. You know what's really ironic, we had neuro lectures on "PAIN" and "MOTIVATION". I think people at neuro dept deserve an award for degenerate humour.

Have also been drawing more cells and bones and whatnot for oral anatomy. Somehow find it frustrating cos I know drawing it isnt really helping me absorb any knowledge. So all the time spent shading and tracing is being wasted when i could be studying the actual lecture material. Way to go, dental school.

Anyway, Dent ball was last saturday. LOVED the theme - The Roaring 20s! Everyone dressed up and looked so amazing! Beautiful ladies in lovely dresses and handsome men in their tuxes! :) I think I've got a fascination with being/seeing beautiful people. Hence why I love to watch gossip girl. (NEW SEASON OUT! Loving Serena's jumpsuit outfit!) Back to the ball, I think I had more fun dressing up for it than actually being there hahaha.. Wish the music went on for longer though! OOh! and I also won a clinic-shirt :) And its perfect size for me, yay :) Was going to trade Justtin for his electric toothbrushes until we realised the shirt was for girls.

Day after, groggily went home, had a 2 hr nap (INSUFFICIENT), then Thomas came to pick me up. We went into the city to meet Chloe and Elsa. OMG when parking, the stupid meter can't differentiate b/w $2 and $20. SERIOUSLY. I kept hitting the meter and Thomas was like, "Ai Lin seriously, what are you doing?" I replied, "Well maybe coins will pop out if I hit it hard enough? :)" Sometimes he wonders if I'm perfectly sane... sometimes I wonder that too LOL.

Went to Lindt Cafe with Chloe, Elsa and Tom. Was so much fun. We were making so much noise (as usual), laughing so much! Seriously wesley people are so much fun to hang out with!! I will never find another bunch that just FITS me, I said that in year 9 and to this day it's still true! Went around the city taking touristy (and some slightly illegal?) shots since Chloe came all the way from Ade to visit. Haha, can't wait to see the pics when they come up!!

Next day, had a driving lesson then collected contact lenses, claimed the rebate from medibank, then met up with Abi and the rest of the ISS-melbies @ MC. Another day of touristy-goodness and catching up!! I can't believe Abi is tanner than I am. She's from the UK for goodness sake!!!!!!! I am a shame to the SEA-race. *downcast* It was pretty surreal seeing her. It's been 2+ years and all of a sudden there she is, standing in front of me! PeteD, PeteG, Diana, Rick were there too. So good to see everyone again. I wish we could just relive ISS07... those were the young carefree days!

Following 2 days : stayed at home and somehow managed to get nothing done. :(

Yesterday: Had a driving lesson, bought some groceries, then came home to make pesto. For a newbie, I gotta say my pesto kicks some serious ass. :D Then I had a massive quick spring clean of my room. There were many "Oh so THAT's where that went!" moments. (Sigh, Ai Lin!!) Then Jen came over. We made yummy banana bread and then cooked chicken pesto pasta with mushrooms! It was deeeelicious. Who needs dent/eng when we can cook like this? =P woot!
* have yet to upload pics, but I will soon! *

Not doing much today or tomorrow, then come Sunday, we have decided to go to Silk Road!!! Cos the venue looks amazing and WOOOOOOOO I can't wait :D Music sounds fun too: RnB, HipHop, Retro, MashUps. ITS GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT!!!!

Cringe

I usually live with no regrets.

But there is ONE thing i DO regret.
Everytime I replay it in my head, I automatically cringe and pause, then cringe once again.

Yes the past is past..and everyone has agreed to leave it behind.
But no one really FORGETS it. Hence I cringe.

So this time, I'm not going to be stupid.
I'm going to be totally poised and completely logical.

And I will NOT make the same mistake again!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*CRINGE AT MEMORY*

Life's Brief Candle

In my world:
I had a Cons Dent Exam today.
Involved a mesio-occlusal cavity prep on the 46, for an amalgam restoration.

I also bought tickets to Dent Ball afterparty together with the Emmas! And convinved Justtin and Alan to come along :)

In terms of technology: new ipod nano released with video-shooting capabilities!

In someone else's world: they've lost a son. a friend. a brother.

I didn't know you, I've only ever met you once at a Planet Shakers concert in 2006, but when I read posts about what happened.. I have to fight to keep the tears away. You were so young, so much life to live, so much to give, to learn, to discover. For those who just saw you hours before the fatal incident, it must be so hard on them. Knowing that they saw you so recently prior to the accident. What if they asked you to stay? What if you stayed a little longer?

Such a waste of a young life. It could have been anyone. Makes me wonder how crumpled I would feel if it was someone who was close to me. Makes me wonder, what if it was me?

Everyone's so preoccupied with their lives, but this news came as a rude shock. Your friends from all over the world - US, Australia, Malaysia, UK..etc started posting RIP shoutouts in honour of you. Its strange how only when these things happen do people sit up and realise how much you mean to them.

I was judgemental when I first met you, but I am different now. I hope you're in heaven, I hope you're in a good place. I can't say I'm grieving because I didn't know you, but RIP Shobaan.. If only you could see how much your friends and family are hurting over this, if only you could see how loved you are.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time
Till all our yesterdays are recorded fools
......
Life's but a walking shadow
A poor player that struts and frets its hour upon the stage
Then is heard no more.

Most Ridiculous Week Ever

Back to work, before I FAIL AT LIFE.
No time to rest. Sigh.

Masquerade

I'm SOOOO into 'black' music right now.
(Apologies if I'm politically incorrect for labelling it as such)

"Blame it on the a-a-a-a-alcohol"

"Kiss me thru the phone, kiss me thru the phone, see you later on.."

"Insomnia..ooo-woah-oohh"

"Day n' Nite, I toss and turn, I keep stressin’ my mind, mind"

"And it's all because of you..."

"Cos you're so beeaautifffulll..."

"Circle, circle, dot, dot, I got my cootie shot"

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Anyway, I just thought it was interesting that people have thought that I am:

Hongkie, Korean, Japanese, Singaporean

Personally, I think I'm look/act pretty Malaysian in general. Don't see how I could possibly be any of the above?!?
...Hmm, Interesting nonetheless..

I always feel like I'm wearing a mask when I'm outside/going out. Everyone thinks my life is peachy except for the heavy workload. Sometimes I just want to show them another side of me, but then it's not particularly fun/comfortable to be around that part of me. So I guess I just save it for alone-time..

What you see...
Outgoing, Fun, Popular, Crazy, Friendly, Interesting, Bubbly

What you don't...
Insecurities, Sadness, Loneliness, Confusion, Tiredness, Fear

Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

There's no one to fix me now

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Annoyance of the day:
Me: Mum guess what I found out my cons dent mark! I think I got the highest in the class!
Mum: Oh, how you know?
Me: demonstrator gave us results today..
Mum: SO you know King St traffic is just IMPOSSIBLE, look at that, traffic lights change 4 times also cannot move...
Me: *blasts radio*

So that is proof that my mother doesn't really care if I fail/pass in everything academic. No one ever believes me, but here you go. I kid you not, she doesn't care.

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Sentiment of the day:
"Fix You" came on radio on the way home.
I listened to the first stanza and had to change channels.
That used to be my lullabye.

I miss him so much, but he'll never believe me.
I wonder if he really understands why?
Maybe I just made the biggest mistake of my life.
But I guess this is the only way to learn.

I know there's no going back, even though I wish so much that there would be a better day.

I know I can't find anyone better;
But I hope to God that he does, because he deserves someone better.
And I hope that girl will bring out the best in him, believe in him and help him realise his potential.

I hope she realises how lucky she is and cherishes every moment.
I hope that she'll make him happier than I ever have.

Light of Day

Music Plug: "Some people say that I want you for your money, but I really want you for your body"
yes, it sounds so wrong, but it's such a catchy song!

8am lecture today. WHAT a pain. Was awake for it, then kinda zoned out for neuro (it was just boring stuff we've learnt before). Then was 100% asleep for microbiology. Why am I always so tired nowadays???

Anyway, I had a break from 11-2pm. Was supposed to meet up with Jen, but she had to raincheck, so hung out with Steffie, Elsa and THOMAS instead!! We went to Mark's to have that awesome Tangy Chicken Supreme.

Mini-Rant: That bitch @ Mark's is SO annoying. Won't serve us tap water, won't let us drink our own water in the restaurant, won't even let us drink outside it! She told Elsa, "You're really pushing it!" when Elsa went out to drink her water. Um, HELLO woman, I'm not paying for bloody water, what's wrong with drinking my own? Seriously she must have a giant stick up her ass or something. People like that will die of heart disease - too much anger/stress = hardening of arteries. Or at least I hope so. >=)

After Mark's we went to grab a coffee at Roy's. It was such a fun catch-up session. WESLEYANS! :) Gossiped about everything and anything..funniest thing I heard today "Dev blew up the chem lab at WMS by mixing hydrogen & oxygen, so she got demoted to being an art teacher" - no wonder she was always so freakin pissy all the time.

Went for clinic - Infection Control in Radiology. Washed my hands like 5 times in that 1 hour. Seriously! I guess its all about being safe and clean, but no wonder everything takes SO LONG to get done! Wash Barrier-Wrap Wash Mask Goggles Wash Gloves Procedure

Note to Self: Serious Studying starts this week & figure out bearings in clinic =S

Some Days

Some days are harder than most.

Keep thinking, all the flashbacks..
Makes me so sad.

So I distract myself as much as I can
Because this is the right decision for us both
Even though it's hard
So hard..

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

I hope it's temporary
I hope we'll grow up quickly

I still hope....

Well...Yeah

Yeah I'm sad, who wouldn't be?
But I'm holding up, I guess that's the key.

Perhaps now we're both ready to take off.

It's been a great run, I don't regret a thing.
It has made me who I am today, and I thank you
With all my heart, thank you.

I Just Can't

Can't stop thinking about him...

Sigh...

Uni started again, boohoo. Somehow I couldnt concentrate much today.. Been just daydreaming.
Camp was great, I wonder if the alcohol-induced-friendships will last though! HAHA

Anyway, I got these stuck in my headdddd!!!

"I Gotta Feeling, Tonight's Gonna Be A Good Night!"

"I know this much is true, Baby youuu, are my addiction!"

"I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me, papa-paparazzi"

"Do what I gotta do just to show you that I'm the one, girl"

"I can't wait to fall in love with you, you can't wait to fall in love with me;
This just can't be summer love you see..."

Yum Cha & More

Had YumCha with family today at Crown.


Spent most of my time with Ariel outside by the river. She simply ADORES chasing birds.
At one point, all the birds flocked to some piece of bread, fighting for it...and what do you know, Ariel Wong decided it'd be fun to scare away a whole flock of birds.


I stopped her just in time, saving her from being pecked to tears. What a silly Ariel :)

And this is Ariel when I refuse to give her what she wants:


I love Ariel :) :) Am gonna miss her so much when im in KL!...which brings me to...

IM LEAVING FOR KL TMR NIGHT! (more accurately tuesday morning in the am, but close enough!)

Had a look at freshwater place.. It's SO EXPENSIVE. 2Br starts @ $790k! Thats way more than my HOUSE. -_-" It's very impressive/luxurious though.. Maybe one day when I'm a dentist.....*dream*

Bought some pressies for people in KL, and I just GOT TO upload this.. Im sorry Amanda if you stumble upon this, but i just love my buys today (even if its for other people haha)!


Spent the day hanging out with Annie (!), haven't seen her in a year +! It was very much like old times: catching up, laughing alot, tempted her with pretty earrings, redirecting her life...the usual LOL.

Anyway, may return to MNG for that chino-like-workpants tomorrow... Hmmm...

The Climb

There'll always be another mountain
I'll always want to make it move

I can't believe I'm quoting Miley Cyrus.
But heck, she got it right with that verse.
It's tough being in my course, but I know I wanna get to the other side of this.
I know I'm going to love my career, so these little hurdles are
just obstacles I gotta overcome to get there.
It's all for a greater purpose.

I can do it.

Holiday Plans & But Thens..

Ariel decided she likes Hair Bands :) Like a mini-Blair-Waldorf!

My holiday plans currently stand at: ZILCH

See at first, I was meant to go to South Korea with Simone and stay at Liz's place. AND IT WAS SUCH A GOOD PLAN. 'cos we'd get to shop till we drop, eat till we explode, and on a side note: get away from blardy melbourne winter.

But then: SWINE FLU happened. So we got abit hesitant.
But then! Melbourne became swine flu capital, so we thought, well what the hell let's go to Korea.
But then: North Korean bastard decided to threaten nuclear war. So we got alot hesistant.

...and there's no more 'but then's to it.

Stupid North Korean bastard. -_-"

So now with 5 papers down and 1 to go, Simone and I are STUCK IN MELBOURNE.
We decided, hey maybe we can go to KL for 10days :)
BUT THEN.. my dad's like "Malaysia = security problems!!"

:( <-- this is me.

So, we've got until 26june to decide if we wana head back to KL, otherwise it'll get too expensive.

Anyway, I realised I got HEAPS to do for DP2. crazy.
1. Finish of Cons Dent
2. Listen to Oral Bio lectures
3. Study Oral Bio
4. Listen to Growth Studies lectures (BOOOO-RING, yes, boo ring.)
5. Study Growth Studies

DP has always been the giant 3-in-1 paper. SIGHS.
It's so fweakin hard to study after I nearly collapsed from studying Anat, Biochem & Physiol
(I survived Anatomy btw, snaps for Ai Lin! :D)

I think i need some 3-in-1 milo to keep me going.

No Sleep Tonight

My month so far..

week 1: SwotVac
Rushing to understand a whole semester of biochem that has continually eluded me.
Vitamins, Amino Acids, Carbohydrates, Metabolism, Haemoglobin, DNA, Nutrition = AGH!
Also did some guilty Conservative Dentistry study - haven't actually touched it this WHOLE semester :(
Went to both Perio Scaling sessions. Got pretty pissed off at the end of each session because distal molars are the scurge of the universe.
Painted my teeth and got high on nail polish/nail polish remover (unintentionally)



week 2: Biochem Exam + Dental Practice Practical Exam
Biochem Exam = meh, whatever. all memory work. I'll pass, thats good enough.
Prac Exam = HIGH STRESS + shaking hands during restorative/scaling



week 3 (current): MAD STUDY for ANATOMY...and Physiology
Currently.. Still have to finish Kidneys (I HATE YOU), GIT, Reproduction (WTF, seriously?! Is that remotely dental related??)
Anatomy - nasal stuff + applied stuff + injections = meep :(


im so incoherent lately.

Anyway, dont think i'll be getting much shut-eye tonight.
Physiol exam tomorrow at 9.30am. Which means alot of cramming, alot of red bull and probably a few students collapsing after anatomy (48hours from now)

Life's been pretty shitty I gotta say.
I just want to go shopping/dancing/chilling/sleeping.

Gimme a BREAK :(

Dreaming Out Loud

Hello world, are you listening?
Forgive me if I'm young, speaking out of turn

There's been someone I've been missing
And I think that they might be
The better part of me

They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying, so I say will you
Come home, come home

Cos I've been waiting for you
So long, so long

Right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
To fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home

Maybe I'm just dreaming out loud...

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Too much to do, too little time :(

Shhhhhhhhh & Smiles :)

I look forward to every Monday night
Because I know I will see you

I admire your intelligence.
(I find it sooo sexy! :P)

I love how you're so easy going
and yet, still somewhat mysterious

We're never alone
But I steal gazes when no one's looking

You make me smile & blush
But you never know it

I would say yes, if only you asked
But it will never happen for us

If only, if only you knew!
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Stalker notes: MBS Penang + ASEAN scholar = Malaysian (Possibly??)

Silent

There's no one on the other end of the phone.
I shout and scream, but there's no one there.
Silence.

I am learning to live with it.
I do not feel sad or worried or frustrated anymore.
Numb.

There's no hope for change.
Only promises for more pain.
Deception.

The expiry date has long past.
It's time to throw away the old milk.
It's over.

Hate

Hate is a strong word.
It overrides the rational. It is pure emotion.
It is somehow intrinsic of human nature.

Yet, it can be cultivated to grow.
Grow into something so big that it shakes one to his/her foundations.

One can learn to hate.
To believe in it and wipe away the good in the past.

Till all that's left, is pure unadulterated hate.
And nothing more.

He, She, Me

He will always do more for his friends.
He will take time off for them.
He will put on a smile for everyone else but me.
He will have a conversation, but not with me.
He will let me take a taxi alone at night.
He will have too many things, too little time for me.
He will not kiss me goodbye.
He will not fight for me.

She had the same problem.
She had the courage to put a stop to it.
She has more self-respect than I do.
She has chosen something I have no strength to choose.
She is a stronger person than me.
She is my best friend.

I am waiting for the right time.
I am waiting for the right person.
I am waiting for the feelings to ebb away.
I am waiting for the better times to come.
I am waiting for the strength to end it.
I am sure it will happen.
I am hoping it will all happen soon.

I will endure the unhappiness, take it all with a smile on my face.
Because I know there is a better future.

Loved

Thank you Glen, Yilin, Rachel

You guys really made my day.
I'm sorry I don't spend enough time with you (that goes for all my friends too), but I'm going to make that conscious effort now.

I guess it's time to break free of my inhibitions, find that balance in life and draw what I want to on that blank piece of paper that represents my life.

Thank you for caring :)

Lonely

Over "600 friends", but no one I can talk to.

I feel so helpless, so alone.

On the Wings of Change

My world is closed.

I rotate between family, bf, some friends. That's it.

I feel a sudden need to branch out, do the crazy.
But, will they let me?
Perhaps if they don't know...
But truly, do I care if they do?

I want to meet new people, see new things
Explore and live life to the fullest,
I want to feel like my life is full of spontaneity
Expand my horizons and see the possibilities,
I want opportunities and optimism
Excitement and fun and adrenaline rushes

Perhaps its time to get rid of the old, embrace the new.
Maybe its time to get a fresh take on life
Can I really afford to waste my years of youth cooped up inside?

But the most frustrating thing is: HOW?!

Of Ariels & Easter

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!
I personally can't wait... even though it won't be much of a holiday for me.
At least I get time to catch up on all my work!
Its amazing how my level of expectancy of holidays can vary so widely.. I guess Uni does that to the all of us :(

Hitting My 40s in My Teens

Who are you gonna be?
When you're on your knees, who do you believe?
Fear is a lonely man
You've been given innocence
You've been given innocence again
=Switchfoot=

I AM SO BEHIND ON EVERYTHING GAAAAAH

and im so tired i can't do anything.

Choices

if it's right, why does it feel like crap?
sometimes the hardest things and the right things are the same?
i shouldn't be selfish
it's not just about me, its also about what i can offer

it hurts..
the good times flash-past
the smiles
the laughs
the moments that made it all worthwhile

it hurts..
knowing that this is the begining of the end
no more, no more, no more anything and everything

it hurts..
the memories left behind
in bags and packages
locked up for safe-keeping
for a day where reminiscing won't hurt anymore

it hurts..
remembering.

Better In Time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

1st Apr 2009

Please, forgive me in time.
~
The End.

Just a little...

THIS IS PRAC WEEK HELL.

Monday: Physiol prac
involves massacring toads from QLD to get a bit of string (sciatic nerve).

Tuesday: Anatomy prac
involves slicing human scalp (our cadaver, Jamal, named by Rob), then frantically shearing scalp layers down to the skull cap. Also involves getting subcutaneous tissue and very dodgy embalming fluid from cadaveric-head area getting flicked/squirted out at various angles, landing on us. =_=" ....i swear that sickening whiff of smell reminds me of off-cheese. YUK.

Thursday: Biochem prac
involves assaying crushed cereals to know exactly how much sugar is in them, thus becoming paranoid over false claims by the food industry and also stressed by writing up the damn prac in a day. May involve getting yelled at a dozen times for screwing up, as per usual.

Friday: Perio Clinic
involves scaling fake teeth encased in sexy red nail polish from the CEJ down. Will probably result in aching muscles around palm area, tense fingers and overall back-pain due to 'sustained unnatural posture' for 3 hours.


So, this is JUST A LITTLE.....MUCH.
Today made me feel JUST A LITTLE.....QUEASY.
This week is making me feel JUST A LITTLE.....TIRED.

All of which is JUST A LITTLE UNDERSTATEMENT. -_-"

What is; What was...

Love, is never fair.
You will always love someone/thing more than someone/thing else.
Your Spouse, Children, Parents, Siblings, Partner, Boyfriend, Girlfriend, Best Friend.
Your Job, Life, Hobby..

Sometimes you think you love someone/something the most out of everything in your life, but it isn't true. Maybe you deeply love him/her/it at that specific moment, but it is not constant throughout time.

Sometimes you voluntarily choose something else over your official love.
It is when this choice occurs, that your 'official love' is replaced by your true love of the moment.
It is when this choice occurs, room for chaos is made.
Whether is chaos takes place or not, the possibility is real.
If you're unfortunate and it does indeed occur, life as you know it will change forever.

Trust is much the same.
It is a yes or a no.
When broken once, yes becomes no.
When broken twice, no becomes a 'never ever again'

The sad part is when someone is kind (or foolish) enough to give you that 2nd chance, and you go ahead and break it.
Why is it sad? Because everything will never ever be the same.
A lifetime of whatever was established before is wiped out before your eyes, and all you're left with is guilt and regret.

Congratulations.