You Know It

I'm going to die from stress. We have about 2 months to VCE.
T-W-O.

Sometimes I think that, its really not that bad...cos i know what im doing in school and stuff. So, no stress, I should be fine! But then other times, I feel like "OMG someones gonna beat me flat and I'm not even gonna manage a 40 for methods."

Fear sometimes becomes so real that it well, scares me. I know its all psychological now. Someone once told me, "It's now about strength of character, you just gotta hang in there and keep your head up. It's all psychological battle now."

Reflecting on that, all I can say is HOW TRUE! But still, it is hard to be Miss Positive all the time when I suddenly forget an intergration technique or how to do vector resolutes etc. Chem results gave the combined effect of a reality check and a confidence downer. I know I can't give up, but how long I can keep telling myself not to do so?

This week:
ESL: 3 day 1984 text SAC
Chem: Food Chem

Next week:
UniBio- Mid Sem Test!!! *AAAHHHHH*

Week after:
ESL: Folio SAC
Methods: Probability SAC (2days)
Spesh: Vector Func SAC

God Bless my soul.
(more accurately, my MIND)

Anyway, Sam has returned to the glorious country of Malaysia. (Which coincidentally turns a whopping 50 years old on 31st Aug 2007!) Was lovely having her over here, and my word the things we did... =) Let's not get into that now, it'll take at least 3 pages!

Would've loved to spend more time with her, but with the VCE workload amongst other things, I could only squash in appallingly small amounts of time to hang out with her. Naturally, she did accuse some of being "Lin-Hoggers"!! So I have to apologize again to my dearest Sammie, I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH YOU!!!

You know I love you even when I don't speak, you know it in your heart down deep;
You know that everything's not going our way, please wait with me for a better day.

You're My Everything

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word,
You're everything.

mmm..
Spesh SAC is finally over, one freaking dragged out week-long one.
ok, this is reaalay mean, but:

HAHAHAHAHHHA-- C wrote "A=1"
in your FACE for saying "OH YEAH, your deriv graph was wrong, I SAW IT." to me!
Ah kembang la, KEMBANG LA FINISH IN 20MINS!

ESL SAC, nothing much to say about it. Rather worried for once, seeing as the topic was so retarded. My plot was excruciatingly pathetic, lets just hope i get marks for vocab and language use.

In a couple of hours: Indo SAC
guuurgh life is hard.

Next week, Chem SAC and Methods SAC. They want to kill us. Seriously.

Rather worried about UniApplics atm, dont know how far my ENTER would take me. At the rate things are going, I fear for my future.
Its great that everyone's like "Oh, you'll do well don't worry", but:

I DONT THINK THEY SEE IT AS I SEE IT

Sometimes all I need is someone to listen and agree, "Yeah you better work harder or you're screwed." Its amazing how NO ONE HAS YET TO SAY THAT TO ME, with the exception of myself. *its the slack-disease i tell you, i run and run but its like, catching up or something. yeesh.*

With the other side of things, I guess things are fine. Everyone's getting so ridiculously busy now, I don't really care if things happen or not. It's good to have a little break anyways, I think we're getting sick of each other!

"You are, my FIRE, my one, DESIRE.
Believe, when i say, I WANT IT THAAAAT WAY
But we, are two worlds, apart, cant reach to, your heart; its tooo late,
ooh I WANT IT THAT WAY!"
I love everyone who loves BSB, therefore I love BSB

Was talking to M today, and he is such a confidence-booster...his friends included (i guess)

"Are you the hot asian girl from melb?"
"Hell yeah! =P"

Gotta love abit of that every now and again. =D But damn, do i look ASIAN ASIAN? *cross fingers i hope not!!!*

Anyhoos, doesnt look like Sam's coming back anytime soon, might as well get some sleep before she does.

p/s- photos of me and sam being spazes will be up soon..YAYNESS!

Oopsies

See, I wanted to stop people from being idiots with my 5letter long first name.

my old gmail: alint90@gmail.com
..left everyone calling me "a lint!"
..which left me yelling every 5 secs "ITS AI LIN YOU FOOLS."
therefore i deleted that and created "ailintan90@gmail.com"
(for the purposes of mass ISS 2007 emailling because hotmail is so unbelievably annoying to limit us to 50email recepients per send.)
**note: dont even bother trying to stalk me with that email, its not my primary email in any case.

anyway, i forgot blogger used my old gmail account, so now i cant access it after deleting my gmail acc. (DAMN) therefore, this blog, is directly linked with www.just-lin.blogspot.com

anyhoos, this is still the very original, very special and very entertaining blog of Ai Lin's life. Sorry to people who have put up links of my blog page on their blog!! (eg: Sarah, Thomas, Tarrant)