Memories

some of the girls in my class...

Haha...i started to play with photos...

Taken in ar...toilet...( Ying Xi wore skirt leh!!! )

Vincent,the centre of attraction?

Eunice,veron,me,hanping and the only guy,jian wei

I love this photo!!!

Myself and my darling Eunice ( Amelia don't jeslous ok...lol...)

Black white black ( i copied Amelia...lol...i like this photo...)

Myself and my darling Eunice ( Opps...Amelia going to kill me when she saw this. )

Myself anf Amelia...( Don't be jeslous that i only took photo with Eunice only hor...)

The 4 of us ( Me,Eunice,Hanping and veron )

Zhu tou ri ji...

Yesterday was our career quests and above are all the photos taken. There are more of them but i am lazy to upload in my blog. >.<''' Yup...i played some photos by cropping,cutting and combining them together. Lol...Took alot of photos with my darling Eunice and my cute girl Amelia. Everyone was so well dressed up. Amelia looked so mature but nice! Ying Xi wore a skirt!!! I never see her in a skirt before ( I mean beside than school uniform lah ). Veron was like some directors or some chairman of a company...But Eunice said that she was like a style mummy. lol...>.<''' All the guys looked so good. Especially Raphael,Vincent and Jian Wei. Anyway,we had our class well dressed up winners and they were Andy and Jiawen! Andy dressing was neat and simple,carrying a type of formal but style. Jia wen was dressed up like Miss Ong! It was nice...Afterall,i enjoyed my day and it may be the first and the last wearing those formal clothes. lol...

Its getting late now and i better go off to sleep. I still have to wait up early tomoroow for lessons. My june holiday are not my holidays. Tomoroow going to be a long day from morining 8.30am till noon 2 sumtink. T.T And the whole day will be ony amath and physic. ( Kill me please. T.T ) *Yawn* Goodnight...

*Loss of directions*

*Footprints*

Outing

Zhu tou ri ji...

Chinese o level today!!! 1 burden down. The paper is quite ok Both papers were kind of tricky which need to think deeply down and i am doing fine. I really hope that i will not have to retake it again. Please let be achieve an A1.

Went outing with cute girl,Amelia,my girlfriend,Eunice,'siao siao' de Hanping and wife of 'siao siao',Veron. Suppose to meet one another at cp at 1.45pm and Eunice told me that she need to take care of her brother because her parents not at home. Through phone conferencing,we finally decided to go Eunice's house. Not long after i changed my clothes,she called me and told me that she was able to go out because her father came home. So we meet together at rivervale plaza macdonald and take bus to bugis. I am at fault here because i suggested to take the bus instead of mrt,causing Veron to feel giddy and wasted so much time. ( Sorry guys!!! ) The time for Da Vinci code at bugis was quite late so we went to cineleisure ( Now took mrt ). We are suppose to alight at city hall and change to the other line,we overshot! Lol...( Don't blame yourself Amelia...) Finally we reached cinleisure. Guess what? The auntie who sell the ticket wanted to chaeck everyone I.Cs. >.<''' At that time,everyone felt so SIAN!!! Because we are underage. Argh!!! Anyway,we went to took neo print there. Oh,Amelia being *kissed* by me and Eunice. Haha...Next,we went to heeren there and tour for a while. Get drinks for ourself ( except for my cute girl,because she can't take cold drinks. ) and we walked to Plaza Singapura. Was looking for toilet with Veron and we spotted 2 guys ( Cute wor!!! ) and we so call followed them. ( Others went to carefour ) Veron and i suspected that both of them are gays but not comfirmed. They are rather cute!!! Lol...Anyway,Veron and i went to find the others at the entrance of carefour and we went to take neoprint again!!! Saw the 2 cute guys again. Lol...Next,we went around looking for shoes which Hanping need it for tomorrow career quests. *sobsob* My legs aching and my cute girl still bullied me. T.T She called me AUNITE!!! Woa,i got so old meh. I am the youngest among them hor!!! Not long,Amelia went to meet her mum and Veron went home without us. Eunice,Hanping and i were still continuing looking for shoes. Finally found one and had to reserve it at compass point as there is an out of stock for that shoe colour. Next we went to compass point to collect her shoes and Hanping was still deciding on which colour ( Black or White ) should she choose. >.<''' At last,we reached compass point and she decided to choose the white 1. Phew~~~finally i can go home and had my dinner. Very hungry after the whole day. Although,we were not able to watch the movie today and the outing seems to be a mess,but hope you all guys enjoy,especially my cute girl. Next time sure ask u along for another outing. ( You run,you walk,you crawl or you fly also must die die come. Hmph...i Don't care...bleh...)

Career quest is today!!! because now is 12.16am. Kind of looking forward to it but hate the time for being long. Everyone will be in formal clothings tomorrow!!! ( It may seems weird...) Haha...Anyway,i will take photos with our formal outfit. Got to go sleep now,tired out after the whole day.

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Questions

Zhu tou ri ji...

I started to ask myself why i created a blog recently. At first i created this blog is because for someone but soon i am wondering what is the main purpose behind for creating a blog? A blog suppose to be a diary and a diary is a personal stuff. So why should people allow their friends and even public to view it? Anyway,i finally get an answer for myself. I wanted a small little world where i can vent my temper,pour out my sadness and share my happiness. So why should i allow my friends to view my blog? I just wanted them to understand me even more and share the happiness with me. But why can't my family understand it? Especially my brother! I don't share my personal life with them nor they ask me too. I found it quite true when some people said that parents will only ask hows your day in school? How yours results? They only bother about my school life and did not try to understand my inner self. I don't like to go home. I don't like my family. I am a totally different person in school and at home. I am a chatter box in school,jokes around and just play with my friends. But when i am at home,i can just shut myself in the room for the whole day or just face the computer or television. I barely talk to my familes. I forget how to communicate with them and share with them. Sometimes i really wanted to cry in the night when i feel the loneliness and sometimes i hope my mum will hug me. Maybe sometimes i can share with her which guy i fancy on and she will tease me like some of my friends. Haiz...how nice it will be.

This coming monday will be my chinese o level. Woa,time pass by so quickly. Soon,i will leave the school. I have a sudden feeling of missing my classmates. When i am in secondary 3,i seems to be a *du lai du wang* person. Although secondary 4 is a stressful year but i get to know alot and understand more of my classmates. They are always there to encourage me and help me. They are Veron,Han Ping,Eunice,Ying Xi,Amelia and chloe. There are more but these 5 of them hung with me more often. Amelia is my cute girl!!! Always come kia jiao me and eunice. But she is not cute when she bullied me. Hmph hmph. Eunice and me is much more normal as compared to others. ( Oops,my cute girl will be jeslous now ) Veron and Hanping are those kind of mad people ( Siao siao de ). With them,i like going to school. ( Can't live without them ) Veron and Ying Xi are my singing mates!!! For these few days in chinese intensive lessons,the three of us were singing and guessing songs titles. Chloe and i are always talking about *shuai ge* and relationships. We had alot of fun! They really gave me many wonderful memorises in my last year in secondary school. Hope that we can still stay in touch even when we left the school. Love you guys and my class 4e4.

I really looking forward to the career quests. I must take a look at Amelia and those guys. Amelia borrowed the clothes from Miss Ong. She said that it is too mature. Lol...Hmm...i think the guys will feel weird in wearing those fprmal clothes. Long sleeve shirt,tie and pants. Haha...However,before looking forward to the career quests,i am looking forward for the outing with 'girlfriends'. We will be watching the Da Vinci code at orhard cathey? Maybe. Hopefully,we can have our dinners outside too. I am sure that both the days will be great and fun.

I off to chat with my cute girl now.

*The lock is open*

*footprinits*

Bore

Zhu tou ri ji..

Oh oh oh...this will be a veri short blog because my idiot brother wanted to use the computer. I have not even touch the computer for 15 mintues and he wanted to use. He said that he wanted to his stuffs on his work. Ya...as if i really believe...he only use the computer to play his games,icq and msn. There is also many programmes in the computer were his games. No wonder the computer is getting slower and slower. ( freak! ) Damn pissed off now. Anyway,too bad,i still have to give in to him. NOT FAIR!!! Why should i always be the one who give in? Never mind,it will not kill me if i did not use the computer for one day. I am fine with it.

Hmm...My cute girl Amelia bullied me!!! *Sobsob* ( Amelia will be cursing and swear now if she saw this blog entry...lol..) The she also don't want me get close to Eunice. Hmph hmph...( I am not a Lesbian ok! ) Tomorrow will be my last day for chinese intensive lessons. Monday is approching soon. *scare scare* Although,i have no problem with my chinese,i still sense the feeling of worry because it is a major exam. ( I don't feel that feeling when i am taking PSLE.)

Anyway,going to watch the DaVinci code with my 'girlfriends'. Should be watching at woodlands cathey. ( should be...Amelia! come join us too!) I am really lookinig forward for the career quest day. Think that it should be fun and enjoyable day for the sec4.

Haiz...got to go now...my idiot brother was waiting. Better not irritate him,if not world war 3 will be coming. We will be agruing non-stop and will turn the house upside down.

*The feelings was back!*

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Pissed off

Zhu tou ri ji...

Woke up in the morning and i was pissed off by my brother. I woke up at 6.35am this morning WITHOUT my mum's 'alarm clock' ( i mean her voice ). My brother was forced to be wake up when my mum called him. I was the first to walk out my room and first to reach the bathroom! My mum told me to give my brother use the bathroom first as she said that my brother was in a rush for work and i replied her back that i am also rushing for school. ( Rude right? ) Why must i be the one who give in to him? NOT FAIR!!! In the end,i gave in. >.<''' ( Because i know that i am always very slow and will stay in the bathroom very long. ) I always wake up around the same time in the morning and everyone in the house knew that. ( Including my dog because he is always being disturb by me every morning. Lol... ) My brother should sleep early the last night when he knew that he had to wake up early the next morning and thus there will not be 'traffic jams' in the bathroom. Anyway,as a family,we should give in to each other.

International friendship day today! Nah,nothing special anyway. Teachers put up a performance after recess from 11.30am till 1pm. Wow,the performance was great! The teachers were wearing traditional costumes and cat walking on stage. Miss Ong is so cute and Mr Pinto is really a gentleman!!! At first,everyone were hyber but when Mdm Sharifa and 1 speaker ( don't know who he is ) were giving their presentation on stage,it was so boring!!! The sec4 were arranged to be sitted at the gallery. Better view of the stage but just a little bit stuffy. ( Can you imagine sitting there for one and a half hour? I was like in a oven! Melting...) After the whole of the programme,we proceed to our chinese intensive lessons again. Oh,tomorrow intensive lessons will be move to the morning because the school is up to something again. *Stupid school* Waste students' time.

Reached home around 4.30pm and found myself alone. ( I am use of it...) Spent my whole of three and a half hour to complete a 4 pages chinese composition. ( I am watching television and eating while doing it...Oops...) In the morning,i was pissed off by my brother and at night by my dad. *You qi fu bi you qi zi* My dad put the newspaper hanger thinky on the coffe table and i accidentally knocked it down. Can he just put back the newspaper to the usual place and not putting it on the table after reading it? Can't blame me for being clumsy to knock it down. And because of this,i had an arguement with my dad. ( I still thinks that i am right! ) Yup,i am *Ba dao* and *Ye man*. I am sure that my friends know that. ( Am i right? Lewis. ) Again,i give in and stop arguing.

Chinese o level is next monday! Thats fast. Am i really prepared for it? Hmm...got to practise more during my weekends ( Kia shu ) and give my best shot on monday. I believe that i can do it!!! Stupid Hong Xiang called me out of the blue while i am blogging. ( Use the chance now to 'backstab' him...Lol.. ) He called me because he suddenly thought of me. >.<''' ( Lame ) Still ask me out to watch movie when i am having my o level this year. Haiz...And i was there 'suaning' him. In the end,he can't stand me and hung up. Wahahaha,i won...( Ya...i am childish. )

*Yawn yawn* Very tire now. Dozing off now...

*Can i don't make any decision in life? Impossible...*

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Ouch!

Zhu tou ri ji...

Today went by as normal. Chinese intensive lessons all the way till 4pm. *Yawn* However i enjoyed the time during the chinese intensive with Hanping,Veron sitting beside me and Vincent,Guan Chuan sitting behind me. It was fun bullying Vincent and Guan Chuan by stealing their papers and pencil case. Veron and me were laughing like mad at them. ( we did listen to the teachers' teaching. In workwise,we are serious ok! ) I am glad that they are just around me,if not,the chinese intensive lessons will be very boring. Vincent was cute! He was protecting his things well to prevent us from 'stealing',just like a small kid holding on to his toys tightly and not willing to share. ( opps,did i just said that Vincent was like a kid? ) For the chinese intensive lessons,we did 1 composition writing everyday,going through comprehensions. For the past 3 days,i scored 35 out of 50 for all 3 compositions. It was such a coincidence that i actually scored 35 marks thoughout. ( Thats good,i am able to maintain my chinese results )

Reached home around 4.30pm. Done some practise on my chinese and watched television. Next,i was there trying to take off my ear stud. ( Ya...hand itch. ) It took me quite a long time to take it off and i needed my mum's help. >.<''' Finally i took it off. Cleaned it and try to put it back again. Oh my god! It was so diffcult to put it back! I was in pain,my ears were red and it actually bled! ( Who said that it will not bleed! ) Argh!!! However i did put it on again after a long time spent and also with my mum's help again. >.<>

I was kind of irritated by some questions and complaints. However,i am not really pissed off so Lewis please don't feel offended and sad about it. I wanted to say sorry to you if my words were harsh and they hurt you.

Another person i should say sorry to is Hong Xiang. So sorry that i can't watch movie with you. I had being rejecting the dates when you asked me out for movies. But you got to understand that i have not much time to enjoy as O level is drawing near. Furthermore,next week,monday will be my chinese o level! I will try to make up all dates for you when i have that time to do so. And sorry if i can't watch the Da Vinci code with you because Veron had booked me in advance. Lol...

*Yawn* Kind of tire now. Got to go to bed now.

*Does my dreamland really exsist in this world? Not possible...

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Bad results

Zhu tou ri ji...

Lewis was back!!! A 4 months training shorten to 2 weeks. >.<>

I had gotten back all my results and i did very badly for all subjects. Especially my Amath ( grade F9 ),my Chemistry ( grade E8 ) and my English ( grade D7 ). Although i passed all the other subjects,but not with flying colours. I was totally demoralised today. I frowned for the whole moring and obviously friends around saw it. ( Chloe,am i right? ) I felt like crying when i received back my English paper 1. 27 out of 60 was really bad. Mdm Frieda and Mdm Cheng commented on my essay. Mdm Frieda said that i addressed the composition topic well but she was suprised that i am so stubborn and refused to correct on my tenses. I admitted that i am really very bad in my tenses and careless is not an excuse anymore. But i find it hard to change overnight. English is a language which need to be cultivate from young but the environment which i am borned and grow up allows me to interact with chinese more often. However,there is no point complaining about the past. What i can really do now is to give myself a hard push so that i can improve on my English. I gotten Chloe to help me in school like correcting the way i speak and write,including on msn! @.@ I believed that my English can be improve when i am willing to put more effort in it. I don't want Mdm Frieda to be disappointed in me again and thats including my Geography. As for the comments by Mdm Cheng,she said that i can do even better but with less prefection. ( Kind of motivating me in learning English.)

I felt like tearing my Geography paper into bits and pieces,step and jump on it. 24 out of 50! I really can't believe my eyes! I actually failed my Geography!!! Geography has always been my strongest subject excluding chinese and i actually failed it!!! T.T But what done is done,no point crying over split milk. I can only buck up in the next round. On the other hand,i did not expected my social studies results to be so good. It is much more better than my expectation for this mid year. ( So happy ) I gotten 15 out of 25 for my SBQ and 17 out of 25 for my SEQ. SBQ was a tough paper and i leaved my question D out. I had not enough time to complete that question. I thought that i will failed my SBQ but by just depending on my other 3 questions,they gotten me 15! I did the question on the education in S'pore and the British welfare sate for my SEQ. The question on the education in S'pore was a nice one. I hitted level 5 and scored 11 out of 12. As for the question on British welfare state,i only gotten 6. T.T Because it was not well elaborated. ( so sad ) However,my S.S result helped me in pulling up my humanities marks and i passed.

Enough for results. Career quest is coming up. I had already prepared my clothes by borrowing the white top from Eunice,the skirt from my mum and the high heels of my own. Hope that i will look neat and great on that day. I am looking forward for career quest but not parents meeting day. Mr Singh is bound to meet my mum! Time to dig my grave now and prepare to bury myself in it. ( Hey friends,please pay your respect in front of my grave for me. J.k )

Hmm...its getting late now. I better go to sleep now. If not,i can't wake up tomorrow.

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Moody sunday

Zhu tou ri ji...

Just had my dinner. Mum cooked crabs!!! Yummy. Been avoiding seafood and egg for the past few days to prevent infection to my ears and i think it is alright to eat now as it already been so many days. *Blurt* I am full!!! -.-

I 'jailed' myself up today at home to complete all the assignments given by my chinese teacher. Its killing me!!! I just finished all before my dinner. Phew~~~finally get it all done. 1 more week of suffering and i m free from chinese lessons. Got to get an A1 for my chinese o level and that is a must. Yup...i spent my whole day accompanying my computer and those chinese assignments plus my dad naggings. He told me off for not switching on the lights when i am doing my assignments and complaining on my writing positions. >.<>

Career quests is round the corner. I bet that everyone is excited about it. We got to wear those formal clothes. For the guys,they will have to wear long sleeve shirt with a tie and pants. For girls,we need to wear those formal skirts and high heels. NO jeans allow. Hmm...i wonder how i look in those formal clothes and high heels. ( Maybe i will take a photo for Lewis to take a look. Haha. ) I certainly not putting make-up. No way!!!

Parents meeting day coming up too. Woa,theres indeed alot of events taking place. For the parents and teachers meeting day,those students who failed English and Geography must meet the form teacher. For those who failed 3 subjects will have to meet the V.P,Mr Singh and who failed 5 subjects and above will have to meet the principal,Mr Leong. I am so worry about my results. I did very badly for this mid year examinations. I had failed 2 subjects and there is a risk of the V.P wanting to see my mum. *Scared* Oh please,No please...don't let me fail the combined humanities and my English paper 1. *Sobsob*

Was talking to yuxian on msn just now ( Jeff or gary? I also don't know so i called him by his chinese name ) and i asked him whether he still having treatment regularly. He said that he have been following up with his treatments and he continued by telling me that he is now gary and not jeff. >.<''' Kind of irritated by his second reply. Although i believe in such thing called split personality but can he,himself know who he is now? He is able to answer me who he is,jeff or gary and it means that he is very clear of who he is now. That is not split personality but is avoiding reality. * So stupid* ( Sound confusing right? ) Forget it,i just let him play the game himself then,i don't even bother.

Lewis have been away to taiwan for 4 days. Kind of miss him now. Miss the days when i bully him and miss chatting with him everyday. Lol...Oh...i got to go now. Have to go bath,prepare my stuffs for school tomorrow and watch televison.

*Is there a eraser which...
*rub away sadness?
*rub away pain?
*rub away unwanted memorises?
*And is there a eraser which...able to rub u away from my life?

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national young leaders' day 2006

Zhu tou ri ji...

It was a long saturaday today. I spent almost my whole day at singapore expo for the national young leaders' day talk. The place was half packed by all young leaders from other secondary schools. The hall was big...@.@ and cold too. Lol...Thanks to samuel's jacket ( is windbreaker actually ),it is better than nothing to keep me warm.

The programme started around 10am with a very great opening ceremony. ^.^ It was a performance by the strikeforce. A group of people playing music by drums and other music instruments. Their performance was great and they brought up the atmosphere. Their encore was when all lights were switched off and the drumers started beating some special drums which can be fill up with water on the surface of the drums plus some spotlights,i think. When they beat the drums,it created a special effect which i can't use words to express. I felt as if i am at a concert. It was really great! ( pls: 1 guy in the group looks cool while he is playing. Chloe will knows who i am refering. )

There were 5 speakers to share their inspirating and leaderships skills with us. The first to share was Mr Jack Sim,chairman of the world toliet organisation. So next time when we use the washrooms in public,we will have to thanks him,because without him,our public toliets will be not a good 'environment'. Second speaker was Miss Kaira Gong Shi Jia!!! A local singer. She performed 2 songs for us and were great. next,we had our lunch under the big hot sun!!! It was 12 noon at that time and it was the hottest time of the day. I felt myself melting at that time...#.# Guess what,i got a mild sun burn. T.T After lunch was another performance by O school. Was a group of guys dancing hip hop,showing all kinds of complicated movements. 'Zhen de shi da kai yan jie' Up next was,Dr Andrew Goh,chairman of world vision,Singapore motivational speaker. Second last speaker was Miss Joscelin Yeo,Team Singapore Athlete and last was COL Sukhmohinder Singh,head,centre of leadership development and army curriculum branch SAFTI MI HQ. All of them are really great leaders. ( hmm...now i know that leaders must be able to influence others and believing in those who believes you... )

The whole programme ended at around 4 plus. Chloe and i went to pasir ris,white sand there for window shopping. We did our window shopping for around half an hour. Ya..too small for us. Lol...We grabbed a bite at macdonalds,actually should be dinner. Along our way to the bus interchange,we walked in a shop which sells rings,necklance and other stuffs like that. What attracted me most was the craving of couple rings on the necklance. I promised myself that i MUST have couple rings when i have a boyfriend in the future. I will make him buy it for me...lol...

I reached home around 7 plus. Tire and sleepy after the whole day. Hmm...end my blog here then...my cute girl wanted to chat with me le. Bleh...

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Demoralise

Zhu tou ri ji...

Today i got back 4 exams papers results. Guess what? I did real badly for these papers. T.T I gotten back my amath paper 1 and 2,pure physic paper 2 and my english paper 2. My results for both amath paper sux!!! The grades added up together is only F9!!! Can u believe it? *fainted* But anyway,i passed my emath. ( At least i passed a math subject...) Hey Lewis,u got to be happy for me when i tell you the next news. I passed my physic paper 2!!! Though is just a average passing,but there is a slight improvement!!! ( Its not too late to congrats me when u come back after 4 months...lol )...I failed my english paper 2 by 2 marks. Hope that my english paper 1 will help me out... @.@ rotten luck...

As normal,i had my chinese intensive programe from 11.30am till 4pm. T.T It was so tiring and cold too!!! My A chinese class is combined with D chinese class and B chinese class from sec 5. So we are arranged to have our lessons in the AVA room. Thanks god,i had samuel's jacket with me. If not,i will be froze up when the whole lesson end.

OMG...tomorrow will be another long day!!! Haiz...i am going to attend the young leaders day talk at Singapore Expo there. From morning 8.30am to 4.00pm in the late afternoon. T.T My saturaday is gone!!! Hopefully i can learn some leaderships skills and inspiration thoughts from the talk to spend my time wisely.

Hmm...i felt so happy to see my blog ''wrapped'' up with nice blog skins and ''blanded'' into the music i like. I spent quite some time to figure out how to change the template,put in songs and links. Finally,i got it!!! Opps,when lewis saw this when he come back,he will be scolding me for wasting time on such things. He will say that i should spend the time on my studies instead of this blog. Haiz...'zhen bu ming bai wo de ku xin'...although i promised Lewis to create this blog,but i also must make it prefect to show my sincere. ( If not Lewis going to nag at me that i only anyhow create this blog and just write craps in it when he returned from taiwan... : x lol )

Time to 'pack' up everything and prepare to go sleep. *Yawn* I still have to wake up real early tomorrow. >.<

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18052006

zhu tou ri ji...

woohoo...finally had my blog created after so much time spent...hmm...created this blog because i promised someone to do so,so i better keep my words or else when he came back from taiwan after 4 months...he will be disappointed de...lol...wondered why i name it as Lsquare? Haha...u guess?

This will be a short post because my time is limited ( yup...i am a busy girl )...my school started a chinese intensive programe for all sec 4. Just to prepare us for our chinese o level on 29 may. I will be damn busy and drained out for this 2 weeks. Everyday from 11.30am onwards till 4pm will all be chinese only. OMG...i fainted. However,i just suffer for this 2 weeks,get rid of my chinese o level paper and i will feel relieve. Furthermore,i can concentrade more on my other 6 subjects. Especially my both sciences and both maths...

Haiz...going to find another person to teach me physic and amath now. Because that someone who promised to teach me,has gone to taiwan for 4 months!!! Bleh...

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