This is worth a read and to bear in mind.

Unfathomable.

& that's women.
Hahahha.
Ironic isnt it?

Sometimes you just dont know why some people are so unapproachable.
Even when you are being friendly.
But whatever.

No more.

Down.

I ended the day being increasingly upset.

There are so many small little things that make me feel bogged down today.

First, the boy is going to US by end of mth or early march. So that leaves us with 3 more weeks or so.
I know it is a short term assignment but still...we havent separated for such a long period of time before & in completely different timezones.
it's going to be hard. :'(
I'm gonna miss him very much.

Also, it's been a while since i'm so upset with the boy.
I hope he knows how f-ing upset i am.
Emotions run high and frustrations emerged. Discontentment and arguments is the theme of the night.

Zen is the way to go. Tempers need to be expelled.
Being two tigers like we are obviously makes things more volatile.
We all need to be more appreciative of the things and people around us.
I abhor vindictiveness.

then, after a long day, it suddenly dawned upon me that i shouldnt have done something earlier.
I'm often too rash with my actions and words. It's such a flaw.
Twice bitten, many times shy.
祸从口出 & it's very true.
Your intentions or thinking may be harmless & innocent but perceptions and interpretations may be different.
It will definitely affect me negatively should something adverse be whispered in important ears or certain characters.
Wish i hadn't done or said it out loud when the surrounding was quieter than usual & i should know better that someone is always listening in.

Think before you act or speak.
Must always remind myself of that.
Think twice about anything you are going to say or do when you are tired and not in the moment of lucidity.
Haix, shit. Hope it doesn't come back & bite me in the back in future.

but i'm glad i caught up / bitching with trusted friends :)

好累。无语。

It's 2015!

Happy new year everyone!

2014 has flashed past in a blink and 2015 has arrived.

and of course, reflections and resolutions are a must. haha!

I think 2014 is a very special year for me primarily because i got engaged.

some people will say "finally!"

LOL!

it's pretty amazing, considering we've practically grown up together..

10 years.. phew. it's not easy...

& also, a lot of my friends are getting engaged or pregnant.

it's really exciting!

2015 is filled with weddings and baby showers..

I'm gonna have a nephew soon! ><

can't wait!

but it also means hole in pocket. hehe!

I only have 3 resolutions:

1. exercise/learn yoga
2. be punctual
3. save $

haha! have a good one everybirdy! 

happy thoughts happy life!

没关系，是爱情啊！

Love love love this drama.
Haven't watched a korean drama that draws me in so completely lately!
If you haven't watched this, please do so!
It's not your typical melodrama from korea.
It talks about people with mental illness.
From ocd to schizophrenia..
It's very intriguing.
The 2 main leads are so cute together!
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They are dating in real life by the way..
*loves*

Things may not be what they seem to be...

I personally think it's very scary when things are not what you perceive it to be..
The thought of what you know as a reality becomes a lie, by itself, is a horror.
I can't imagine the Resulting heartbreak and loss of trust.
The sadness and sense of failure must be overwhelming.

Don't worry, i'm fine. It's just that i found out about someone's plight and how the person dealt with it astounds me. In a good way.
I hurt for that person and those who went through it before.
It's the 3rd time i hear of faithlessness from people close to me.
I can't imagine what i'll do if it happens to me.

More often than not, fidelity is taken for granted or assumed.
And it is so devastating when you discover that the one you love is unfaithful.
even when it doesn't happen to you, it just makes you feel so unsettled and chips away a portion of that naive faith you have in the human race or relationships.
it makes me so cynical.
It makes me doubt how i can be so assured of my relationship when the things you thought wouldnt happen, happened.
Nobody knows what will happen.
You can trust your partner 100% but temptation is all around. How can anyone be sure that your partner will never let you down or otherwise?

It makes you realise how much you put yourself out there when you fall in love with someone.
The person possess the ability to make you the happiest or the worst you've ever been.
I think everyone should be responsible of their own actions and feelings.
You can say "its just playing", or "i was weak", "i wasn't thinking straight" etc.
To me, that's bullshit.
But it just shows how much a person respects and treasure the relationship and partner.
It's a betrayal.

Personally, i don't handle betrayals well.
Thus far, i've cut off anyone who's betrayed my trust or done something that crosses the line.
It hasn't been pleasant. Not one bit.
But i guess it's just life.

I pray and hope for those, whom i hold dear, to never have this situation happen to them.
To those who Have endured such a situation, i have a deep respect for how you've handled it and moved on. And my heart breaks for you.

Love one and love forever. That's all i wish for everyone.

It's moments like this...

You make my heart full, love.
And that's why i love you.