Updates

Let's see...

Work till the 15th of Feb, then resuming on the 1st of March.

Regionals meeting for OTs on Feb 4th.

KL trip for a few days.

FT Weekend 1.

Meeting friends.

What else?

Coldplay's Everything Not Lost

When I counted up my demons

Saw there was one for every day

With the good ones on my shoulders

I drove the other ones away

So if you ever feel neglected

And if you think that all is lost

I'll be counting up my demons, yeah

Hoping everything's not lost

When you thought that it was over

You could feel it all around

And everybody's out to get you

Don't you let it drag you down

'Cos if you ever feel neglected

And if you think that all is lost

I'll be counting up my demons, yeah

Hoping everything's not lost

If you ever feel neglected

If you think that all is lost

I'll be counting up my demons, yeah

Hoping everything's not lost

Singing out 

Oh, oh, oh, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Everything's not lost

So come on, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Come on, yeah

And everything's not lost

Oh, oh, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

And everything's not lost

Come on, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Come on, yeah

Come on, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Come on, yeah

And everything's not lost

Sing out, yeah

Oh, oh, yeah

Come on, yeah

And everything's not lost 

Come on, yeah

Oh, oh yeah

Sing out, yeah

And everything's not lost

Am I True To Myself?

Something came to mind when I saw two friends of mine the other day:


Am I expecting more from my friends than I should?

I would think so.

But no one can look after each of his friends all the time, no?

Maybe it's still that I need to find a way to get over my low self-esteem.


And a battle inside me to win too.

It's a long climb. But hell, if I don't do it now, I'll never get over it.

Small steps.

Cheers.

Words

Everything I know is wrong

Everything I do it just comes undone

And everything is torn apart

Oh and that's the hardest part

But it's all part of the learning process, isn't it?

All these years there has been a lingering sense of failure in me whenever I did something wrong. Some days I still feel that.

But like I said, we live and we learn. That includes me, too, despite what I tell myself.

I could feel it go down

Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth

Silver lining in the clouds

Oh and I

I wish that I could work it out

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to escape this mad cycle. It's not impossible. Time and time again, I've come close to breaking out,  but circumstances push me back close to where I first started.

It's a rough and tumble journey, and I can't say that I'm not any wiser than before. Experience has made me a better man, but still there's a  long way to go.

I know something is broken

And I'm trying to fix it

Trying to repair it

Any way I can

If I had not opened myself to change, would I have reached this stage? I highly doubt it. I was nothing but trouble. I still am, but at least not to  such an extent that I'd be dire situations all the time.

Much of what is broken is now repaired. I just hope those that seem permanently irreparable are still able to be fixed.

Maybe the answers still elude me?

Or maybe the answers are right there in front of me, yet I am blind to them?

For all I know, that could be it. It means I need to get my eyesight corrected.

Lord I don't know which way I am going

Which way the river's going to flow

It just seems that upstream I keep rowing

Still got such a long way to go

The world can rob us of every single inch - except one. One tiny, fragile inch that they can never take away from us, no matter how they try. It  cannot be bought, nor sold, nor given away. We must never lose it at all.

There is no price for the freedom of the self.

But am I truly free?

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

There are still shackles holding me down. Guilt, burdens, fears - human emotion itself seems to have turned against me. The mind is raging against the soul.

There is no equilibrium. Balance needs to be restored.

Freedom has yet to be found. Four solid walls prevent me from leaving my cell.

My song is love

Is love unknown?

And I've got to get that message home

But freedom seems so close. I can taste it in the air. And oh, how sweet it is.

How much do I have to risk to find freedom?

Maybe you'll get what you wanted

Maybe you'll stumble upon it

Everything you ever wanted

In a permanent state

In time. I believe that my time is soon.

The journey isn't over, after all. Whoever said it was? Only a fool would think he has had it made.

Not just yet, friends. It's always, always the beginning.

And who can say what the risks are? I say, 'bring them on!'

Just because I'm losing

Doesn't mean I'm lost

Doesn't mean I'll stop

Doesn't mean I'm in a cross

Perhaps the enlightenment I seek will be gained tomorrow. Maybe next week. Maybe next month. Maybe in the next decade, or the next half a  century. I don't know.

But I'll still wait for that message.

It will come.

I just got lost

Every river that I've tried to cross

And every door I ever tried was locked

Ooh-oh

And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

Freedom, come embrace me in thine arms, and take me to the paradise I long for.

"Oh, beauty, 'til now I never knew thee."

Gravity release me

And dont ever hold me down

Now my feet won't touch the ground

Plans?

If I could have things my way in the future, I'd definitely want to be the next Programs Director at the La Salle Center.

Who knows?

Will blog about this some other time.

Coldplay's How You See The World

Are you missing something?

Looking for something?

Tired of everything

Searching and struggling

Are you worried about it?

Do you wanna talk about it?

Ohhhh

You're gonna get it right some time

There's so much to be scared of

And not much to make sense of

Are you running in a circle?

You can't be too careful

And you can't relate it

'Cause it's complicated

Ohhhh

You're gonna get it right some time

You're gonna get it right some time

It's how you see the world

How many times can you say

You can't believe what you heard?

That's how you see the world

Don't you worry yourself

You're not gonna get hurt

Oooh

Is there something missing?

There's nobody listening

Are you scared of what you don't know?

Don't wanna end up on your own

You need conversation

And information

Ohhhh

You're gonna get it right some time

Just wanna get it right sometimes

That's how you see the world

How many times have you heard

That you can't believe a word?

That's how you see the world

Ah don't you worry yourself

'Cause nobody can hurt you

Oooh

That's how you see the world

That's how you see the world

Best Wishes

A happy Chinese New Year to every one of my readers!

May the Year of the Dragon be a prosperous and amazing one for all of you!

Cheers!

NO?

Is it really that difficult to say NO to something?

I've heard of people who can never say it to a friend when the friend is a-calling. They just drop whatever it is they're doing at the moment and  dash off to wherever their friend is. But that's not all: asking for favors, lending money and God knows what else. They just go with it, even if it  means inconveniencing yourself or others.

Is it that hard to draw the line when it comes to saying NO?

Even I know when to say YES or NO. If it's in my means, I'll say YES. If not, the opposite applies. If I'm uncertain, I always say I cannot  promise anything. And yes, I always say that. I make it a point never to make promises unless I know I can keep them. I've broken a few  before, and I don't want history to repeat itself.

So c'mon, if they're asking you to join them for a boys' night out for the umpteenth time, just say 'No thanks' - especially if there's something  that needs to be done at home, or if you've already promised your boyfriend/girlfriend/fiancee/family that you'd take them out. Imagine how  frustrated they'd be if you just ditched them at the last moment. How'd you feel if that happened to you?

NO. It's just one word. Shouldn't people be exercising their use of the word when it needs to be said?

How many of us do?

Cheers all.

Who's Been Reading?

My stats have shown that I've been getting some foreign viewers.

Wow.

OK.

I can't be too sure if this is for real, but in any case, a warm hello to you readers.

Cheers for now.

Updates, Again

I have a job now.

And CNY is around the corner.

Not to mention FT Weekend 1 next month. And other kinds of activities in between.

Gotta go now. Cheers all.

Updates

School reopens soon.

And I need to look for a job.

Cheers!

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Best Wishes

Wishing my loyal readers a very happy new year 2012! May it be a great year for you guys!

Cheers!