Updates

Test tomorrow.

Sigh.

Updates

And today we have the STPM results out.

Hope it was good for you seniors.

What next? Fire drill. Homework. Chat. And then some.

When I get home later, I had better try to tudy. Or else!

Words

Had a thought

Is the past comparable to the present?

Sure, most cases allow it.
But then again
There are times the past and the present
Well, they don't mix.
Not in the slightest.

We can never compare
How Life was
When we were much younger
Like when we are in school.
We think of friends then
And the situations we went through
But it cannot really compare
To what is in the present.

Like, for example,

Form Six and Form Five.

Both have different ways.

Different syllabuses.

Different teachers.

Can we really say

Things are a whole lot better

Then compared to now?

Yes, it seems so.

But now

You're in a different world

With a different set of rules.

It's not easy

Looking for similarities.

And if you're from another school

Can there really be a comparison?

Well, maybe.
There's always a fine line
Somewhere.

In the end,

Should we continue to gripe

And go nowhere

And get really frustrated

Over things that are actually in our control?

Change your views.
It might help.

Words

A longing for bygone days

Oh, where hast Time flown to?

Of friends who are no longer here,

Of teachers whose antics are remembered,

Of great memories,

Of laughter and tears.

Such times cannot be compared

Oh how we can rewind the clock!

We linger on those thoughts
We wish Life would be so again
But then again
We can't ask for so much

Whatever Time we have left

We need to use wisely

Time and Tide wait for no one

Is it worth it to keep waiting?

Letting opportunities slip away?

Is it worth it?

I've had enough of cryin'

Bleedin', sweatin', dyin'

Hear me when I say

Gonna live my life everyday

I'm gonna touch the sky

And I spread these wings and fly

I ain't here to play

I'm gonna live my life everyday!

I believe we waste our time with petty things

Petty arguments

Petty talk

Petty larceny

Much more than that

Is it really worth the effort?

When you want to make great leaps?

Doesn't a change in stance and style seem necessary?

Would you then realize all your troubles are temporary?

I see the light

And I believe

Though the road is long

It will never end.

All we need is change

Faith

Trust

And a lot of willpower

To get to where we want to go.

Can you?

Updates

I am coming back to the Board soon enough! =D


Yeah!


Feeling lazy. Leg still aches a little.


Mayhaps the day will get slightly better? Perhaps.


Gonna be waiting to get Kendra's pendrive and see what she listens to.


And do some trading. Anyone else got some John Mayer for me? XD


Cheers!

Updates

OK, back in school. Leg feels slightly better. Right leg still has muscle problems. Oh well. No choice but to skip Wushu today.

Little to say for the moment. Aaron's leaving for Australia. School's still the usual.

Wonder what's coming soon.

Updates

My leg feels slightly better now. The muscles were stretched after the Michaelian Run.

Makes me reconsider pushing myself to the limits.

Or maybe just do some practice runs over time. Haha.

Cheers for now.

And Happy V-Day to everyone. =)

The Bee Gees' Words

Smile an everlasting smile,
A smile can bring you near to me.
Don't ever let me find you gone,
Cause that would bring a tear to me.
This world has lost its glory,
Let's start a brand new story now, my love.
Right now, there'll be no other time
And I can show you how, my love.

Talk in everlasting words,
And dedicate them all to me.
And I will give you all my life,
I'm here if you should call to me.
You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say.

It's only words,
And words are all I have,
To take your heart away.

Words

I turned away because I thought you were the problem
Tried to forget until I hit the bottom
But when I faced you in my blank confusion
I realized you weren't wrong, it was a mere illusion.

It really didn't make sense

Just to leave this unresolved

It's not hard to go the distance

When you finally get involved face to face.

So tell me what you want to hear

Something that were like those years

Sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

And this time

I don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away.

In time, of course.

Words

Who is the man I see

Where I'm supposed to be?

I lost my heart,

I buried it too deep

Under the iron sea.

And is there glory there to behold?
Maybe it's my imagination.
Another story there to be told.

But can there really be salvation?

When you're close to tears, remember

Someday it will all be over.

But when?

Life is a long and arduous journey.

Everyone knows that.

But while everybody's changing,

I don't feel the same.

I feel sidelined.
Sidetracked.
Sideswiped even.
When will it all end?

All I wanna do is trade this Life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got.

(If you just realized this, I actually borrowed lines from numerous songs to my posts.)

Beyond Reason

For the time being, I am putting up posts that border on the philosophical side. Those that examine me in a more in-depth manner, perhaps looking into my psyche and personality for the truth that has been buried so deep since the past few years.

There is so much for me to question, and mostly in regards to the problems that have befallen me. I can't let the Devil continue to rein me to his will, and it is imperative I find a solution to all these troubling matters once and for all.

Would it work? I don't know. But I won't know till I try.

Hopefully from my musings I'll find something.

Words

If we just try, try, try

Just to be nice, nice, nice

Wouldn't things be so much better

For you and I?

If we just live our lives,

Putting our differences aside

Oh, Life would be so beautiful for us all.

Bless those whose spirits have diminished.
Such people I understand their fates.
I too feel the same.

For what worth is Life

If we continue to suffer?

Elevate my soul, please.

I've got no self-control

Been living like a mole now

Going down - excavation.

But does anyone care for the fallen?

The Lost? The Least? The Lonely?

When all hope is gone

And there is nowhere to go

Who do you turn to?

Words

Should I? Could I?

I stumbled like my words.

Did the best I could.

But still misunderstood.

Where has the calm gone to?

There's such a thing as forgiving.

But why can't we forgive?

Selfishness? Pride? Ego?

Inherent mistrust? Misunderstanding?

Only fools fall to their pride.
Fools such as I.
Condemned not to see the falacies of my actions.
Until revelation dawns.

'tis too late?

After all this time,

Blinded by the truth.

And you couldn't make me see it.

Till now.

Adieu for now, friends.

Until The Next Time

Dear readers, it is with a little hint of regret that I inform you of my blog's temporary closure. Rest assured, I will update it once in a while if I ever encounter something of particular interest.

Two reasons why I'm doing this:

1. STPM year.

I can't waste more time doing stuff for the blog when the feared public exams are just around the corner. So at the moment I will focus on my studies until the exams are over. A long time, yes, but it is a necessary sacrifice.

2. The War.
And I'm not talking about a coming Doomsday.

If you remember, I've mentioned before how I have to face an internal conflict. Things are not getting any better. Believe me, THEY AREN'T.

Most times I tell myself things will be OK. Things will get better. Guess I've been hiding all the real dangers and threats till they sneaked in when I least expected it. Almost as if the Devil has his hands on me like I was his marionette. And I even denied I have problems whilst ironically pointing out 'flaws' of others, somewhat like a hard-headed kid who just can't let go of his beloved toy.

Several recent incidents have caused me to realize I am nowhere near the end of the conflict, nor have I made any progress since I began Project New Life recently last year. It made me see the errors on my part in a more in-depth perspective, and I have begun to notice how the repercussions are turning the tables on me.

Thus, until this problem can be resolved, I have made it a point to STOP all New Life posts unless they are relevant to certain circumstances which we all can truly relate to (rather than pinning the blame on others or something like that) or if they pertain to anything important. But don't worry. Rest assured things will turn out alright.

I hope.

Cheers for now.

Words

A new segment which will appear occasionally on my blog. It's all abstract, so I leave it to you to decipher my words. No one is right, and yet no one is wrong too.

I am inside. An empty room. Looking over the world outside.

I see my comrades. Standing outside. They call to me. I wave back, nonchalantly.

I sigh, heavily. Life is too harsh sometimes.

Or are we our own prisoners?

Do we confine ourselves to our hopes and fears all the time?

Maybe.

Should it be time for us to release ourselves from our shackles?

Freedom? Forever?

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free.

I wish I could break all the chains holding me.

I wish I could say all the things that I should say.

Say them loud

Say them clear.

For the whole wide world to hear.

CNY Day 2

Well, it's already Day Two. So freakin' fast?

Man, Time flies. ><

So far so good, I'd say. Good food, the company of relatives, laughter and joy, some angpau (though in small numbers this time) and everything else that makes CNY fun.

Oh, and some good couple hours of sleep in the afternoon. The weather seriously makes one sleepy. Haiz.

And already the festivities are coming to an end. Zoinks!

Ah well. Enjoy it while we can, that's what I say.

Cheers for now!

CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year to one and all! XD