Okie, it's been a million years since I last typed a journal entry. Yah, so now I am supposed to summarise. If you trust my summarising skills, pls read on, if not, you can stop here and get on with your work.

10-12 Dec...
Stuck at chalet. Not really stuck... I got stuck willingly. Well, basically, it's not a chalet. It's just a place where meetings goes on all day all night, and really, it's more of a work place. The bbq was okie, I ate little, dunno what to eat really... not much other than chicken wings. The initiation... guess many were very jing zhang... cos they say wrongly... but for me, I also very jing zhang then... keep saying the pledge wrongly also. haha. So nice to see the kids that I took from they were sec1 to become a senior liao... Like time flies. Haha...

13 Dec...
Precamp. I was DO loh. Blur like sotong as usual. Well, poor terence ran about a lot, but I usually make my DS run all over the place also... Even instructions also he give... Haha, I am just so slack. Tell me that man.

14-18 Dec...
Hardly slept. That's the 2 words that fit perfectly. lol. But it was just like last year, just more relax, some things like SIT test I just slept in the bunk. Basically Serene frightened by me on SEC morning. Haha... I guess I was half asleep. Even when I went into the meeting room, I didn't see PL's black face, just sat down like a stone, and didn't even listen to what he was talking... Though I know he's angry lah... I only heard my name to say I was in charge of a particular level. And the night before, I fell asleep before I could set the alarm clock. According to Ser, I was holding my handphone and sleeping in the bunk. Lol. For the hike, I was hoping to be on the roving team, but I ended being in charge as a medic on the summit. But nevermind, it's all as well, I worked out quite a little walking the 45 degrees slope. Didn't want to go for road march at first, but went anyway cos not enough people was going... well, that was before the sec4s '04 changed their minds. lol. Anyway I missed the muddy area cos' I was taking care of a casualty. Lucky. Hate washing the shoes. As for the camp overall, I think it haven't really bonded them as a squad fully, only a small part. And was pretty vexed at times when scolding them so hard just achieved no results... Guess they are too pampered somehow. And first few days into the camp, they reminded me of my own squad, only around 20 pple, so few girls, 2 bunks for SBB, and soon and so forth.

19 Dec...
Slacked at home, watch movie with Esther... INcredibles... it was nice. Just tried to enjoy myself as much as I can before I start work.

20 Dec...
Started work at my aunt's shop, Home N Office at Eastpoint. Quite blur, getting used to it... my first real part time job. Seriously, it's 6 days a week for these 2 weeks... not really part time.. haha.

22 Dec...
Was working... then ate dinner cum lunch... comes the arrow of the day: OIC for Mr Goh's retirement gathering. Interesting isn't it? Second impact of the day: IC for Mr Goh's retirement gift. I think I am getting used to wearing a target board behind my back... Guess Ser is more experienced at getting shot. For me, I guess, this is just the beginning. =)

23 Dec...
Working still, getting to love my job. I am just around my favourite stuff - stationery - all day... Had tea break with Esther... talk a little crap, trying to pull her to buy stuff from the shop. Haha. I am getting the hang of salesgirl...

And lastly, going to work on eve and xmas... Haha. Sadz.

Will be updating the next time I am free, basically I work 11 hours a day and I hardly have time to myself... and I need to sleep... Haha. So seeya!

did I mention fish always have quizzes with so nice pics? Haha!


Chamomile Tea...
You are Chamomile Tea.
Your an original! Helpful to anyone in need and
always willing to lend a hand, you take action
but not through violence, people listen to you
for you have a knack for giving wonderful
advice! Many look up to you and you try your
best not to let them down. You have many
friends steadfast or no who consider themselves
lucky to be near you. You may have been hurt in
the past but you dont let that stand in your
way! You have a wonderful outlook on life and
try to see the good in people which is an
awesome gift!


What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
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C:

Your Beauty lies
in Nature. Down to earth, laid back and a natural
beauty. You have no need for
make-up or accessories that most others do. In fact
you most likely find them a
nuisance. You are probably a little tom-boyish in
your jeans and tees with a
great love for nature. You probably know more about
plants and animals than most
people and you'd rather spend your times outdoors
and in the sun, independent
and free. You can be a bit distant with people,
preferring the company of
animals over people, which isn't always the best
thing. You can be kind and
sweet, but not many see that side of you as you
often have misunderstandings
with people. You are very go-with-the-flow sort of
person and usually try to
avoid fights even if it means changing your opinion
or belief. Still, you are
you look your best actually without make-up and in
casual clothes. Very few can
say that. Be proud.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Wind Animal: Horse Color:
Green, Purple, Earth Tones Song:
The Memory Of Trees by Enya Expression: Cool
Smile

Gemstone:
Emerald Mythological Creature: Fairy, Elf
Planet: Earth
Hair Color: Brown Eye Color:
Bright Green

Quote:
"Horses love me. Cowboys fear me."

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boohoo! long time no blog!

I am just back from NZ yesterday, the jet lag put me to sleep yesterday at 11 p.m. The scenery there is fabulous, with the mountains, waterfalls and rivers. But being a very forgetful girl as usual, I guess I forgot most of the stuff, so I gotta summarise with the itienary when it gets unpacked later on.

But in general, you just get to see enough waterfalls to last you a lifetime, and the most beautiful scenery is from Milford Sound, a place where you take a sort of big size boat, and you can stand at the upper deck, let the wind blow in your face and body (the wind is strong!), and you get to see the mountains, waterfalls, right in front of you, the scenery is truly breathtaking. And basically it's spring going into summer time when I went, but nevertheless, it was snowing in the mountains during summer, and the weather was so cold even in the cities that you certainly have to wear a jacket everywhere you go. It's colder than normal aircon. The temperature there is always 25 degrees and below I guess, all the time I was there. According to the tour guide, the highest temperature ever in history in New Zealand is 32 degrees celsius. Wow, I was like, that's like everyday temperature for Singapore! lol. And I went on a tour around the South Island, where there's lots of scenery, 73% of the island is covered by mountains... So like my tour guide says, everywhere, when you turn your head, you will see at least a mountain.

And in the South Island, there's lots of agriculture. So you see all kinds of it, there's lots of sheep. It's just so cute to see green pastures dotted with white little sheep, and from far, they just looks like little fluffs of cotton wool. And cows, but not as many as sheep, and I just realised that the cute black and white cow that we see ever so often is not very common. It's mostly black, brown, and even if you do see a black and white cow, the white is very little. Haha, but that won't stop me from loving those cutie cows.

One of the days I went up to see a glacier, eh, I haven't really figured out what a glacier is, but it's like a frozen river, so it's beautiful. And cold. I was like trying to run to the place where the water and ice connect, but it's a bit far, and lack of time, so I missed it. And the rivers there are beautiful! The water is so clear, you can see the bottom, and you can really see the rivers are really flowing, some even flow very fast, and I drank water from one of the rivers. It's very nice, seriously. And once you seen the rivers there, you will just think Kallang River is not really a river. lol.

The scenery there is so untouched, and everything is natural. The pace of life there is so slow, especially in a city that I went called Christchurch (did I mention I love the name, dunno why). They enjoy themselves in the parks, take slow walks, and shops close so early like at 7 or 8 p.m. And even in Queenstown, they said the city shops close at a later time, and around 9 p.m. and it's closing. I went out to eat KFC there, and we were eating at 8 plus, and the shop is like preparing to close le. Wow. Imagine this in Singapore. People just have no place to eat dinner.

The days are long in NZ right now, at it's still bright at 8 p.m. Gets a little unused about that cos' in Singapore, I tend to stay till midnight, meaning around 5 hours with the sky dark before I sleep, but in NZ, the time seem to pass so slowly. And somehow, the person who like to rush around (me) can truly slow down when I get there. I was strolling along the streets at the slowest speed I could ever imagine myself to be walking at. I am surprised at myself, but somehow, you will just tend to slow down, and enjoy the scenery, and enjoy the cool temperature (free aircon lol), and I was walking slower than my NA team's slow march (I mean my own team, which is pretty fast, but still slower than my normal pace)...

And not to forget, because of NZ's beautiful scenery, it's the place where they film LOTR! I saw one of the scene where you see the dead trees thing. I am seriously not a fan of LOTR, so I couldn't point out exactly which scene is it. lol.

So that's the summary of my trip, I will be updating with more details when I am more free with the itienary next to me. lol. Some summary, I am as longwinded as ever. =P

guess it's a long time since i blog... cos i was busy having fun, enjoying my last few days after my exams. it was play, play, and more play every day, every night. the though of not having exams for the next 8 months just feels great, and no more studying, and no more worrying about not doing well for the papers... of course will still worry when the results come out, but that's for next year.

luckily pl didn't hold a super detailed and long meeting today, i was just in dhs for a few hours and i almost couldn't take it le. my right eye is swollen like siao and it just hurts all the time. it just gets worse when i bend down to get things. guess maybe it's the blood rushing to my head. and the crappy eye drop just makes my throat have a weird taste, that makes u lose ur appetite. and the greatest thing is since the eye is 'recovering' in a sense, it just feels like there's something stuck in your eye, which i guess is pus. it just sucks.

and the most interesting is, i am going overseas tml. totally great. i dun feel like going, specially in this state. but what to do? my mum will never hear of it, cos the trip is just so damn expensive. so, too bad.

just to mention, i will be out of town from 28 nov to 5 dec, so anything just leave a message in my handphone, i will get back to ya once i reach sg on 5th.

argh stupid eye. it just keep on hurting. argh.

NO MORE PAPERS!
NO MORE RESTRICTIONS!
PLAY!!!!!!!!!!1
yeshyeshyeshyeshyesh....!

aiyah, 1 more paper. but do i care?!?! it's crap! i dun care! i am gg to play! i am mad! ARH!

Can finally go out enjoy myself. YESH! can finally go out PLAY! can finally go for sj meetings and activities! can finally watch movies! can finally shop! can finally read books without worries! can finally play game till i song! watch vcd!

there's a lot of things i can finally do!

though physics wasn't tt great, i not gotta care. fmath okie.

okie. while i enjoy this beautiful moment, it's time i set my grades prediction.

i remember 6 years ago i did this once, and i was real happy when it surpass my expectations. though this time most prob it wun surpass, at least i just wanna do it.

Prelim grades:
Cmath - B
Fmath - O
Physics - C
GP - C6

Before exams target grade:
Cmath - A
Fmath - C
Physics - B
GP - B4

After exams think i will get:
Cmath - A
Fmath - B
Physics - D
GP - D7

But still hope i will get:
Cmath - A
Fmath - A
Physics - C
GP - C6

weird. i feel weird also. physics lost to fmath. haha i dunno why. really.

and don't laugh at me for doing this. i think it will really be comforting when it comes to getting my results, cos even if i get better than the 3rd category i will also be happy.

the final countdown... let the countdown begin! 30 hours left.

whenever i am sad, or down, i will sit by my wardrobe, take out a straw and fold a straw star. i will put the star into a bottle, and somehow i will feel calmer, happier. this method never fails me. it's just putting all ur unhappiness, all your sorrows into the bottle, and seal it up with a cap.

maybe it's the effort, and focus and concentration that you have to have while folding a straw star well. to make sure it's really tight, and well folded, it takes concentration. one stray thought will just cause u to fumble and ur star have to be redone.

the sianz feeling is here again. HAIZ.... the '2 days left' thingy doesn't work anymore. the sinking feeling rises in my heart once again. 2 DAYS LEFT! the feeling is still there. there i told u it doesn't work anymore. 2 MORE PAPERS! it doesn't work. 1 DAY of exams to END IT ALL! worked a little.

the sec4s go for chalet le. wish them gd luck have fun. though they wun see it, whatever.

looking forward to the trip to NZ? not really. thinking of it just gives me a tired feeling. i can't even be bothered to read the iteinary. (dunno how to spell, not in the mood to spell it rite.) just thinking i am flying off on the 3rd day free from my exams, just doesn't seem to excite me. and knowing that i haven't end exams, and i am flying off this very week just makes my brain and heart confused. i just feel tired.

the idea that my schedule is going to be cramped for the next whole month just makes me feel tired. even though there's no more exams then. the thought that i am abandoning the chance to go the ex 08 chalet cos i got jnco just makes me feel sianz.

haiz. i guess one do feel more emotional during exam period. maybe i will enjoy myself on the NZ trip. maybe i will enjoy myself in jnco (i have a weird sense of what is enjoyment(i dun give a damn whether there's such a word)), and maybe the air of freedom that i inhale after exams is much stronger than what i am expecting now. even after saying all these, i just can't be happy for now. maybe i will be real happy on wed after my papers. and i will be even more happy on thu (i think it's the same cos i dun give a damn about design paper).

let's see if thinking about this will help. on wed after my exams i will play maple story till 1 a.m. then i will sleep till 11, wake up read a little of design. go to school, exam, then perhaps have dinner with new 08. yes! this helps. MAPLE STORY!!!!!!!!!!! does this help? haha. games just cheer me up.

I NEED MOTIVATION! I NEED HAPPINESS! I NEED THE POWER TO STUDY TO COME INTO MY LIFE NOW!

i need the power i experienced on last thursday. i studied my fmath paper 1 in time cos i suddenly love doing math qns tt day. dun ask me why, it just sort of came to me. after i did badly at physics. maybe cos it's pure math, and i love it more than mechanics. but i think there's a certain power helping me, from the lord maybe?

after typing crap, i just feel more happy. i wanna type on and on, but i need to bathe, play a while, settle down and start reading fluid physics. i just love crapping.......

Didn't update cos' I was busy mugging for physics and fmath cos I didn't really prepare for those 2 papers. To sum up, my physics was like shit, I think I minused like at least 30 marks out of 90 for paper2? damn demoralising one, gotta pia for paper3. fmath paper 1 was alright. i think it was the best fmath paper 1 i ever did, but i must also say that my fmath paper 1 always very lan. haha, like the fmath paper 1 i ever did is during tj prelims? and i got like 40... haha.

think my fmath more hope than physics, so should concentrate a lot on paper2 and get my B there, then physics no choice, hopefully a C there. aiming for ABC, it's rather low, but at least, it will be the best results i ever got ever since i started my jc life. haha.

just woke up at 10, and was playing maple story yesterday till 2 a.m. The graphics are really cute! Today is the start of the 4 day break where mugging begins. just cleared my room of pure math notes. No more PURE MATH! YESSSH! Though uni may learn, but nevermind, I like pure math. I like stats. Noo mechanics for me. Eeeks. Haaa.

jiayou peach! meanwhile i might be studying till i turn mad, so caution! a mad gal is on the loose.

WAH!!!!!i missed the last episode of the ren wo ao you today!!!! i dinch noe it's showing at 9 p.m.... thought only show the votes only... =( sobzzzzz. i never missed an episode of it and i missed the last episode!!! WAH!!!!! haizzzzzzz. vv sad.

yeah! forgot to mention, 8 more days to freedom! i think i am crazy today, blog so much. i am hyper! cos i slept 4 hours in the afternoon =x (all the econs pple dun kill me!) study study study! jiayou! jiayou!

'the champion' ended! no ending!!!! zhengkang is with annie, not with jingwen. but kaiwei will choose who?!?! we determine the ending. wah liew! can't they just decide? haha cos' i dunno.

You are 53% Libra

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

haha. so little? eh, too bad. i tell u this thing isn't accurate! hahaha. i think i am too bored so i try out this kinda things. today is the last episode of 'the champion'! though i have to agree with serene, that thsi show is going too fast. they gotta go to an island and train up, win the seagulls, and yixuan and jingwen are going to compete, and i think annie is leaving, with jingwen back to zhengkang? and yixuan back to kaiwei? and jiajun gotta recover from his injuries? and all these in 45 minutes? i say this is mad. haha. i wish it was longer. =P

You Are a Social Blogger!

Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends. It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.

What kind of blogger are you?

really? i thought i was a crap blogger. =P

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

What Planet Are You From?

men are from mars and women are from venus. so! i have shown that i am a real woman! haha? does that count?

A1 - Walking In The Rain Lyrics
[BEN:] SITTING BY THE WINDOW
SINGING SONGS OF LOVE
WISHING YOU WERE HERE
BECAUSE THE MEMORY'S NOT ENOUGH
WEAR MY MASK IN SILENCE
PRETENDING I'M ALRIGHT
IF YOU COULD SEE THEN YOU WOULD BE
HERE STANDING BY MY SIDE

IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY

FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[CHRISTIAN:] EVERY SINGLE HOUR
OF EVERY SINGLE DAY
I NEED TO CRY, MY EYES ARE DRY
I'VE CRIED MY TEARS AWAY
CAN'T HELP BUT REMEMBER
HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL
YOU DRESSED MY SOUL AND MADE ME WHOLE
YOU MADE MY LIFE COMPLETE

IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY

FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[BEN:] OF ALL WE'VE SAID AND DONE
REMAINS THE MEMORIES OF DAYS
WHEN LIFE WAS FUN
BUT NOW WHEN YOU ARE GONE
I SIT ALONE TO WATCH THE
SETTING OF THE SUN
FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

[CHRISTIAN:] I SAID BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

This is how I felt. Cos' I am drenched from head to toe... crappy rain. Now I feel clean after a nice hot shower.

Cmath paper 2 was okie, in fact i felt more confident about this paper than the paper1, though my pure math is better. i guess i was sort of showing the examiners that it was a boring paper cos' i keep yawning. and rolled my eyes at every other question in the paper, haha. cos i was looking at the apples question in stats, i was wondering, abt the 2002 stats qn, also on apples. my mind wad thinking, 'duh, dun they have any other fruits other than apples?' then when i was stumped at q27 the crappy qn, but though i spent a lot of time there, like maybe 35 to 45 minutes, (no lah, i finished le then went back... not so mad to spend so much time on the qn before i finished the paper), but after talking to some people made me convinced that my answer should be right. i didn't know how to do at first, i was thinking about what jy said abt his own paper, he did a reverse of normal dist prob, so idea struck me and i did the reverse of confidence interval. haha. and i did the OR qn for stats, but pple did EITHER more? dunno, i vv scared i make mistakes in DRV. and almost every fmath student i meet says he/she did applied math, and claims it's so easy so easy.... haha, but i know my limits. if i did applied i will die worse than in stats. cos i never practise mechanics at all. now left 2 subs, comes the worse bulk of the exams. my best subject is over, i haven started on physics, only studied a topic for fmath and did no practice papers, and dunno what in the hell. but now i need to sleep. cos' i slept vv late last nite, cos' i drank the crappy vitamin c water that somehow cause me insomia(liddat spell?). somehow coffee makes me wanna sleep. dun ask me why. i am weird. haha.

The final countdown.... 9 days left!! i didn't know weiwei's way of counting down for exams is quite a motivation as well. haha.!

now for the last second episode of 'the champion'!!!

yesh! my mum is making peach jap jelly!!! i haven had peach for aggggeeeesss. peach! *jumps around in joy!

lala. i am still slacking. wake up u stupid momo. there's cmath in 2 days, physics in 4 days, fmath in 5 days.!!!! i haven done a fmath paper 1 yet! stupid slacker crappy peach.

no more mahjong for u! no more pool! Studeeeeeeee! 5 more days and it will be 2 papers left with 1 no use paper as well! can relax after fmath paper1! then just 10 more days to freedom!(excluding the no use paper) and 11 days to complete freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!! gogogo!

looking forward to the end of 10 days. start the countdown! this is more exciting than the annual countdown held for xmas or new yr. this is the countdown to ultimate freedom for 7 months! YES! 10 days in exchange for 7 months! what a bargain!

i think i am getting mad from all the counting in cmath. HAHA.

another slack day passed. at least my comp is back. pretty happy with it. and i downloaded skype! the 'online phone' that allows anyone online to talk to each other without extra charge. great for communicating with esther who's overseas! =P

i did say i wanted to watch singapore idol. just that i didn't know it's till 9.30p.m. so i watched only half of it cos i wanna watch 'the champion'. sianz i missed daphne with ni yao de ai. wonders if she got sing tt badly. and wonders who got kicked out. or is it the results is announced another day one?

next tuesday is the end of 'the champion' le! there's a competition btw jingwen and yixuan! wow!

i didn't study much today, just couldn't get quantum into my head. argh.

haha, interestingly, all my best friends dun take physics. egg, fish, eskimo, esth. haha.

oh i gotta quit crapping. i wanna some food. a bit hungry. should cont studying my physics tonight.

oh my god, i gotta watch singapore idol tml. yah i dun usually watch lah, but tml is asian pop. i saw the 'ad' abt it just now on tv. yikes, slyvester is gg to sing an jing by jay, olinda is singing some song by deng li jun, and the malay guy (dunno his name) is gg to sing a malay song. and guess what daphne is singing. ni yao de ai by penny dai, yes the ending song in meteor garden 1. and the ad plays samples of their singing. OH MY GOSH. seriously i am a fan of meteor, and i heard that song a million times, and the way daphne sings it in that little 'sample', she sounds totally horrible! i bet she's the next to be kicked out. yikes. she can't even pronounce the ni yao de ai in chinese properly, much less sing the song. oh man, chinese can't speak chinese, this is one typical example.

jiayou! today is cmath paper 1. okie lah. though i did the stationary pts qn wrong, i think careless haha. and the differential eqn, careless also. the complex no. forgot to include the other solution. haha. on the whole max minus 20 marks liddat lah. should be able to hit a. hopefully. as long as i dun make big mistakes in my paper 2.

after today, the start of the super mugging week. 7 days without exams, also mean 7 days of intensive studying. it's time to start on physics, and also the fmath paper 1... jiayou! after next week is over, only left 3 papers, including one crappy paper called design. haa. which i don't intend to study much. gotta declare holiday once physics paper 3 and fmath paper 2 is over. haha.

oh my brother so nice. he offered to help me buy today's lunch if he's back early today, though in the end he didn't buy, but i think the offer is so nice. love him so much. =P

now i typing on his comp. cos' my comp reformat failed. haha. so sending the whole pc thing to someone to settle it. gotta get it back by around thursday. meanwhile will be sharing comp with my bro.

jiayou!!!! for me and for everyone out there having exams...

Why is it...

Why is it that when it comes to exam I don't feel like studying?
Why is it that I will do anything, anything to get away from studying?
Why is it that I have slacked all week last week and today I realised I actually haven't done a thing?
Why is it I feel that I am studying hard, and yet after looking at what I have done, I have not?
Why is it that I play more during exams than I do during normal school days?
Why is it that I will never keep up to the tasks I set for myself?
Why is it that I have lost all my self confidence ever since I went into dhs?
Why is there exams?

As you can see from all the why is its I have just typed, I am just blog procrastinating. (woohoo, new word I used!)

~I cannot stay this way. Gotta fail my A's if I do. Argh, stupid momo, it's just 16 more days to the ends of a's! There's 8 papers! Come on, it's only 16 days of hard work, then you will have 1 month of fun! Consoling myself huh? 1 month of fun... 8 days taken up by a family vacation, okie I admit vacations are supposed to be fun, but the thought of my grandma tagging along isn't my favourite idea of a vacation. Fine I am not close to her lahz. 6 days taken by a precamp and camp. 3 days taken up by a supposedly seniors retreat. Fun? I dunno. Then left about a total of 15 days of freedom for myself to hang out. It's quite short compared to the long break I had after my O's, but one should never compare. Be thankful that you have a break! 15 days still including the 2-3 days supposedly orientation preparation. Aiyah, 15 days loh! Who wanna go out with u to hang out, crappy girl? Later you find urself lazing around at home for the 15 days, cos' no one asks ya out. Of cos crappy taz will be out with the crappy momo, haha... Oh great. I realised I haven't had peach for ages!~

As you can see, I am going a little nuts. But I swear I didn't eat nuts these days. They are fattening. Even though I am talking a lot of crap, I am just going on without any point of focus. Cos' I just wanna type on and on. And I swear I didn't eat crabs either.

Argh. What am I doing here? Study!!! Where's the mood? Argh I am in holiday mood. Dotz.

aiyah. headache today. totally bad. it's been on all day. crappy.

feel very bad cos someone bought me a cake... when i didn't do much. haiz.

wanna reformat my comp. sianz.

headache! izzit watch too much tv? or cooped up at home? or what. why headache?!?!

okie i am mad.

The GP nightmare...

Haha, the subject says it all. I flopped GP lah. The composition is enough to kill me. Out of the 12 topics I totally dunno what to write. Had to settle for recycling no matter how much I didn't want to write it, even though I had very little points to write about and blah.

How far do u think recycling helps in the problem of waste?
-My stand was that recycling helps in the prob, but only recycling is not enough, must be accompanied by reusing and reducing.
-I wrote a paragraph on recycling paper, i say it is gd in this case cos tons of paper is used each day.(okie how crap can that be)
-Another para on recycling water, talking abt NEwater, saying that other than recycling water, reusing and reducing should be done and gave some examples on how it can be done.
-Then i tired of materials, i talk about recycling campaigns. I raised how recycling is done in various countries... japan, america and singapore. then just say usually these campaigns will include reusing and reducing as well to achieve maximum effect blah. the 3Rs campaign...
-Then realised i got half hour left, decided to add in a para on waste gases cannot be recycled today yet, so reducing the usage of stuff like electricity will reduce amt of waste gases.

Does this sound like a GP essay to you? It sounds like disorganised stack of rubbish. Well. What can I say.

After the demoralising composition, I was all set to do my compre better. It was quite okie, but my AQ as usual is a bit crappy lan. Dunno what I was writing as usual, and I often wondered how come someone can do their compre well and their AQ well in 1.5 hours. The AQ is like a compo itself. My compo itself took 1 hour to write 2 pages, well, how long can I write an AQ then? I set with 25 minutes write an AQ, wrote 1.5 pages. Why so long? I wrote crap lah... haha.

After the whole day, I am convinced that my GP papers have flopped. Oh well. Another course of English in uni. Just make sure I don't fail GP and let me get into university can le. Study 3 years of English I also don't mind. I will read newspapers from after my A's lah. As long as I don't flop it again in university. Provided I can get into university.

haha, all thanks to fish again...



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Okie. Let me mentioned briefly what happened last Sat.

Other than the awful fact about Khoo's email, I wasted a whole afternoon making calls, smses, and compiling the L1R5s and citizenship of the Std4s to make it easier for our selection of the people for EAGLES award. Then I wasted a few hours discussing with jy about the people we are going to nominate. Oh well. The things that the lump of fats made us do in the shortest time possible. By Monday. Submit the list by Monday. Hardly gave us 3 days to do it also. And she totally never do her research, and proposed her own set of people without consulting us. What the hell. She totally disregards our opinions. Trying to show us that the teachers are able to run the Corps. Just 1 EAGLES nomination and I am disgusted by the quality of her work.

Then another thing was I went MP Library to study. We went up to the adult section cos' Laura & co were there studying too. So me and CW left our bags against the wall beside near the tables. Then we were sitting down along the wall, the library patrol man (yah, to maintain the library rules I think) came. Before that, he was already talking very loudly, telling some boy at the computer off. Then he came and say, "Arh, what are you all doing here?" saying it all in a very lecherous voice. Then he was rather rude and loud, saying some sentences which I forgot what, to ask us to go find a seat. I was already packing my stuff, to get out of his sight. Waddahell. Library no rule cannot sit on the floor, we are not blocking the traffic or what. Then Chee Wee was pissed off at his attitude, and was pretending to kick him and scold him after he was backfacing us. Guess he heard CW, so he turned back, and said, "Why, not happy arh. Not happy can get out." (those were his exact words) CW was putting on an innocent face and saying, no lah. Then the man say, "Then why you kick the bag?", as if challenging him. CW say, duh it's my bag what. Haha. I was very pissed off by him, I think if I ever meet up with that situation again, I will challenge him, and say that there's no rule about cannot sit on the floor, even if there is, you can say it nicely, no need to raise your voice. Though I dunno if there's a rule about sitting on the floor, I know the most important rule of the library is to observe silence, and you have broken that rule. If you want to quarrel, you can go downstairs. If you want to stay here and continuing raising your voice, I would like to say that you are disrupting the library's environment set for the readers and other users. I demand to see your upper management of the library.

Haha. I was almost to scold him this, if he continue to pester us. I was pissed enough that day by Khoo, and having to rush the nominations and research out. But luckily for him, he didn't persist. I was pissed enough to scold him bastard in front of the Std 4s. Haha. After all, even if I said all that, he won't dare to argue more, since it's to his disadvantage if I ever see his boss. The most I leave the library, he could be sacked. Even a fool wouldn't want to fight a losing battle.

Okie, back to today. Today is Physics Practical, total disaster. I was unlucky enough to get to do the electricity question first. But well, someone has to start with it. The second question on oscillations, totally not enough time to finish. I was left with plotting my graph and 1.5 page of questions when there was 15 minutes left. My whole body was trembling from being too nervous, and my hand was shaking as I plotted my graph. And my heart was beating so fast that it was like after a 2.4 km run. My words were totally big as I wrote, and I got even more nervous when I had like 3 anomalous points. Then I had to tell myself to calm down, heck care the points, at least get the best fit line can le. The worst thing is how my body trembled. I think it's rather lucky that I was sitting at the very back, or else people will think I am going to have fits or something. I can see my hand shaking badly. Luckily, despite my graph sux, I managed to finish the questions. At least will pass lah. Though a bit demoralised cos' this is my best Physics paper out of the 5, I guess just have to work harder for the main papers to make up for this. It was a scary experience. I am still feeling the terror of almost not finishing my paper just now. Haiz.

Oh well. So sorry to those who have been checking my journal regularly for updates. Been a little busy lately to blog. Summary of the week's significant events:

Friday 15 Oct: CG breakfast, Mr Ng treated us. Feel a bit bad sia. And not the whole class there. Got the photocopied copy for result slip to bring back and sign.

Saturday 16 Oct: Meeting day. Had 2 SJ meetings in a row, though quite slack never do any revision and work, but then had a quite interesting time. Though there's some feelings of anger and disgust.

Today 18 Oct:

Today is quite a fun day. Morning assembly talk by the principal, then we went for CG breakfast. Then back to audi for the farwell concert. Mr Cheng represented the teachers and gave a speech, I think they praise us a little too high up. All in all, it seems that in between his words, we are a difficult batch, and "they dunno how to teach us", more like we are rebellious and all. Haha. I guess we gave our teachers lots of troubles, sleeping in classes, skipping lectures. Despite knowing that his words might not be what he really meant, I am still quite touched by how good he said us to be.

Rather nice concert. The only regretful thing is that my class is not united. Haiz. After such a nice concert, the spirit is high, so I thought maybe the class wanna go out or something. But we are not that united. Plus some people are already gone, some people didn't come school, some people need to stay back for sportsman/woman appreciation. Sadly, we failed to have lunch together. But at least I convinced them to have a class dinner on the 25th after Physics last paper. After all, I think, most probably it's hard for us to be gathering again in the future.

Aiyah, can't make it for the ex 08 chalet. Now instead of it being in the middle of my overseas trip, it's in the middle of JNCO camp. Haha, really unlucky. But nevermind, I will meet them up sometime next year bah.

It's the last day of official school in TJC. Next up would be exams. Jiayou.

Haha. I am still excited about my new blog template. I love the softness of the blue. My favourite blue. Makes me feel so relaxed looking at it. And it is exactly the way I wanna it to be.

I wished life was as beautiful as this blue is. Haha. Don't I wish my bedroom was of this colour too. Haha. I am a little mad. The bloo. So happy. Feels as if I am not going to change this template ever again. Haha.

Okie I admit that everything around me is bloo. Can't be helped. I actually wanted to get a purple template, with a sexy cartoon girl, but somehow I gave up the idea. I saw a pink template with a beautiful anime girl on top, long hair getting blown in the wind those type, almost wanted to get it, but I dismissed the thought. Then I saw a very plain template, with a pic of a super slim and tall blonde girl;s back, with her looking out of full length glass windows, in a room that looks like a living room. I almost almost got that, (haha cos I always wanted to be tall and slim, okie that's impossible lah), but somehow I dun really like the rest of the temp other than the pic. And the words "A Quiet Day" at a corner of the pic just spoils the pic. So I got this template, that is exactly the same as my bro, just that mine is light blue and white, and his is light blue and yellow. Haha, but who cares. I just like it.

Oh yeah! I changed the blog template. Got tired of too much bloo on the previous one. And the thousands of scrollbars. Now, my fav bloo. Light blue. =P

My apologies if you attempted to read my previous entries and found the template to be of the previous. Cos' my comp can't republish my entire blog. Okie I admit it, it sux. Haha. Wasted a lot of time doing up this template. Finally corrected all the problems. Yeah I love soft colours.

Haha, contributed by Fish.

A - Age:
- 18 yrs!! and 13 days? (I am eighteen lala. haha)

B - Brands usually bought:
- Eh,I dunno.I dun buy a fixed thing usually.Pens arh,uniball signo,ultimate .38 ball! No .28 balls for me, the pen just spoils faster than the ink finishes.

C - Career in future:
- Accountant? Business stuff. I seriously don't mind pharmacy if they allow non Chem students.

D - Dancing as a career:
- Haha, for leisure, not career bah. I like those kind of ballet, graceful type of dancing.

E - Easiest person to talk to:
- Haha, myself. Of course all my best friends lah. Fish, Egg, Esthie & the Eskimo. Guess we can crap about anything under the sun. Oh yah, not to forget my dearest bro.

F - France or England
- France! I think there more beautiful, but then I dunno french. Haha.

G - Gunbound or Ragnarok:
- Ragnarok? Dunno what's that, Gunbound loh.

H - Hometown:
- Singapore.

I - Instruments:
- I dunno. Though I like piano, saxophone, etc.

J - Jungle or Sea-side:
- Sea! Nice sea breeze caresses my cheek.

K - Kids:
- Quite cute lah. Maybe after I have my own then I will know the troubles =P.

L - Left Hand or Right Hand
- Right. Almost everything done using right. Haha.

M - Meat or Vegetables:
- I like meat lahz. But I got eat veggie.

N - Number of siblings:
- 1! One bro is enough, I love him!

O - Open Minded or Close minded
- Depends on wad things. Haha. Usually open bah.

P - Phobia[s]:
- Hrm. I dun like heights. Haha, when I am lost in a big foreign place.

Q - Quantity or Quality (for anything):
- Quality. I love quality coffee haha.

R - Reason to smile:
- When you are happy, naturally will smile. How I know when will smile. Lamez.

S - Song you sang last:
- Eh, Jerry Yan's dunno what song. I was looking and trying to sing along.

T - Time you wake up:
- 6.30 on school days (okie dun bash me up), other days depends on what time I sleep the night before. Btw 9 to 11 usually.

V - Vegetable you hate:
- Haha. Eh, those without leaves. Like Brocolli, cauliflower...

W - Worst habit:
- Bite nails bah, can't kick the habit, thinking hard will subconsciously do it.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST
X - Xavier or Jean Grey:
- Haha, eh, I am feminist. Jean, but dunno why.

Y - Yolk or Egg WHite:
- Aiyah, you can't choose which u wanna eat. They come together lah. Dun pick on food.

Z - Zodiac:
- Libra! But I like others like Pisces, Aquarius. Haha, the water signs.


Lala. This is crappy. haha.

You are Red Wolf, who is not afraid of meeting new people, and are kind to everybody.
You are very sociable and extremely innocent woman.
There are many unique type of people in Red Wolf.
You are bold enough to push your own way, without being restricted by tradition and common knowledge.
You don't care what the other people think of you.
You want to do as you wish.
Therefore, your life style and preferences are little bit different from others.
You dislike having no style of your own.
You possess your own sense of balance, and you create your own environment.
You have sharp instinct that you use in daily life.
This makes you do a good job of life.
You are very pure inside, but this sometimes can create misunderstanding.
Your action that you do unconsciously may not be understood by the others.
Once you decide on something, you will definitely carry it out.
But that may be today or a year later.
This makes it difficult to plan other things.
You ought to be careful not to give up so easily.
Although you tend to be rather unique, the way you look for originality makes you successful in the field of designing and planning.
You are cheerful and have dreams, so you can adapt to circumstances quite easily.
You have a good sense of balance.
You can think and calculate about your future.
You may go for an arranged marriage.


Haha, weiwei, interestng site. At first I couldn't figure why are there so many cartoons around. =P It's a bit true though. Haha, arranged marriage.

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Just tried a question that esthie told me about. Haha. Actually I was stuck at one point, where the rest could have fitted anywhere. I couldn't think anymore of the way out, so I just sub in and try. And this was how I got the answer. This question was said by einstein that 98% of the world cannot solve it, I think it is not these people are stupid or what. People who can really solve it must have the courage to try out, and not be afraid of failure. Only then, can you achieve ultimate success.

For interests' sake, this is the question, all efforts to esther for typing it out.

This is a quiz invented by Einstein durin the 20th century, and he claims that only 98% of the world would not be able to solve it.

Quiz:

There was this street, with 5 houses. Each house has a different colour, a person of different nationality who lives in it. Each person that lives in the house drinks, smokes different brands and keeps a different kind of pet. The final question is to find out, who have a fish for a pet.

15 hints are given...
1. The English lives in the red house.
2. The Swedish keeps a dog.
3. The Denmark person drinks tea.
4. The green house is to the left of the white.
5. The owner of the green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who smokes Pall Mall keeps a bird.
7. The owner of yellow house smokes Dunhill.
8. The person in the middle house drinks milk.
9. The Norwaysian lives in the first house.
10. The person who smokes Blends live next to the person who keeps a cat.
11. The person who keeps a horse live next to the person who smokes Dunhill.
12. The person who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.
13. The German smokes Prince.
14. The Norwaysian lives next to the blue house.
15. The person who smokes Blends have a neighbour that drinks water.

Haha. Just read the new paper for the day. No I am not mad. Seow Siew Chin is reading newspaper, yes. You didn't read this wrongly.

I don't buy New Paper everyday, but today the headline caught my eye. Heard people talking about it on the MRT. A guy was injured and lying down on the floor in public for 20 minutes and nobody helped him, till an Indonesian lady came by. In the end, it was a foreigner who helped him. Alright he fell down in the country club a bit ulu lahz, but a bit exaggerating, 20 minutes leh! Of course this kinda headline attracted the attention of an SJ member like me. (okie it could have attracted the attention of anyone.)

Spent an hour eating cereal and reading the newspaper. (Yah I read very slow... =P) Haha, then came to the sports section, I do admit I have no interest in sports. But the Tampines Rover guy who spent 65 thousand bucks to fill the stadium caught my attention. So I read. Read to the part about Real Madrid, of course I continued reading, my fav team! Haha. Favourite cos' all the players I like is on the team, Ronaldo, Casillas, blahz. Haha. I only know them lah. Then I read to a point, I saw Owen is in Real Madrid! Haha. I didn't know. (Help, Egg don't kill me haha!) Okie I a bit gu lou gua wen. Haha. I am just mad. =P

I LOVE MY BRO!

Just logged out, happened to 'stumble' upon my bro's blog. okie, i didn't mean to read, a bit curious, anyway it's his comp, so his add is sorta on the comp. latest entry is on gg out to eat for my bdae yest. Haha. He said I was a nice sister. So sweet! Haha. He never say anything to me, I never say anything to him, but we love each other like hell. Haha. I LOVE HIM! He's a nice brother too! Always never fail to brighten my day when I am down. Always do my bidding (haha, that's not exactly a virtue, I am always asking him to do things for me though. haha, and he does it for me.) Only guy in the world that will play with me for my teddy bears. And he's super pure, gentlemanly, haha, not like my other bros, XK, CW, okie Jason a bit better than the previous 2, but I think he isn't as pure as he looks. Haaa.

Yeah! My bro never fail to brighten my day!

WAH LIEW! Today go through FM paper 2. I WASTED SO MANY MARKS! Aiyoh, formula wrong, plus BLURNESS, plus forgetfulness, plus carelessness, i minus almost 15 marks in the stats section! wadda! see how my a lvl pass fly away? yah, it flew... flew so fast that i didn't catch why it flew away. (okie maybe tt's lame)

okie lah, mechanics cannot say. i am just lan in that. dotz loh! my paper one also stupid careless mistakes. I could have gotten 50. damn. i could have gotten better than crappy yz. I could have shown them that doing tutorial and papers without absorbing is useless. I AM BLUR!

Okie, I was sian diao and a little shocked yest that my bro say mum just assumes that we two are clever and should get good results. Then a little flop also cannot, just 1 flop, just 1, she will say till u are worse than mud. say u can't get into uni or jc(in my bro's case), and blahdadada. And start saying, "dun wan study arh, keep playing arh dadadadada." Then since after 16-18 yrs of these, my bro and i sort of numb le. So now she start saying about "spend so much money on ur education arh, in the end never study seriously dsadadadada." Then what shocked me was my bro was complaining to my grandaunt and uncle about my mum! haha. Poor grandaunt and uncle just kept quiet.

But really arh. Her method of teaching us arh, really shows me why in the hell me and my bro have such low self confidence. everyday get 'bian' till 'yi wen bu zhi', you get B for cmath, she say why u never get A? you are fmath student leh! stupid leh, you think i not upset i get B meh? still must rub it in further. FAIL FMATH ARH! Where you wanna study next yr arh? or just go poly? You think I wanna fail meh?!?!?! Why don't she ever stand in our positions, and think about our feelings, and she always rub it in and say till you are like shit? She never do, does she? She just everytime expect you to get As all the way. She never praises you when you get A, but she always scolds you when you get anything less than A. I am not a genius, I am not perfect. When you get high marks she suspects that the paper is too easy(in my bro's case), when you are not top in class, she says why the top guy always gets gd grades and u can't. She keeps saying my cousin do better than me. She keeps saying my cousin started studying earlier and dadadada. Everything my cousin is good, I am bad.

So what if she booked a holiday trip to NZ? I don't feel happy. Everytime after she said all those stuff, you have to throw everything she said back in your head and hope for some memory loss to happen. Yah I have short term memory, but sometimes I can't forget. And everytime at home have to show her that you are studying. Everytime in school even when you are upset, you have to show that you are happy. Everytime you see those smirk looks on w woman face and yz's comments of i score so lan, when she score okie, you have pretend nutting ever happened. You heard and saw nothing. If you mind all those, of cos' the day will be very bad for you.

Haiz, venting out unhappiness yet again.

Today was excited about the return of the Cmath papers. Haiyah, quite disappointed though. Almost got the first A I ever got. But guess that thought is gone. No more As. Destined that I shall not see an A in my life of TJ. But nevermind, shi bai nai cheng gong zhi mu.

Quite sian diao by the attitude of that stupid w woman again. But it's nothing new. Nicely asked her if she's okie with the dates 1-3 Dec for ex 08 chalet, she just totally ignore me. Act like some 'high and mighty' queen. As usual, self centred bitch. And worse of all, her bf ngok fung dun dare to answer my question cos' his gf buay song. Wah lau, so cowardly. Wah lau I nicely ask her, she dun even want to answer such a simple question. Just say yes or no to me will die arh. What a snob. Stupid ngok fung, 6 years of classmate he dun dare to ans me because of a snob.

Nice early day home. Gotta defrag my comp. Skipped the scanning, it has been scanning for 10 minutes and it just seems to repeat itself all the time. Mad comp. Haha.

I wished I was an octopus with 8 legs. Maybe can do 8 homework at the same time. Then poof! Homework is all done! Haha, maybe I need 8 brains also. eh, which animal have 8 brains. Haha. I am mad.

For all students who had their prelims, hope all got nice results (not like me sia). Good luck for the people who have upcoming exams! Most prob won't be blogging too much le. Haha. JIayou! Keep Going! =)

Hehe, it's the day which I turned 18! Haha. It's a most interesting day. It didn't go like a birthday. But I love how ordinary it was.

Of course to begin with, I don't really have a lot of friends in TJ. But the morning lots of people came shaking my hand and wishing me. I felt like a celebrity, shaking hands continuously. It's a weird feeling, cos' as usual I hate to be the centre of attraction. But luckily, I am not too popular a person in school, so I had a very ordinary day without people fussing over my birthday. Haha. Not like 3rd bro's yesterday, he's like some celebrity. I like to fuss over people's birthday, but I really hate people fussing over mine. Haha.

Right after school, I went off to dhs. Apologies to AL and BW, who were so enthusiastic to buy me a cake and take photos (I hate taking photos), have to reject the kind intention cos' gotta settle some cca records stuff for my junior today as this is the last day for amendments. Responsibility is more important than birthdays anyway. So I took off to dhs, after 2.5 months of not going back, it really felt like back earlier in the year when I went dhs 3 times a week. Seeing the Std 4s and some others after such a long time. After settling the stuff, went home straight.

Played a little Runescape, slept for 1 hour cos' I was so tired from doing math till 1 a.m. last night, went to bathe, and go out to dinner with yz and jy. Haha, I love the look on their faces when they saw me with the skirt. Most interestingly, they knew it was my birthday, but we talked like any ordinary day having a nice dinner with friends. Haha, I liked that very much. They know me so well arh? No wonder we 3 click as a committee. Haha.

Haha, back home, I bought the first bottle of alcohol ever in my life: a bottle of Blackcurrant Hooch. Haha. There was no other flavours, too bad. It tasted okie. What makes me glad is that the cashier never ask me to show her my IC, shows that I look 18! Haha, guess with the high heels, long skirt and a blouse, plus an expensive looking handbag (okie it's a sling bag, and it's fake), let my hair down, I look mature! Haha. On tha other hand, it might be cos' she just don't give a damn whether I am of age or not. Haha. But I just love to think otherwise. =P

Ordinary, yeah ordinary, but interesting and nice birthday. =)

*To Angeline: haha, the dinner is not what you think. Your mind always xiang 'wai'. =P

These few days have been playing a lot of games, doing some homework.

As usual I was obsessed with Runescape. 1 thing very worth mentioning was that I actually got cheated on the game by another guy of some of my money and stuff(the game money lah). On Sunday. Actually I also know I was a little too gullible, and anyway, I was too weak to fight. So let's say it's my fault lahz. But being me, I was rather furious at that damn idiotic guy that night. That night, I was thinking about the realisation that the world is like that, full of cheaters and all, people who are out to make their own gains. I was quite disappointed with the reality that I lived in then.

Then the next day, on Monday, I logged in to play again. This time, I met a really nice guy at the Cooking Guild (somewhere where cooking is done in the game). He had a high cooking level, and he presented me with 2 cakes, a normal one and a chocolate one. What makes it most surprising was he said, Happy Birthday! when he gave me the cakes. I was sort of shocked and pleased, shocked because after a day of being cheated, I found a person who was nice and generous. Shocked because it was my birthday in 2 days, and he wished me. Even though he might just be joking when he said those words, it touched me. He was laughing when I told him that coincidentally, my birthday is in 2 days. A thought flashed across my mind for a brief moment: I wondered if God was at work, making him say it subconsciously the words 'Happy Birthday'.

I was making apple pie at that time in the guild, and he was too. He showed me where the redberries were for making redberry pie. At first I hesitated at following him to the spot, cos' the day before I was cheated cos' I followed that cheater around without knowing where he was going. I was a little more cautious, but something in my mind told me I should follow. So I followed. He went to the bank, I was even more suspicious, as the cheat the day before led me to the bank. But surprisingly, when he came out of the bank, he did something I would never imagine one would do. He gave me a sapphire ring! A sapphire ring that costs so much if he sells it. And the store that he can sell it to is right across the street from the bank. And he refused me when I tried to pay him something. AFter that, I continued to follow him to the location.

He didn't cheat me. He led me to the exact location of the berries, and told me to pick it up. I was again very thankful to him, and we prepared to go back the the guild to cook the pies. Halfway along the way, he asked my attacking level and offered to make a better weapon for me. I was even more surprised. Wow, he's really one kind and generous man. Altogether, he gave me a lot of stuff. He made me realise that they are good people in this world, that not everyone is selfish and all.

Most interestingly, I realised just this instant, that sapphire is my birth stone. This is all too miraculous. I think God is at work, teaching me that I should not be too trusting, but at the same time, he also taught me that there are good people in this world besides the evil, and that not everyone is interested in his own gains. I suddenly think that this value of helping others without thinking about repayment is so great, yet it is a value that not everyone can have. And it is something that one must have the courage and will to do.

3 more hours. Happy birthday to myself in advance. Gotta have dinner with yz and jy tml night. =) I secretly vowed that whoever ask me out to dinner on my birthday, I will wear my skirt. Haha. After all, it's the day I turn eighteen.

Hi. Long time no post. Busy paying Runescape to relax and watch TV, going out.... blahblahblah.

Spent quite some money on my 3rd bro's pres. haha, nvm lah.

Oh well. Hurt? Just now fish told me she saw egg at east coast yest. No not this part. She also said she saw NA there with Audris. NA.... with Audris.... why don't wanna invite me? Me also their mentor leh. Okie lah. Suan le. I am just not as close to them. And I am not quite a good mentor to begin with when I have less knowledge than them. Haiyah. Suan le.

Respect. Really arh, people are more willing to confide in JY more than me. I mean Sec 4s lah. I guess despite me being their instructor and senior for 4 years, it doesn't seem to help huh? I think heard somewhere that Std4s like to confide in JY more cos' he is bound to take action on certain things, while for me, it is just quite slow to process. NA, I guess I have to admit that I don't put them at top priority everytime like Audris does lah, so quite normal that they may not exactly like me. Anyway I guess most of them 5 are much more capable than me. Sadly to say, even though I am their mentor, they seem more close to JY than I am.

Quite a sad fact, I begin to wonder I have done the right thing to sign on. I failed to know the Std4s, failed to become someone for them to confide in. Yah I did well in admin work, aiyah, but ultimately, one of the reasons I ever signed on is cos' of them. Since the 2 years are already over, there's no point brooding over it.

Now I am thinking like what ser was thinking a few weeks ago. Whether to continue signing on? Really hor, after all these very discouraged le. But I do want to see my Sec4s become seniors. So that means I will sign on one more year at least. As for the future, let me think about it when the time comes bah.

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oh admit it fish! this is crappier than the rest you have! haha. but i admit it is cute. =)



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It's a 3-in-1 day.

General:
It is a weird, unlucky and interesting day. And it's the day of Cmath Paper 2.

Summary:
(1) Cmath Paper 2
(2) Unlucky
(3) Weird

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(1) Cmath Paper 2.

Okie. Don't worry, unlucky doesn't apply to the exam. It's just worth mentioning. The most stupid, idiotic I ever did was that I thought the paper was for 2 and half hours, and I rushed through everything, at the time I thought it was supposed to finish, I suddenly realised something: Why didn't the teacher say "15 minutes left" earlier? I lifted my head, looked at the clock, then suddenly noticed that the whiteboard stated a duration of 3 hours. ARGH. And I skipped some questions cos' I thought time was up. Crappy. Then I redo a trigo question which I committed the most careless mistake of all: sine 60 deg = 3/root 2, when it's supposed to be root 3/2. Wasted my time doing the wrong part. Lame. I was giving a very weird expression when I saw the last probability question, that made me hate married couples. Talking about a group of people, then got different nationalities, then got married couples, then got girlfriend boyfriend, then still got their daughters, their son, their wives, their parents. Idiot I had to start figuring that married couples doesn't include girlfriend boyfriend, the married man has his parents which is also counted as married couple, then that a couple consist of a girl and a guy, counting females and males, couples and non couples, stupid question. But thinking back, I was rather amused by the question as well. Haha, even though I did it all wrong, but I think it's rather fun. =P

I was feeling damn bad during the exam lah, cos got sore throat. Think cos' I slept at 1 a.m., studying the night before. I know it is bad to study late before a math paper, but the choices were there:(a) Don't study, sleep, feel more refreshed the next morning and relaxed mind to think better in math paper. And get stuck at most questions.(b) Don't study, hope that God will help me and give me inspiration on how to do the questions.(c) Study late, feel sleepy tomorrow, can't think as fast, but roughly know how to do the questions.

My Paper 1 was okie, I want to aim for A if not B for Cmath Paper. Cos' I know the other 2 papers dieded. This is my last chance to see an A in my 2 years of JC life. Never seen one before, close to getting it, but never, not once.My last chance. So I chose Option C. I think last night was the first night since Social Studies O levels that I am willing to sacrifice sleep for studying.

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(2) Unlucky.

Okie, I really think today is a super unlucky day. It started with my choking on 1/4 of a teriyaki burger. Really choking. Okie that's not unlucky. That's my own fault. Blame on me so greedy and wanna save the hassle of biting the burger which had fillings that are slipping out. Oh I wasted 1/4 of it. But I think it open my throat a little wider to ease the sore throat I had. Haha. Finally know the real choking thingy. Must experience then know sia, really hard to cough. So first aid is quite right. I think my friends a bit frightened by me cos' they dunno what to do. Poor thing. Don't worry, I am okie.

Then comes another unlucky thing. I boarded the 135 from Parkway to Paya Lebar, really hor, while I was thinking whether 135 got go to my brother's school there the bus stop, the engine died. My first thought was, "Huh, so unlucky arh?" Got one part the bus went like a snail. Haha. Whatever, thought the engine died around 3-4 times, but at least it didn't break down before I reached my destination lah.

Really, I was thinking, quite unlucky le. I come home, wanna on aircon, which is usually the first thing I do when I come home. As my finger reached for the button of the remote control on the wall, I realised there was no button there. A paper pasted over the remote control read: "Do not on aircon. It is leaking. Mum." Alright, enough unlucky ordeals.

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(3) Weird.

Okie, when I was on the bus which the engine was dying all the way, I was watching a guy from Chung Cheng High scribble in a notebook. Alright, my stationery craze, I was first attracted by the interesting notebook he was writing in. It was a notebook with blank pages and some cartoon stuff. It was turned to a blank page he was writing on, and the next page was some pictures and some words. The title read: New Story of the Hare and the Tortoise. Thinking the notebook was rather cute, I turned my attention to what he was writing. I was sitting at a distance from him, keep staring at the page to see what he was writing. It looked like Chinese, then again some words from afar like don't look like Chinese. His words was big and some strokes overlapped and stuff. I thought it was Japanese. Wow, practising Japanese on the bus? So hardworking. I kept on staring. As I got off the bus, I managed to take a closer look. It was Chinese. Untidy handwriting that makes it sort of illegible. Well.

I got off the bus, walked across the overhead bridge, as I walked down, I saw a bicycle. Okie, it doesn't look like a normal bicycle. The pedal side, don't go in circles, it just goes up and down. Reminded me of the 'moutain climbing' equipment at the gym, for full body workout. Weird. I thought I choked too much earlier, lack of oxygen to my brain, seeing things. Well.

Then I was walking, a guy walking by carrying a stack of flyers, suddenly passed a flyer to me. My usual practice, I just took it. As I walked and walked, I looked at the flyer, I was like "Huh?" The advertisement was for POSB and DBS Bank, and on both sides is you tiao. And that flyer is exactly the length of the you tiao, makes it look very real. I thought I was seeing things, really choked too much arh. I looked again, the you tiao was still there.

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Conclusion:

Really a weird, unlucky and interesting day. Interesting despite the choking part. Really, my life haven't been quite so exciting for like the past few months? Haha. Choked too much, I am mad.

long time no blog. just wanna post some quizzes here.


You're Element is Water. You are soft and serene at
most times but like Wind, you're scary when
you're mad. You proabaly have a talent is
singing and even your speaking voice is lovely.
You have an innocent type of beauty that makes
you look younger than you are and you like
close relationships with people. (please
forgive me if you cannot see the pics. If you
go to my userpage then you can see your result
picture at the bottom)

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You're like a fairy. Fairies were the little pixies
that usually lived in the forest with wings
like butterflies and perfect little faces.
they had brown or blonde hair and pale skin
with freckles. They were entergetic, joyful,
playful, very smart, and peaceful. Fairies are
deffinately the most famous of all fantasy
creatures. (If you cannot see the picture, go
to my userpage and look near the bottom. There
should be the picture and description for all
the results)

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You're a "Yellow Angel" which means
you're probably really motherly. You're not
like a soccermom or anything but you're
protective of those you care for and you'd do
anything for them. You're usually the wiser one
in your group of friends and you're a good
psychiatrist because you've been through a lot
of stuff and know the best thing to do in every
situation. But you don't take any crud from
other people and they respect you for your
ability to stick up for yourself and others.
(please forgive me if you cannot see the pics.
I'm having some difficulty with them. If you'd
like to see your result picture, email me @
soccerprincess@sunsemi.com and tell me ur
reult)

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You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

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Regarding the terrorist attack on a school in Russia 2 days before, I am utterly disgusted and appalled by the behaviour of these terrorists. Oh well, they are terrorists, they are inhuman, totally. Next to the well known 911 attacks where they attacked the WTC, that was an office building. Now they attacks schools, innocent teenagers who goes to school to attend lessons. And the way of torture or rather actions are totally out of the world. There is only one word to describe them. Crazy.

They are out of their minds. They make the young children and teenagers, whoever, strip themselves all the way. What kind of action is that? Humiliating people. What cause does it serve? Nothing. And they bomb innocent kids to death. Killed 200 plus people. Those idiots. They are not even comparable to beasts. They are worse than beasts. They are an insult to humanity.

Is this the justice that they claim? What wrong did the kids do to them? Why do the kids deserve this treatment? Well, when people say that terrorists are crazy people who just enjoys killing others, now I know what they mean. They are perverted in their thinking. Mad.

Prayer: [Dear Lord, please bless the souls of the children who died in this attack, and embrace them with love in heaven. Bless those who survived to carry on with their own lives, and guide them, comfort them when they recall all these unhappy things, these terrors of their life. Bless those who are still injured severely to survive, give them hope, make them be happy again. I sincerely pray that none of these terrible attacks occur again. Though I know it is quite impossible, but I still wish for that, wish for world peace. Let everyone love one another because they are another of their kind. Let peace reign. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.]

Thanks to weiwei, got hooked by this life theories blogsite. Quite crappy, quite interesting.

http://lifetheories.blogspot.com/

Came across this one.

Writing on a blog, which is good, beats cleaning a room, which is bad. I had to do both. Therefore, I've had a mediocre day, right?

Sounds crappy. That's the first thought that flashed across my mind too. But after a few seconds, think about it, I think it quite applies to me now. Maybe it might apply to people mugging now too. People like me who can't settle their minds down to study, and wonder how in the hell people study for hours.

Maybe after looking at this 'theory' a few times, it still looks like total rubbish from a brainless crazy person who have nothing better to do. But I was just thinking, how well it applies to me. Last time I have always been happy, most of the days, manage to catch up with homework a little, don't feel stressed, can do work. Now I seem stressed, depressed many a time over little things, feels like can't catch up with homework nor revision. Last time had SJ to cheer me up, even though there's lots of work sometimes, feel depressed sometimes, but at least, it kept me occupied. And I love to hang around with seniors and everything. (Maybe not the Yr1s bah, a bit can't communicate with them.) In the little time there is, I felt that I have to cram my studies in and make the best use of time, study and work at the same time. Now that I have more time, drop one subject, off from SJ, full time studying, I tend to waste more time. Maybe because the need to cram things is no longer there. When you keep on thinking there's tomorrow. When you know you have more time. That's a bad habit, but I think it's true for my case.

Also when you have more time, suddenly one becomes more easily depressed. Okie, apart from the stress from schoolwork and exams, I think when you have more time, you tend to think more about unnecessary stuff. Like easily irritated by every little comment made by a person you dislike, because you have more time to think about the comment. And maybe sometimes, one tend to stray from the normal train of thoughts, and suddenly think about it having another meaning, or thinking that the person you dislike meant to badmouth you 'between the lines'. I realise this is quite the case, if you have no time, you wouldn't think about such stuff, just makes yourself more unhappy. Like today, I am especially irritated when the W woman says wanna write 'TK de' on a teachers' day card. Now thinking back, thinking about the 'theory', realised that, "Hey, she always does says that. It's just another time. Oh well."

I think something I wanna reflect is: Why think so much? Maybe it's not like that? Think on the positive side, everything will be brighter this way. Some question I wanna ask myself: Must we really do something we like, do something we enjoy, before we will really be happy for the day? Sometimes things have to be done, whether you like it or not. Be it studying, doing housework, it's not something you may enjoy, but it's something that has to be done. It's your duty, your responsibility. Whatever identity you hold now, what responsibility you have, you have to fulfil it. I am a senior, I have to complete my duties. I am a sister, I have to teach my brother the right way to do things and stuff. I am a daughter, I must help out with housework. I AM A STUDENT, I have to study. It's not a chore. It's not extra workload. It's a responsibility to fulfil.

Woo. So long. Inspiration is dry now.

Woohoo! My brother never failed to make me cheerful again. Be it playing with bears, or any other thing. He brought back the last set of Gundam Seed, borrowed from his friend. Shuai ge Kira. So there I was, watching the computer, and everything unhappy just seem to float away.

Of course, the thought of my principle being crushed will still remain. Maybe I will think it out after some time. But in the meantime, one should look on the positive side.

Okie. I think that cartoon really do teach people something. The danger of genetic engineering used in the aspect of human beings. That includes cloning. The battle between the Naturals and the Coordinators. Discrimination. Wars. Killings. Jealousy. Fighting. I truly think that it is a great cartoon. And fancy it being in a cartoon form. It is the example of attempts to eduate children about the danger of GM human beings.

Boohoo. Gotta go watch the last episode.

forgot to bring my wallet out today. I forgot that there's a test this morning. I forgot so many things, why didn't I forget to go to school?

Oh well. As usual, Thursday blues. Pissed off. Learnt something, never offer help to others when they don't request it, cos' many a time they just don't appreciate your help and find you a nuisance.

Right it's my fault again. Everytime it's my fault. I lose my patience, I sux. Trying to help, but do people appreciate it? No. So shut your big mouth, mind your business. People just think you are plain irritating.

Right I sux. My attitude sux. I just plain suck. It's all my fault that I display such freaking sucky attitude. I am just a plain pest to others.

Earth to SSC. Helping others is good? You are too naive. Freaking naive.

Oh the GP presentation was boring. Totally. They are so sianz. I wanna sleep le.

No PE today, so came home early. Wah. But I wasted the afternoon, cos' I slept till 7.

Still tired. Hrm must try to do a few more questions on regression. Don't wanna blog too much, so I shall end here.

Yesterday didn't really feel like blogging, but was happy. Happier than normal days. NOt the type of crazily happiness, but just contented at heart. Like the sweet feeling.

No, I don't have a boyfriend. Just that I am returning to my old self. Helping people, really gives me a sense of satisfaction. =)

Yesterday physics lesson very boring. Oh yeah, I got 5 free periods yesterday, PE, Physics tutorial, 2 free Econs periods, GP tutorial. Didn't make good use of them, no mood to study all day. Oh yeah, back to physics, it was super boring. Especially when she started to talk about Graph plotting, wah I thought that's Yr1 first lecture? Must she repeat all over again? And the worse thing, still got people in her class do all those mistakes? And a lot of Graph plotting is trained by Secondary school, and also Yr1 during the first 3 months, Ms Wong totally made us redo all the graphs for practicals if they are not perfect. I was thoroughly, completely bored throughout the whole lesson, and I could see our class super restless also. Mr Koh just said umpteen times le, and Mrs Poon is repeating it. So guess all of them are bored.

Lala. Today got semi finals table tennis Li JIa Wei against dunno who. Wow. Her game with Wang Nan was totally amazing. If she can keep it up, I think she should be able to win the semis as well. Hope for medal for Singapore!

Gotta plan the day, or else I never do work again.

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy, shalalala, it's so nice to be happy, shalalala, it's so nice to be happy, shalalala, lalalalala.

Today is a happy day. Although got test. No more test tml! Maybe it's course never see that ngoh today. Usually I am most unhappy on wednesday and thursdays. Friday, not so bad, cos his lesson is first in the morn, quickly gone le. Hehe. Happy. Borrowed happy books. Reading "The Secret Island" by Enid Blyton again, I think I read it at least 30-50 times. Never got tired of it. I love the story. Enid Blyton is a great author manz.

Borrowed Hardy Boys and Agatha Christie books. Need Hardy Boys to make me happy and relax, seems like ever since I stopped reading them my temper very bad. Read before one, but nevermind.

Ate dunch. (dinner/lunch) Oohs. The wanton mee super hot, ask her put a little chilli only, put so much. ARH. My mouth is burning like mad. Drank a total of 3 mugs of water, 750ml just for that mee. Now super bloated, hiccups like nuts. Oohs. Gotta be gone, no blogging too much.

I suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck......... arhhhhhhhhharhhhhhhhhhhhharhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharhaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh..........................

Feeling sucky. SUX. Head feeling heavy. Test tml. Getting mocked at everyday. IIIIII HHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEe NgoHHHHHH! GGGGGGGGGGGGoooooooooooooooooOOOOO AAAAAAAAAwaaaaaaaaYY!!!!!!! Stupid biased idiot. I am biased, right I am. Biased against TKSS people. He is also biased. LLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOKKKKKKKKKKK down on people who don't perform as good as the rest. SO WHAT if they finished their tutorials! SO WHAT IF they started on PRELIM papers? SO WHAT if they are better than others in MATH? So what if they are good at doing homework? Does that give you the right to look down on the poorer and slower students? NO! Damn u fucking idiot. shut your big mouth up and get out of my life. SUCKER! ARGHHHHHH.

studying SUXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

great lang indeed. strong emotions. ARGH I DUN CARE DUN GIVE A DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am tired. My back aches, chest muscles at the sternum area aches. Arms ache, upper thighs ache. It's an aching day, I just don't feel like moving at all.

Had a nice lunch, though very assorted in variety. Just took whatever there was at home to eat. Ate quite a lot, but I am not exactly thinking of slimming down currently. I just ate, and ate, and felt relaxed after the lunch. It was a happy lunch.

I hate people forcing me to do things. Forcing me to study especially. People just don't seem to understand that I am a rebellious person. Defiant, yes. The more you force me to do something I don't want to do at the moment, the more I refuse to do it. Especially studying. When I have a lot of time to myself, myself alone, I will be naturally inspired to study by myself. When the time is not right, I just can't study anything. Be it 2 hours, 3 hours, I will still be stuck at the same question, staring at it, brain juice not moving. Well. That's one of my extreme characters.

Still feeling very sleepy. Have to study cos' got physics test. Gone for dinner.

Watching Susilo's badminton match now. Recorded. He won! Yeah he's the hope for Singapore! the table tennis doubles category got kicked out le. Left the singles. And badminton!!! Go Susilo!

Athens Olympics RULEZ! Aiyah, missed the synchonised swimming! So sianz. Blame it on lazy me who refused to check out the time schedules.

Self reflections...

Alright. I realised that I have very bad attitude recently. I think I suddenly said Sheng Lian was sheng jing bing in quite a sarcastic tone cos she brought a very big bag. One bigger than her normal blue one. Alright, that's crazy, bad attitude. I apologised to her a while after by SMS when I realised what I did. Every time I will get jerked back to reality liddat, realising I shouldn't have said or done what I did. Not very sincere, by SMS, but I guess it would be a lot harder saying it face to face, and what's more, it's quite hard to meet in school really.

I am getting more selfish lately. BAD. Never take people's feelings into consideration as much as I did in the past. BAD. Is it because of more mugging? Or stress? No. These type of things cannot be blamed on such things. Because it's yourself that matters. CONTROL you emotions, crappy momo peach. One must practise Control. Important life skill.

Did people cheer for me when I did pull ups? Actually I couldn't really hear a lot of cheering, perhaps I was just as unpopular as the W woman. I could hear a jiayou every now and then. Haha, perhaps, after all, all the 'loud' cheering that I hear is from myself. But that doesn't make me change that biased view of mine. Anyway, I never was popular anywhere, in my squad, in my classes for 12 years. So it doesn't really matter to me. At least I don't 'look' popular like that W woman. Trying to fake an illusion that she have many friends when she don't. That's totally sad, a real sad case.

Haha, self reflect till biased view comes up. Oh well.

The biased perspective...

Alright. The evil thinking of mine. In fact I cheered for many people in the inclined pull up section, I was silent the moment it came to that W woman doing. Oh well. Can't help it, the enmity runs too deep I guess. She won me in a lot of stuff, running, whatever, I don't keep track. But I knew there was one section I will win her, inclined pull up. I was pulling up, getting a little tired by the 13th pull up, I told myself to go on, to go on. I must hit A and show that woman I can be good in something, better than her. When she did the pull ups, an evil thought rised up into my mind: Yeah she can't do more than 7. I didn't hear how many pull-ups she did. I was just confident that I will do better.

On the other hand, I pitied her. Pitied her cos' everyone was cheering very loudly for each person who did the pull-ups, when it came to her, it was unnaturally quiet. Though every now and then, there was a 'jiayou', then there was some 'feeble' support from Yizhen. I think partially cos' Yizhen very sad cos' she did only 3-4 pullups, partially cos' she wasn't that close to Wendy as the everyone thought.

Part of my heart felt sorry for Yizhen cos' she didn't get gold because of the pull-ups i think. But another part of my heart thought that it's time she lowered her arrogance. Right, arrogance. At first before I typed the previous sentence, I pondered on whether arrogance was too harsh a word to use. But I think it fits quite well. She's over-confident, every time in math tutorial, she would give her answers to the various parts of the questions to Mr Ng. Sometimes I thought, what if the answers were wrong? But I dismissed the thought cos' firstly, I don't have the capability and the right to say that of her as I haven't completed my tutorials. Secondly, it's quite good in a way cos' it's initiative, and anyway I believe others won't give any answers, given the 'silence' that Singaporean students always maintain when asked to speak. So it was quite alright. But once, she gave a different answer from BW, and she sort of 'insisted' that her answer was correct, with that self-confident look, too full of herself I should say. In the end she uttered a 'sorry', in my opinion quite an insincere manner, and said she made a mistake. It sounded like a simple mistake and matter that happens every other day, but that insincerity in her voice gave me a feeling or 'hidden arrogance'. Of course, that's all in my opinion, and I guess some things that contribute to this deduction might be that I am biased against TKSS people. Especially with those 2 in my class.

Biasedness is pretty strong. I was pretty pissed off during the shuttle run. Ee Ling ran very fast, 10+ seconds I think, or is it 9, aiyah, very fast lahz. That W woman and Yz, who were watching her, was cheering, and was very happy when Ee Ling outran her partner by quite a lot, achieving a very good timing. The thing that seriously pissed me off was a word from either of them, I think is W woman (I am biased), "TK de4." DUH. Come on, it's not ALL TKSS people run so fast. So your school have nothing to do with it. I don't care how loyal you are to your sec school, but don't need to say every good thing that happens is because you are "TK de4". What about the bad things? W woman's selfishness is also because she's "TK de4"? All good qualities come from teachings of your sec school, what about bad things? Not the school, so blaming the parents? Of course not. Totally DUHed by this type of brainless comment. And after the run, I was looking at Ee Ling, her face didn't show any sign of 'happiness' that her speed was due to her being "TK de". Of course, that may be due to her being too tired to show her content. Again biasedness.

Can't get out of the biased perspective. Oh well.

Today is a day full of results. Good results of course. First comes GP essay, "Can a weblog ever replace a personal diary?" I got above 30,first essay to exceed the 30 mark, best I ever got in my 2 years of GP. Great, if I keep it up, and improve on my compre to get above 30, I can settle for a B first time in my life for GP in the prelims. Truly good essay? I think not. Because I took an extra of 30-40 minutes on it next to the 1.5 hours provided. But nevertheless, it's good results, something worth to be happy for.

I realised that sometimes a little of 'emotions' and exaggeration is quite good to add to an essay. I never thought much of my essay, despite the marks, but when Mrs Noordin was reading parts of it, I really felt my essay 'come to life'. She started with reading most of Chongyu's essay, and I was listening in awe and I guess my mouth was open. I am feeling very guilty; guilty because we, Singaporeans spent perhaps 6-8 years more studying English full time than these PRCs do, and yet, they did better than us in the subject. I can imagine the pains, the efforts he took to manage this subject so well. The language was truly great, not the ultimate greatness that an English expert display, of course, but great. Beautiful language. I am ashamed that I didn't take the efforts he had taken. I salute him in this area.

Alright. Next good result. Hit Gold for NFA. Nice results. Best I ever did in my life. I really did believe that stretching exercises the night before helps. A theory of my own. Cos' I was wondering why I could run faster in camps, when I was more tired, I could run with better stamina, and best of all, swiftly without aches. I always thought, always thought that it was so because there was cadets. I couldn't run slower than them, it's so embarrassing. I thought it was that motivation. For years I thought that way, I never did improve my running. But this time, I realised that it might be because I stretched a lot in camps, thus no aches. Tried this method this year, and hey presto! It works! But certainly the stretching is going to worsen the results if it's the time of the month. Confirm cramps.

Despite being fatter this year, still did better. This proved the hypothesis of being heavier in weight does not contribute to poor performance in NFA. But the gold a bit scraped past one, like many other years. But nevermind. It's the last yr le anyway. Think I will grow even fatter without PE. Fatness!!!

Hrm. AL asked me whether I was happy today. Weird question. Actually the feeling is not there in me, don't feel the happiness. The feeling is just... blank. Brings me to the question: There's results, but is there true happiness?

Wow. shopping day! haha. Poor weiwei stuck in the bookstore with me. I will just get stuck inside and never get out. Haaa. I love bookshopping!!! Wish I could buy all the agatha christie titles. But of course it's chao ex. And exams is nearing, no books for me. Dahdah... Bought a post it note thingy, and famous amos cookies for my bro. Let's see, I spend a lot today. But nevermind, feel happy can le. Wouldn't be so much if not for the class fund. Haha. Caused me to spend over 10 bucks. crappy. dahdahdah. pig now. tml got NFA. better get down to stretch myself a little tonight. jump further piggy!

I am nuts nuts nuts nuts nuts ..... crazzzeee. Mad. I am in hyperactive crazy little girl mode! heeeeeeee. shuai ge show coming!!!! YEAH!!! I am crazyyyyyy. i am a crazy crappy little girl. i am a cutie little girl. EEEEeeeeeeee. Hee. Lalala. Mad.

NB: hey yozzie everybody out there. call my hp if u wanna ask me out to study! dudey... my hp call duration is currently 15-20 minutes this month only! hahahahaaaaaaaaaaa. That's estimated. My total call duration on my phone shows 5-6 minutes. HEEEEEEEEEEEE. I am crazy!!?!?!?!