Dear diary,


I hate it when relationship matters have to affect a friendship :'( if u wanted me to list out the number of precious friends I have lost because of this, i would need to borrow ur fingers :( okay i was just kidding. but there hasnt been just one of such case, but several. do people really have to forsake friendships in order to shun away from relationship matters? why are we such cowards who cant just express wadeva that we feel? D:


I miss living in a world of children D: they are so truthful and naive. a like means a like and a dont like means a dont like. if i like u, i can go all out to show my love for u, a kiss and a hug is no big deal. if i dont like u, i wont have to hide that i dont like being around u, i can just frown at u. and after each time they cry, they just forget any possible unhappiness and their faces would once again beam with joy at the simplest reason.


anyway, POC is coming up. camp commandant. gootluck to me.


okay time to wander off to the faraway lalaland. gootnite world :)


Me.

GROW FRINGE! QUICKLY GROW PURRLEASE!

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I WANNA GO TO THE UNIVERSAL STUDIOS! and bring a gingy back home..

Dear diary,


I wish I had more courage!!


Signed,
Me.

it's a torture to be so capable of hiding emotions so well..

while chatting with a friend, idk why but i feel so impacted :( i miss all my friends whom i was close to :'(


and idk if im too critical of the actions of others, but ur actions just turn me off. it's super upsetting to see how people can change..


why do people have to avoid? :'( why do people have to act as though it doesnt bother them when in fact, deep down their hearts, they are dying to care?


that's what most precious about little kids, no pride, no motive, no judgment, nothing. and after crying, everything is fine again..


im a student of psychology, but why am i falling into its trap? the more i try, the more i cant seem to decipher anything..

OKAY. im like suddenly v enlightened by smth.. and that is.. if you wan your friends to stop leaving you one by one, then treat them better.


okay friends, im gonna row my boat and fish you all back..

im so bad at multi-tasking! D: feel so guilty for neglecting whoever whom i did while slogging through my killer school assignments. boohoohoo. T_T sorry to those whom i stopped replying ur texts so abruptly and also those whom i havent contacted for some time. promise i'll train myself to be a better multi-tasker! 4 more weeks to end of my poly days. ahhhh! okay. i can get through this.


EQUATIONS OF THE WEEK:
school -> *_*
home -> ~_~
morning -> =_=
out with friends -> ^-^
food -> :D ?
mirror -> O_O


NOTE TO SELF: YES HUANGWEILING YOU CAN DO IT!

Sorry not that I really wanna stereotype but,
never depend on a guy to remember his promises.
Because guys are like people with dementia,
it's in their nature.
They dont remember what they said or did.


"Girls give and forgive.
Guys get and forget."

I feel like a loser.. :(
I need something to vent my pent up emotions..

I think i have a pretty mom, pretty sis, handsome dad and handsome future bro-in-law!

OK YESS.
YOU MADE THE VERY BRAVE FIRST STEP.
YOU'RE DOING WELL.
NOW CONCENTRATE ON YOUR ESSAYS, GIRL.


The best way to prepare for life, is to begin to live. - Eliot Hubbard.

im so sad. i lost my ez-link card. :(

SO STRESSED :(((((
13 MORE ASSIGNMENTS TO GO.
I WILL GET THROUGH THIS.

WHY ARE GUYS SUCH WEIRD CREATURES?!