Hair for Hope

Yes! Boss just gave me e green light to go ahead with hair for hope. I especially like his response: dun even need to ask me, it's your personal preference. So thankful for a supportive boss :) he even said that other bosses who restrict their employees from going for this are too superficial. Yes, this I agree too. It shows the level of receptiveness of e general public towards individuals without hair. If bosses disallow this because their employees have an image to preserve, then it's really shallow. You mean being bald means no image? Please la, grow up. You probably won't be thinking this way if your loved ones are experiencing hair loss as a result of chemotherapy. Discrimination indeed. Nonetheless, i m so looking forward to going for this. Heehee.

Rest In Peace

Today's quite an emotional day for me because there were 2 deaths in one day, 1 hospitalization case. I went for my first funeral in dunno how many years, wasn't allowed to go usually cuz of my poor health, but this job calls for it. The funeral was fine as it was a peaceful death related to old age ailments. What hit me badly was e death case of a resident whom I worked closely with. I even spoke to her daughter just last week, informing her of family day at our premises. Then boom, resident was hospitalized. Few days later she died. It was especially shocking as she was only in her fifties n I enjoyed talking to her each time. She was especially happy when I brought her to e karaoke room. She sang beautifully. As she was visually impaired, she had to memorize the lyrics of the song all by heart. Her passion for singing was always there, even when she started nursing a bad cough n could only sang two songs. I just didn't expect her cough to aggravate to pneumonia n claim her life away. I m thankful to have known her, to have given her some form of enjoyment during the last stage of her life. I m just sad at not being able to say goodbye to her. She just left us so suddenly. I couldn't go to mandai crematorium as I haf a new case to assess this afternoon at 3 pm. It was e exact same timing as her cremation. I just hope her daughter can cope with this well. Rest in peace... I m glad to haf met you, to bring joy to u even if it was short lived. I m sure you are in a better place now, rid of pain. My heart still feels heavy when I write this. It's as though someone close to u has passed on. Sigh. Life still goes on. You really sing well... Was expecting u to sing during family day, but u never made it out of e hospital. Sigh :(

Let's hope I can get less affected with more experience in this. My colleague took 1 year to feel desensitized, I m not sure how long I need.

Moving Out

I'll be moving out tmr morning and I dun feel a bit happy about it. Hmm I guess people do make the wrong decisions sometimes? I gave up my free food, free lodging just for my independence and my own room. But! With a fee of course. Sianz. Good bye, fellow Yishunions. A new life awaits.

Keep On Winning

Yay! I won again! This adds on to e third win I haf received this year. My first win was a sentosa family islander membership. Next was e $10 king and Louise grill bar voucher. Now it's 2 eight course dinner at soon to be opened vegetarian restaurant Sufood. It definitely pays to join contests every now and then :) I am really thrilled when I open each winning letter. Hehe. Keep e winning streak coming!

Happy Mothers' Day

Happy Mothers' Day! Bought mom red carnations cuz I know she loves flowers. Thanks for being caring towards me all these years. Greatly appreciative. Wish mom be blessed with good health n stay happy always! 

Hold Your Tongue Please

Today's not a good day at work, not because of the residents, but because of some insensitive remarks being made to me. So I was happily eating my lunch halfway, then came the new colleague who is only 3 weeks old now n he blurted that I need to eat less to lose weight. Ok, that made me lose my appetite entirely. I m not so affected if u say I m fat when I m not eating. But when I m doing so, it really bothers me a lot. So, I gave him my widest fake smile, n quickly finished up n went back to work. There, I swear I won't talk to him unless circumstances require me to. He does that to others who are bigger in size too. So irritated because it's no one's business abt how I look. It's only mine! When I was thinner, people comment, when I m rounder, people comment too. It probably kills u to stfu n mind your own business. The sad thing is society actually condones such bullying behavior. I shall steer clear of this brainless man frm Monday onwards. It just reminds me of my evil relatives. Oh yes, did I mention that there was this day in which I bumped into my evil relative in my neighborhood? She called out to me, made eye contact with me, blurted out a few sentences, and all I did was to walk away, no eye contact, no acknowledgement, nothing. The funny thing was my sis was behind me n my sis did e exact same thing. Haha.... You may think I m rude, because after all she is senior n I ought to respect her. But if she doesn't respect me, why should I do so? She always says I m fat, without fail, every Chinese new year. She humiliates others too. So why should I talk to her, if I know that talking to her will make me upset for a couple of hours there after? Until the day she learns to stop hurting others, then I'll probably give her a chance. But too bad, I m moving out of this estate soon, away from all the nasty relatives. So probably I won't get a chance to see her again. Oh well, even better for me!

Once again thankful for having those residents with me. They are old n frail n they sometimes scold me. But NEVER once do they make personal attacks. They nv stoop so low as to do that.

Work Chronicles

Day 39 of work: first time witnessing a resident shedding tears of joy! I mean it's e first time I see anyone doing that, usually I cry when I m upset. This resident who has schizophrenia, cried because she was so happy that we did her make up for her n took photographs, with everyone praising her. She was so overwhelmed that she shed tears of joy! Me, the photographer was much more happy to be able to see such a beautiful sight. I m happy because sometimes her mood swings are so extreme that u wouldn't want to be near her (she screams at u), but today she has this teenage girl-like innocence n bashfulness. I can see she is deeply appreciative today. Keep up with this happy mood!
Oh yes, I treated my fav resident coffee again! Yes, favoritism to its max. Haha. It's probably surprising how we can communicate since he is teochew while I m hokkien. So i realised that i haf got to do a presentation for my profiling work in front of e big shots, e board of commitee members. No idea if it's a verbal presentation or are powerpoint slides required.  Hmm nonetheless, Great days ahead :)

Praise Me Please

Quite happy cuz I haf been praised recently for looking good in my new mphosis dress! Thanks ah, continue with this flow of praises please! Totally made my day and even my the days ahead cuz I tend to think back about things that happened. :)

Work chronicles

It has been exactly a month and 1 day since e day I joined my new company, if u count e weekends. So far so good and I m thankful to haf a supportive and encouraging boss who offers me help whenever I need it. How often can u address your boss by "hey?" Yes, that's how we address him, no first name, no last name, just hey, eh, hello. Haha.. He has no airs, doesn't use his authority against us, talks to us as if we are all equals. Thankful to have my colleague, Shean, who's exactly my age, hence we haf lots to gossip about. So glad to meet my fav resident from e nursing home, whom I noticed to be using the coin pouch I got for him just today. That's how it feels like to be appreciated at work, when your presence makes a difference to them. I am especially happy when residents call out my name from afar, n rush to me excitedly in their wheelchairs. To many people, my job appears easy, but to myself it's about forging good relationships with people, something that the younger generation has lost touch with, or has taken for granted. Looking forward to e family day on 24 may! Hope to see more resident's families on that day. Shall bring my Polaroid then to capture these beautiful moments.