All About Love

I can always tell when my sister is out of love. Whenever her love is on the rocks, she leaves one soft toy in the storeroom, ready to throw away, or perhaps take it back. Recently, I see her toy crocodile that she just bought a couple of months back chuck in the store. She told me she wants to dump it away. And she just took back the pig which was in the storeroom for years.These are obvious tell-tale signs which signal that her relationship is in trouble. Unlike her, when I am out of love, I dun do anything drastic. And softtoys do nothing wrong, why throw them away? You know your soft toys have emotions? They will feel sad when being dumped. Keeping a nonchalant face is my trademark. Few weeks back, I got out of love, again. Again? As mom always says..you are getting old. Just settle on one man and please dun change. Not again, to me. I am no player and I am into serious relationships. I dun break hearts intentionally. Sometimes it's just too hard to find the man who fits my checklist. My frens were appalled when they knew about the checklist. According to me, the more checks, the better is the compatibility between me and my man. I know exactly what attributes I want and what I cannot condone, so it's better to ascertain if the other fits the bill before jumping into another relationship. If you consider  my first serious puppy love as a real relationship, then so far I have had 4 relationships. 4 different yet interesting men.. shall run through each of them vaguely.

My first serious guy was Mr Saw and it started when we were both 11 years old! Eh, I know I am a mature kid. He was my first crush and I got attracted to his humour and intelligence. He was always in the top 3 positions in our class. He's the badminton captain. This explains my love for the sport! Haha.. It started when we began conversing through notes, you know back then throwing of paper notes was still the in thing. Everyone was throwing notes behind the teacher's back. I was really overjoyed when I realised there was mutual affection. We were the first couple in class to go open about our status, even the teachers knew about it. But they didnt do much to intervene since both of us had good grades despite being involved in a relationship. I always find no difficulty juggling the two. They only started to intervene when I noticed my form teacher kept on asking me to do some errands whenever she spotted us throwing notes. That was around PSLE period so I guess I could understand why she did that. The most romantic thing he did for me was to kiss me in a fren's house during a class gathering while others were busy shooting the moment. I love attention a lot, so this made me happy. I am not sure whether do I still haf the pic with me... Hahha.. A fren gave the photo to me as a birthday gift. We lasted for only a year because we had to go to different secondary schools. The decision to a breakup wasnt mutual though. It was the first time I got dumped and that's kind of hard. Cried for three straight days before I decide to call it quits. What hurt really badly was he didnt exactly end it properly, he didnt use the phrase"break up". He just disappeared. Avoided calls, meetups. That's when I told myself, this guy isnt really worth it. Then few years later, when I was 18 years old, I received a call from him! He invited me to be his female partner for his airforce ball. Although I was really exhilirated to receive the call, I wasnt that ready to meet him yet, so I declined. I was even flattered to know that he wanted me to go to the ball with him. I expected him to have girls with him during his junior college days cuz he's always popular.

My next relationship was with Beary Bear, my classmate, at age 14. This one was different cuz there wasnt mutual affection at first. He was the one who liked me but I wasnt that interested. He was one of the five boys in my class. After a couple of months i kind of relented, because he wrote many letters, notes and even crafted a poem for me. I liked the poem because it came in both versions (english and chinese) and it contained my name in it. It was a meaningful poem dictating how we met, plus his feelings for me and I applauded him for his  effort. I like guys who spend time doing stuff for me. The most romantic thing I have done is to bake him bear-shaped cookies. He looks like a bear, therefore the nickname. Similar to the last one, this one lasted for a year too. It was my decision because he was a little possessive. I am a coward, so i ended it via sms and email. I cant end a relationship face to face. Till now I still cant. I didnt like the fact that he calls me daily to check my whereabouts, where I went, who I went out with. When I ignored his calls, he engaged in self harm. He once knocked his head on the wall when  I refused his calls. Now we are still frens but just on facebook. I have no guts to meet him yet. I am cowardice, I admit. Hahaha.

Next one was the longest relationship so far. 2 years! It was with Mr Kiddy while I was 20. It took me 6 long years to fall in love again. Hahah. As the previous one, this one wasnt mutual as well. We got to know each other online when msn was still the rage. Later we found out that we had mutual frens. Courtship took around 4 to 5 months before I relented. Relented on Valentines' day when he gave me a domokun,  a bottle filled with saga seeds, hand made straw hearts and a card. Now you know how easy it is to win me over, sweet talk, plus handmade stuff. I am a sucker for those stuff. Coupled with a glib tongue, it will be perfect! The most romantic thing he has done for me is on our anniversary, in which he filled his room with heart shaped balloons which managed to conceal a bouquet of flowers underneath. As for me, the most romantic thing I have done is to make him couple tshirts with thomas edision as the background. It was fun to do everything from scratch. I thought I would have a happy ending with this one, but I didnt. When we didnt get to see each other regularly, I realised we were drifting apart. I see more of my classmate than him. Another issue is I have no financial security with him. I need a house and I want marriage, I didnt see these in him. Probably I am too realistic, but back then these were important considerations. I am not those who wants love and not bread. I want my bread. Love can wait. I also got attracted to my coursemate whom I see many times a week. I ended this relationship although I did feel sad to give it up. After all, he's a nice guy and he's really that in love with me. I'll probably want someone who loves me more than I love him. But no point hanging on to him if my heart wasnt with him. This one was my bad. I still feel sorry towards him these days.

My most recent one was with breadman, when I was 22, which lasted 1 year 3 months. It was my second longest. He was the coursemate whom I hang around with day and night, in and out of classes. Again, this one wasnt mutual. I sought him out first, he wasnt interested in me. Hahah. He was the second man to make my heart flutter after Dennis Saw. These two men have the same attributes that I lay my eyes on in my man. Intelligence and confidence. Wow, it took me 11 long years before I have my second crush! Looks like my next relationship gotta come at age 33. Just nice for marriage. I must make it clear to my future husband that I dun want kids. Pregnancy is too scary a process and I am a coward. Recently heard of two moms who died after giving birth. I dun mind adoption though. This one deviated too much from my checklist. I always say no to dating thinner guys, but breadman is the first exception. No to guys who dun wear jeans, again he's the first. No to boring guys, but I guess there's some leeway for him. My checklist almost became non-existent if you are referring to breadman. The most romantic thing I have done for him is to prepare a meal and make him a cake for his birthday. He is the first whom I have cooked a full meal for, also the first who has eaten cakes from me. The previous few only had cookies. haha... I dun think he has done anything romantic for me... he told me he is no romanticist. Again, I thought I can finally get married. I even planned  my wedding in my head. Haha...the wedding gown, the shoes, the people I wish to invite. I love to fantasize if you dun know by now.. This relationship became a little tiring because it is always on the extreme ends. It's either I am very happy, or I am very upset. It ended because I think he has no time for me and he dun really need me as much as I do.. I think he can pretty much do without me. Instead, I am too needy of him.  If I am there, it's a bonus, if I am not, there's not much difference. It's hard to know what's on his mind, because he rarely speaks his mind. Plus, size issues always bother me even if it doesnt bother him. I have evil relatives, so I know the consequences I face when I date a thinner man. Contrary to the previous few which ended because the relationships became devoid of love, this one is a little different. Still love him like mad, but sometimes it isnt enough to just have love. And dun give me the nonsense that love conquers all, or that if you love someone, you accept his flaws. These rules do not apply to me.                                                       

It's time to embrace singlehood, ladies! I am back in the singles club again!

Sexcussions with Alvivi

It seems that the pair who is notorious for their sex blog is making a comeback. Sex blogs are viral on the web, so what makes this case an exceptional one? The sole reason: Alvin was a Malaysian scholar from NUS and scholars should not behave in such brazen ways. His law scholarship has since been terminated. So this time round, the duo are making youtube videos, giving advice about sex. Just google "Alvivi" and you will be directed to the youtube channel termed "sexcussions." There are three videos uploaded so far, each lasting less than 10 minutes. Out of curiosity, I went to watch them. The first video is about how to get laid, next is about foreplay and the last is an interview done on the streets of Malaysia, asking the public about their favourite sex positions etc. The loud moaning at the start of each video is pretty artificial, not sure if that's their intent. Surprisingly, Malaysians have no qualms about answering questions about their sex lives. I wonder if this would be the case if the interview was done in Singapore, which is considered still conservative when it comes to bedroom matters.  

Verdict: If the two wants to make it big in this line of business, by being the next sex guru, first thing is to sign up supplementary English classes for Vivian. She stuttles, mumbles, fumbles. I had a hard time understanding her. She appeared unnatural too, always looking in the direction of the camera. Alvin is just fine because of his Americanized accent. Next, referring to females as "bitches" and humiliating them is not going to favour the feminists very well. Lastly, please put on some make up and dress in nice lingerie if you are going to shoot yourself in them. There were comments about the gender of the female lead and they werent exactly nice. So, do doll up a little. I expected the videos to be more artistically presented, but to my dismay, they werent. They resembled cheap video productions. Perhaps the duo needs to source for sponsorships. I am pretty receptive to what they are doing because I feel this is their freedom and preferences. But then again, is it worth to have strained familial relations in exchange for this sort of fame? If the answer is yes, then make sure you guys really make it big. Otherwise you will regret it next time.                          

Traditional Costumes

I have a thing for ethnic costumes although i dun wear them... The last time I donned a cheongsam was during age 9 on lunar new year and I havent touch it since then. Probably it's because of preconceived societal norms which imply that the cheongsam is only approved for women of slim figures. Believe it or not, my dream during lunar new year is to be able to wear this costume once again. Sister jokingly tells me this: Eh everyone can wear a cheongsam, just get larger sizes! Hahah... But I dun think anyone will wish to end up looking frumpy! So here's a few from zalora.sg that caught my eye.

    

Of the above, which one is your favourite? My choice is the blue one because of the ombre blue tones. Some other costumes that I have always wished to wear are as shown below. 

The hanbok! I love this because it is really suitable for all sizes and every woman looks cute and demure in it!

The traditional sari. There is something intricate about the sari. It consists of fine details such as gold trimmings, pleats, prints and I like the fact that it accentuates the figures of women. This lady looks really elegant, with a hint of sexiness. I dun think I'll have a chance of wearing this since I am no longer in  my school days, in which we celebrate Racial Harmony's Day. Probably to my indian's friend wedding! Hahahha. Mind you, it is really expensive! A few hundred for a custom made one.

I will definitely wear a cheongsam one day! Mark my words :)   
 
Credits to: http://www.zalora.sg, http://www.wewantkpop.com, http://www.myntra.com

       

Lu Xiang Ji 露香記

Was at Chong Pang Market with dad two days ago as he wanted to get some new clothes for the upcoming lunar new year. Dad only buys tops of Crocodile brand. Those shorts that he wears at home are also of that brand. Economical and long lasting are the two main factors why he remained loyal to that brand all these years. Even though Dad has a distinct beer belly, he remains a size M... hahaha, always an inner joke amongst us. Mind u, I toggle between size M and size L, but dad is always size M! Hahaha...
So lunch was done at the hawker centre there. Dad ordered fishball noodles from the infamous Xiang Xiang stall while I ordered mine from Lu Xiang Ji, which is supposedly known for their chicken feet noodles.

When my noodles came, I was dumbstrucked! Not three, not five, but SEVEN fishballs! Mind you, these fishballs arent tiny, they are each of a ping pong ball's size! The best part is, the fishballs are tender and fresh! It isnt too hard or too chewy, just nice for my liking. The uncle is really generous with the serving... look at the whole lot of noodles! Taste wise, I dun really like the noodles as the bitter taste is still too strong, but I have no complaints for the fishballs. I couldnt finish eating all of it, ate four fishballs and three quarters of the noodles, while Dad finished the rest. All this goodness for only $2.50! Where else can you find plenty of noodles and fishballs at that price? Even the foodcourt at my area sells it at $3 for only four fishballs. Drop by this stall if you are yearning for fishball noodles of pocket friendly prices. Not for fussy eaters though! Next time probably I'll try their chicken feet noodles without their chicken feet since there is much rave about it!

Random note: I am so happy to have my first follower! It actually makes me want to update my blog on a regular basis. It's just a nice feeling to know that people are spending time perusing through what I have written :)  

Total damage done: A mere $2.50

Overall Ratings: 3/5

 Lu Xiang Ji
Chong Pang Market & Food Centre
 Blk 105, Yishun Ave 5, #01-179
Singapore 760105
  
  

Dreams and Reality

I am a person who dreams a lot... Which probably explains why I still feel lethargic despite having eight hours of sleep. This morning I was jostled awake by a nightmare. Thinking back, it isn't exactly a nightmare, perhaps just a sad one. So the characters of my dream today are myself, breadman, his mom, my fren weiling and her parents. I still find it strange to dream of weiling, since I haven't heard from her for years... She is currently in her last semester at NTU. So my dream is something like that: somehow my fren and her parents were meeting breadman's mom. It was just like a meetup between the in laws. My fren was dressed to the nines, wearing contact lenses n a knee length dress. It's strange because this fren of mine can't wear contact lenses... Her eye degree is a few thousand. And she has a lazy eye... In reality, I have only seen her once or twice without spectacles and she told me her optician advised against it. So all of them were happily conversing with each other..all smiles. His mom was continuously singing praises of weiling... Touching her hand as she praised her of what smooth skin she has, how compatible both of them look together. She is of a petite size, so of course she looks aesthetically pleasing when standing next to him. So where was I all this while? I was in front of them, but hidden from their view, listening to them intently, while pique with jealousy. The strange thing was, I dun quite remember seeing breadman in the dream. It seemed like an arranged meetup that the in laws to be planned. According to freudian's theory, it seems like my subconscious is acting up and those are my suppressed impulses and urges... Well, usually I dun quite agree with his theory, but this time I might! It may seem ironic, but I have never once thought of losing him forever. Plus, I am a selfish individual. If I can't have him, no one else can.

Rest in Peace

Heard of the news of the demise of Ah nam, an actor and host who appeared frequently in jack neo's shows. It's quite a shocking and saddening piece of news, as i watch him on tv regularly. Always remember him for his heavily tattooed arms and his hooligan antics. He died at age 52 of heart attack yesterday night, after his performance at a nightclub, leaving his wife and 4 daughters. You will be missed... No one can portray the typical hooligan more than you do.. Rest in peace.

Science Centre Revisited

It has been 5 years since I last stepped into Science Centre Singapore! I always remember those primary school days in which all of us will look forward to the end of exams, because that meant the start of excursions! Without fail, my school organizes trips to Science Centre on an annual basis. Even though we have been there many many times, each time we are there, we will be intrigued by the waterworks display. All the students will sit on the cement floor, munching their pre packed  mcdonalds or Kfc meal, while discussing about the wonder of waterworks. So there I was again, on Xmas, revisiting this place of interest.

                                                             The waterworks display.

I was amazed when I saw this gigantic dino display near the entrance! It's the hollow face illusion that Yiqi and I did a demonstration during Prof Anthony's cognitive lab! Except that I made a horse instead of a dinosaur. I made it myself ok! All from scratch. Yiqi helped me with the information gathering. I aced that report so it is memorable to me :)

It looks as if its eyes are following you... and its mouth, supposedly concave, appears convex. That is why it's termed as a hollow faced illusion. It was one of the most enjoyable projects that I did in university.

 A figure ground illusion. Can you see two human figures amidst the poles?

                                                   Do you see the bunny within the cat?

Another one. I just love these illusions, dun you? I love the chapter on visual illusions in my cognitive psychology class. It's the only one in which I need not expend much effort to pay attention.

                                                                         Smoke ring!

 Portrait of our ex president, Mr Nathan. He turns his head while you are staring.

 I cant remember what's this.. but it's very pretty! Oh I think I remembered! Dry ice :) 

                                        Little chicks in the incubator. Arent they adorable?

                                                        The extinct dodo bird replica.

                                                                    Earth our home.

 Next up is a series of photos taken in the Time Capsule exhibition, a temporary exhibition. Actually my main agenda is to go for this exhibition as I saw it being featured by The Straits Times, but it's kind of a let down as it's small scale and many companies appear to be advertising their products instead.

                                  I wonder if the items are stored in a vacuumed space.

 Cd player! I never had one of these... but my cousin had! And I remembered borrowing from her to bring it  to chalet during secondary school! Streats.. Treats for the streets. I love how catchy that phrase is. I kind of forgotten why this newspaper didnt survive.. It was given out free to all..  

                                                                      Albert Einstein.

                                                          Model of how the lungs work. 

Next up is the Candy Unwrapped exhibition, a temporary exhibition. I love candies! Woo Hoo. 

                                           I ate the dragon beard candy at pasar malam!

                              A myriad of candies.. how many types have you tried?

My favourite type of candy is gummy! I try not to think that it has pork contents in it... haha.. Last time during secondary school days when mini toons was still a hit, the girls always bring bags of gummy to school for sharing. 

                                                                    Chocolates galore!

 Next on is the qwerky inventions exhibition! My favourite... Japanese invent interesting stuff!

                  Sweep the floor while wearing bedroom slippers... haha.

 Are your noodles too hot? Cool it down with the fan attached to the chopsticks.

                                             The wonder tie. It's where I hide my stationery!

 I wonder whether anyone with runny nose will be receptive to using this! Hhaha

And yes, Einstein is still climbing after all these years.. but i think he had a change of clothes.

Fun with shadows.

 This is my favourite! It just looks like a block with uneven surface... turned out to be a face!

I spent $12 in there and combed through all these exhibitions in around 2 hours. Quite okay. BUT! I forgot about the ecogarden! I knew I missed something but couldnt remember what until now... Next time must check thoroughly before leaving.