Argh... It's irritating... Facebook is flooded with convocation pictures n happy faces. It's time that I shun myself from all these... Can i be well for mine as well? How often do you get to go up on stage to receive your cert? As the day draws nearer, I feel more bitter. Sigh....

Domokun cake

Since I didnt celebrate my birthday this year, gotta make up for it next year by rewarding myself with a customized domokun cake! Price is a little steep though... 100 bucks! This domo looks too cute too be eaten!

Credits to happycakecreations

I have decided to shut my ears and eyes during the whole of this convocation period. I have waited four years just for this moment of glory, but decided to give it up after falling sick. It's going to be the biggest regret of my life so far, for someone as vain as me, someone who loves attention. Well, think on the brighter side, like what my sister says, it's just a ceremony and only showy people attend it. Haha, probably I'll face cognitive dissonance these few days..... Gotta be uncontactable on 1 and 2 aug, lest that everyone bothers me with this convocation business again.

Sometimes Bigger is Not Always Better

Ask Jonah Falcon and he will tell you why. This man, an American actor, is well known for his enormous penis and was featured in numerous documentaries. His penis is 9.5 inches long when flaccid and 13 inches long when erect. The normal penis size is around 5 to 6 inches when flaccid and 6 to 7 inches when erect. I kind of pity the woman who is with him, sex sounds almost too painful! Even though this guy is well known, that doesnt stopped him from being detained by security upon his return to New York from San Francisco at the San Francisco International Airport on 9 July 2012. Security personnels got suspicious of the bulge that appeared at his thigh area, they thought he was hiding drugs presumably. As this is not the first time such a situation has occurred, he knew how to deal with it. "At most just whip out the organ and show it to them", he said in a matter-of-fact tone. I think it irritates him because the security personnel were still suspicious even after he had gone through the body scanner. Well, I guess having an extra large organ can sometimes be a pain in the neck for some...

Mr Falcon. He looks normal too me though, not that huge,I wouldnt take a second look at his groin area.              

I look forward to the day where I can scream " I have recovered!" to those who care for me.... Stay positive!

结婚的冲动

看了今天的现在早报封面就让我有种想结婚的冲动。标题是＂年轻情侣精打细算预约爱巢＂。描述着三对不到25岁就购买屋子的年轻情侣，买屋的原因。我也好想赶快结婚，拥有自己的家庭，过着二人世界。能和心爱的人一起努力奋斗、赚钱， 是一件美好的事情。但是我现在的健康状况实在不允许我拥有这些奢望，让我赶快好起来！一旦好了，就能做工，赚钱，买房子，结婚。我是一个渴望结婚的人，渴望穿着绿色婚纱，在花园里举行婚礼仪式那天的到来。

My Ideal Man

Julie Garwood's novels are cliche... surrounding the same theme and plot. Guy meets girl. Love at first sight. Guy is confident that he can win her over. Won her over. Lots of sex. Guy has to leave. Realises that he couldnt leave without her. Came back. Lots of sex again. Happily ever after. Not a  big fan of her novels because her storyline is too predictable. Read her new novel "The Ideal Man" a couple of weeks ago. If you read the blurb, you would be misleaded, thinking that it's a thriller. In fact, the thriller bits only constitute 20 % of the content while the romance constitues a big 80 % portion. I'll recommend Mary Higgins Clark's books. Every page is worth the read. She keeps readers in suspense, not revealing the identity of the killer. I'll always play the guessing game while reading her books.

"The Ideal Man" made me think of own definition of my ideal man. He should be one with the following characteristics.

Physical attributes
1. at least 1.7 metres tall
2. has strong arms with veins popping
3. has a firm butt
4. definitely bigger than  me (gives me a sense of security and makes me less self-conscious)
5.  no armpit hair, but leg hair is definitely a must
6. cannot be too good looking
7. spots a stubble

Other attributes
1. does not smoke
2. filial
3. respectful
4. talkative
5. likes to sms
6. not overly extroverted
7. likes plants
8. likes horror stuff
9. remembers important dates like my birthday
10. wishes  me at 12 midnight on our monthsaries
11. likes to cuddle and be touched
12. gives little surprises such as writing little notes
13. gives me flowers and balloons
14. receptive to wearing couple shirts
15. romantic (cliche ideas do work)!
16. calls me just to tell me he misses me
17. knows what I am thinking without me telling him
18. worships me
19. gives me personalised nick name
20. cooks well
21. plays badminton
22. does not force me to take the rollercoaster
23. loves to take photographs
24. gives me hand made stuff
25. not into french kissing
26. loves to eat
27. praises me once in a while
28. gives me money (haha... extra allowance!)
29. holds my hand at times 
30. appears in front of me when I feel sad

Well, I have yet to find my ideal man after surviving through 3 relationships... Perhaps ideals will always be ideals. I am too picky! Probably I should order a Knightly series robot... hahaha                            

My phone is down! Neither can I see any sms I sent nor read any that I received. As I am a heavy user of text messages, this affects me greatly. Perhaps I should try talking on the phone instead since that's the only other option available. Perhaps it's a good thing too, since no one can reach me through text messages, at least they wont bother me. Seems like HTC isnt a good brand since my phone is dying on me just after a year. My LG ice cream is still working perfectly fine with dad.. Probably I should save up for a new phone, instead of thinking of my Ck agile watch... But I am so in love with that watch! Couldnt take my eyes or mind off it...      

                    Ck Agile in Rose Gold. A classic time piece.                

Series of tests

Went to mount alvernia hospital to have a follow up of my ovarian cyst again. After 5 months, I am glad to announce that it is gone for good! Bad news is, the ultrasound detected lots of white patches at my abdomen area, which indicated the presence of lots of bowel gas. That explains my constant bloatedness. The radiologist asked me to try taking ginger tea and to avoid gas producing food such as cabbage. I have abstained from those food for a long time but I haven't tried consuming ginger tea yet. Aunt ordered a cup of ginger tea from the coffee shop for me. Verdict: it is really really spicy! Especially when it's drank hot, it felt as if there is a burning sensation at the throat! Not in the position to complain right now. Willing to try any sort of remedy as long as it is effective.

A look through at all the tests I have done up till this year...
1. gastric endoscopy
2. scope through the nose: detected throat inflammation
3. hepato biliary system ultrasound: detected white patches indicating presence of bowel gas
4. pelvis ultrasound: detected left ovarian cyst during Feb 2012. All clear as of July 2012.
5. blood test for thyroid               
6. blood test for calcium levels
7. blood test for helicobacter pylori
8. blood test for CA125 tumor marker
9. head mri
10. hearing test: detected mild hearing loss for high frequency pitches

Clinics I have seen or currently seeing
1. TTSH
2. NUH
3. Nam Seng Pte Ltd
4. Nam Hong Welfare Clinic
5. Eu Yan Seng
6. Yau Medical Clinic

It has been an arduous journey all these months, let me be well soon.
     


 

Wow I didn't know...

Ever wondered why the journey between yio chu kang station and khatib station is the longest, taking up to 5 minutes? Be amazed by the reason! Back in the 1990s, Disneyland planned to build a theme park back at lentor area. There was to be a lentor station and this station was supposedly between the two stations. What happened next was not known. Talks between the Singapore government and Disney apparently didn't work out. If the plan has been put forth successfully, perhaps there would be no universal studios Singapore today! I am truly surprised!

Tired

I am tired of being sick. Missing out on everything.Given up on lots of stuff. Browsing friends' convocation photos on Facebook further adds on to my misery. I dun think I'll recover in time for the ceremony. I guess it's time to give away the tickets... So many people are hunting for extra tickets. Lots of things aren't within my control. I feel so helpless. So listless everyday. If only there is a genie who can grant my wishes.... My weight has dropped to a new low... 52.5kg... How I wish I can go back to my fat days... I dun look forward to losing weight anymore. It's ironic... I always think that I am generally in good health, until this happened. I do not want to live such a life anymore, it's meaningless. Genie, please help! I know that I should help myself by staying positive, but it isn't easy... I try to tell myself that I am not sick, but waking up to all these symptoms serve as a constant reminder that I am sick. Sitting for merely 5 minutes makes my butt numb and weird feeling in head is constantly there. At night, stomach makes funny watery noises whether I am hungry or full. Can't clear my bowels easily despite eating vegetables and fruits. I dun believe it is irritable bowel syndrome which is diagnosed. How can that affect my head and cause numbness? If it is poor blood circulation, I am exercising everyday, yet it doesn't seem to help. My uncle suggests that it has sth to do with nerves, since I haf scoliosis, it's probable that some nerves are compressed, leading to discomfort in head and numbness. But then again, that doesn't explain my stomach issue. Perhaps it's the interplay of different factors that result in this manifestation. In short, my body is just weak. And I need to check whether the cyst is back or not...since most cysts need to be removed using surgery, but mine wasn't. My system is breaking down, I am breaking down. I wish everyone would stop visiting me, stop reminding me that I am sick. My life was wonderful in the past. I had everything. Friends, family, love. I was at the peak of my life. Just overnight, I got robbed of all these. I am sad, really sad. I wish to do all the things I want, eat the food I like, enjoy shopping, chatting, late nights out. Stop tormenting me any further.

Take my place instead

My cousin is mad. She wants to trade places with me. If it's that simple, I'll be glad to. Dad asks me to start chanting the words "I am well" in my head and the words "I am sick" for her case... Haha... Funny. I'll rather be well and unemployed, instead of unwell and unemployed... It's easy to find a job, the tough thing is to find one that u'll like...and one in which u will last long in. I would love to work, so isn't it too heartless to deprive me of the chance to embark on a career? Let me be well, pretty please?