Foodie at heart

Live to eat or eat to live? I think the former applies to me! Haha. Being a foodie at heart, having to abstain from tasty food all this while has been a real torture. Not that boiled food are tasteless, just a little blend. Having fish soup and veggie everyday lately. Plus, I havent eaten deep fried food for so so long! Looking at food blogs made me crave for junk food even more! Just listing this list makes my mouth water....

30 food items that I want to eat when I am well
1. chicken rice balls (no idea where to find them!)
2. ikea meatballs (must be surprised to hear that i havent tried this before)
3. tiramisu
4. spicy chicken korean set meal
5. salmon karagge from Sakae Sushi
6. peppermint ice cream
7. pudding style tau huay
8. tahu telur from Pepes
9. gelare waffle
10. belgian waffle
11. Maggie Moo's blue ice cream (think it's bubble gum flavour)
12. vegan burg
13. hokkien prawn mee
14. calzone from Mad for Garlic
15. tu tu kueh with peanut filling
16. clay pot rice
17. squid ink pasta (fell in love with it after having it at waraku)
18. banana prata from casuarina's
19. onion rings
20. pancakes from Little Pancakes
21. durian crepe
22. yong tau foo
23. buffalo wings
24. cheese fondue
25. popcorn
26. cha soba
27. thai style beancurd
28. colourful xlb from Ding Tai Fung
29. chocolate flavoured hello panda
30. percy pigs gummy from Marks and Spencers

Get well soon, will you? So much food waiting for you!

Noodles for dinner! Cooked them myself as there's no dinner tonight..

Brazilian Waxing

Aunt came to visit me yesterday and she brought this pot of bird nest with her. Aunt has magic fingers when it comes to preparing food. Whether it's main dish or side dish, dessert or just a drink, she always have the ability to do wonders. I love her pineapple tarts and egg tarts. There was once during which she made bubble tea! Strawberry flavored ones. Not exactly comparable to those sold outside, but still tastes delightful. I always love bird nest, its jelly like texture. I think the only good thing I have got out of this sickness is the goodness of bird nest. Been gulping down on them like nobody's business. I swear that I'll buy a box of bird nest for aunt when I am well. This is besides the point, as what the title of my post suggests. Aunt suddenly brought up the issue of hair removal. At first she asked if I have gone for armpit hair removal, as my cousin did. She was dismayed when I said no. Then she continued with her probing. "I heard that you two went to remove hair down there right?" this question totally caught me off guard, because all along it has been a secret! So who let the cat out of the bag? Must be my cousin la! I had to admit to it since it is made known. Mom then had this funny conversation with me. As much as I had expected. The white tiger old wives' tale.

Mom: (exclaims) huh! You two really siao! Where got people remove hair down there?

Me: it's the trend nowadays. And it's more hygienic and pleasant to the eye.

Mom: you cannot remove the hair! You are going against nature. Guys love the hair! This made me chuckle. Not all males welcome the sight of a bush....

Me: it's really cleaner and easy to maintain.

Mom: later your husband dun want you then you dun regret....

Me: dun worry, my boyfriend says he is fully supportive!
Mom and aunt burst out laughing.

Mom: you talked to him about this? Have you gone mad?

Me: it's normal to discuss such stuff. Nothing to hide.

Aunt: Dunno what is becoming of the youngsters nowadays... if this happened during our time, we would get scolded like crazy...

Mom went on with her white tiger story about how this woman got dumped by her husband... The man thinks it brings bad luck to be involved with this sort of woman.

Aunt: dun go for anymore waxing...

Me: but I got a package

Mom: can change the package to armpit hair removal?
Me laughing like crazy.. What a lame suggestion! Well, since I am not going for permanent hair removal, this white tiger issue doesn't really concern me...The hair grows back after a month. But my cousin might be going! So my aunt should be more worried. Mom was totally alarmed when I told her that I am  not the only one in the family who's doing this... she asks me to warn my sisters! Funny leh. How to broach such a topic? And my sisters are way older and much sensible.. Haha... Generation gap indeed!

Today I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is a pale faced frowning reflection. No more radiant glow on my face that I used to have. No more pretty face. Just a sad looking one. I am getting tired of this. Wish I can end this nightmare.

Counting down to the 9th month

Half an hour more to 12 midnight! It marks the 9th month for us. 9 tough months.... I used to celebrate each monthsary, nothing fanciful, just meeting each other on the day itself. I think I haf outgrown that now... Besides that, meeting up isnt cheap! Thus, I haf done away with the tradition of celebrating. Just celebrate it in my heart!  
Happy 9 months, kiss you 9 times! Bet Breadman has forgotten... he usually forgets :( .. . Hmph! Guys always forget such stuff... that's why they are guys... Females enjoy remembering dates and all the nitty gritty details...it makes them high! Oops, a generalisation... Well, at least that's how I work, not sure if all females are like that..

New Look

A whole new layout for my blog! Coupled with a nice domokun cursor and a sunshine carebear :) Was editing the html for an hour.. no easy feat! Luckily there are websites with clear instructions that came in handy with. This shall be the permanent look for my page, at least for a few months!

Just half an hour on Twist and Shape is enough to leave me sweating buckets.... still not fit to run after suffering from yet another almost fainting episode the other day. Thus, I can only exercise indoors... Miss playing badminton and  going to macritchie on a weekly basis. Miss doing all the things that I used to enjoy back then... Miss eating junk and laughing. Life has become kind of meaningless to me... On my third week of tcm treatment and I havent seen any visible results yet.. Nonetheless, I must not give up easily. Apparently, there's too much dampness in my body. Feel like swopping my head with someone else... How now brown cow? I need a hug. Correction. I need many hugs. I want my tree.     

Fear

As the date for my colonoscopy draws near, fear comes creeping onto me. I want to be as brave as the elderly, but it isn't easy. I have an extremely low threshold for pain. Freak out at the sight of needles. Oh no, I am feeling sad again...feelings of unease. Bring me a cheer-me-up balloon please....

If only a time machine is for sale, I'll definitely get one.... I guess this is the lowest point of my life...nothing beats having poor health. Not even a lousy boss or terrible colleagues...

Dragon Boat Festival Or Duan Wu Jie

Dragon Boat Festival is just around the corner... with another week to go. The official date is on 23 June 2012 yet mom has already prepared the rice dumplings in advance. 4 types in all. Pork ones, nonya ones, chicken ones, and the tiny yellow ones that's dipped with sugar or honey. Here's a look at the preparation process....a whole lot of work! Mom says that each batch takes 3 hours to cook. So time consuming right? No wonder there are less people who make their own rice dumplings... Well, i still like mom's ones best because she uses lean meat and there's less porky smell. I like nonya ones best because I have a penchant for sweet stuff. Hahha. Will still eat them this year even though I am not supposed to, but eat in moderation...

  It's fathers' day today! Happy fathers' day to dearest daddy, no celebration this year as everyone's sick... down with sore throat or flu... will make up for you someday.

Fan Yang's Gazillion Bubble Show

It was a fun date filled with bubbles, literally.... hahha... Was not exactly breathtaking or jawbreaking, nonetheless, it brought back nice childhood memories. The whole theatre was filled with small bubbles and the children were screaming their lungs out. Had a fun time poking the bubbles... I wanted to poke the bubble that's filled with smoky fumes, but it didnt reach me! All flew to the front few rows... We were sitted at the 7th row on the right and had a great view of the performance. I think half of the audience were kids, so we are way too overaged! Haha... If you dun love kids, you will love them after watching the performance. The bubble artist invited many of them on stage as his helpers. There was this cute little boy who was tasked with giving the brightest smile. You should look at the way he smiled, totally adorable! Tiny dotty eyes and a  super wide smile! And there was another girl who just kept nodding to whatever melody yang (fan yang's daughter) said... The whole stage was filled with bubbles and it appeared as if it was snowing.. when asked if she had seen that many bubbles before, she nodded.. hahah... So funny! I bet she doesnt know what she was asked. Just nodding in obedience. Well, the kids enjoyed the show and so do I, so it's money well spent!                 

As my red shoes were giving me trouble, I decided to get a pair of new shoes. Here they are, green with ribbons, suede or felt material... totally me! A good bargain from Pretty Fit. 30 bucks. Half priced. 

Domo Momo

I am pink! Bring me home, pretty please! Chomps down your hand as you reach out to touch it....
It's interesting to see the extent of how smitten I am with this easily drawn creature...2 dotty eyes and jagged teeth with mouth agape... Spotted this pink one at a toy grabbing machine near golden village. Cant wait to lay my hands on it! My future house gotta be filled with domos of different sizes and colour :) It's so adorable!

I am so in love with these miniature domo collectibles....

What a spendthrift!

Even though I am staying at home more frequently as compared to before, that doesnt mean I am spending less. Blame it on online shopping! I am an avid fan of that. Even though it's coupled with multiple risks, such as not being able to fit in the clothes, or looking shapeless in them, it's still  very much addictive. Especially during this period, it's the great singapore sales! I haf just spent 22 bucks on a dress. Even though the amount doesnt seem a lot, it adds up to quite a significant number if you consider the frequency of my purchases. Blame it on my itchy hand, itchy eyes....haha. I hope I'll wear it and not let it be another bout of impulse buying.... I am a dressy person, thus dresses always catch my eye first. It's more convenient too, I do not haf to spend time mixing and matching tops with bottoms. I am happy that I am female! Males always look more or less the same while females enjoy a greater variety with their clothes. I like to doll up, it makes me feel good. Not to mention that I was once approached by this male while browsing books... smile! Grinning like a cheshire cat :)                    

Dreams and reality

Four dreams in one night. Impressive or what? Perhaps that explains my lethargy despite clocking 9 hrs of sleep. It's amazing that I could remember all the dreams. Dream 1: I was in this cooking competition with my aunt. Aim was to cook 5 dishes in an allocated amount of time. Woke up after cooking the third dish. The dishes include pan fried fish, vegetables with sausages n I can't remember the third dish. Dream 2: I was locking lips with this fair skinned Caucasian, and I whispered these words in his ear "be patient, go spray on some perfume and get a condom." then he happily hopped off the bed.It is a pretty weird dream cuz I haven't had such erotic dreams for a long time....the Caucasian is good looking and well built(he has 6 pecs!) which makes e dream nice... Haha. When i was young, my dream was to marry a caucasian. Reason? Can have kids with nice eyes! Dream 3: got together back with kk and he bought me this expensive silk blanket....then we went out and bumped into my aunt, who gave him a red packet... It's strange cuz it isn't Chinese new year period. Dream 4: went out with cousin and aunt but we couldn't decide on a place. Aunt wants to go to either bishan or woodlands but we preferred orchard area. In the end cousin threatened to each set off to a different place n I woke up after that....

Strawbags Collection

Added the number 7th strawbag to the strawbag family! Sadly speaking, my new strawbag died just after one use. The handle came off. Luckily mom sewn it back. The problem with all my strawbags lies with the handle. The bag itself is sturdy.. minus the handle. Previously, the one that I got from URS died after a couple of uses, the skin of the handle peeled off. That's the one with the blue ribbon that you can see in the photograph. The handles of the purple one that I bought in Bali looks like they are succumbing too...  On my hunt for a better quality one... alert me if you see any!

The new kid on the block.... welcome... 30 bucks from forever 21.   

Belated Mothers' Day Celebration

Here are the photos taken during mothers' day celebration a week after the actual mothers' day. Had lunch at Taste Paradise located at ion orchard. Overall, the food was just average. Or maybe not.. after all I didnt eat much to comment. I didnt exactly like the ambience of the place. The lighting is terrible... faint yellowish lighting. The only feature that captured my attention will be the portraits of emperors placed on the walls.

 Dim sum. I ate chee cheong fun, har gow, siew mai and veggie dumpling. That's all I had for that meal. Haha.. Didnt try the famous custard buns though sis gave a thumbs up for that.

                 In the process of skinning the poor duck...

                      The duck is skinned!

 Peking duck with prawn crackers. One of their signature dishes, but not up to my standard... skin not crispy and i prefer egg skin.

                    This cracker looks like a planet to me....

              Weird prints on the spoon that amused  my sis....

 
Sister ate this mango dessert. She says the portion is too small. I like the dry ice placed underneath the bowl... gives this smoky effect.

Sister bought macarons to cheer me up! From  TWG, the high class dining place.... I ate the peppermint one (one in white). It's nice but I always find macarons a little too sweet.  

Verdict: I wouldnt go back to taste paradise for a second meal, but I wouldnt mind trying out other restaurants under the taste group.

Depressed, yet again.  I know I must not lose hope, but it isnt easy. Everything has seemed to come to a halt for me. Nothing to look forward to.... Even the shopping that I used to enjoy, doesnt seem so enjoyable now. Why am I down with this strange illness? My life was so wonderful before that. Mom says this is my biggest hurdle in life, once I get over it, I'll be fine. Has been 5 months now and I just wish I'll be fine the next day I wake up. No more crying, since it doesnt help at all. It just provides temporary emotional relief. I wish my head and my tummy will be well.... sincerely wish so. In fact, if given a choice, I wish that my head gets well first. At least I cant function better with a clear head. Bloated tummy still can tolerate. Just that it makes eating a chore. I promise to do more charity work and good deeds if that makes me well. Promise to stay in singapore forever if that makes me well... Scared of going overseas already since I fell ill back then. Willing to do anything to exchange for good health. Desperation. Cant work, cant eat, cant sleep. I am trapped inside this vicious cycle. I want to start work, but I cant. Dizzy spells once every few days. Who will hire someone like that? Relatives have been asking me about work... I hate that. It's not that I do not wish to work, it's not my preference to be sick okay. Irritated. I am getting quarrelsome lately. Leave me alone, people. I am feeling so sad :( I dun wish to fill this  blog with sad posts... so let me be well please.                  

Emo momo

Decided to give my last shot at tcm... This time round at eu yan seng clinic. It irks me to get out of bed everyday...with the light headedness haunting me. I feel as if my head is not mine anymore. I am getting more and more frustrated. It is difficult to haf a positive mind. The nuh doctor said I might haf irritable bowel syndrome or might haf caught sth while in Macau. Asked me to take ultra carbon pills. And the loud noises my tummy make at nite...it's totally bothering me. Can't even sleep well... Please let me be well again. I just want my life to resume as per normal. There are still so many things that I wish to do. I feel incapacitated right now, like an empty soul. Feel so depressed. And dun ask me to see a psychiatrist. It 's not an issue with the mind. I just want to know what's wrong with me and the appropriate treatment. I promise not to want to lose weight already since the involuntary weight loss is making me so miserable. Wish I can turn back the time and return to the old me, the happier me...