二月二十九日

老爸！四年一次的生日又到了！祝您生日快乐，身体健康，事事顺利。虽然今年没有蛋糕，但是这不意味着我们不重视您的生日，只不过，蛋糕太甜了，而医生也嘱咐着要吃写清淡的食物。所以 希望您喜欢我特地为您买了少糖韩国糕点，是极品哦！

Hair for Hope 2012

Been so tempted to shave my head for a charitable cause! Those hair would be woven into wigs for cancer patients... and it serves to motivate them too! And I think i need my hair to regrow! But I am not so gung ho huh.. haha.. hope I wont back out during the last min. And the date is 29 July, if it's after my convocation then it's good, if not next year then :) Not sure if my sisters are keen on this, but i know my cousin is definitely not, her hair is her prized possession and she takes years to grow them. Unlike mine, I always keep it short cuz the weather is hot. The registration is in march... How now brown cow? Dilemma...   

Thanks

Thanks to everyone who have given me support for the past few days, family and friends. It feels great to know that everyone cares and that you arent alone. The pain in my abdomen has subsided slightly... and I hope the cyst can disappear by next week! Have to be extremely careful not to let it burst, otherwise the consequences would be dire. Need to avoid all forms of activities, which means no jogging, pilates etc. Recently I began to practise pilates again... has the zen feeling. Feels more at ease. whether is it effective or is it just psychological, I would not really now. As long as it's beneficial then it's good.

Been more at ease, taking things in my stride. Now I know why those who are ill treasure each day wholeheartedly. I did some charity work today. Have to do more good deeds from now on, and refrain from speaking ill of others. Perhaps I am getting all the karma.... Doing all the best that I could now. Diet wise, still the same: soup, vege, fish, apples. Should be getting the relevant vitamins. Keeping a positive mind is the most important thing now. I will DEFINITELY GET WELL! Current weight: 55.5kg.... Quite happy with it, but I hope it stays stagnant. Dun fluctuate! Made a few purchases at H n M today to make myself happy. Retail therapy works for me, but effects are short-lived. haha.. When I was on my way back home, I received a call from the clinic, telling me that my blood test results for CA 125 are out and I had to call back a while later. The half an hour wait was indeed a torturous one.... staring at my new clothes didnt make me happy. Mother and Father was jumpy and edgy. Finally mom suggested watching the tv, which was a good move, a slight distraction. Finally I called back, and I am happy to announce that I am ALL CLEAR! But still must take medicine and pray that no surgery is required. I'll be very good these days. Love everyone who has been around all this while. Thanks again! Esp to yingjia n yong xiang with their totally lame jokes.             

I think I need retail therapy to cheer myself up :( Time to go h n m! No point pondering over this and ruining my days.

A trying period

Thanks to all for their well wishes... This period is sure a low point for me. Been diagnosed with a left ovarian cyst. Not sure if it's benign or malignant. Currently on medication now to reduce the size, otherwise surgery would be the option. Since the cyst is pretty big, 5.8 x 7.08, i believe the scar should be quite big. Sigh. Not the right time to be vain now right? Pray hard that everything goes on smoothly such that surgery is not required. I am highly afraid to go under the knife, even under anaesthesia. Too much of a scaredy cat.
I have done whatever I can so far. Visited 2 Gps, 1 tcm, 1 more experienced GP (the current one), 1 medium, 2 temples and crying like mad for countless of times. Crying doesnt help much actually. It's just to relieve my frustrations. Now the more important thing is to stay positive and stop thinking too much. Even if I cant haf kids next time, I'll just adopt one instead... Must find a husband that doesnt want kids. hahha.
It's time to look for yingjia! Only she makes me laugh like mad amidst this trying period.       

Mentally drained

Amidst the series of unfortunate events that took place, I shall try my very best to stay positive. Keeping my fingers crossed till the results are out. Pray hard that daddy gets well soon. It's the fourth time that I saved him and it isnt something to boast about. It's mentally exhausting and stressful. It was so scary to see him unresponsive when u are yelling your hearts out. And when the honey water didnt work, it added on to my stress. The biggest blow was when the medics were here, yet they couldnt put him on drip as they couldnt locate his arteries. His blood sugar was a new low. 1.7. I am still in total shock.... i cant imagine what would happen if i wasnt around or failed to detect the symptoms. Yes. I am still very very scared. Please dun let there be another repeat of this episode again. I have learnt to become calm in such situations, but they are still very much unpleasant to me. Shall visit daddy daily... he dotes on me the most. And perhaps that's why I get these vibes when I sensed that sth is wrong with him. Pleasse be good daddy, dun make us all worry.   

Wanderlust Boutique Hotel

I swear I must step foot into this boutique hotel at least once! Maybe next time when I have more $$$... haha..The rooms come in different themes, a playful one, whimisical theme, coloured theme and many more.
It's a new modern concept to entice the younger generation who ask for more than the conventional..   

Guilty as charged

Accidentally kicked dad on his right hip, causing him to have difficulty bending down. I am feeling so apologetic. Perhaps it's time that i go back to my own bed. I am not exactly a good sleeper. I roll on the bed too much. Move too much. Not the first time that I kicked dad. Oops. I am deterred to go back to my bed because of the new fan that's switched on every night. It causes me to sneeze now and then. I didnt want to go back to the double decker because it's too stuffy up there. No ventilation. Now, my dad's bed seems the most enticing, with no fans, but natural ventilation from the wind that's blowing through the windows. The best combination! Too bad, I cant keep my hands and legs to myself. Flying all over during the night. The worse of all? I have no recollection of it at all. So sorry daddy. It's time that I go back to my own bed and let mommy get back in place. I can be too selfish at times.  

For once, I wish that my weight would stop decreasing! Doctor expressed concern at the sudden weight loss. SIGH. Please get well soon. I do not want to go for a blood test! I crink at the sight of needles. AHH.

元宵节快乐

农历十五元宵节，又称为东方情人节。吃过了汤圆吗？当然要吃！才能一家大小团团圆圆，和乐熔融，甜甜蜜蜜。难得我有这个兴致，煮了一整锅汤圆给大家。你看,这一颗颗五颜六色的汤圆实在太可爱了！似模似样，应该合格了吧。

 

No flowers, no balloons :(:(
Pouts lips, stamps feet
 I am too typical already.... haha... such things make me smile!

Kissy Kissy

Chanced upon this interesting article in this month's cleo magazine
Decoding his kisses! Highly amused... but true or not? Chey!

Apparently there are 5 types of kisses. Here's what the article says:
The open eye kiss
No, he isnt staring, but rather he doesnt want to miss a thing! He's an unselfish kisser and wants you to enjoy the moment as he is. You got yourself a keeper. He puts you first before anything else.

The french kiss 
He's very comfortable with you and doesnt think twice when it comes to showing his passion for you. The seductive tongue play is a sign that he's mesmerised and cant get enough of you.

The closed mouth kiss (Top on my personal ranking list.)
This guy's definitely attracted to you but is afraid of coming too strong. He doesnt know whether you feel the same way about him, so he doesnt want to scare you off.

The lizard kiss (Havent heard of this)
Almost like a seductive tongue, his tongue darts in and out of your mouth, tangling itself around your tonuge. This may get your heart racing, but beware, like the tongue that exits your mouth quickly, he could just be playing around with you. 

Woody woodpecker kiss (Oops.... gives a sheepish look)
The quick pecking action is rapid and at times noisy. But be wary of this guy. Just like how he's stingy with his kisses, he might be more in love with himself than you!

   Time to get into some action people! Hahaha...

February Promotion

I wanna go zoo! Now that they have a february promotion, 1 for 1 for everything! Oh...tempted! Been like 3 years since I last went there. Time to visit the zoo again.....

Mom is the best!

So touched by mom's words! She said she gonna make me ang ku kueh after i have fully recovered. Cuz I havent been eating much lately, the same kind of food daily. Sliced fish soup or porridge. Love her so much although I havent said those exact words to her. It's hard to verbalize your love for someone. Especially in my family... we arent those lovey dovey families who hug and kiss and are inseparable. We are close, but there's still a distance between us. As such, we hardly apologize to one another even though we know we are at fault. I guess what I can do is to fulfil my duties of a daughter. Quarrel less, show respect and communicate more. I am grateful to be in this family, I truly do. Thanks mommy again :) You made my day with those words and your self-brewed ginger tea. I am contented.

Wee! Valentines' day is just around the corner. A day for me to look forward to. The psy girls' tradition of gift exchange on this day... brings back fond memories.