full

i feel so full and i simply hate the feeling of fullness. went to east coast for dinner at 4.30 (yes, at 4.30) cause dad wanted to avoid having to wait for available parking lots. i was super unwilling and i know i showed it all on my face. felt bad cause i know i should have tried to be more understanding, and think about others and not only myself. (sigh i know i'm going to regret behaving like this once i return back to melb.) why do we do certain things even though we know we'll regret our actions later?

been slacking like crazy. i simply lie on my bed and watch my variety shows whenever i'm at home. damn lazy. i should be reading up on endo, extraction, fixed pros etc., knowing that i'm going to be stressed during the intensive period (first few weeks of the semester) if i don't pre-read stuff.

i'm going to KTP for attachment the coming week. what a way to end my holidays. hopefully i'll learn stuff, meet new dentists whom can give us valuable advice, and not feel bored. difficult to not feel bored though.

Last day of work

It's my last day as a temp part time dental assistant at Q&M.. I was slacking the whole day cause there's a new trainee DA and she was learning to assist the dentists. And so I had nothing to do. Haha I must say I like it when there's someone who joins the company (including the previous companies that I worked at before) cause it makes me feel like I'm more senior and it makes me more confident. I feel like I know more stuff when i teach the newcomer things.. HAHA, I know, i act like a boss. And I have to say that I'm really scared of making mistakes esp when assisting one of the dentists, dr. x. He's nice I know but he has his own way of doing things and u have to totally read his mind when assisting him ( know what instrument he needs next without having him to specify). How stressful can that be for his DA. He knows I'm a dental student and bothers to explain to me stuff and for that, I'm really thankful.
And his last patient of the day was a wisdom tooth surgery case. And i went to his room to observe the op and he was so nice to explain the steps as he was carrying out the surgery (which is totally not his style, cause he only discuss cases with me after the patient leaves the room and not during the procedure). So nice of him! :) it was a real eye-opener.
Not working next week onwards cause I'll be at KTP hospital doing attachment the whole of next week and be flying back after cny. How time flies.
Say hello to 4th year, probably the most crazy and tedious year in dental school, but at the same time, the most exciting.

upset...

with myself for being grumpy, selfish, full of myself, not being understanding towards others, and many other things.

so, what happened to one of my 2012 resolutions of wanting to be nicer to those around me? :( a bad start.

i must try (much) harder.


some things just affect me so much that i feel really bad/upset. how i wish i can be of help to those around me :(

sad things aside, i met up with my laogong today and the meet-up really made me happy (meeting her always make me happy).

been going out very often and spending a lot of money. i always have this sudden urge to graduate and earn money so that i won't have to spend my parents' money. 2 more years. CAN'T WAIT!

Lord, i pray for a better 2012 for my loved ones.