Im so sorry I wasnt there for you.. I wasnt able to do what u did for me.. I feel so lousy and guilty that I just wasnt there for you I cant do anything..
10:12 PM
Whats so good being an optimist? I really wonder sometimes.. Wonder why I hold on so hard to be an optimist.. Wonder why I try so hard to let others see things positively.. Wonder why I try so hard to tell myself to see things positively when nothing positive can come out of it.. Why?
To me, an optimist exist to let pessimists see things differently.. A common example is a half-filled glass.. I try so hard to let people see the glass as half full than half empty.. But all these efforts, what do I get in return? Guilt.. when I start to rant about things and people around me just feel bad about it when it has nothing to do with them.. Sometimes I wonder why arent I just a pessimist?.. then all I can do and care about is rant all day then forget about it..
7:56 PM
Today had been a very awesome day for me! :D Met K after tuition and had lunch at Macs before going to take MRT to Bugis. At Bugis we walked to Iluma to buy KOI. :D someone didnt do the correct calculation and almost had a damn awesome deal with me :D HEHEHE!! :D aww so sad I pointed it out and failed :X ooh well :X At the point we got our KOI, we were still quite full from lunch, but decided to drink it anyway.. while on our way to see drumsticks that is :X
When we reach the building, both of us still had like a damn whole lot of KOI to go before finishing.. before we can enter any shops to see sticks.. had a pretty hard time trying to finish my KOI, and K still had like 1/4 left :X i tried to help her but in the end she took it back to finish it up. Good job! :D
Went to see sticks from the 2 shops opposite one another :X had a hard time trying to decide on sticks since the ones we wanted to find was out of stock.. :( yea.. sad... So we both had a hard time trying to find alternatives and match the feel of the sticks :X but in the end both of us didnt buy because we didnt really like the feel :X ooh well ~
Walked back to Bugis MRT and took train down to Raffles Place.. only because we thought Raffles City Shopping Centre was at Raffles Place.. Thanks to K we didnt walk blindly trying to find RCSC in Raffles Place :D WOOHOO ~ :D so we took the train back to City Hall and TADA RCSC is just in front :X
Went to RCSC to buy macarons and K bought Royce :X HEHE :X walked around trying to find a place to sit down and eat the macarons :X in the end we did :X after a long time i might add.... :X Bought 6, shared 3 each :X WOW! Canele macarons are super awesome!! just want to come back to eat it again some day :X
On the day home was more of funny and cute :X HEHE! :X All in all a very awesome day today ~ :D Thanks for the day ! Although it was tiring, yep it was well worth it! :D WSLU ! :D
9:58 PM
haiz guess there is always a next time :) get well soon ~
theres this feeling i hope u really went to rest when i told u too, but then again when i see you tweet something i feel happy.. wtf..
8:55 PM
YAY the 200th post ~ :X after so long.. well guess because I dont update regularly :X
Craving for macarons recently D: ooh well shall go buy some soon :D so want to try baking macarons after As HAHA!! though I bet it will fail, the process sure will be damn fun :X :D
And, thanks alot for making me smile recently :D moment when I'm angry or sad for whatever reason,
you were the one who made me smile again :D WSLU ~ :D
7:05 PM
Wednesday, August 03, 2011
I like it when you call me certain names, because that is when i know
that you are smiling ~ :D
Continue smiling okay? :D
10:27 PM
Im sorry.. sometimes i appear more negative when u tell me things not because
i am affected and that the negativity is spreading to me..
it is because sometimes i just feel so disappointed at myself..
that i am capable, yet cant help..
Being to help unable though i did it myself...
Then when i express my views online i try to make it sound as much as
related to school as possible so no1 suspects.. and true enough they
think that it is school work.. should i be happy it worked? or ...
disappointed that no1 else understands me as much .. as you, the
person i am trying to help..
Moments like these are moments i know i am unable to tell you what i
myself am facing because it only adds on to your problems.. dont worry
about adding on to mine, mine are usually short-lived and disappear within a few days.. what i see in yours is something big, yet i cannot help..
how frustrating..
Promise me to smile okay? and no i dont mean for you to stop telling me
about your problems.. its means for you to change over and stop being
so negative at seeing things again okay? :D
remember the ss :) (i almost wanted to upload it here.. erherm..)
10:24 PM
