Blogger has changed abit since the last time I logged in.. Which is about 5 months ago? :X Everything is so new and different right now.
I dont think you will ever read this, but everytime I look back at us, I feel that sense of guilt. I really want to make it up to you some day, but I just dont think that you will accept it.
I really miss talking to you, everything about you.
I wish to see your smile again. Cheer up alright? I know you have been unhappy/emotional recently. I just know.
I would do anything, just to see you smile again.
12:23 PM
I will always be that idiot standing there,
facing every problem alone,
suffering inside of me
...
Just to try to make everyone happy.
Everyone, except myself..
9:26 PM
こんにちは。それは、ほぼ2ヶ月しています。私はあなたの日常を考える。物事がうまく行くために私は本当に願っています。私はあなたがいなくて寂しい。
2:23 PM
I am waiting.
I always am.
Waiting for bad things to end.
Waiting for good things to start.
5:49 PM
Thursday, December 29, 2011
What does it take to be a true blue optimist?
To find chances and say "Yes I can still do it" in the face of failure? To be optimistic of the future even though you are on a streak of failure?
I do admit sometimes it really rocks to be an optimist, but sometimes, it just sucks. I cant bend my nature however much I want to.
Why wont I give up? Why do I have to be so idealistic? Why?
2:32 PM
Monday, December 12, 2011
I dont know what to do.
Problems keep stacking up at me, if I focus on one, I lose the other.
It is like choosing to save between your mother and your girlfriend, but with so many more options.
I am choosing between family, friends, myself and so many more,
yet I can only choose to save one.
This is so unfair! Why can I only choose to save one and give up the rest?
I tried to save every single one, and ended up losing every single one.
It is impossible for 1 man to save so many people at once.
Why is my life so unfair? I dont know what to do.
Can I just break down and cry? :/
Why do I still hold on to every single one and hope they dont sink in deeper?
I can't do this. I'm not Superman.
11:47 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2011
I am born an optimist.
Now that recently I have become pessimistic, it feels odd.
I dont like it, its like I dont know myself anymore.
I want to go back to being an optimist, the one I am born to be.
5:05 PM
