CHRISTmas started for me early on wednesday with the fencers down at ECP ~ Though the planning was all smooth I take much consolation in that it went well =) So many thanks to shaun ang, ian and team ~ Of coz to everyone whoelse who made it possible !
Friday brought abt the little pot luck party at my place with my most beloved friends *winks* A great evening, fun filled and food filled ~ Simple gathering watched a couple of movies and laughed ourselves silly ... sounds dumb nvm :P
CHRISTmas eve ! Went cable car-ing(compliments of my lovely kitty *thanks*) with miche ~ A lot of hollanding ~ hui hui, kitty ~ if u gals going let me know i'll give u the whole details ... After much walking to and fro ... up and downs ... yes ... we found ourselves at sentosa going through more to and fros ... BUT its okie :) Had our well deserved rest as we waited for sunset someone between palawan and sunset bay ~ Subway followed as we cabled back to main island ... Concluded the day's progm at esplanade as we waited for the "countdown" which nv happened ... Nonetheless ~ I had a great time =p Gonna miss ya dear ... Cya Nxt year ~
CHRISTmas day ~ down with fever ... been down all day on the bed ... much better now headed to clay's for a slp over ~ (Freak ... reading through I find my current entry very girl ... forgive me ...) Pictures and Updates coming rite up ~
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Wonderful !
Hello people ... Sorry damn bz working on so many things ... simply can't find the drive to blog =x Very sorry ~
Heres a quick update ... Been trying to finish up FYP to no avail ... alot of projects alot of problems ... haiz ~ simply gotta love ur life -_-"
A simple consoling ... thought is I've been managing the new batch of Ngee Ann Fencers & the club is definately growing bigger yet closer =) Always good to know that I will leave Ngee Ann Fencing with a service to the club & hopefully a legacy =p
But today was good and relaxing ... Went to sch did an experiment ... Went ECP with mich after =) Simple cycling trip but I enjoyed every minute of it =) Thanks dear ~ U made my year !
Heres a quick update ... Been trying to finish up FYP to no avail ... alot of projects alot of problems ... haiz ~ simply gotta love ur life -_-"
A simple consoling ... thought is I've been managing the new batch of Ngee Ann Fencers & the club is definately growing bigger yet closer =) Always good to know that I will leave Ngee Ann Fencing with a service to the club & hopefully a legacy =p
But today was good and relaxing ... Went to sch did an experiment ... Went ECP with mich after =) Simple cycling trip but I enjoyed every minute of it =) Thanks dear ~ U made my year !
Thursday, November 03, 2005
DeepaRayalloween Holidays ~
Heya one and all =)
Happy DeepaRayalloween to my very mixed up singaporean buddies all over :P
Yes very much indeed confused and mixed up is the singaporean bloodlines, culture and all that other funny factors that defines each of us =)
Poly peepz like urs truely just returned to sch for the new semester and thank god perhaps ? That holidays are well spread as the academic term starts off ... Monday lesson ... Tuesday off ... Wednesday lessons ... Thursday off and voila ~ TGIF ... lessons for the day and weekends for all ! Weird ...
Anywayz ... Halloween was monday nv celebrated that before ... wonder if i should try nxt year ... Deepavali follows tight on tuedays (holiday !!!) ... spend that with clay and hid walking ard town ... "buffet" for my brother in the army *winkz* ... day started off pretty bad ... cancelled activities with Team V =( well ... hope to see u lot soon ...
Hari Raya is to follow today (off again !!!) ... watched Tom.Yam.Goong with clay and had some taiwan porridge buffet at breekz before that ... Food is pretty good for 6.90++ worth the try =)
Tml will bring abt another research day ... on the bright side project resumes ... means no more delays ... on a sadder note ... work is nv fun so to speak =) BUT ~ when ur project partners are fun I guess there is always laughter if u seek it *winkz*
Funny story how some people can say others are not fun to be with ... not sociable ... yet the greatest irony is ... the problem lies within the condemner and not the condemned ! haha ~ juz a note :P
Happy DeepaRayalloween to my very mixed up singaporean buddies all over :P
Yes very much indeed confused and mixed up is the singaporean bloodlines, culture and all that other funny factors that defines each of us =)
Poly peepz like urs truely just returned to sch for the new semester and thank god perhaps ? That holidays are well spread as the academic term starts off ... Monday lesson ... Tuesday off ... Wednesday lessons ... Thursday off and voila ~ TGIF ... lessons for the day and weekends for all ! Weird ...
Anywayz ... Halloween was monday nv celebrated that before ... wonder if i should try nxt year ... Deepavali follows tight on tuedays (holiday !!!) ... spend that with clay and hid walking ard town ... "buffet" for my brother in the army *winkz* ... day started off pretty bad ... cancelled activities with Team V =( well ... hope to see u lot soon ...
Hari Raya is to follow today (off again !!!) ... watched Tom.Yam.Goong with clay and had some taiwan porridge buffet at breekz before that ... Food is pretty good for 6.90++ worth the try =)
Tml will bring abt another research day ... on the bright side project resumes ... means no more delays ... on a sadder note ... work is nv fun so to speak =) BUT ~ when ur project partners are fun I guess there is always laughter if u seek it *winkz*
Funny story how some people can say others are not fun to be with ... not sociable ... yet the greatest irony is ... the problem lies within the condemner and not the condemned ! haha ~ juz a note :P
Friday, October 28, 2005
End of the holidays ~
And so concludes the holidays ... it came and it went ... nothing too significant nothing too spectacular ... yet its no where near without action =) Confused ? So am I ...
Well lets summarize this holidays =) Left behind most of what i needed to leave and started on what I should have started on eons ago ... Laggy is the man who's emotions rules his servers ... hahahaha ~
Wonderful update =) Don't know what to say lalala ~
Well lets summarize this holidays =) Left behind most of what i needed to leave and started on what I should have started on eons ago ... Laggy is the man who's emotions rules his servers ... hahahaha ~
Wonderful update =) Don't know what to say lalala ~
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Burnt =(
Hmmm ... update ? hahaha
Spent most of last week slacking and enjoying ... now pretty broke =(
Celebrated Lix's birthday at crystal jade ... and we had Fried MARS Bars courtesy of Mike
Our little side track to carrefour led to the gals going witchy ~
Saturday brought about a sunny day at the beach with the sabreurs =)
Always fun to go out with the fencers ~
Damn burnt rite now ... But I enjoyed it =p
P.S. No pix sorry ~ camera was there but I forgot to bring the batteries -_-"
Oh heres a few momentos from my last trip to ubin =)
heres poochie ~ ain't he cute ?
can u spot the cat ?
Spent most of last week slacking and enjoying ... now pretty broke =(
Celebrated Lix's birthday at crystal jade ... and we had Fried MARS Bars courtesy of Mike
Our little side track to carrefour led to the gals going witchy ~
Saturday brought about a sunny day at the beach with the sabreurs =)
Always fun to go out with the fencers ~
Damn burnt rite now ... But I enjoyed it =p
P.S. No pix sorry ~ camera was there but I forgot to bring the batteries -_-"
Oh heres a few momentos from my last trip to ubin =)
heres poochie ~ ain't he cute ?
can u spot the cat ?
Monday, October 17, 2005
Confrimed week is good =D
And yet another week concludes =)
Tiring but fruitful weekend ! Spent saturday with the ever so irritating michelle ~ Short but very interesting trip to ubin ... Its amazing how rich ubin is in heiritage and the very experience from just wondering ard the island is simply enriching !
No ... This is obivously not my first trip to ubin BUT I've come to learn that ubin holds a wealth of heiritage for everyone who bothers looking ! Every trip I discover something new and without fail there is always something worth remembering ... This simple little laid back island off the east coast of singapore gives anyone who wants a relief from the urbanized concrete jungles of mainland fast paced life ... scenary ... wild life ... back to basic experience is what you'll find =)All you need is to keep an open mind and an open ear ... Islanders ... especially the natives have much to share abt the history of this little island, singapore and even their perspective of life !
Looking back Ubin holds personally for me many memorable times and I'm certain many more to come ... From the torturous days of camping and trekking with NPCC where I've made a number of close friends that stays by my side to this very day ... to the days of kayaking with Tock Seng during my OBS days ... to days of cycling and orienteering with the NPOB where I've learnt to love, respect and enjoy nature ... and of coz the little retreats with my buddies and our other small adventures ... and without a doubt (before i get hecked for lack of mention) the trip down this saturday with miche =)
Back to my weekend =) Had a wonderful time at lao jie's buffet house warming ... yes I know I've been a little anti social ... but what do u expect ... dad is there ... kid bro is there ... and I barely know that god-bro-in-law of mine ! haha :P Don't expect me to go ard with a display of enthusiasm and show my social skills now would u ? This IS singapore ... I AM singaporean ...
Sunday brings the whole day out with my classmates and my buddies at IDA's universities open house ... Checked out a few of auzzie's best for marine science and pharma science ... wondering yet again where and what to do for uni =
Later the same day was spent with my buddies for a long walk ard town which saw us trapped at taka ... clay left us early to report back to camp (NS men ... no life ... poor thing) ... Hid and I loitered and dragged ourselves ard taka and wisma for the rest of the afternoon till much later ... could tell he was getting bored but i couldn't help being too tired to be entertaining ... sorry bro ... Managed to stay alive till dinner at BK at wheelock though ... after which everything went much much better =)
Tiring but fruitful weekend ! Spent saturday with the ever so irritating michelle ~ Short but very interesting trip to ubin ... Its amazing how rich ubin is in heiritage and the very experience from just wondering ard the island is simply enriching !
No ... This is obivously not my first trip to ubin BUT I've come to learn that ubin holds a wealth of heiritage for everyone who bothers looking ! Every trip I discover something new and without fail there is always something worth remembering ... This simple little laid back island off the east coast of singapore gives anyone who wants a relief from the urbanized concrete jungles of mainland fast paced life ... scenary ... wild life ... back to basic experience is what you'll find =)All you need is to keep an open mind and an open ear ... Islanders ... especially the natives have much to share abt the history of this little island, singapore and even their perspective of life !
Looking back Ubin holds personally for me many memorable times and I'm certain many more to come ... From the torturous days of camping and trekking with NPCC where I've made a number of close friends that stays by my side to this very day ... to the days of kayaking with Tock Seng during my OBS days ... to days of cycling and orienteering with the NPOB where I've learnt to love, respect and enjoy nature ... and of coz the little retreats with my buddies and our other small adventures ... and without a doubt (before i get hecked for lack of mention) the trip down this saturday with miche =)
Back to my weekend =) Had a wonderful time at lao jie's buffet house warming ... yes I know I've been a little anti social ... but what do u expect ... dad is there ... kid bro is there ... and I barely know that god-bro-in-law of mine ! haha :P Don't expect me to go ard with a display of enthusiasm and show my social skills now would u ? This IS singapore ... I AM singaporean ...
Sunday brings the whole day out with my classmates and my buddies at IDA's universities open house ... Checked out a few of auzzie's best for marine science and pharma science ... wondering yet again where and what to do for uni =
Later the same day was spent with my buddies for a long walk ard town which saw us trapped at taka ... clay left us early to report back to camp (NS men ... no life ... poor thing) ... Hid and I loitered and dragged ourselves ard taka and wisma for the rest of the afternoon till much later ... could tell he was getting bored but i couldn't help being too tired to be entertaining ... sorry bro ... Managed to stay alive till dinner at BK at wheelock though ... after which everything went much much better =)
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Ah yes ~ A good week =) or issit ... hmmm ...
Hello Hello ~ Had subway for dinner tonight with sis ~ introduced me to the subway veggie patty sandwich ! damn its good =)
Anywayz that aside ... weeks been fairly good ... apart from the usual F-ing attitude from Dr.Wang ... Felix well done ! Very polite Very cheerful ! Thats what we're talking abt bro ~ Being nice =) birthday mood perhaps ? haha
Right ~ I'm a still aching from trg ... BUT its feeling good =) Better now ~ Tml trg again ... hope my muscles have adapted back (fat hope ? well i like to believe i'm more hopeful than fat-full hahaha)
Dumb post ? Eccentric character ? Aint my fault ... -_-
Hmm ... well looking forward to the weekends ... lao jie's house-warming party =)
Anywayz that aside ... weeks been fairly good ... apart from the usual F-ing attitude from Dr.Wang ... Felix well done ! Very polite Very cheerful ! Thats what we're talking abt bro ~ Being nice =) birthday mood perhaps ? haha
Right ~ I'm a still aching from trg ... BUT its feeling good =) Better now ~ Tml trg again ... hope my muscles have adapted back (fat hope ? well i like to believe i'm more hopeful than fat-full hahaha)
Dumb post ? Eccentric character ? Aint my fault ... -_-
Hmm ... well looking forward to the weekends ... lao jie's house-warming party =)
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Pain Pain EVERYWHERE PAIN !!!
HaHa ... I know it sounds pretty sick ... BUT ~ It feel good to be feeling my muscles ache for awhile again =D Though as certain as the sun will rise tommorow morn' I will soon be cursing and swearing for the pain to go away ;P
Well Well ... Finally able to exercise again ! Feeling good abt it ... at least i can start working off the 4kgs I put on over the mth of no game =( As you might had already predicted ... I returned to the sabre training only to find myself not the Simon a mth back physically speaking =P But I'll be back soon =D Better ~
Project is not going too well ... quite down the drain as one may say ...
BUT never fear ...
Okie ... quite a few things coming up apart from my FYP ... First up leadership course for the fencers to work on ... Next up get back in shape ... and I'm theres more to come =)
Monty Python is a good series of british humour if you're looking for a good laugh ! But for the more religiously conservative stay away =)
Au Revior ~ Bon Nuit ~
Well Well ... Finally able to exercise again ! Feeling good abt it ... at least i can start working off the 4kgs I put on over the mth of no game =( As you might had already predicted ... I returned to the sabre training only to find myself not the Simon a mth back physically speaking =P But I'll be back soon =D Better ~
Project is not going too well ... quite down the drain as one may say ...
BUT never fear ...
Okie ... quite a few things coming up apart from my FYP ... First up leadership course for the fencers to work on ... Next up get back in shape ... and I'm theres more to come =)
Monty Python is a good series of british humour if you're looking for a good laugh ! But for the more religiously conservative stay away =)
Au Revior ~ Bon Nuit ~
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Some "New" Pix
Okie ~ heres some new happenings and pictures from recent weeks ... Laptop still down ... so no pix from fencing camp ... BUT i promise I shall add some when it returns ... so here we go ~
A little Present From Heaven ?
Are we talking about Mayoniase ?
OR ...
没有 Street !!!!
Whats wrong with Jia ?
Look for yourself ...
Now u know whats wrong with Jia ? haha
The Leaning Towers Of Cartel ~ Brian wants the ngee ann to build something liddat ...
For me & ariel ... a nice smile is good enough ...
And last but not least ... to pay our respects to our Ngee Ann Tomb ...
Oh ... its not a tomb ? my bad ~
Seems like its a Time Capsule !
And thats all folks !
A little Present From Heaven ?
Are we talking about Mayoniase ?
OR ...
没有 Street !!!!
Whats wrong with Jia ?
Look for yourself ...
Now u know whats wrong with Jia ? haha
The Leaning Towers Of Cartel ~ Brian wants the ngee ann to build something liddat ...
For me & ariel ... a nice smile is good enough ...
And last but not least ... to pay our respects to our Ngee Ann Tomb ...
Oh ... its not a tomb ? my bad ~
Seems like its a Time Capsule !
And thats all folks !
Long Long Day ~
Home ! Left home yesterday morning at 11 am and I'm FINALLY HOME ! HaHa ~
for the official time count its 1 am when i reached home ... Been spending alot lately damn guilty ... Been eating alot and not exercising either ... primarily coz of the warts can't jog ... too lazy to gym either =( Gained alot of weight in the past month ... Time to redeem myself !
Anywayz ... Supposed to go sentosa today with Team Venturejuana (Team V) BUT ... due to the rain and bz timetable of our VERY active VERY popular team members ... had to call it off ... went down to ngee ann to help out with the spring cleaning of NPF clubhouse ... But ~ when i arrive sorta nothing much to clean up liao ~ Went down Marina Square for lunch with the fencers after ... took 1 hour to decide on Long John -_-" ... Anywayz ... shortly after we watched a movie with David ... Joanne and the sabreurs ... (note: the foilist had left)
Interesting note that though I must say that Team Sabre used to be very very dead ... as time past and stuff ... Team Sabre has gained its life and fun elements ... people changed and new blood helped much as well =) As for Team Foil ... well ... I reserve my comments ;
Met Team V later on the in the evening for dinner and games at Minds ... BUT nobody made reservations so ended up with me, ariel and brian at cartel chilling the nite away ... "Emily" ditched us for his date ... Casper floated off for some soccer match ... and Ayu ... where are u ? But it all went well still ... Chicargo Cheeze Cake ... Auntie Amy's Chocolate Cake & alot of ice blended and the house pour of water and bread ...
Got some photos post them tml ... too tired ... don't know how to operate the desktop's bluetooth either ... well well time for bed I guess ... Gonna pay some respects to grand dad at the temple tml ... The very nice guy whom I feel I've inheirted quite abit of nice genes from though I nv met him ...
Quote of the day: "You reap the fruits of your forefathers and sow the seeds for your decendents" --- Somebody (If nobody has said this before then me lor)
for the official time count its 1 am when i reached home ... Been spending alot lately damn guilty ... Been eating alot and not exercising either ... primarily coz of the warts can't jog ... too lazy to gym either =( Gained alot of weight in the past month ... Time to redeem myself !
Anywayz ... Supposed to go sentosa today with Team Venturejuana (Team V) BUT ... due to the rain and bz timetable of our VERY active VERY popular team members ... had to call it off ... went down to ngee ann to help out with the spring cleaning of NPF clubhouse ... But ~ when i arrive sorta nothing much to clean up liao ~ Went down Marina Square for lunch with the fencers after ... took 1 hour to decide on Long John -_-" ... Anywayz ... shortly after we watched a movie with David ... Joanne and the sabreurs ... (note: the foilist had left)
Interesting note that though I must say that Team Sabre used to be very very dead ... as time past and stuff ... Team Sabre has gained its life and fun elements ... people changed and new blood helped much as well =) As for Team Foil ... well ... I reserve my comments ;
Met Team V later on the in the evening for dinner and games at Minds ... BUT nobody made reservations so ended up with me, ariel and brian at cartel chilling the nite away ... "Emily" ditched us for his date ... Casper floated off for some soccer match ... and Ayu ... where are u ? But it all went well still ... Chicargo Cheeze Cake ... Auntie Amy's Chocolate Cake & alot of ice blended and the house pour of water and bread ...
Got some photos post them tml ... too tired ... don't know how to operate the desktop's bluetooth either ... well well time for bed I guess ... Gonna pay some respects to grand dad at the temple tml ... The very nice guy whom I feel I've inheirted quite abit of nice genes from though I nv met him ...
Quote of the day: "You reap the fruits of your forefathers and sow the seeds for your decendents" --- Somebody (If nobody has said this before then me lor)
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Results ! Muhahaha ~
Oh yea ~ Sem 5 results are out ... Not bad got a GPA of 3.8 =)
Thought i was SO gonna fail my BIF and PDC with all those poor performance during term time ... Ends up continual assesment took victim of another subject instead ... AMB =( Thought I would get an AD after that power paper ... But no ~ Oh well ... U gain some U lose some yea ? In this case ... Gain 2 Lose 1 can la ... fair trade =)
Oh yea with regards to wordy post ... I'm sorry but I'm just expressive ... Plus no lappy = no pix uploading ... so yea =Oh when, Oh when will my lappy come home ?
Oh when, Oh when will it come ?
Missing my laptop BIG time !
Recently just sent a dumb email to all my fencers with regards to a leadership course ... Hope i didn't sound TOO crappy ... wanted it to be a little Lame but ... I might had gone overboard :P
Thought i was SO gonna fail my BIF and PDC with all those poor performance during term time ... Ends up continual assesment took victim of another subject instead ... AMB =( Thought I would get an AD after that power paper ... But no ~ Oh well ... U gain some U lose some yea ? In this case ... Gain 2 Lose 1 can la ... fair trade =)
Oh yea with regards to wordy post ... I'm sorry but I'm just expressive ... Plus no lappy = no pix uploading ... so yea =Oh when, Oh when will my lappy come home ?
Oh when, Oh when will it come ?
Missing my laptop BIG time !
Recently just sent a dumb email to all my fencers with regards to a leadership course ... Hope i didn't sound TOO crappy ... wanted it to be a little Lame but ... I might had gone overboard :P
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
A Simple Dinner =)
Ah yes ~ Social gathering ~ The core of Simon since he became a sociable person ... I was never a very sociable kid by upbringing ... grandma doesn't believe in real friends ... She has little close friends but as much as she hates to admit it ... No man is an island ... Always at occasions I'll find her talking abt her few friends ... how they met and how they became close ... Stories of grandpa is perhaps one of the most intriguing (wonder why ? I'd say when u have little friends it is those closest that u'll hold dearest and every detail abt them you WILL know ... They might not even realise it themselves)
Kept a small group of friends up to till secondary school ... But it is only from the student council and NPCC during my years in Mayflower that i really grew to slowly the sociable Simon u see today ... Sociable but still I keep a small group close to heart and a handful even closer ... I like the idea of building bridges and maintaining them ... Though I may not fortify every bridge I build or absolutely able to maintain every bridge ... I try my best to do so =)
I realised between the time of graduating from Mayflower to today ... Much has happened and not much of the Simon that once was remains ... Changes for better and for worse ... I aim to keep the better changes and I wanna find back the Simon that was lost ...
Anywayz ... The title story ... Finally a nice dinner with friends from class again =) This round at Apollo =9 Had a wonderful time with Jia, Hui, Fei and D ... Dinner at Apollo and a long walk through little india to OG Albert ... Meant to look for Zen but he was too bz ... Girls went shopping a little while me and D enjoyed a little side show by some chinese artist ... Continued the walk down to bugis and we had a great time strolling at the new national library till it closed (Well not that there is alot to see ... since most places were Out Of Bound -_-") Had some drinks at Mos Burgers till we were all too tired to go on ...
I'm very disappointed by the choices a friend have been making recently ... Somebody gotta start telling me if I'm right or wrong pretty soon ... Coz I'm pretty confused ...
Religion has many effects and influences over people ... I always thought Singapore being multi religiously harmonious will suffer no such effects ... guess I'm wrong ... YET i hold my stand ... The religion is never intended to be wrong ... but the devotee/follower that is misinterprets and acts wrongly intentionally or otherwise ...
Kept a small group of friends up to till secondary school ... But it is only from the student council and NPCC during my years in Mayflower that i really grew to slowly the sociable Simon u see today ... Sociable but still I keep a small group close to heart and a handful even closer ... I like the idea of building bridges and maintaining them ... Though I may not fortify every bridge I build or absolutely able to maintain every bridge ... I try my best to do so =)
I realised between the time of graduating from Mayflower to today ... Much has happened and not much of the Simon that once was remains ... Changes for better and for worse ... I aim to keep the better changes and I wanna find back the Simon that was lost ...
Anywayz ... The title story ... Finally a nice dinner with friends from class again =) This round at Apollo =9 Had a wonderful time with Jia, Hui, Fei and D ... Dinner at Apollo and a long walk through little india to OG Albert ... Meant to look for Zen but he was too bz ... Girls went shopping a little while me and D enjoyed a little side show by some chinese artist ... Continued the walk down to bugis and we had a great time strolling at the new national library till it closed (Well not that there is alot to see ... since most places were Out Of Bound -_-") Had some drinks at Mos Burgers till we were all too tired to go on ...
I'm very disappointed by the choices a friend have been making recently ... Somebody gotta start telling me if I'm right or wrong pretty soon ... Coz I'm pretty confused ...
Religion has many effects and influences over people ... I always thought Singapore being multi religiously harmonious will suffer no such effects ... guess I'm wrong ... YET i hold my stand ... The religion is never intended to be wrong ... but the devotee/follower that is misinterprets and acts wrongly intentionally or otherwise ...
Wonderful ~
Hello Hello ~
Just got home from a scolding at NUS and cryotherapy again at NSC =(
I know we deserve it more or less ... But oh well ... I DIDN'T choose this project !!!
In anycase ... I guess no point whinning over it ... time to get myself to work on the project more and less here whinning abt it ... Year 3 is indeed the worse time for any kinda hiccups to happen in ur life ... coz it comes with a free flow buffet of it all bundled in the package known as FYP ...
Project partners aren't working out well in terms of their relationship with each other ... I know not good to say such things coz everybody probably knows who i'm talking abt ... BUT I'm sorry Bro ... Sorry Sis ... From where i stand ... I don't wanna take sides ...
However ... Come on Bro ... gotta freshen up ... gotta take things into ur stride ... I know ... Life isn't easy for u ... Trust me its not meant to be easy ... Sis has tried hard to be neutral and even tried to be nice ... Time for u to put in the effort and expecting nothing back as well ...
Of coz i'm not saying ... Sis is absolute angel ... she isn't ... I know :P But least she knows what shes doing ...
Bad post ... Don't think I should post it ... BUT I WILL ...
No offence intended to anyone ...
Dinner and Movie was good ~ Sure made my day ! =) Had a wonderful time ... Thankz kid ~ sorry I'm not really very entertaining ... but its been a long day ... Thankz anywayz ...
Just got home from a scolding at NUS and cryotherapy again at NSC =(
I know we deserve it more or less ... But oh well ... I DIDN'T choose this project !!!
In anycase ... I guess no point whinning over it ... time to get myself to work on the project more and less here whinning abt it ... Year 3 is indeed the worse time for any kinda hiccups to happen in ur life ... coz it comes with a free flow buffet of it all bundled in the package known as FYP ...
Project partners aren't working out well in terms of their relationship with each other ... I know not good to say such things coz everybody probably knows who i'm talking abt ... BUT I'm sorry Bro ... Sorry Sis ... From where i stand ... I don't wanna take sides ...
However ... Come on Bro ... gotta freshen up ... gotta take things into ur stride ... I know ... Life isn't easy for u ... Trust me its not meant to be easy ... Sis has tried hard to be neutral and even tried to be nice ... Time for u to put in the effort and expecting nothing back as well ...
Of coz i'm not saying ... Sis is absolute angel ... she isn't ... I know :P But least she knows what shes doing ...
Bad post ... Don't think I should post it ... BUT I WILL ...
No offence intended to anyone ...
Dinner and Movie was good ~ Sure made my day ! =) Had a wonderful time ... Thankz kid ~ sorry I'm not really very entertaining ... but its been a long day ... Thankz anywayz ...
Friday, September 30, 2005
The irony of Life
There is alot i wanna type but time is a limiting factor ... I know its 10pm on a friday night and I've no plans the following morning ... But lap top died on me ... so don't expect me online much =\ Of coz I'm not totally beyond reach, handphone is still available ... Haiz ~ Lappy do come home soon =(
A little prayer for the little problems recently ...
Dear lord ...
Your humble serf kneels before you again ...
only to seek that you intervene into his insignificant life ...
To heal this time not wounds of his own ...
Nor solve matters that concerns him direct ...
But to spread thy healing wings over the people around him ...
I know your powers are limitless and your mercy boderless ...
Unlike the many humans that tread this sicken earth ...
Hence I throw myself before only to ask that you heal our unworthy souls once more ...
In Jesus' Most Merciful Name ... I pray for friends in need ...
Amen ~
Note: As much as I believe our lord is almightly and all knowledgable ... I fear the many made in his likeness fails to inherit his character ... And many more who studies his ways to reach this point fails to move in the right directions for their eyes are far too much clouded by words and perceptions ... many lose sight of the truth of character ...
Quote: Build Thee A Strength That Strengthens Thy Soul ... Not Thee A Temple That Glorifies And Craves A Pseudo Soul ...
A little prayer for the little problems recently ...
Dear lord ...
Your humble serf kneels before you again ...
only to seek that you intervene into his insignificant life ...
To heal this time not wounds of his own ...
Nor solve matters that concerns him direct ...
But to spread thy healing wings over the people around him ...
I know your powers are limitless and your mercy boderless ...
Unlike the many humans that tread this sicken earth ...
Hence I throw myself before only to ask that you heal our unworthy souls once more ...
In Jesus' Most Merciful Name ... I pray for friends in need ...
Amen ~
Note: As much as I believe our lord is almightly and all knowledgable ... I fear the many made in his likeness fails to inherit his character ... And many more who studies his ways to reach this point fails to move in the right directions for their eyes are far too much clouded by words and perceptions ... many lose sight of the truth of character ...
Quote: Build Thee A Strength That Strengthens Thy Soul ... Not Thee A Temple That Glorifies And Craves A Pseudo Soul ...
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Laboratory ~
Hello people ~
Simon is currently sitting in the lab slacking while his partners are hard at work loading the electrophoresis gel ... BLOODY SLACKER !!!
No No ~ I'm just sleepy from the previous nite with the fencers ... Waiting for lunch and meeting with Mrs.Tang ... Boring slackish research day ... not much to accomplish ~
Bored ...
Here are some pix we took some days back ~ this shows how boring it can get during incubation hours ~
Mousy
Mousy & Horsey
Oh Yar ... CAMP finally picked up pace with the FUN given i'm only available at night ... haha can't complain ... BUT oh well its ending =(
Simon is currently sitting in the lab slacking while his partners are hard at work loading the electrophoresis gel ... BLOODY SLACKER !!!
No No ~ I'm just sleepy from the previous nite with the fencers ... Waiting for lunch and meeting with Mrs.Tang ... Boring slackish research day ... not much to accomplish ~
Bored ...
Here are some pix we took some days back ~ this shows how boring it can get during incubation hours ~
Mousy
Mousy & Horsey
Oh Yar ... CAMP finally picked up pace with the FUN given i'm only available at night ... haha can't complain ... BUT oh well its ending =(
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Fencing Camp NITE 1 ~
What am I doing ? Bumming ard in sch ... Slacking ...
Fencing camp is going on ... first nite and they are all dead !!!
LaLaLa ~ FREAKING BORING ...
I WANNA HAVE A NITE LIFE !!! ITS A CAMP !!!
Fencing camp is going on ... first nite and they are all dead !!!
LaLaLa ~ FREAKING BORING ...
I WANNA HAVE A NITE LIFE !!! ITS A CAMP !!!
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Blast From The Recent Past ~
Heres a few pics summarizing some of the stuff in the past academic year ... last nov till now ...
A little sun basking with Jess ... Kitty & Mike
Accending The Pesudo Mountain ~ Gunung Panti
Submit Gunung Panti ! Team Ngee Ann SALT I 04/05
The Decent of Panti ~
Retreating Into the unknown ~
HaHa juz kidding ... Its juz ubin ~
The first trip ... Bunsen Flame Died ! Back to Basics !
A toast to our successful fire ! Cadets back in action ! muhahaha ~
A second trip to our fav. retreat site ~ with a proper bunsen this time =)
Team Venturejuana ~ too many pix too little space ...
A little sun basking with Jess ... Kitty & Mike
Accending The Pesudo Mountain ~ Gunung Panti
Submit Gunung Panti ! Team Ngee Ann SALT I 04/05
The Decent of Panti ~
Retreating Into the unknown ~
HaHa juz kidding ... Its juz ubin ~
The first trip ... Bunsen Flame Died ! Back to Basics !
A toast to our successful fire ! Cadets back in action ! muhahaha ~
A second trip to our fav. retreat site ~ with a proper bunsen this time =)
Team Venturejuana ~ too many pix too little space ...
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
CryoTherapy
Went to NSC yesterday for wart removal ... my family GP recommended a laser removal ... But NSC's consultant Dr.Chong decided that its more advisible to put me on cryotherapy ... Wondering if Laser would had been a better option ... hmmm ... *wonders*
OH well anywayz ... Not sure abt them warts ... BUT I know I was getting freezed to the core of my feet with liquid nitrogen -_-" and one would think thats the end of the torment at least till nxt treatment scheduled 2 weeks from now ... BUT NO ~ bloody blisters are formed ... did some read up on the net ... and realised that its part of the treatment -_-" ... Anywayz got them punctured today at my GP's ... Think I'll do my own puncturing nxt time ... cost me $24 to puncture 2 blisters and get a tube of cream ... sheez ...
Well enough abt the torments =
Heres a little surprize i picked up while reading up on blisters ... some adventurers came up with a 6 dice game of BLISTERS ... named affectionately after the empire residing on both his feet haha ~ Anywayz interesting game ... Inspiring too think I'll have Quayzard suggested to somebody and start selling too *winkz*
What is Quayzard ? Its something that came to me in my dreams interesting game ... hmm ... Wanna know more come to me ... The name ? well it came with the dream too so don't ask ... Been having quite a few dejavu with dreams and reality ... Think i'm prophetic ? hahaha
Simon The Visionary ! sounds cool ehz ? *mindless laughter*
Went for a moive with Ariel last nite ~ Brothers Grim ... Interesting show ... complilation or maybe more of adaptations of quite a number of european fairytales all came together in a tale of swindlers turned heros ... where seeing is believing and believing is the key to sucess ~ HaHa ~ They should empoly me to slogan their movie =)
Well supposed to be in sch working on FYP but them bloody blisters are still in my way ~ Hopefully I'll regain my mobility soon
OH well anywayz ... Not sure abt them warts ... BUT I know I was getting freezed to the core of my feet with liquid nitrogen -_-" and one would think thats the end of the torment at least till nxt treatment scheduled 2 weeks from now ... BUT NO ~ bloody blisters are formed ... did some read up on the net ... and realised that its part of the treatment -_-" ... Anywayz got them punctured today at my GP's ... Think I'll do my own puncturing nxt time ... cost me $24 to puncture 2 blisters and get a tube of cream ... sheez ...
Well enough abt the torments =
Heres a little surprize i picked up while reading up on blisters ... some adventurers came up with a 6 dice game of BLISTERS ... named affectionately after the empire residing on both his feet haha ~ Anywayz interesting game ... Inspiring too think I'll have Quayzard suggested to somebody and start selling too *winkz*
What is Quayzard ? Its something that came to me in my dreams interesting game ... hmm ... Wanna know more come to me ... The name ? well it came with the dream too so don't ask ... Been having quite a few dejavu with dreams and reality ... Think i'm prophetic ? hahaha
Simon The Visionary ! sounds cool ehz ? *mindless laughter*
Went for a moive with Ariel last nite ~ Brothers Grim ... Interesting show ... complilation or maybe more of adaptations of quite a number of european fairytales all came together in a tale of swindlers turned heros ... where seeing is believing and believing is the key to sucess ~ HaHa ~ They should empoly me to slogan their movie =)
Well supposed to be in sch working on FYP but them bloody blisters are still in my way ~ Hopefully I'll regain my mobility soon
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
The New Chapter
Ah yes ~ Finally we come to the end of this seemingly long semester ... 7 weeks of academics never felt longer ... Been a frantic ... heavy semester that made absolutely no sense to me ... turbulance levels never hit greater heights on the meters of problems and troubles ... Enduring it was definately no breeze of wind ... I guess one word sums it all ... "Katrina"
Haha a little exaggerated but yea ~ u get the idea =)
Well glad that this chapter is coming to an end ... the "holidays" hopefully bring a better semester ahead ... FYP & training would occupy most of the holiday period ... My plans ? None out of school work ... But hoping to spend sometime catch up with old friends ... repair those rusty bridges and those erroding with time ... feel quite guilty for not keeping in touch with old friends ... But this semester has taught me that we build bridges not to leave them to rot ... Picking up the big mess after the storm is another thing to be done =)
Oh yes ! camps ... time for simon to go back to the participant level and enjoy camps while i still have the chance ... the feel of NS is creeping in on me ... and I'm not liking it ... I love my country I'd die for its people if I must ... But I'm just never keen on military discipline =(
So people ... If you're free OR you've a camp I can come to ... do let me know =)
Heres another msg : IF YOU'RE READING THIS BEFORE TUESDAY 20th OF SEPTEMBER AND YOU WERE PREVIOUSLY FROM MAYFLOWER .... DO CALL ME WITH REGARDS TO A REUNION DINNER CUM XJ & DAP'S FAREWELL ...
Quote: Life is never meant to be smooth sailing ~ Which sailor never knew a tempermental sea ? Which vessel of the sea is built for calm waters only ?
Haha a little exaggerated but yea ~ u get the idea =)
Well glad that this chapter is coming to an end ... the "holidays" hopefully bring a better semester ahead ... FYP & training would occupy most of the holiday period ... My plans ? None out of school work ... But hoping to spend sometime catch up with old friends ... repair those rusty bridges and those erroding with time ... feel quite guilty for not keeping in touch with old friends ... But this semester has taught me that we build bridges not to leave them to rot ... Picking up the big mess after the storm is another thing to be done =)
Oh yes ! camps ... time for simon to go back to the participant level and enjoy camps while i still have the chance ... the feel of NS is creeping in on me ... and I'm not liking it ... I love my country I'd die for its people if I must ... But I'm just never keen on military discipline =(
So people ... If you're free OR you've a camp I can come to ... do let me know =)
Heres another msg : IF YOU'RE READING THIS BEFORE TUESDAY 20th OF SEPTEMBER AND YOU WERE PREVIOUSLY FROM MAYFLOWER .... DO CALL ME WITH REGARDS TO A REUNION DINNER CUM XJ & DAP'S FAREWELL ...
Quote: Life is never meant to be smooth sailing ~ Which sailor never knew a tempermental sea ? Which vessel of the sea is built for calm waters only ?
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
At Peace With Myself ~
Past few days had been good =) Peaceful ... Quiet ... Not many emotional outburst ...
Save the mental torment of studying ... I guess its been the best days this semester !
Had a nice fruitful talk with deyang a few nites back ... though it was a short conversation ... but my dear friend has always been a great mentor who gives great counsel ... You know what ? I think you're right bro ! I feel so much better now ...
PDC is seems to be stuck ... God Bless Us ? hahaha
Anywayz 3 papers down and two more to go ! Getting there people ... Push it !
Save the mental torment of studying ... I guess its been the best days this semester !
Had a nice fruitful talk with deyang a few nites back ... though it was a short conversation ... but my dear friend has always been a great mentor who gives great counsel ... You know what ? I think you're right bro ! I feel so much better now ...
PDC is seems to be stuck ... God Bless Us ? hahaha
Anywayz 3 papers down and two more to go ! Getting there people ... Push it !
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Sunday at long last ~
Well well ~ Tanglin Friendly was yesterday and ngee ann went home with all the gold throphies !!! =) *cheers to NPF*
Sabre Teams bagged a Gold for both Men's and Ladies' events ... A Silver as well ~
Foil Teams brought home the another 2 Golds for Ngee Ann ...
A Day to celebrate indeed ... 5 teams and 5 top throphies ! Although we were fencing only Tanglin Secondary ... Sounds like bullying kids ... But trust me we have no more fencing experience than they do =P
Pesta Sukan would give us a better national standing and our teams managed to bring home 2 Silvers from the Sabre events ~ So based on that I suppose we aren't really bad either =)
I think I've a soft spot for people in need ... friend, foe or otherwise ... wonder if that is all good ... makes me a bad soldier =(
Sabre Teams bagged a Gold for both Men's and Ladies' events ... A Silver as well ~
Foil Teams brought home the another 2 Golds for Ngee Ann ...
A Day to celebrate indeed ... 5 teams and 5 top throphies ! Although we were fencing only Tanglin Secondary ... Sounds like bullying kids ... But trust me we have no more fencing experience than they do =P
Pesta Sukan would give us a better national standing and our teams managed to bring home 2 Silvers from the Sabre events ~ So based on that I suppose we aren't really bad either =)
I think I've a soft spot for people in need ... friend, foe or otherwise ... wonder if that is all good ... makes me a bad soldier =(
Thursday, September 01, 2005
I should be studying ~
Hmm ... blogging agian ? Damn I must be feeling really off ~ -_-" Well ... with knowledge that some unpleasent people may have access to my blog ... I'm still gonna just pour my heart out =\ Like why the fuck would i care yar ?
Mmm ... Mrs.Tang u don't know how right you are ... Stress ... Strains and Implications ... I'm dying ... Year 3 is really a phrase u wanna get out of "faster faster" (as dr.zaman would say) ... Hai~ I really should pull myself together and get my life back on track ...
I can cry out to God for a million times ... pour out to everyone I see ... but its not gonna help sitting ard whinning and praying for miracles ~
Deyang where are u ? I need your ever reassuring words ... This brother of mine is always there to put me back on track ... to give me the right advice at the right time ... to help me sort out my thoughts when i've sank far deep below ... but like all people we meet ... our paths will diverage ... =(
Ben ? Ben ? Are u anywhere near ? Yet another name that sooths the heart with words and a tide slap to wake up one's idea ...
Simon is a bad guy ... Seeks people only when in need ... Simon has weak character ... cannot accomodate excessive people in his life ... cannot handle his own emotions ...
This post WILL soon be deleted ... I hope ... ha ~ For my enemies enjoy ... For my friends ... I'm sorry you guys have to see this ...
Mmm ... Mrs.Tang u don't know how right you are ... Stress ... Strains and Implications ... I'm dying ... Year 3 is really a phrase u wanna get out of "faster faster" (as dr.zaman would say) ... Hai~ I really should pull myself together and get my life back on track ...
I can cry out to God for a million times ... pour out to everyone I see ... but its not gonna help sitting ard whinning and praying for miracles ~
Deyang where are u ? I need your ever reassuring words ... This brother of mine is always there to put me back on track ... to give me the right advice at the right time ... to help me sort out my thoughts when i've sank far deep below ... but like all people we meet ... our paths will diverage ... =(
Ben ? Ben ? Are u anywhere near ? Yet another name that sooths the heart with words and a tide slap to wake up one's idea ...
Simon is a bad guy ... Seeks people only when in need ... Simon has weak character ... cannot accomodate excessive people in his life ... cannot handle his own emotions ...
This post WILL soon be deleted ... I hope ... ha ~ For my enemies enjoy ... For my friends ... I'm sorry you guys have to see this ...
Am I The Healer Or The Killer ?
If u guys remember the post I once made regarding how some people can pour every bit of love they have into someone's life and yet the other party simply doesn't notice and may even be only pouring love elsewhere ?
I guess all of a sudden I feel guilty ... Life has been an emotional roller coaster for me ... Alot stuff been happening ... I feel neglected ... I feel lost ... I'm in pain ... But in this process of self pity I've become what i hate the most (self-centered, ignorant, unreasonable, childish) ... I'm so focus on getting one person's attention ... I failed to realise that there are those who are giving me attention and waiting for me to respond ... =( I'm sorry people ... Simon has not been the guy you all know ... Amongst all ... I wanna publicly apologise to xj who has always been there for me just that i never really showed appreciation nor did i responded well to her =(
Thankz xj ~
Emotions surely has taken its toll this time around ... find my academic performance dropping, my physical performance dropping, my abilities to communicate to entertain ... everything ... What is wrong with me ? It has never came to this point before ... gotta pull myself together =\ Come on Simon ~ Time to get back on track ...
Staff and student was a diaster with me not being on top form ... =( I'm sorry edmund and huiting ... sorry Ayu , Hardi and Shu Juan ... But then again I think its just my high expectations ... met a few peeps ... appears we've made quite an impact =)
Well ... I have mentioned in previous post abt this bugger who walked into my life and intended to make his problem mine ? Guess he must be the evil I must remove ... YET I feel sorry for him ... I feel that If I'm to seriously take actions against him ... then he might not be able to take it ... BUT ... Its hard to choose between killing yourself and someone else ... liddat how ? someone tell me please ? God's choice is clear ... self sacrifice ... but I'm not God ... so how ?
*looks into the heavens* Shine me thy guiding light ?
I guess all of a sudden I feel guilty ... Life has been an emotional roller coaster for me ... Alot stuff been happening ... I feel neglected ... I feel lost ... I'm in pain ... But in this process of self pity I've become what i hate the most (self-centered, ignorant, unreasonable, childish) ... I'm so focus on getting one person's attention ... I failed to realise that there are those who are giving me attention and waiting for me to respond ... =( I'm sorry people ... Simon has not been the guy you all know ... Amongst all ... I wanna publicly apologise to xj who has always been there for me just that i never really showed appreciation nor did i responded well to her =(
Thankz xj ~
Emotions surely has taken its toll this time around ... find my academic performance dropping, my physical performance dropping, my abilities to communicate to entertain ... everything ... What is wrong with me ? It has never came to this point before ... gotta pull myself together =\ Come on Simon ~ Time to get back on track ...
Staff and student was a diaster with me not being on top form ... =( I'm sorry edmund and huiting ... sorry Ayu , Hardi and Shu Juan ... But then again I think its just my high expectations ... met a few peeps ... appears we've made quite an impact =)
Well ... I have mentioned in previous post abt this bugger who walked into my life and intended to make his problem mine ? Guess he must be the evil I must remove ... YET I feel sorry for him ... I feel that If I'm to seriously take actions against him ... then he might not be able to take it ... BUT ... Its hard to choose between killing yourself and someone else ... liddat how ? someone tell me please ? God's choice is clear ... self sacrifice ... but I'm not God ... so how ?
*looks into the heavens* Shine me thy guiding light ?
Friday, August 26, 2005
Funny Story ?
If you've been reading this blog u know that there is nothing to look forward to ... It catalogs only the worse parts of my life rarely anything good happens to me =( Everything good is probably because of everything bad that has happened ? HaHaHa
As usual ... Just dropping by to let my emotions out ... Been having a tough time with a close friend ... Infact been having tough times with 2 close friends ...
Bevan does seem to be anywhere in sight or within my reach anymore ... Where is my brother ? Will he be back ? What does it mean to abandon your friend apologise and never to return ? I'm waiting Bro ... If U're reading ... please contact me soon ? I never could hold anything against U for more than a day ... Come home to me Bro ... I'm waiting ...
U think with such a blow I'd be dead ? I thought so too ... But thanks to many friends ard me ... Whether or not they know of the case ... I remain sane ... Then again ... You nv expect 2 blows in the same semester ... would ya ? Well thats my life ...
Relationship between me and Jess has never been worse ... Especially at such a weak time ... What one needs is not another close friend to walk out on you ... I can't help but having many thoughts ...
Well at least things are seemingly becoming better for us ... with the talking and a little heart to heart we've come to an understanding ... BUT sometimes ... being the good guy isn't easy ...
Times are getting diffucult ... Mrs.Tang was right ... Year 3 is a trying year where relationships strains, faith fades, emotions runs wild ... Will to go on is under threat ... Everything is too fragile for big moves ...
This is the time I think a close friend is of utmost importance ... Someone you can talk to ... Someone you can trust to always be there when you look ...
So year 2s be prepared ~ Build Strong BONDS ... Keep your close friends close ...
Where do i stand ? I stand victim to someone else's incapacity to maintain his own clique, to keep his friends and someone who innocently or otherwise decided its alright to walk into someone else's life and take their friends as his own during such trying times ...
OF CAUSE ... he is an INNOCENT guy ... he is a NICE guy ... just needs a friend ... so who am I to say he is in the wrong ? I can only blame myself that my heart cannot capacitate and accomodate people ... Silly Simple Issue ... OF CAUSE IT IS ... Silly am I ... Simple is the situation ... Issue here is ... So some people walks into my life and makes himself comfortable ... because his is ruined ... So heres the million dollar question ? AM I TO WALK INTO AND RUIN SOMEONE ELSE's LIFE ?
OF cause plenty of people will know who I'm refering to ... But it is NOT good to wrong INNOCENT ... PITIFUL ... NICE guys who just needs a friend ... So I rather WRONG myself ... after all ... I'm quite sure I'm not INNOCENT ... not PITIFUL and not a NICE guy ... nope not all ... BAH ~ !
As usual ... Just dropping by to let my emotions out ... Been having a tough time with a close friend ... Infact been having tough times with 2 close friends ...
Bevan does seem to be anywhere in sight or within my reach anymore ... Where is my brother ? Will he be back ? What does it mean to abandon your friend apologise and never to return ? I'm waiting Bro ... If U're reading ... please contact me soon ? I never could hold anything against U for more than a day ... Come home to me Bro ... I'm waiting ...
U think with such a blow I'd be dead ? I thought so too ... But thanks to many friends ard me ... Whether or not they know of the case ... I remain sane ... Then again ... You nv expect 2 blows in the same semester ... would ya ? Well thats my life ...
Relationship between me and Jess has never been worse ... Especially at such a weak time ... What one needs is not another close friend to walk out on you ... I can't help but having many thoughts ...
Well at least things are seemingly becoming better for us ... with the talking and a little heart to heart we've come to an understanding ... BUT sometimes ... being the good guy isn't easy ...
Times are getting diffucult ... Mrs.Tang was right ... Year 3 is a trying year where relationships strains, faith fades, emotions runs wild ... Will to go on is under threat ... Everything is too fragile for big moves ...
This is the time I think a close friend is of utmost importance ... Someone you can talk to ... Someone you can trust to always be there when you look ...
So year 2s be prepared ~ Build Strong BONDS ... Keep your close friends close ...
Where do i stand ? I stand victim to someone else's incapacity to maintain his own clique, to keep his friends and someone who innocently or otherwise decided its alright to walk into someone else's life and take their friends as his own during such trying times ...
OF CAUSE ... he is an INNOCENT guy ... he is a NICE guy ... just needs a friend ... so who am I to say he is in the wrong ? I can only blame myself that my heart cannot capacitate and accomodate people ... Silly Simple Issue ... OF CAUSE IT IS ... Silly am I ... Simple is the situation ... Issue here is ... So some people walks into my life and makes himself comfortable ... because his is ruined ... So heres the million dollar question ? AM I TO WALK INTO AND RUIN SOMEONE ELSE's LIFE ?
OF cause plenty of people will know who I'm refering to ... But it is NOT good to wrong INNOCENT ... PITIFUL ... NICE guys who just needs a friend ... So I rather WRONG myself ... after all ... I'm quite sure I'm not INNOCENT ... not PITIFUL and not a NICE guy ... nope not all ... BAH ~ !
Monday, August 15, 2005
Life ... how VERY wonderful ...
Hello ~ wondering why I'm blogging at such an hour ? me too ... Should be doing reports that are due tml ... but dumb me decided to visit a number of blogs and sank deep into feeling sorry for myself again ... so I just HAD to find an outlet before i continue ...
I really don't understand where I've gone wrong ... sometimes I think i do ... but then again ... when i sit to think ... I'm not really that wrong ... so whats wrong ? HA ... I wished I knew ...
Heres a something that has been huanting me badly for quite awhile ...
If u love someone u're better off letting her do what she wants ... BUT what if when u do ... it'll only hurt u ? This is called self sacrifice ... Or after awhile I think I'm plain dumb ... BUT at least I remain a nice guy ...
So heres my new strategy in appoarch of getting myself a gf ... Find a nice gal ... whack within 3 dates ... Sounds crazy ? Beats waiting ard for 2 years knowing u'll get nothing in the whole mix ... If U want advice ... being too nice to people means being too bad to yourself ... where there is ying there is yang ... where there is good there is evil ... where there is balance everything is good ... when balance is tilt ... then one man's gain is the other's loss ... Chew on that ~ Believe it !
Well on the bright side (though given I'm supposed to do work not that good but appreciated) ~ got dragged out in the afternoons by team venturejuana ... Attendance was lack of Edmund Lim (Logistic & Entertainment Specialist) & Casper (Programs, Finance & Adventure Consultant). Present were Ayu (Safety and Programs Consultant), Ariel(Secretary & Entertainments Specialist) & Brian "The Boss" (need i say more?) .... Attempted to catch the fireworks ... not very successful ... Had a good dinner at carl jr. and an absolutely wonderful time at Mind's Cafe (Boss got cheated into getting membership) so ... I guess we'll be back there more often =p
I really don't understand where I've gone wrong ... sometimes I think i do ... but then again ... when i sit to think ... I'm not really that wrong ... so whats wrong ? HA ... I wished I knew ...
Heres a something that has been huanting me badly for quite awhile ...
If u love someone u're better off letting her do what she wants ... BUT what if when u do ... it'll only hurt u ? This is called self sacrifice ... Or after awhile I think I'm plain dumb ... BUT at least I remain a nice guy ...
So heres my new strategy in appoarch of getting myself a gf ... Find a nice gal ... whack within 3 dates ... Sounds crazy ? Beats waiting ard for 2 years knowing u'll get nothing in the whole mix ... If U want advice ... being too nice to people means being too bad to yourself ... where there is ying there is yang ... where there is good there is evil ... where there is balance everything is good ... when balance is tilt ... then one man's gain is the other's loss ... Chew on that ~ Believe it !
Well on the bright side (though given I'm supposed to do work not that good but appreciated) ~ got dragged out in the afternoons by team venturejuana ... Attendance was lack of Edmund Lim (Logistic & Entertainment Specialist) & Casper (Programs, Finance & Adventure Consultant). Present were Ayu (Safety and Programs Consultant), Ariel(Secretary & Entertainments Specialist) & Brian "The Boss" (need i say more?) .... Attempted to catch the fireworks ... not very successful ... Had a good dinner at carl jr. and an absolutely wonderful time at Mind's Cafe (Boss got cheated into getting membership) so ... I guess we'll be back there more often =p
Friday, June 10, 2005
Basic Communications With Your Soul ~
Good Afternoon ~ I'm sitting in office doing nothing once again ... so heres a little update and some thoughts i had of recent ... rememeber its all my opinions ... enjoy ~
Life I guess is never an easy road ... closing to 2mths 1 wk of attachment with CMM has given light to many misconceptions and previous believes for me (with regards to life ... society ... laboratories and people)
I guess working is never meant to be something fun ... but as the saying goes " how much fun you have depends very much on how much fun you want to have "...
In the reseach environment, fun is not a tangible value (then again ... since when was it tangible) ... So I guess passion is the key to sustaining the will to come to work and go through the same crap everyday =) However passion isn't something that comes at will ... which brings me to ponder if I will eventually go into the line of research ... Will Dr.Simon Soh become a dream that never becomes reality ? only time will tell ...
To me the research life meant exciting discoveries and endless mind boggling puzzles to be sloved with people working together to make it all happen in an intensive environment with uncountable array of chemicals ... Well the fact is ... I'm not all that wrong ... arrays of chemical yes ... just not really in use all the time ... intensive environment ... er ... not really ... people working together ... perhaps just a few ... in fact looking on the bright side lab isn't all that serious a place to be ... yet the endless repetition of the same protocol isn't exactly what i was looking for ...
Well enough abt labs and work ... i guess not many out there (even biologist in trg) may end up working in labs ... so moving on ...
In the course of time between now and when i first left sch for attachment ... I've come to realise that some habits that one may assume people grow out of may actually linger late into their lives if not attended to ... people in their 20s with no social skill .... people reaching their 30s with no goal in life ... people in their 30s with a general distaste for life & people ... I don't know ... maybe somewhere in there life they lost sight of their goals ... maybe somewhere along the path they forgot that their roots ... or maybe ... just maybe they sank into depression and gave up but no one ever came along to pick them up ...
In my opinion these people really need some help ... nothing too special ... perhaps from family ... a friend that cares ... if not there is always God ...
I can go blabber on and on ... for the rest of the day ... but from 11 20 in the morning ... I've been trying to post this entry till now ... which is abt 11 20 at nite ... so I shall type more another day ... For now my friends =) More for all to ponder on ...
Quote of the day:
"When in high spirits ... Seize the day ~ live it for what it is worth ... Yet keep in sight thy goal and forget not thy roots ...
When downcast by moods ... Dispair not & live for the better tomorrow ~For the goal is nearer with each passing moment ~ Take comfort that from thy roots strength is free to be drawn ... "
---Theorem of Le FoX
Life I guess is never an easy road ... closing to 2mths 1 wk of attachment with CMM has given light to many misconceptions and previous believes for me (with regards to life ... society ... laboratories and people)
I guess working is never meant to be something fun ... but as the saying goes " how much fun you have depends very much on how much fun you want to have "...
In the reseach environment, fun is not a tangible value (then again ... since when was it tangible) ... So I guess passion is the key to sustaining the will to come to work and go through the same crap everyday =) However passion isn't something that comes at will ... which brings me to ponder if I will eventually go into the line of research ... Will Dr.Simon Soh become a dream that never becomes reality ? only time will tell ...
To me the research life meant exciting discoveries and endless mind boggling puzzles to be sloved with people working together to make it all happen in an intensive environment with uncountable array of chemicals ... Well the fact is ... I'm not all that wrong ... arrays of chemical yes ... just not really in use all the time ... intensive environment ... er ... not really ... people working together ... perhaps just a few ... in fact looking on the bright side lab isn't all that serious a place to be ... yet the endless repetition of the same protocol isn't exactly what i was looking for ...
Well enough abt labs and work ... i guess not many out there (even biologist in trg) may end up working in labs ... so moving on ...
In the course of time between now and when i first left sch for attachment ... I've come to realise that some habits that one may assume people grow out of may actually linger late into their lives if not attended to ... people in their 20s with no social skill .... people reaching their 30s with no goal in life ... people in their 30s with a general distaste for life & people ... I don't know ... maybe somewhere in there life they lost sight of their goals ... maybe somewhere along the path they forgot that their roots ... or maybe ... just maybe they sank into depression and gave up but no one ever came along to pick them up ...
In my opinion these people really need some help ... nothing too special ... perhaps from family ... a friend that cares ... if not there is always God ...
I can go blabber on and on ... for the rest of the day ... but from 11 20 in the morning ... I've been trying to post this entry till now ... which is abt 11 20 at nite ... so I shall type more another day ... For now my friends =) More for all to ponder on ...
Quote of the day:
"When in high spirits ... Seize the day ~ live it for what it is worth ... Yet keep in sight thy goal and forget not thy roots ...
When downcast by moods ... Dispair not & live for the better tomorrow ~For the goal is nearer with each passing moment ~ Take comfort that from thy roots strength is free to be drawn ... "
---Theorem of Le FoX
Sunday, June 05, 2005
The Friendly Community ~
Well today has been interesting ... Went out for a walk ard town with shahid and henry ~ Very very fruitful day indeed ... Got myself a new polo tee but still no berms/pants ...
But ~ First we met a really old friend koon mean (jun min) - president of MFSC when I was in sec 1 ... Then met Terry and Zhi Hui (wonder if they're dating) ... Then there is KaiXiang and later met Wei Ming (my NCO when i was in sec 1) ... followed by Veronica (old friend from CISCO) ... Finally ... there met Casper ~ haha how many people can u meet in a day !!!
Well ~ after we concluded that we had enough walking for a day we retired to karim - the usual chill out mama shop for teh tarik and chup chai ~ haha like thats a new idea yar ? healthier choice of finger food ~
Damn boring post rite ? HaHa ... I guess I shouldn't really be sad and disappointed with my life ... given the amt of friends i have ... But ~ being only human I'll want more ...
Ever noticed that the one who is always there for people don't really have that many people who is always there for him when he is in need ? I guess if u're the one always there for someone or everyone u'd probably notice haha ~ I'm not complaining that there isn't enough people ard for me ... neither am i saying that I'm such a nice guy that I'm always ard for people ... but just wondering why people can become so devoted to give to certain people but not others and yet those on the receiving end may be more interested in pouring their love and their concerns elsewhere ? For someone else ?
The most conventional answer : Humans are objective and goal oriented creatures (yes everyone ... like it or not) ... We're designed in such that we will do what we deem beneficial to ourselves. Its a matter of how one defines beneficial ... It may not be a bad thing ... yet it can be a terrible thing ...
The true answer ? There is none ... For that only God knows ... What we can do is to ask ourselves ... the 5 wives and 1 husband technique ... Why? Where? When? What? Who? How ? ... I think this is the one technique MOE has decided everyone should know and I had nothing to argue abt ... it works for everyone for alot of things ... well just a little thought to chew on ~
But ~ First we met a really old friend koon mean (jun min) - president of MFSC when I was in sec 1 ... Then met Terry and Zhi Hui (wonder if they're dating) ... Then there is KaiXiang and later met Wei Ming (my NCO when i was in sec 1) ... followed by Veronica (old friend from CISCO) ... Finally ... there met Casper ~ haha how many people can u meet in a day !!!
Well ~ after we concluded that we had enough walking for a day we retired to karim - the usual chill out mama shop for teh tarik and chup chai ~ haha like thats a new idea yar ? healthier choice of finger food ~
Damn boring post rite ? HaHa ... I guess I shouldn't really be sad and disappointed with my life ... given the amt of friends i have ... But ~ being only human I'll want more ...
Ever noticed that the one who is always there for people don't really have that many people who is always there for him when he is in need ? I guess if u're the one always there for someone or everyone u'd probably notice haha ~ I'm not complaining that there isn't enough people ard for me ... neither am i saying that I'm such a nice guy that I'm always ard for people ... but just wondering why people can become so devoted to give to certain people but not others and yet those on the receiving end may be more interested in pouring their love and their concerns elsewhere ? For someone else ?
The most conventional answer : Humans are objective and goal oriented creatures (yes everyone ... like it or not) ... We're designed in such that we will do what we deem beneficial to ourselves. Its a matter of how one defines beneficial ... It may not be a bad thing ... yet it can be a terrible thing ...
The true answer ? There is none ... For that only God knows ... What we can do is to ask ourselves ... the 5 wives and 1 husband technique ... Why? Where? When? What? Who? How ? ... I think this is the one technique MOE has decided everyone should know and I had nothing to argue abt ... it works for everyone for alot of things ... well just a little thought to chew on ~
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Updated at long last =P
Well Well ~ either been freaking bz or freaking bored ... Here are some highlights of my life in the past month or so ...
Yet another retreat with shahid ... clayton but this time without joel instead we've got henry ... Ubin is massively changing rapidly ... I do hope the goverment will not destroy this small island paradise that gives the slightest of kumpung life left in singapore .... It holds many memories for many people ... The old ... the young ... couples ... friends ... cadets ... adventurers ... kumpungers ... Alot ... Well the trip was no lost met some TAS people in trg not really very friendly but i guess they're just in trg ... Met some guys from a SFC ( Singapore Flying College) ... now they were very friendly ! asked for cigarettes -_-" Well Well ... cept a little trouble from some dogs apart from that we had fun =)
LSCT Freshmen Orientation Camp =) Once again living the high life of a GL ? haha Not exactly ... as an SGL at camp ... We've became more of a support and advice committee rather than taking up the challenge running and executing in the lime lights ... Don't get me wrong ... it has it fun part ... and we're still running and executing the camp just at a different level and outside the limelights most of the time ... Not I mind ... but it would had been nicer if i've got to know some of the freshies =\ But nonetheless I wasn't really in the top of mood myself ... and i did get to know a couple of the GLs better so no reason complains i guess ...
Apart from that got to know some of the AGLs and even some of my fellow SGLs better ... Went for a little trip overnight at palawan beach completed with our very own campfire ! Haven't had any kinda campfire since ... maybe the ubin retreat with joel ... Had our small adventure of a night walk ... not very exciting ... but I guess everyone is just tired ...
I guess that sums up the happier times ... Work is getting routine ... I've been out alot ... but somehow a certain part of me is just empty ... unfilled out ... lack of a little something ... I don't know what is wrong with me ... Been searching myself for awhile ... looking for a reason of my being ... thinking abt problems left unsolved for ages ... I've found some answers and more questions wonder if this whole idea is worth it ... Been freaking moody and i've no one to talk to ... simply becoz there is nothing i can say ! arghz ~
Yet another retreat with shahid ... clayton but this time without joel instead we've got henry ... Ubin is massively changing rapidly ... I do hope the goverment will not destroy this small island paradise that gives the slightest of kumpung life left in singapore .... It holds many memories for many people ... The old ... the young ... couples ... friends ... cadets ... adventurers ... kumpungers ... Alot ... Well the trip was no lost met some TAS people in trg not really very friendly but i guess they're just in trg ... Met some guys from a SFC ( Singapore Flying College) ... now they were very friendly ! asked for cigarettes -_-" Well Well ... cept a little trouble from some dogs apart from that we had fun =)
LSCT Freshmen Orientation Camp =) Once again living the high life of a GL ? haha Not exactly ... as an SGL at camp ... We've became more of a support and advice committee rather than taking up the challenge running and executing in the lime lights ... Don't get me wrong ... it has it fun part ... and we're still running and executing the camp just at a different level and outside the limelights most of the time ... Not I mind ... but it would had been nicer if i've got to know some of the freshies =\ But nonetheless I wasn't really in the top of mood myself ... and i did get to know a couple of the GLs better so no reason complains i guess ...
Apart from that got to know some of the AGLs and even some of my fellow SGLs better ... Went for a little trip overnight at palawan beach completed with our very own campfire ! Haven't had any kinda campfire since ... maybe the ubin retreat with joel ... Had our small adventure of a night walk ... not very exciting ... but I guess everyone is just tired ...
I guess that sums up the happier times ... Work is getting routine ... I've been out alot ... but somehow a certain part of me is just empty ... unfilled out ... lack of a little something ... I don't know what is wrong with me ... Been searching myself for awhile ... looking for a reason of my being ... thinking abt problems left unsolved for ages ... I've found some answers and more questions wonder if this whole idea is worth it ... Been freaking moody and i've no one to talk to ... simply becoz there is nothing i can say ! arghz ~
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
News Flash : Coloured Cow Phenomena
News Flash !
*news music plays*
Massive amounts of coloured cows have been sighted at a number of empty fields around the Island country of Singapore ! Why have they appeared ? Who is responsible for this ? What is the meaning of this ? When did they appear ? How did they get there ?
Investigators are now looking into the case ~ they've rejected comments to the press hence far ...
Reporting live ~ Simon Soh ~
Back to you at the studio ~
*news music plays*
Tune in for more report on the cow news tml ~
Local news on Ngee Ann Poly ... The School of Life Science Director has been offically promoted to Senior Director of Ngee Ann Poly ... Still holding the post of Director of LSCT ~ Dr. Sushila Chang now runs not only LSCT but also HSN (School of Health Sciences: Nursing) which is directed by Dr.Phang Chiew Hun ~ Congrates to both ~
Thank you for tuning in to Interesting News @ The Den ~
Good Night Sweet Dreams~
*news music plays*
Massive amounts of coloured cows have been sighted at a number of empty fields around the Island country of Singapore ! Why have they appeared ? Who is responsible for this ? What is the meaning of this ? When did they appear ? How did they get there ?
Investigators are now looking into the case ~ they've rejected comments to the press hence far ...
Reporting live ~ Simon Soh ~
Back to you at the studio ~
*news music plays*
Tune in for more report on the cow news tml ~
Local news on Ngee Ann Poly ... The School of Life Science Director has been offically promoted to Senior Director of Ngee Ann Poly ... Still holding the post of Director of LSCT ~ Dr. Sushila Chang now runs not only LSCT but also HSN (School of Health Sciences: Nursing) which is directed by Dr.Phang Chiew Hun ~ Congrates to both ~
Thank you for tuning in to Interesting News @ The Den ~
Good Night Sweet Dreams~
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Finding the Balance : Work & Life ~
Juggling time is perhaps the one skill that is most emphasized but least mastered of arts throughout one's school life as a student ~ How often does one hear the phrase "You have to learn to juggle your time for school work, CCA and yourself" ?
Often have I heard and read from comments of teachers on students, so and so has good time management juggling both academics and CCA ... That alone seems good enough for the teachers/mentors of schools ... Yet ~ how often do we neglect the fact that Balance is not just work ~ There is also Life to worry abt ~ afterall Life is what we're living ... work is what we do to sustain it based on society requirements ...
Being on attachment one learns that in an enviroment of work there are limitations social life ~ People pays you to work for a certain number of hours a week and that is something you're compelled to do ~ Unlike school ... you don't get to just sit ard and listen ~ At work one has to think more often than one receives instructions ... Another difference is ~ the learning process very experiential based ~
I think I might had side tracked too much ~ back to the topic ... the working life has much limitations to social life ~ Very often ~ social life is highly compromised for those who makes no efforts to maintain it ~ Then again ... it is very tiring to juggle between the two to reach the Balance ... For myself ... it has very much been a chore and I'm only experiencing working life on a minimal level ~ God help me ~ Gotta learn to adapt to it ~ Adding to that there are emotional attachments to friends that one takes very much granted in school ... the day to day people you see ... you play with ... you laugh with ... One just don't see them often anymore ~
=) Alot of getting used to after a little reflection on a week's work ~
Till nxt time ~ I leave one and all to ponder over the theme of Balance of Work and Life ~
Often have I heard and read from comments of teachers on students, so and so has good time management juggling both academics and CCA ... That alone seems good enough for the teachers/mentors of schools ... Yet ~ how often do we neglect the fact that Balance is not just work ~ There is also Life to worry abt ~ afterall Life is what we're living ... work is what we do to sustain it based on society requirements ...
Being on attachment one learns that in an enviroment of work there are limitations social life ~ People pays you to work for a certain number of hours a week and that is something you're compelled to do ~ Unlike school ... you don't get to just sit ard and listen ~ At work one has to think more often than one receives instructions ... Another difference is ~ the learning process very experiential based ~
I think I might had side tracked too much ~ back to the topic ... the working life has much limitations to social life ~ Very often ~ social life is highly compromised for those who makes no efforts to maintain it ~ Then again ... it is very tiring to juggle between the two to reach the Balance ... For myself ... it has very much been a chore and I'm only experiencing working life on a minimal level ~ God help me ~ Gotta learn to adapt to it ~ Adding to that there are emotional attachments to friends that one takes very much granted in school ... the day to day people you see ... you play with ... you laugh with ... One just don't see them often anymore ~
=) Alot of getting used to after a little reflection on a week's work ~
Till nxt time ~ I leave one and all to ponder over the theme of Balance of Work and Life ~
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Call Me DrosophilaMan~
Hello People ~
Day 3 starting to settle into CMM ~ Getting to know more new people and those I already know are getting friendlier ( don't get me wrong ~ they are already friendly people ~ Just getting more familiar thats all... )
Been working with flies since day 1 ... Being someone who never liked anything more than 4 legs I guess this is a BIG thing ~ Working 3 days with flies ... larvae and pupae ~ This week is generally selection for breeding and taking care of those pesky lil' things ~ Next week I'll be going on a KILLING spree as we move into the disection and screening phase ~
Got my temp card ~ so NO MORE PINK LANYARD ~
Tml shall go ard biopolis and enjoy a little stroll ard =) EXPLORATION ~
Btw a little note on today's title ~ the flies i'm working with are Drosophila Flies (or more commonly known as the fruit flies ~ you can find them lingering ard your bunch of ripe bananas and garbage bags) ... so the rest I'll leave it to your imaginations =p
Quote of the day: "There is NOTHING to Fear But Fear itself ~"---Theorem of LeFoX (quoted from Sir Winston Churchill)
Day 3 starting to settle into CMM ~ Getting to know more new people and those I already know are getting friendlier ( don't get me wrong ~ they are already friendly people ~ Just getting more familiar thats all... )
Been working with flies since day 1 ... Being someone who never liked anything more than 4 legs I guess this is a BIG thing ~ Working 3 days with flies ... larvae and pupae ~ This week is generally selection for breeding and taking care of those pesky lil' things ~ Next week I'll be going on a KILLING spree as we move into the disection and screening phase ~
Got my temp card ~ so NO MORE PINK LANYARD ~
Tml shall go ard biopolis and enjoy a little stroll ard =) EXPLORATION ~
Btw a little note on today's title ~ the flies i'm working with are Drosophila Flies (or more commonly known as the fruit flies ~ you can find them lingering ard your bunch of ripe bananas and garbage bags) ... so the rest I'll leave it to your imaginations =p
Quote of the day: "There is NOTHING to Fear But Fear itself ~"---Theorem of LeFoX (quoted from Sir Winston Churchill)
Monday, April 04, 2005
Day 1 Attachment ~
Well well ~ DAY 1 at Biopolis ~ I'm currently on IAP ... attached to Center for Molecular Medicine (CMM) at Biopolis for 3 1/2 mths for those who still don't know ~
Anywayz ~ interesting day ~ slack ~ but interesting =p Basically I'm training under one the post-doctorate scientist ... supposed to research with her on molecular basis of parkinson using fruitflies as model ~ I've learnt quite the basics of fruitfly biology and identification ~ apart from that alot of scientific paper reading ~
Everyone is friendly ~ Lets see how things turn out as the days goes on =p
Quote: "We're all Humans ... Mistakes are unavoidable ... As scientist we are curiousity driven~ question each other ~ don't take offence in doubtful remarks ~" --- Dr.Gerald Udolph
Anywayz ~ interesting day ~ slack ~ but interesting =p Basically I'm training under one the post-doctorate scientist ... supposed to research with her on molecular basis of parkinson using fruitflies as model ~ I've learnt quite the basics of fruitfly biology and identification ~ apart from that alot of scientific paper reading ~
Everyone is friendly ~ Lets see how things turn out as the days goes on =p
Quote: "We're all Humans ... Mistakes are unavoidable ... As scientist we are curiousity driven~ question each other ~ don't take offence in doubtful remarks ~" --- Dr.Gerald Udolph
Sunday, April 03, 2005
and so marks the end of year 2 ~ year 3 here we come ~
Well ~ been at the airport all day ~ sent Jess off ~
I suppose through the many semesters and close friendship we shared between us ~ I've grown a fond dependence on her as well as her presence in my life so much so I can't help but feel lost and empty knowing that she'll be away from me for 3 1/2 mths ~ Nice of her to leave me a little something to talk to in her absence ~ Xiao Huang the caterpillar ~ Missing ya already girl ~ drop me a msg soon ~
Spent the rest of my day with hUi and Brian and Ed ~ Went around city hall ~ dinning chilling ~ crapping ~ Spent quite some time working on the FOC project ~ classified information I'm not at liberty to discuss yet =p
I suppose through the many semesters and close friendship we shared between us ~ I've grown a fond dependence on her as well as her presence in my life so much so I can't help but feel lost and empty knowing that she'll be away from me for 3 1/2 mths ~ Nice of her to leave me a little something to talk to in her absence ~ Xiao Huang the caterpillar ~ Missing ya already girl ~ drop me a msg soon ~
Spent the rest of my day with hUi and Brian and Ed ~ Went around city hall ~ dinning chilling ~ crapping ~ Spent quite some time working on the FOC project ~ classified information I'm not at liberty to discuss yet =p
Well ~ Departure of OIAP students is Today ~
Well Well ~ past midnite already ~ haha ~ can't slp coz of the really late and heavy dinner with bevan ~ a little belated birthday cum farewell dinner with my best friend ~ Guess we hadn't got the chance to really sit down and enjoy ourselves much for the past 2 years ~
Today ~ or rather yesterday FINALLY got that chance and today he leaves the country by noon ~ sadly i won't be able to see him off ... sorry bro ~ but do take care ... I wanna say I'm gonna miss you ~ but i've been missing u lots since we entered poly ~ SO SORRY ... time has not been on either of our sides and opportunities to meet are scarse ... Glad to know from our conversation today that u've kept urself updated abt my life ~ Thanks for your concerns =) Don't worry too much for me ~ I know U know me best ... keep me in check but Trust in my opinions =) I'm a foolish lover ~ But I'm also a sensible man ~ Enjoy your trip ! I'll be looking forward to our semester together again !
Alot more people leaving today ~ All the best people ~ some i'm closer to others i'm not as close... whichever the case I bid all a safe and fruitful experience over at ur individual attached institutes =) bon voyage ~
As the saying goes : "Absence makes the heart grows fonder"
Words of the heart : "Stay with me my love ~ Just a moment longer ~ For I want to Preserve this moment in my memories for till you return ~ I'm gonna miss you ~"
Today ~ or rather yesterday FINALLY got that chance and today he leaves the country by noon ~ sadly i won't be able to see him off ... sorry bro ~ but do take care ... I wanna say I'm gonna miss you ~ but i've been missing u lots since we entered poly ~ SO SORRY ... time has not been on either of our sides and opportunities to meet are scarse ... Glad to know from our conversation today that u've kept urself updated abt my life ~ Thanks for your concerns =) Don't worry too much for me ~ I know U know me best ... keep me in check but Trust in my opinions =) I'm a foolish lover ~ But I'm also a sensible man ~ Enjoy your trip ! I'll be looking forward to our semester together again !
Alot more people leaving today ~ All the best people ~ some i'm closer to others i'm not as close... whichever the case I bid all a safe and fruitful experience over at ur individual attached institutes =) bon voyage ~
As the saying goes : "Absence makes the heart grows fonder"
Words of the heart : "Stay with me my love ~ Just a moment longer ~ For I want to Preserve this moment in my memories for till you return ~ I'm gonna miss you ~"
Saturday, April 02, 2005
And Peace Returns To Sector 2.2 ~ At least for now ...
Standing over the cliff ~ Lord FoX and all Allied Forces stands tall ~ Watching the setting sun ~
The last stronghold in sector 2.2 has secumbed to our forces ~ Few insignificant rebels remains lingering ard the outskirts of the sector but all forces have stood down and today we feast over our victory !
Concluding the story ~ Today marks the last of the finals ~ AMB proved to be predictable yet challenge was posted in form of a few distinctive questions which escaped prediction =)
Finally after much anticipation I had my day out with Jess *cheers* yet it seems like heavens will not grant me a simple day without interruptions *grumbles* either way i did manage to get a few hours of time alone with her ... fruitful for her though ~ Given that she bothered to squeeze time in that tight schedule for me i guess i can't complain but i would still had preferred a movie and a walk by the bay =Either way ~ thanks ger =)
OH ~ Dad came home with plenty of that Armstrong Cancer Foundation Yellow LiveStrong Band ~ HaHa been meaning to make a donation and get the band =) He claims that he has quite a few with him so anyone interested ? Let me know I'll try to get U one =)
Tomorrow is all planned out ~ gonna siam novices ~ get my well deserved rest ... spend some time with my best friend for his belated birthday and pre OIAP dinner ~
Many disturbing thoughts are huanting me ~ wonder what i should do ~ harmless remarks ~ simple advice ~ even personal thoughts i share ~ I'm compelled to be sensitive to how others feel ~ friends or foes ~ What happened to human rights ? What happened to Justice ? God ! Help me ! Bestow upon me the knowledge to break the armour of irony !
The last stronghold in sector 2.2 has secumbed to our forces ~ Few insignificant rebels remains lingering ard the outskirts of the sector but all forces have stood down and today we feast over our victory !
Concluding the story ~ Today marks the last of the finals ~ AMB proved to be predictable yet challenge was posted in form of a few distinctive questions which escaped prediction =)
Finally after much anticipation I had my day out with Jess *cheers* yet it seems like heavens will not grant me a simple day without interruptions *grumbles* either way i did manage to get a few hours of time alone with her ... fruitful for her though ~ Given that she bothered to squeeze time in that tight schedule for me i guess i can't complain but i would still had preferred a movie and a walk by the bay =Either way ~ thanks ger =)
OH ~ Dad came home with plenty of that Armstrong Cancer Foundation Yellow LiveStrong Band ~ HaHa been meaning to make a donation and get the band =) He claims that he has quite a few with him so anyone interested ? Let me know I'll try to get U one =)
Tomorrow is all planned out ~ gonna siam novices ~ get my well deserved rest ... spend some time with my best friend for his belated birthday and pre OIAP dinner ~
Many disturbing thoughts are huanting me ~ wonder what i should do ~ harmless remarks ~ simple advice ~ even personal thoughts i share ~ I'm compelled to be sensitive to how others feel ~ friends or foes ~ What happened to human rights ? What happened to Justice ? God ! Help me ! Bestow upon me the knowledge to break the armour of irony !
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Counting down ~
Muhahaha ~ Feeling much better now ~ and preperations today proved more or less fruitful =)
I'm sitting in the living room waiting for dinner now ~ shall resume the last push for the paper tml ~ No mood really last paper ~ been tired and all ~ BUT nonetheless anticipating tml !
Tomorrow will be a good day ~ Finally some rest and Finally that long due movie ... dinner and long walk ~
Heres praying for a beautiful tomorrow ~ full recovery and a successful paper =D Indeed Our Lord Is Worth Praise ! Alleluya ~
Heres a side note for people wondering why i gave up my appeal from my last post and removing it ~ I admit I may be slightly harsh with that last sentance but correct me if i'm wrong but 1) I'm already non specific to whom i'm mentioning 2) I gave a valid and reasonable explaination for my actions 3) Forgive me if it is wrong to even state nicely how i feel !
Well whatever it is it HAS BEEN REMOVED ~ I will extend my tolerance once more ... Don't Push Me ~
I'm sitting in the living room waiting for dinner now ~ shall resume the last push for the paper tml ~ No mood really last paper ~ been tired and all ~ BUT nonetheless anticipating tml !
Tomorrow will be a good day ~ Finally some rest and Finally that long due movie ... dinner and long walk ~
Heres praying for a beautiful tomorrow ~ full recovery and a successful paper =D Indeed Our Lord Is Worth Praise ! Alleluya ~
Heres a side note for people wondering why i gave up my appeal from my last post and removing it ~ I admit I may be slightly harsh with that last sentance but correct me if i'm wrong but 1) I'm already non specific to whom i'm mentioning 2) I gave a valid and reasonable explaination for my actions 3) Forgive me if it is wrong to even state nicely how i feel !
Well whatever it is it HAS BEEN REMOVED ~ I will extend my tolerance once more ... Don't Push Me ~
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Conquest ~ Sector 2.2 ~ The FINAL BATTLE
Direct 22hr march from Fort IMM Lord FoX's forces pulls through with the claiming of Port AQUA ~ But even as our hero rest and prepares for the final battle~ His forces grows tired ~ weary ~ wounded ~ weapons and resources depletes with little reinforcements from the conquered cities ...
Physical and Mentally worn out ~ Down with illness ~ How does one pull through ? Faith ~ Persistence ~
Not really in the crapping mood but yar ~ the story today describes it all ~ From IMM to AQUA ... relief comes knowing that friday brings the final paper ~ AMB is the least of my fears but with no preparations made till now and your mental motivations drawn low with illness and no strong papers to back up those As ~ One can only drag himself towards the last praying for the best ~ Yet once more i shall hold true to my slogan "I Will Pull Through~ I Always Do~"
Physical and Mentally worn out ~ Down with illness ~ How does one pull through ? Faith ~ Persistence ~
Not really in the crapping mood but yar ~ the story today describes it all ~ From IMM to AQUA ... relief comes knowing that friday brings the final paper ~ AMB is the least of my fears but with no preparations made till now and your mental motivations drawn low with illness and no strong papers to back up those As ~ One can only drag himself towards the last praying for the best ~ Yet once more i shall hold true to my slogan "I Will Pull Through~ I Always Do~"
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~
Well ~ been preparing like nutz for IMM ~ I suppose the nxt greatest fear after maths ~ Ha ~
Attempted past year papers today ~ DAMN demoralizing ~ SICK ~
Took corrective measures though ~ heres praying hard for luck and favor ~
Lord of Wisdom ...
Originator of Knowledge ...
Grant me favor and Grant me chance ...
Heres a poor soul calling for help once again ...
For IMM ... I'm Not immune to ~
Help me please ~
Amen~
Well hope Tml's seige will not last the whole 2 hours ~ Fort IMM shall fall to me before 2 hrs ~ I'll Pull Through ~
Attempted past year papers today ~ DAMN demoralizing ~ SICK ~
Took corrective measures though ~ heres praying hard for luck and favor ~
Lord of Wisdom ...
Originator of Knowledge ...
Grant me favor and Grant me chance ...
Heres a poor soul calling for help once again ...
For IMM ... I'm Not immune to ~
Help me please ~
Amen~
Well hope Tml's seige will not last the whole 2 hours ~ Fort IMM shall fall to me before 2 hrs ~ I'll Pull Through ~
All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~
IMM is tml ~ arghz ~ prepared like one cannot prepare no more ~ yet taking a trial today with past year papers shows that I know nutz ! Hate the feeling ~ arghz ~ anywayz took corrective measures ~ pray hard that I'll pull through~
Not much say ~ no intentions for last words ~ I WILL PULL THROUGH ~ to arms ~ The siege shall last no more than 2hrs ~
Not much say ~ no intentions for last words ~ I WILL PULL THROUGH ~ to arms ~ The siege shall last no more than 2hrs ~
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Still Burning ~
12 hours into the onslaught of the the fever ~ I'm alive but still feverish ~ visited a family doc that i'ven been to since i was 13 ? HaHa well ... apart from looking more aunty ~ dear dr.lee still remains freaking chatty ~ wonder how she survives with minimal patients and an average consultant time of 20 - 30 mins ~
According to grandma ~ dr.lee grew up in this region since the kampung days ~ studied here ~ fell in love and got married here ~ and to date serving this region as a general practioner ~ Some people spend most of their lives never to move from their hometown for long and always finding themselves back at thier homeland...
Well enough abt the doc ~ now more abt me ~ according to her ~ i'm down with something really bad ~ I'm on Antibiotics till friday ~ so i guess that means gonna take me awhile to recover :(
Say wonder if they've a guiness world record for most consecutive illness in 3 mths ~
Thats all the update for now ~
Quote: "Trials of Life are infinite ~ But men of substance pulls through all ~"---Theorem of LeFoX
According to grandma ~ dr.lee grew up in this region since the kampung days ~ studied here ~ fell in love and got married here ~ and to date serving this region as a general practioner ~ Some people spend most of their lives never to move from their hometown for long and always finding themselves back at thier homeland...
Well enough abt the doc ~ now more abt me ~ according to her ~ i'm down with something really bad ~ I'm on Antibiotics till friday ~ so i guess that means gonna take me awhile to recover :(
Say wonder if they've a guiness world record for most consecutive illness in 3 mths ~
Thats all the update for now ~
Quote: "Trials of Life are infinite ~ But men of substance pulls through all ~"---Theorem of LeFoX
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Burn ! ~ Burn ! ~
First ~ attempted to write a nice nice blog with pix yesterday but with a click of the dumb back button from the preview page lost my hour's hardwork -_-"
Attempt another day excuse me ~
Well ~ today was definately cold ~ been freezing all day ... at least to me ~ been picking up a mild temp since last nite ... but with panadol i thought i would be fine ~ but apparently it confrimed that its not working with the burning heat of 39.3 just moments before :(
I don't know what more to say ~ Bottled up heat of anger ? stress ? i don't know ~ whatever it is GOD help me ! You're the divine healer yar ? heavenly father ~ U know what i need best ~ quick dose of internal flames ~ both physical and emotional ... Grant me assurance ... Grant me peace ... Grant me quick relieve (no puns intended) ...
Looking on the brightside breakfast with jess was good =9 portaguese tart ! (Now thats a mouth watering treat i hadn't had for awhile ~ hardly seen even ~ *hee*hee*hix*
Well ~ thats the last of my strength tonite ~ again i lag behind in my revision ~ haiz ~ GOD ! SAVE ME !!!
Heavenly father in thy throne of heaven ~
Mighty healer of bodies and souls ~
Ur child beckons~ in wails and in pain ~
Heal my most unworthy wounds ~
Let the heat burn the Hell out from within Thy child ~
Yet grant me relief from this enduring heat ~
For I seek more than just salvation~
Please~ My LORD ~
Please ~
Amen~
Note: Funny how I seek the LORD the most only when i find myself in trouble ~ Most Unworthy times ~ Weakest form~ Doesn't that make me a loser ? a whimp ? Who cowers for cover and shelther only when i'm in need ? Reflection indeed is needed ~
Attempt another day excuse me ~
Well ~ today was definately cold ~ been freezing all day ... at least to me ~ been picking up a mild temp since last nite ... but with panadol i thought i would be fine ~ but apparently it confrimed that its not working with the burning heat of 39.3 just moments before :(
I don't know what more to say ~ Bottled up heat of anger ? stress ? i don't know ~ whatever it is GOD help me ! You're the divine healer yar ? heavenly father ~ U know what i need best ~ quick dose of internal flames ~ both physical and emotional ... Grant me assurance ... Grant me peace ... Grant me quick relieve (no puns intended) ...
Looking on the brightside breakfast with jess was good =9 portaguese tart ! (Now thats a mouth watering treat i hadn't had for awhile ~ hardly seen even ~ *hee*hee*hix*
Well ~ thats the last of my strength tonite ~ again i lag behind in my revision ~ haiz ~ GOD ! SAVE ME !!!
Heavenly father in thy throne of heaven ~
Mighty healer of bodies and souls ~
Ur child beckons~ in wails and in pain ~
Heal my most unworthy wounds ~
Let the heat burn the Hell out from within Thy child ~
Yet grant me relief from this enduring heat ~
For I seek more than just salvation~
Please~ My LORD ~
Please ~
Amen~
Note: Funny how I seek the LORD the most only when i find myself in trouble ~ Most Unworthy times ~ Weakest form~ Doesn't that make me a loser ? a whimp ? Who cowers for cover and shelther only when i'm in need ? Reflection indeed is needed ~
Friday, March 25, 2005
Conquest Of Sem 2.2 ! The Fellowship ~
The time has come again for our heroes to move on to the battlefield ~ The time of reckoning is NOW ~ Sector 2.2 will no longer be kept from Us ... 3days of intensive training & preparation ~
Moments before the breeching of Fort MST II ... Lord FoX takes his place before his troops facing his worse fears ... drawing a slow, deep breath, taking comfort knowing that the fellowship has prepared him and shall be mounting this assualt with him as he draws his blade and signals for the attack~
The battle was long and it was definately not easy ... but with only one goal in mind our hero charges through the battlefield slaying the enemy one by one ~ Trying his best to keep to every strategy and move from his last 3days of training ...
Finally ~ 4pm ... Our hero emerges alive with the fellowship ... Victorious ~ Fort MST II has been claimed ... But in the feasting and the rejoicing in the sunset ... our heroes knows that there are still 3 Forts to be claimed in this sector ~ before peace may be returned to Sector 2.2 ...
Well .... thats my lousy excuse for an attempt of a short story to cover what has happened in the past 4 days ... with kitty ~ Jeremy and our notes ~ perhaps that is much like what is to happen in the 6-7 days to come = Nothing to be happy about but thats all a bundled deal with school studies and certifications .... (not to mention living in a meritocratic society)
Apart from school don't have much of a life this week and nxt due to the exam period ~ Met up with Hid and Clay (Rubbery & Jelloman respectively) for our usual chill out this evening ~ Our dear Rubbery is still finding means and ways to get to this sweet non-"mina" malay girl we met abt a mth back at penisular ~ Apparently coincidence isn't happening again for them ~ But persistent he remains nonetheless ~ keep it up bro ~ Spent most of the night talking about how to go abt starting a little business ~ many ideas came up but most rejected for some reason or the other ~ been at this for quite while ... All started with "That Chill Out Place/Spot" --- a little dream cafe where we can spend time with old friend chilling out ~ and providing the youths of this stressed out nation with a place to do the same =) of coz for a reasonable fee ~
Well many a times we make accquaintances ... and definately some friends ... these people come and go as our lives goes on ~ But how often do we make friends ... close friends who remains close and get closer with us as we each go on with our individual lives ? The answer ... not many in this busy practical society ... everyone is mainly there for a purpose and when that purpose expires ... the friendship fades ... That is not much of a friendship then issit ? =) I'm glad to say that I've found in those above mentioned and a several others a friendship that does not exist for a purpose with a shelf-life ... And everyone can have such friends ... its a matter of making the effort to maintain and nature the friendship with people ard us =)
Quote of the Day : "It is not in the quantity but the quality of friendship One offers that truely measures One's social standing & strength" ---Theorem of LeFoX (LoRd FoX)
Note: A Chinese saying goes: "To Gather Brothers Within The 4 Seas" , To me ... I value friendship and I believe in naturing strong relationships where possible ~ Quality is what i seek ~ Quantity well ... the more the merrier of coz! =p
Moments before the breeching of Fort MST II ... Lord FoX takes his place before his troops facing his worse fears ... drawing a slow, deep breath, taking comfort knowing that the fellowship has prepared him and shall be mounting this assualt with him as he draws his blade and signals for the attack~
The battle was long and it was definately not easy ... but with only one goal in mind our hero charges through the battlefield slaying the enemy one by one ~ Trying his best to keep to every strategy and move from his last 3days of training ...
Finally ~ 4pm ... Our hero emerges alive with the fellowship ... Victorious ~ Fort MST II has been claimed ... But in the feasting and the rejoicing in the sunset ... our heroes knows that there are still 3 Forts to be claimed in this sector ~ before peace may be returned to Sector 2.2 ...
Well .... thats my lousy excuse for an attempt of a short story to cover what has happened in the past 4 days ... with kitty ~ Jeremy and our notes ~ perhaps that is much like what is to happen in the 6-7 days to come = Nothing to be happy about but thats all a bundled deal with school studies and certifications .... (not to mention living in a meritocratic society)
Apart from school don't have much of a life this week and nxt due to the exam period ~ Met up with Hid and Clay (Rubbery & Jelloman respectively) for our usual chill out this evening ~ Our dear Rubbery is still finding means and ways to get to this sweet non-"mina" malay girl we met abt a mth back at penisular ~ Apparently coincidence isn't happening again for them ~ But persistent he remains nonetheless ~ keep it up bro ~ Spent most of the night talking about how to go abt starting a little business ~ many ideas came up but most rejected for some reason or the other ~ been at this for quite while ... All started with "That Chill Out Place/Spot" --- a little dream cafe where we can spend time with old friend chilling out ~ and providing the youths of this stressed out nation with a place to do the same =) of coz for a reasonable fee ~
Well many a times we make accquaintances ... and definately some friends ... these people come and go as our lives goes on ~ But how often do we make friends ... close friends who remains close and get closer with us as we each go on with our individual lives ? The answer ... not many in this busy practical society ... everyone is mainly there for a purpose and when that purpose expires ... the friendship fades ... That is not much of a friendship then issit ? =) I'm glad to say that I've found in those above mentioned and a several others a friendship that does not exist for a purpose with a shelf-life ... And everyone can have such friends ... its a matter of making the effort to maintain and nature the friendship with people ard us =)
Quote of the Day : "It is not in the quantity but the quality of friendship One offers that truely measures One's social standing & strength" ---Theorem of LeFoX (LoRd FoX)
Note: A Chinese saying goes: "To Gather Brothers Within The 4 Seas" , To me ... I value friendship and I believe in naturing strong relationships where possible ~ Quality is what i seek ~ Quantity well ... the more the merrier of coz! =p
Sunday, March 20, 2005
OB AGM once again ~
Today marks the one year mark of yet another of those great dissapointment that I've accumulated ... Its Outwards Bounder's AGM ... Exactly a year ago ... I was THAT confident that I would had made the 11th comm. And that today would had been a day I would be in tears and swelling with the experience that NPOB has to offer. Of coz all that did not happen ...
However through the year, I've learnt much ... I've learnt that things don't always turn out the way you want them to ... It doesn't matter how many people think that its gonna turn out that way ... If it ain't meant to turn out that way It simply ain't gonna turn out that way ... HaHa
Well, Today was a gathering worth attending ... meeting batchmates ... seeing alumnis ... looking at new faces of the new batches after us ... Suddenly ... I feel that OB may had taught me much ... indeed many friendship were forged ... many lessons learnt ... much has happened in a short 1 year with the bounders .... much applied to the year that follows ... YET ... the feeling of never having to set foot abroad on an OB course still huants me and strikes me deep ... Not making it to serve as a comm. member well ... after pioneering and chairing NAFPA co-ordinators and serving a year in the treasury of NP Fencing ... well club leadership is not what i truely can commit to ... I'm an advisor not the commited leader ...
That aside ... one may think its a trival matter ... but when our dearest murphy's law comes into play ... even the greatest of men may fall ... Disappointments don't come alone ...
Looking on the bright side once more ... I find myself climbing the school gates crossing into SIM territories and over the gates of SIM which I damaged while trying to scale -_-" Was pretty fun not considering the damage done to the gates and myself ...
Thoughts are running all over the place right abt now ... excuse the disorganised entry ... I shall stop my ranting for now =) Dreamland awaits ... perhaps with a dream as sweet as the night before ...
However through the year, I've learnt much ... I've learnt that things don't always turn out the way you want them to ... It doesn't matter how many people think that its gonna turn out that way ... If it ain't meant to turn out that way It simply ain't gonna turn out that way ... HaHa
Well, Today was a gathering worth attending ... meeting batchmates ... seeing alumnis ... looking at new faces of the new batches after us ... Suddenly ... I feel that OB may had taught me much ... indeed many friendship were forged ... many lessons learnt ... much has happened in a short 1 year with the bounders .... much applied to the year that follows ... YET ... the feeling of never having to set foot abroad on an OB course still huants me and strikes me deep ... Not making it to serve as a comm. member well ... after pioneering and chairing NAFPA co-ordinators and serving a year in the treasury of NP Fencing ... well club leadership is not what i truely can commit to ... I'm an advisor not the commited leader ...
That aside ... one may think its a trival matter ... but when our dearest murphy's law comes into play ... even the greatest of men may fall ... Disappointments don't come alone ...
Looking on the bright side once more ... I find myself climbing the school gates crossing into SIM territories and over the gates of SIM which I damaged while trying to scale -_-" Was pretty fun not considering the damage done to the gates and myself ...
Thoughts are running all over the place right abt now ... excuse the disorganised entry ... I shall stop my ranting for now =) Dreamland awaits ... perhaps with a dream as sweet as the night before ...
Thursday, March 17, 2005
And So ...
Well well well ... took me long enough to recover this blog to a presentable state ! HA !
To start off ~ The passing semester has had it ups and downs as of every part of my life ~ Nothing ever seems to stay smooth long enough for me to enjoy it throughly =) Oh well ~ as legends has it ~ Life was never meant to be easy !
Been doing the soul searching thing agian ~ Learnt quite abit of new stuff ... special thanks to jing for helping me think over some matters and to "Five People You Meet In Heaven" ... Still in the mids of searching but I'll have to leave it aside till end of the exams ... Project week just ended abt a week or so ago ~ everything seems to be passing at march 1 speed as far as the semester goes ... Took my pract papers today ... Anyone taking Aqua selection I'm sorry but its the WRONG choice ~ Fun but be ready to compromise on the scores ...
Well ~ Looking forward to after the exams ... But at the same time there is nothing much to look forward to ~ Jess, Bevan and the OIAP students will be flying off on the 3rd april ~ exams ends on 1st april ! 5th marks the start of IAP ! So get what i mean ? =)
All is NOT lost though ... Got a trip to JB with Shahid & Clay ~ another Retreat to Ubin ~ Retreat to Tioman with Brian & "The Chapalan Gang" ~ FOC trial camp ~ FOC camp ~ Fencing Camp and perhaps a trip to Sentosa ~ Sounds pretty exciting eh ~ hope they actually HAPPEN ! =X
Thoughts : "There is SO much to say ~ SO little time ~ SO much implications ~ To Say Or Not To Say that is not the only qnt ~ To Whom Or All ?"
To start off ~ The passing semester has had it ups and downs as of every part of my life ~ Nothing ever seems to stay smooth long enough for me to enjoy it throughly =) Oh well ~ as legends has it ~ Life was never meant to be easy !
Been doing the soul searching thing agian ~ Learnt quite abit of new stuff ... special thanks to jing for helping me think over some matters and to "Five People You Meet In Heaven" ... Still in the mids of searching but I'll have to leave it aside till end of the exams ... Project week just ended abt a week or so ago ~ everything seems to be passing at march 1 speed as far as the semester goes ... Took my pract papers today ... Anyone taking Aqua selection I'm sorry but its the WRONG choice ~ Fun but be ready to compromise on the scores ...
Well ~ Looking forward to after the exams ... But at the same time there is nothing much to look forward to ~ Jess, Bevan and the OIAP students will be flying off on the 3rd april ~ exams ends on 1st april ! 5th marks the start of IAP ! So get what i mean ? =)
All is NOT lost though ... Got a trip to JB with Shahid & Clay ~ another Retreat to Ubin ~ Retreat to Tioman with Brian & "The Chapalan Gang" ~ FOC trial camp ~ FOC camp ~ Fencing Camp and perhaps a trip to Sentosa ~ Sounds pretty exciting eh ~ hope they actually HAPPEN ! =X
Thoughts : "There is SO much to say ~ SO little time ~ SO much implications ~ To Say Or Not To Say that is not the only qnt ~ To Whom Or All ?"
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Happy Birthday To Me ! =P
Hello ~ well to anyone who actually has been keeping to my blog post ... i'm sorry ar ... lazy to blog ar ... sometimes don't know what to say ~ anywayz take this chance to update ~ :P
18th Jan 2005 ! I've turned 19 ! haha 2 years to 21 ! ~ 1 year to 20 ... 1 year to army -__- ~
Once upon a time ~ there was this girl that came to me asking "Simon ~ will u forget me when we graduate ?" Back then ~ my thoughts were "Silly girl ~ i'm not even in the same school as you why will I forget u ?" Now ~ i understand what she means as i feel like asking someone the very same question ~ haha ironic isn't it ? Speaking of which ~ It so happens I always end up liking gals with alot of problems ... and not getting to keep them =x
Anyone can tell me why someone who sees so much in u once that everyday she looks to u for comfort can end up hating u so much that she cannot bring herself to converse with u properly? Likewise how issit someone can believe in something so much that even though she likes u she is willing to give up that liking just to comply to the standards of that soceity?
Rite ~ sad things aside ~ Birthday was fun :P celebrated my birthday on Sunday with Bevan Clayton and Shahid as well as my cousin and family ! Pizza ~ Fruits and Cake ~ simple but satisfying ~ Got a nice pencil case from the guys which i filled out the following day ~
Tuesday was great too as i spent the day with Jess and Hui on a day out celebrating my bday as well as shopping for new year clothes ~ Finally got to try the famous crystal jade xiao long pao and la mien ~ mmmmmm ~ SUPER NICE ~ The gals surprized me with a gift of clothes and belt haha Thankz gals :D
Lots of bday messages and personal greetings from friends :P Thankz guys and gals ~ Think the celebration carries on this friday with team venturejuana and saturday as unlimited celebrates clayton's & the other jan babies bdays as well as a simple house warming at bevan's =D
A word on the quote of the day ~ Went out for another of those chill out sessions with clayton and shahid near my place ~ which reminds me that we met carol (a senior for mayflower) ... shes gotten so much slimer and prettier haha :P hardly recognise her ~ OKie ~ back to the word on my quote of the day ~ Hid was sharing abt mental barriers and enviromental upbringing effects on a person's success ... if u're frequently put down you won't go far in life ~ where as if you're in an encourgaing enviroment u tend to go further ~ for example niel armstrong's mother said "remember to come down in time for dinner!" in response to him climbing up a tree when he was young. Whereas our mums probably says "come down this instance!Do u want to get hurt?" ... This can very much result in the difference of your answers to the following question:
"Do U think U'll Ever Own A Lumbogene in this LifeTime ?"
Most people will say no because They don't dream big ~
As u can see simple things as that can affect how we think ~ and hence ~ enviroment plays an important part in how we act ~ be it in what we believe in and how much risk we're willing to take ~ So people learn to breech that mental barrier !
Think about it NO ONE is a LOSER ~ because the moment u're concieved you're a winner ... U are THE ONE sperm cell of the millions of sperm cells that devoid of all adversities emerged the FIRST not only to reach the egg but also the ONLY that penetrated it and merged with it to become of U ... Hence, EVERYBODY regardless of race, language or religion (because all these means nothing to a sperm cell) IS BORN A WINNER ~
Quote of the day : "Mental Barriers takes U out of SuCCESS ~ Breech that barrier and Put U Back into SUCCESS !"
Quote of the day : "eVeRyBoDy's bOrn a WINNER !"
18th Jan 2005 ! I've turned 19 ! haha 2 years to 21 ! ~ 1 year to 20 ... 1 year to army -__- ~
Once upon a time ~ there was this girl that came to me asking "Simon ~ will u forget me when we graduate ?" Back then ~ my thoughts were "Silly girl ~ i'm not even in the same school as you why will I forget u ?" Now ~ i understand what she means as i feel like asking someone the very same question ~ haha ironic isn't it ? Speaking of which ~ It so happens I always end up liking gals with alot of problems ... and not getting to keep them =x
Anyone can tell me why someone who sees so much in u once that everyday she looks to u for comfort can end up hating u so much that she cannot bring herself to converse with u properly? Likewise how issit someone can believe in something so much that even though she likes u she is willing to give up that liking just to comply to the standards of that soceity?
Rite ~ sad things aside ~ Birthday was fun :P celebrated my birthday on Sunday with Bevan Clayton and Shahid as well as my cousin and family ! Pizza ~ Fruits and Cake ~ simple but satisfying ~ Got a nice pencil case from the guys which i filled out the following day ~
Tuesday was great too as i spent the day with Jess and Hui on a day out celebrating my bday as well as shopping for new year clothes ~ Finally got to try the famous crystal jade xiao long pao and la mien ~ mmmmmm ~ SUPER NICE ~ The gals surprized me with a gift of clothes and belt haha Thankz gals :D
Lots of bday messages and personal greetings from friends :P Thankz guys and gals ~ Think the celebration carries on this friday with team venturejuana and saturday as unlimited celebrates clayton's & the other jan babies bdays as well as a simple house warming at bevan's =D
A word on the quote of the day ~ Went out for another of those chill out sessions with clayton and shahid near my place ~ which reminds me that we met carol (a senior for mayflower) ... shes gotten so much slimer and prettier haha :P hardly recognise her ~ OKie ~ back to the word on my quote of the day ~ Hid was sharing abt mental barriers and enviromental upbringing effects on a person's success ... if u're frequently put down you won't go far in life ~ where as if you're in an encourgaing enviroment u tend to go further ~ for example niel armstrong's mother said "remember to come down in time for dinner!" in response to him climbing up a tree when he was young. Whereas our mums probably says "come down this instance!Do u want to get hurt?" ... This can very much result in the difference of your answers to the following question:
"Do U think U'll Ever Own A Lumbogene in this LifeTime ?"
Most people will say no because They don't dream big ~
As u can see simple things as that can affect how we think ~ and hence ~ enviroment plays an important part in how we act ~ be it in what we believe in and how much risk we're willing to take ~ So people learn to breech that mental barrier !
Think about it NO ONE is a LOSER ~ because the moment u're concieved you're a winner ... U are THE ONE sperm cell of the millions of sperm cells that devoid of all adversities emerged the FIRST not only to reach the egg but also the ONLY that penetrated it and merged with it to become of U ... Hence, EVERYBODY regardless of race, language or religion (because all these means nothing to a sperm cell) IS BORN A WINNER ~
Quote of the day : "Mental Barriers takes U out of SuCCESS ~ Breech that barrier and Put U Back into SUCCESS !"
Quote of the day : "eVeRyBoDy's bOrn a WINNER !"
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