The ReUnIoN

Come to think about life ... friends are people you can never do without ... friends are not just people to have fun with ... They are not just memories ... They are not just passing phases ... Friends are much much more than that ... They all walk into our lives at different points in time ... and eventually they have to leave us as they move on ... To me ... When it boils down to true friends its not about how long they stay physically in our lives ... but how long they stay emotionally attached to us within our hearts and theirs'.
From a boy who had been brought up to honour promises and trust .... But never to trust 100% ... With little friends around myself for the period of pre school to primary school ... I've grown to become one who is willing to trust people, one who values friendship and one who has a desire to befriend the world.
Met up with my secondary school friends for a BBQ gathering and then meeting some for a retreat to ubin for a night. I wasn't satisfied that i do not deny ... I would had wished to see more of them and also to see more of my other friends who didn't make it ... But it is this short time of dedicated reunion ... short period of coming back together ... that makes me realise these are the friends you know will always be there when you seek them ... these are the people who had seen you through thick and thin ... sad and happy ... dumb and dumber times ... Such created that 1 unique bonding that with each of them ... it doesn't matter what you do ... basically any time spent together are great times !

Reloaded

Hello People~
This whole apologising about my taking forever to update blogs are getting a little too frequent ;p Anywayz ... Well Exams are over ... Holidays are well into its primetime ... Awaiting for results now ... Fencing camp and a couple of chalets had made their mark ... What remains would be SALT course and if it even holds up Venturejuana.
This project is all ready to fire off with a blazing start ... Just lacks 1 major component ... Participants ... Bloody secondary schools have no honour , ask for slots and ends up none of them complies and even worse some just simply withdraw ... haiz .... God Bless the project ... I only fear for the worse ... sigh ....
Plenty on my mind these days ...
converted on the 1st of october ... been attending services at trinity christian center ... Got to know quite alot of people and things ... wonder if i've made the right choice ... everyone there is so devoted ... Me ? I'm just not the devoted sorta guy ... not in case of a religion that is ...
Venturejuana in distress ... the commitee is holding up alright but as much as each of us keep a smile through out meeting we all know deep down inside it hurts to see our project fail ... If only we can find the 26 participants by friday ... If only ...
Maths is coming up again nxt sem ... wonder how well i'll hold up against that ...
I've assume role of president for Ngee Ann's NAPFA Society ... but great powers comes with great responsibilities ... now i know what that means ... alot of work to be done ... alot of decisions to be made ... alot of people to please ... alot of everything i shouldn't had taken too lightly ...
Oh yar ... just to side track something nice had happened met my "daughter" at church yesterday ... pretty surprized but haha always good to see familiar faces yar :P
Back to my woes ... Fencing Novices are coming up ... i know i should be spending time training but well sometimes just feel too lazy ... arghz ... hate myself ... MUST train !!!
Still fed up with the whole get a girlfriend thing ... Don't know what to do abt it now ... Sat down to think abt it the other day ... Decided i won't have a relationship which isn't gonna last ... But still i find myself being very nice to her ... *shrugs* wonder if she even bothers ...
Joyce is coming back =) Thats something to look forward to ... haven't seen her for say ... a year or so now ... wonder how much shes changed ... had a nice chat over the phone the other day ... sounded every bit like her ... =) Feeling pretty bad for some things i did ... Should try to surpress my emotions more ...
Guess i'm the freaking emotional kinda guy ... I can hold emotions pretty well ... but i guesss as much as i can ... my emotions are just sometimes too strong for me to hold down ...
Hmm looking forward to SALT ... hoping Gunang Panti will give me a good chance to retreat to nature and hopefully in its course rejuvanate me !
Gonna see Ivan and Kenny off to South Africa today ... so wanted to go for that course ... but money has proven yet again to be a root problem ... I'm not poor ... but i'm not rich .... I suppose like my day say ... this is the worse position to be in ... No ones gonna take pity on you ... Yet envy is gonna be on ur mind all the time coz you haven't suffered enough to understand what is truely being poor ...

Quote of the day : "If the lord brings U to it ... He'll Bring u Through it" --- Anomynous
Note : Hope that is true ...

JUst Read

Heyz ... Its been ages since i last updated yar ? Sorry ... Just been either freaking bz or freaking tired ... *winks* Gonna update as far back as i can remember... Here we go !
Hmm ... After National Day ... the week was pretty hecktic ... What really happened i can't remember ... alot of CCA stuff and recereations due to the lack of lessons ... But nonetheless hecktic ...
That weekend team "Venturejuwana" came back into action finally ... We set off on our recee and retreat which didn't really turn out as much of a retreat ... Programs needs serious revision but we had fun ! :P
We scheduled to meet up at jurong at 10 but er ... sadly i arrived late abt 11 ... BUT Casper arrived only slightly after noon ... so *phew* not the latest yet ! Anywayz recee ended up starting 3 hrs behind time ... we set off from Jurong Entertainment Complex to Jurong Green CC where we had some ice cream settled plans for the area and headed off to Bukit Timah ...
Bukit Timah was an interesting hike ... Been awhile since any of us did hiking ... Nxt stop ARC at Camp David ... Then was the long ride down to Fort Canning (which we missed a stop) and our final stop before campsite ... Sunplaza Park (not at sembawang but at tampines) ... That was a long stop ... took us forever before we decided on the games at that stop ... Then of coz my favourite part ... Dinner (Which cut into supper) at changi village ! Had everything nice on our table and we sorta shared everthing :P so hehe ! Had meeting till 3 after dinner ... Became buffet for mosquitoes till 8 after that ... and breakfast at changi village ...
Finally was off to ubin !
Week after was basically study study study ... gotta go !

National Day !

Today is the 9th of August 2004 ... 39th years since the independance of Singapore as a Republic ! To greater prosperity , peace and harmony ! Singapore I give my best wishes !
*Salutes to Singapore Flag*
*Nation Anthem Plays*
The day has been fine ... woke up bright and early ... had garlic bread for breakfast ... followed by watching plenty of TV shows till early afternoons =p
Went out to chill with shahid for the rest of the day ... Wanted to go to the gym but it was closed so we went to watch mean girls (good show ! But the others in the threatre just couldn't appreciate the subtle jokes and deliberate puns ... Singaporeans ... *shakes head*) . Then we did some window shopping ... Went to his house after that and watched NDP and the fireworks display from his place ... Its was splendid but not as spectacular as the fireworks i watched the day before =p After which we sat down and watched Singapore Idol and that was definately a good laugh ! All sorts of weird people went for auditions , nerds to flashers to people with big ego and attitude problems to shy unaudiable and even emotional ... Singaporeans never cease to amaze me ... (or perhaps amuse is a better word) Btw ... I'm 100% Singapore made too but just that some Singaporeans ... or rather most ... are just like that ...
Hanged around his place and chatted with his family for awhile after the show while playing connect 4 with him till abt 10 30 before i decided it was time to go home ...
That very much concluded the day for me =)
Time to go to bed ...

Quote of the day : "All religions state that GOD is Compassion ... GOD is Love"---Indiana Jones (Young Indiana Jones---The Movie)

Happy National Day Singapore !

Okie had a great day ... Spent the morning chilling out ... Simple breakfast ? lunch ? brunch ? I don't know ... Anywayz basically a simple meal with jess at delifrance ... Had a nice conversation while we were at it ... =)
Later went to the library for about an hour while waiting for time to past ... Read a really interesting book entitled "Biorythms-A step by step guide" ... It was on the 3 major rythms that governed the performance of the person in a typical day ... The 23-day-cycle physical rythm which governs the physical performance of a person ... The 26-day-cycle emotional rythm which governs the social and mood aspect of a person ... The 33-day-cycle intelligence rythm which governs the mental performance of the person ... Shall try it out and see how well it works :P
Met jess again after that and headed down to city hall to meet the class for the fireworks display ... Everyone was late with exception of chippy and amy ;p ... Sorry u 2
Amazingly ... Most of the class turned up for the event ... And even more amazingly we all managed to squeeze through to the same spot before the fireworks display ended ... haha ... heaven smiles upon us this day !


"When you believe ... Miracles can happen"---Theorem of Le FoX


Well thats so much for actions of the day ... Now for the thoughts of the day ... Had been trying to avoid thinking about some stuff for awhile now ... Hoping that i would be able to be contented with simply being friends with her ... Apparently, it doesn't work out ... Questions i keep asking myself "How much do i really like her ? Is she really worth all the effort ? Is the feeling mutual ? Does she like me ? Does she know I still like her ? Do i even stand any chance ..." Maybe i should just give up ... lest i end up with another joyce ... a love that due to my persistance not only lost but blocked my existance out of her life ... Somebody tell me what i can do ... "The ONLY Real Mistake is the one you Learned NOTHING from" Maybe just maybe ... i should really learn from that last mistake ... before it becomes A REAL MISTAKE I will regret making ... After all "like does not equate with love" Yet ... I know i will regret giving up now ... "A journey of a thousand mile starts with a single step" ... I need to know if this is ever meant to be ...

Stressed Out ...

*Sigh* ... Come Tml First test (first official written test anywayz) for this semester and after 1 and a half day or so of mugging ... I can hardly understand anything ! Even though i didn't quite listen to lectures and i don't like the lecturer ... reading the notes should had at least gave me some assurable form of confidence to take this paper ... SHOULD ... But it isn't ... This isn't good ... Its never happened before ... Will i pull through ? What will i do ... SAVE ME ! SOMEBODY ... ANYBODY ! ARGHZ ... Stressed ... -_- "
*looks into the heavens* save me ... please ?
*sighs..............................................................*

Quote of the day: "It is better to deserve honour and not get them Than to get honour and not deserve them" --- Mark Twain
Point To Ponder: "There is no point working hard ... When you don't believe in yourself"

Tired ~~~~

Hmm ... Tired ... Real damn tired ... been awhile since i had fencing trgs due to various competitions and stuff ... For that matter ... actually been slacking on trgs of any sort ... lol !
Still aching all over today and hence skipped OB trg ... wondering if i should attend tml's fencing trg ... hmm ...
=) In anycase ... Common tests are coming up ... INstrumentations (which after some revision still got little idea what its about) ... Cell Culture (which can potentially give me a headache) ... Arghz ... guess this weekend would be quite a busy one -_-
On a lighter note ... Over head this conversation (not on purpose but he was just so loud)
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) Kids nowadays ! Hugging and kissing all over the place ...
Another Driver: (in hokkien) Its normal ... Things have changed !
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) I know ! (getting agitated) But Indian guy and chinese girl !
Another Driver: (gives no big reaction)
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) What are they thinking ! Black skin and white skin !
Another Driver: (laughs)
Bus Driver: (Drives off uttering something) ....

Quote of the day: "The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing" --- John Powell 

Interesting Quiz :


Which Naruto Character are You?
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Pizza Anyone ?

Hello ! Home from sch ... Been a long long long day ... Woke up early had breakfast with grandma [something i haven't done for ages] =) Met up with sista and kiddo for lunch at canteen 1 and headed off to lecture ...
Lecture on ABC was quite a load today ... Btw ABC isn't anything like ABC ... its something more chiem ... Analytical BioChemistry to be exact ... Anywayz ... Got a paper on monday ... Instrumentation ... a really dry subject with an old crack pot who tells weird jokes that are hardly jokes ... -_-" Been 1 month already and all i know abt that module is perhaps E=A/B*C (where B is ALWAYS 1 !)
Anywayz ... Had a long break till 5 which i took to do my lab reports ... not very productive but what the heck ... my lab partner has been acting pretty weird lately ... wonder why ... Hope he gets back to normal soon enough ...
Napfa Trg followed ... wasn't that bad ... Shao Bin treated all of us to dinner afterwhich :P Pizza ! Hadn't had that for ages ! haha ... didn't even get him anything ... would had if he explained it was his bday though ... anywayz ... see what i can get him soon ...
Ritez ... its way past 1 am i should be slping lest tml end up in another lab accident ! 
Till the nxt update ... Gd Nite   

Interesting things abt life ...

Interesting isn't it ? How u can fall in love with someone ... go through the whole courting process ... get attached ... break up and never forget them ... while they can so easily forget u ? Ha ... Or perhaps its just an assumption ?
Anywayz ... I think i'll leave the relationships aside ... Always gets on my nerves never seems to work out for me =( don't know why ... Heck ! :P
So life going on well ... Semesters started a whole month now ... though i'm still very much lost with academic work ... i suppose my CCAs are going on pretty okie ... Need to relook my priorities !
Not much to update ... or perhaps too much that i know not where to start ? Shall look into more constant updating ... Till then ... This is all i can say ?

A Prayer ? Or Perhaps A Poem ?

O'Lord ... Heavenly Father !
Heed my cry ...
Tis Lost sheep seeks a guide...
Send me a Shepard and Shine Thy guiding Light !

O'Lord of mercy ... God of grace ...
Will thee not have pity upon my soul ?
Shine me a path which in these dark uncertain times ...
Bestow upon Tis Lost Sheep Thy holy guide ...

O'Lord ... Heavenly Father ...
Where seen thee a son without curiousity ?
You granted the gift of choice ...
I've chose to seek my own ways of life ...

Yet Father I seek you in times so dire ...
In times so Lost ... because ...
I tread a path so far yet so close to yours ...
I seek a path uniquely mine yet within Thy holy guide ...

Many trials had I to face …
Many times had I thy name refuse …
Lord in Thee I have my faith …
But not Lores so said ye imposed …

O’Lord … Heavenly Father …
I pray thee … Heed My Cry !
Shed Thy holy light Upon tis Lost little sheep …
One who seeks a relationship close to thee yet far from thy call …

Amen


Simon Soh
June 04

I SEEK Peace ...

Hello ... Been Freaking busy these days ... Alot of work and assignments to keep me physically and mentally stretched ... With the ever existing toll of things to think about ... I don't know how much longer i can hold myself together ...
Thankfully to the late events ... Hope has been building ... I've tried to put most my problems to a rest ... Expressed what i need to the gal i like ... The one i loved seems had given me reasons enough to end my wait with no regrets ... A huge change in character and a determination to avoid me is undoubted ... If that is the case ... I fear I've no choice but to put that friendship to an end ... a sad resolution but one without choice ... Yet when i thought i'm finally going to hit the compensation point where i'll finally be at mind and heart's peace ... There comes the problems faced by my friends ... Is there never going to be an end to all these problems ? Will i never rest in peace ? When ? When ? When ! Will the time come where I'll gain what i seek ...

Quote of the day: "The Magnitude Of a Commander, Is Not Measured By How Many Victories He Leads His Men To ... But How Many Men He Leads Home"

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Er ... Home Again ? Or perhaps NOT ?

HaHa Noticed that i've been here and there alot but never home these days ... just got home from LSCT FOC Trial Camp ... Well ... I won't say its bad but it ain't nothing too good either ... Think the GLs gotta work like A WHOLE lot more on our team spirit and unity ... Okie maybe lets not talk abt unity but co-ordination has to get going ... -_-"
Its not that i don't wanna be proud being a Life Science GL but ... the feeling just isn't right ...
Anywayz ... SYF wasn't that bad all together ... got me into the memorable old days feeling :P Think i'll end up enjoying SYF after all ... Ritez ... Another camp coming up Pierce Secondary Sch ... Wonder how it'll be like ... 1st camp as a full fledge Instructor ... Hope i won't screw up ... ;) Pray Hard for me people :)

Quote of the Day: "Its Not abt Winning ... Its abt How U Win"---Theorem of Le FoX

Lack in Cash !

Heyz ... Well these days i've been damn slack ... wake up late ... slp late ... haha
My days consist of either going out to chill over lunch dinner brunch supper or someother meals ... Been sitting ard doing nothing much ... Or i'll be at home infront of my computer fairylanding or just chatting ... Sick life for a holiday haha !
Well today went out with shahid for a nice meal at sakura halal thai crusine ... Great meal :) But damn ex ... arghz ...
Hmm ... Weds will be day 1 of SYF trg ! :) Not feeling anything abt it yet ... don't know why also ... Haven't been very high for awhile ... not getting enough ups in life to cover for all those downfalls i've been having ... and the downfalls still adding up ... Hope something good happens soon ... i'm dying ...
Talking abt Cash ... running low on money liaoz ... but no jobs ! haiz ... sad ...
Find today's entry very jumbled up ? I guess thats how i feel inside ... random thoughts here and there nothing solid to work on ... when ? when ? when will the time come where i'll be lifted from all this torment ?

Quote of the day: "Drifters live in hell ... heaven is for those who steer"---Theorem of Le FoX (Taken off a book read today)
Bonus Quote: "Things don't just happen ... U've gotta make them happen"---Theorem of Le FoX (Inspired by the same book)

Home Again ...

Hello Peoplez !
Once again I return ... Class chalet is over ... Had a wonderful time with those that were present ... A nice BBQ and two nites of fun at Aranda Country Club Resorts ...
Lacks the beachy fun ... but had lots of fun indoors anywayz :P
I must say ... Its the first time for alot of things ... First time at such a nice suite for a chalet ... First time spending almost the entire time indoors for a chalet ... First time i see people buy rice for chalet -_-" and such
But it was all good :) Spent most of the time talking or playing on the PS II andrew brought with him ... Then theres the perpetually popular Dai Dee , Uno , Monopoly and something that seems to have become a class tradition ... BOOM-O !
Learnt alot abt some people and spent lots of time thinking of my own pursuits ... But to no avail ... Still wondering what to do ... *Thinking Hard*
OH yesh ... theres still venturejuwana comm. reccee cum retreat scheduled for first weekends after the holidays ... Can't wait for that one :P

Quote of the Day: "Never Regret what u've done ... Regret what nv did ..."---Theorem Of LeFoX
Movie Quote: "Immortality ! Take It ! Its Yours !"---Archilles of Greece
"Is there NO ONE ELSE ... IS THERE NO ONE ELSE !"---Archilles of Greece

Home From Camp !

Hello Cyber World ! Hello people ! I'm home once again ... 4 days without the comp ... not exactly very bad ... but always good to have the computer ard :p
Camp was good though not the way we hoped it to be but nonetheless it ended up well :)
Turned out more chalet than training ... guess gotta revise on that part ... But heck first camp organized by NP Fencing so didn't expect much ...
First day was pretty slack ... Booked in abt 10 it started raining ... then we chilled out till abt 2 ... Lunch wasn't that bad but seriously it sucks ... Had training till abt 7 then we had dinner ... chilled out in the room ... Jeff was entertaining us with some music ... Then later we had some card games ... Till abt 12 ... Thats abt when our "Prata Fairy" convinced the president to let us out of campus for supper at Al Ameen where we met this staff there who is a living calculator ! "2 dollar ... 2 dollar ... 4 Dollars !" LoL
The following day was sentosa ! spent most parts of the day enjoying the time on sentosa ... training wasn't much there ... Most of us got burnt which obviously isn't good coz we're to be fencing a mini competition back in sch the following days ...
The night activities are roughly the same every night... Then the following days consisted main of the polls and DEs ... which i lost all my bulks ... -_-" muz train liaoz ...
Damn i'm tired ... OKie shall end off here !
Quote of the day: "Immortality! Take It!! Its Yours!!!"--- Troy the movie

Surprize ! Surprize !

Ritez ... Decided to pop by and update alittle before Fencing Camp which start at 10 00 Hours Today ... And Guess wad ... Blogger has a new look and system ! Freak ... Luckly i can still navigate :P
So Whats new ? Nothing much ... WAtch Van Helsing with Shahid and Raccoon ... Then Yesterday went to buy hammock and jungle hat ... But after that it was fun :P
Went to Daffy's ... Daffy , Jing and their friend Ai Ling was cooking lunch :P Invited me over to try out their cookings :P Great meal ! hehe Brought Kitty along to Try out thier cooking with me and WOW ! Those gals can cook ! Spagetti ... Fish Pie ... Soup ! *whistles* :P Thankz gals !
Then there was the monopoly game ! I lost ... but it was fun :P

Quote of the day : "If u wanna kill someone Do it Quick ... Don' talk too much !"---Theorem of Le FoX (Quoted Van Helsing)
Bonus Logic: (ALso from Van Helsing by the friar) Friars CAN DO WHAT THEY LIKE :P They are not priest !

Couple of Hours to End of Exams !

HEllo ... thought i drop by to leave a few words before i go for my IPC which is at 09 00 hrs 8th May 2004 ....
Done all my revision work ... feeling really low ... no confidence at all ... Pray hard for me people ! Anywayz ... 1R05 gonna have my name in there somewhere liao i suppose ... so heck !
Okiez ... Thats abt it for now ! =P Ciao ~

Quote of the day : "Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow. That I shall say good night till it be morrow." --- Quote from Shakespear's R&J

A blast from the past ?

Seriously ... I don't know what to put up here these days ... Its always wake up study ... rest and study then u know the rest ... OH well ... Anywayz i did take a trip to YCK Gym with shahid today ... met my uncle there ... *weird* never crossed my mind he is the gym kinda guy *rolls eyes in thought* .....
Heck ... people won't think i'm the gym kinda guy either ... haha ! >p
Back in sec 4 after i was FORCED to drop A Maths (Not that i like any kinda Maths) .... I took deep interest in poetry ... a couple of reasons ... <1> I'm a literature student (what more can u expect ?) <2> My class was crazy over poetry (Only Pure Lit class -_-") <3> I was in love =P
Oh well ... chanced upon one of my works back then today while packing up some stuff ... so decided i'll put it up ... Enjoy =)


Love …

Always had I wondered,
What is this mysterious strength?
For ages had men pondered,
How it last for such eternal length?

Indeed it holds much mystery
Though older than time it could be
Love to now is yet defined clearly
By any man to me

Love so said to be
By my mother once to me
Is her unconditioned care,
For me, for eternity.

Yet there was once this priest,
Who claim love to be a gift from HE,
HE who had been said to be,
The one who created you and me.

All this claims,
Are true as can be.
Yet it confuses me
Till this day …

Yes today, this very day,
Even as I proclaim my love to thee.
And define it to be
My undying crave to be with ye.

Simon Soh
2002


Quote of the Day "|oVe is like the wind , it is felt Not SeeN NoR HeArD ..."---Theorem of Le FoX (abstracted from "A Walk To Remember")

Major Sianzation ...

Haiz ... Hello i suppose ...
A little down today ... Been working hard on maths ... Took maths papers today ... but ended not enough time to finish ... haiz ... guess i'm gonna fail ... lost 39/40 marks due to time and my incompetence in maths ...
OH yar ... Laptop adaptor burnt out ... so haven't been able to update ...
Anywayz ... the day wasn't that bad apart from maths paper ... Went for a swim with jess jia and dwright after the paper ... swimming and chilling for abt an hour or so in that pool sort took the loads of my mind for abit... just floating ard in that anti-gravitic enviroment really takes the toll off one's mind body and soul ... =) Love swimming but ngee ann pool abit too alkaline ? I don't know ... soapy la ...
However, I think i might go back to my coach ... go apply for my Award Distinction in Lifesaving techniques ....
Well ... That'll be abt it for now ... Take care folks ...

What kinda fencer are u ?

Well ... Been out all day studying and I must say ... Woodlands Regional Library is a real hot place to study ... It opens at 12 but by 11 there are plenty of people jammed at its gates waiting ...
Anywayz took this quiz which i find darn inaccurate ... I'm a sabere lor ! Say i'm a foilist -_- " ... or perhaps i'm better off a foilist ... Hmmm...

This is wad i got :

You are a foil fencer. Foil is a weapon of calculation and passion. You glide easily between attack and defense. You can flick to the back or thrust to the chest. What Kind of Fencer Are You?

This is more like wad I'm supposed to get (or I'd like to get):

You are a sabre fencer. Sabre is a weapon of explosiveness and brawn. You are almost always on the offense. You can score touches by thrusting or cutting. What Kind of Fencer Are You?

Oh well ... Leave it be =P Just another quiz
Going back to study now =( Stupid maths ... Never liked it Never will ... But nonetheless ... I'll pull through =) Today's quote was given to me by my "lil' kitten" ... Enjoy

Quote of the day: "STRESSED is just DESSERTS speLled bAckwArds"----Theorem of Le FoX (Quote Provided by YeeWen)

Hello

Not much to share today ... Feeling hopeless ... Tried to study maths but didn't work out ... Went to the gym with shahid and then had dinner out again ... gonna be damn broke ~~~ haiz ...
Well ... First aid course is in a mess and i've much more others to plan too ... lacking in participation ... Anyone interested ? 21st-23rd of June 2004 ? Ngee Ann Students get subsidy =P Give me a call ya ... 91009518 (any prank callers will suffer the wrath of LeFoX... I mean it ... Not in a good mood)
Heres a little poem i find really meaningful perhaps at times i feel the same way...


The Greatest Pain In Life

The greatest pain in life is not to die,
but to be ignored.


To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.


To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.


When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.


To have people think that you don't care.


The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.


To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.


To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".


When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.


For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.


When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.


Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?


Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?


Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.


Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.


If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.


You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.


Quote of the day: "The worse way to miss anyone is to be right nxt to him/her knowing you can't have his/her heart"---Theorem of Le FoX

Amazing !

Yesh ! End of practical exams ! Muhahahaha ~~~ *evil laughter* =P
Lets work backwards today ... =D
The day ended well ... dinner with my "brother", Bevan. This is another guy who has been through alot with me =) All the way from that fateful day in the science lab when we were in sec 1 ... Buddies to Brother ... this is one of those family friends of mine ... everyone in the family knows him and mum is very fond of him ... -_-" *jealous*
Ah yesh ... Studied after MicroBio Practs with Jessie ... Simon ... Huiz and Zhen You ...
MB pract was a killer ! Stupid Gram -ve stain ... i can't see nothing on that damn slide ... so i wrote *colour appreciation deficiency* at the corner of the paper and handed it up ...
Yesterday was good ... Dinner with Cpt Oh ... David and Kiddo ... Lots of laughs
Free Fenced and got injured but it was fun and destressing (not that i really needed to destress but ... =P)
Went to book the chalet for the class ... long trip but was cool ...
Last tennis session ... It was cool but i fear there is much to learn abt tennis ... same goes to fencing *lol*
Okie so much for working backwards *sweat* hardwork man ~~ But fun =P nxt time perhaps I'll do it again
Ritez ... the title ... Amazing how many people actually reads this blogsite ! I'm stunned ... and so many who actually knows me ... god ... and i don't even publicise it ... anywayz ... people ... plz ar ... wad i write is wad i feel ... don't come and condem be horz ... disclaimer already states read at ur own risk =P Anywayz those who has left comments thankz ! really touched ... =D Someone came to me lately with reference to my entry on AGM again ... got me to think ... and answer is YES i want to make myself known and i do wanna do something great ... YES u can say i was dying for a position with NPOB ... But no ... i don't do things without thinking ... everything i do i do for/with a cause !

Quote of the day: "One destination, Many approaches, One goal Diversity of experiences"---Theorem of Le FoX

Broke in more than one way

Hello ~ Not really in top mood tonite ... Decided to pop by and pour out some of my problems so i don't have to feel so alone ... Hate handling problems alone though more than often i've come to not only learn but grown accustomed to do so ...
Well ... As suggested Broke in more than one ways ... To start with i'm literally BROKE ... running low on fundings ... esp with so much activities in May ... hope i'll get some assignments for June at least can make some cash =P
Then i've broke my promise to myself ... To strive for academic excellence this semester ... NOT working out ... Gotta work harder ... Also another promise broken to oneself ... wanted to get fitter ... but not working hard enough to do so ...
Broken hearted once again ... same girl ... i wonder why i just can't let the past go and move on ... I really like to know why I simply cannot forget her ... well guess wad ... she was back from Tasamania for abt 10 days ... as much as i suspected from her unusual hours online of late ... but she didn't bother to even say hi when she saw me online ... when i actually msg her, she could give me no more than cold short replies ... so once again ... if so ... why does it still hurt so much ... for someone who feels nothing more for me ... how issit i can feel so much for ! ArgHz ! SICK !!!
Brusting brain cells ... Well ... talking abt moving on ... I've been thinking hard abt someone and whether i should really move in & give it a try ... But too many factors really linger within my thoughts ... Would she like me ? Do i have enough points for anyone to like me enough to want to be with me ? Do i still have the capacity to truely love ? What if she doesn't like me ? How would i react ? Wad if ... There is just too much to think abt ... too much to lose ... too much to sacrifice ... too much at risk ... But the question now should be ... Do i have the guts to give myself the chance to find the answers to all these question ?
OH ya ... the chatter box seems to be giving me some funny technical problems ... Too lazy to fix it ... Too stressed perhaps ... Or perhaps i just can't be bothered anymore ... Someone once told me ... everybody got their ups and downs ... well i say i'm getting too many downs and not enough ups ... Damn ~ where comes justice and balance ? wherefore does the gods pitch me in such torments ? how am i to put faith in any god when my life is in such a state ? Damn the devil ... true ... yet no god has came in my times of need to show me mercy nor give me aid ... Has the heaven earth and hell forsaken me ? Is there no one who is so benovelent to lend a hand to poor me ?
*looks into the stars*
Even so the FoX will survive ... I'll pull through ... I always DO ... Just Watch Me ...

Happy Bday Hui Hui !

Heyz ! Been away for awhile ... pretty bz ... been home late the couple of days ... What have i been up to ? Heres an update :
-GL trainings
-Matriculation Booth Duty (LSCT and OB)
-Fencing trainings
-Fencing Camp Planning
-Venturejuwana Planning
Well ... hmm ... haven't been scoring in tests that i've taken ... expected for maths ... but for MB i'm pretty disappointed ... Gotta work hard soon =(
Anywayz ... Thursday was Hui Hui's bday ... but we only celebrated it today together with DJ's ... supposed to celebrate at crystal jade ... but i was late due to a meeting with Cpt Oh (fencing SDO) ... But managed to meet up with the main group after lunch and bowled a couple of rounds at marina followed by dinner at BK and a movie. "Into the Mirror" great show muz watch =P took us like forever just to pyscho Hui to watch it ! hehe ... Long day but it was fun !

Easter Day !

YoZ ! Happy Easter people ! Now ... first to clearify i always had this concept that Easter is the Sunday after Good Friday ... But someone told me that Easter IS Good Friday ... I don't know (can someone plz clearify?)... Anywayz Happy Easter !
Well ... Friday was good ... Saturday ... Well ... IAC presentation which i conviently used the "smoke screen" technique to get through went real well =P But i guess abit too much of that cause a headache which saw me flying home dizzy ...
But got better in the evening and a good thing i did =P Met up with shahid, my "brother" through joys and cries ... This is one guy i could had known since primary 4 but i never did till sec 1 ... NPCC squadmate ... fellow Student Councillor and a friend through and through ... We went to sim lim tower to get some stuff for his engineering project ... Followed by dinner at Apollo Banana Leaf =P Great dinner indeed ... Had a nice long talk all the way through =) Always enjoy his company though at times we don't really talk haha !
Today wasn't much woke up ... supposed to meet my classmates to book a chalet but cancelled last minute... So went to try putting on contact lenses AGAIN ... gave up after 2 hrs ... came home ... did some revision ... but nothing seems to had gotten in ... went online ... saw joyce online ... didn't bother to say hi ... don't know why but it seems like up till now i'm either not forgiven (for a crime i know not wad) or she just feels too awkard to speak to me ...
Oh well ... Upcoming week is gonna be a killer .... IPC theory ... IPC practical ... SN partical ... alot of test ... -_-" better get going ...
Au Revour Monaime

Passion of Christ

Hello Hello =) Today is Good Friday ... and i must say indeed a very good good friday for yours truely =P Lets talk abit about my day shall we ? =)
Started my day a wake up call from Jessie ... which i sorta woke up answered and went rite back to sleep ... Sorry Jess ... Okie supposed to meet her but I suppose her sis and friends got fed up with waiting for me so they left =( Sorry again ...
Anywayz found my way to sch ... Enjoyed a little game of badminton with Jess Lix Uncle D and some of their friends ... Got to know some new peeps and had some fun good deal =P
Sadly didn't get to stay in game for long ... had to rush for a movie "The Passion Of The Christ" by Mel Gibson ... Glad i went for it ... Great show ! effects were so realistic and every scene u can actually feel for the actor ... wow ... the director the makeup artist the creative director whoever took part in making this film come to screen are great i tell u ! Must watch ! Oh and i must thank Jia for the free tickets from her friend's church =P Thanks kiddo !
Following that was dinner @ pastamania with Jess Hui and Eugene ... Then we headed for Trinity Christian Centre where we enjoyed a short musical called ... erm ... "Caught , Not in the act" ... touching tale of this guy who gave up everything even his life for his adopted brother ... Courage indeed ... Sadly just a show =(
Well so then comes Pastor Dennis who tried to get me to "accept christ" as he puts it ... at first i was merely entertaining him while waiting for hui who has actually accepted christ and went for some proceedure of registration ? i'm not sure ... But as our converstaion developed ... we went into a whole series of discussions and such ... i'll skip the details but we end with him inviting me to a workshop "defending your faith" where he'll answer all the tough questions with logical and acceptable facts ... which i promised him i'll attend and if he can by then convince me i'll accept christ =P
Thats abt that time to rush my IAC ... -_-"

Speak the Unspoken pain ...

HIz ... Once again i come to realise there are people who actually come read my blog ... -_-"
First thing thanks people for bothering to read the bloggie and thanks for all the encouragement and stuff with reference to my previous entry =) Always nice to know you lot care
Ritez ... Some have came read and told me to remove that last entry ... Others felt that I have every right to put up whatever i want to on my blog ... I have been considering all these points and never came through with a sound decision yet ... Guess i'll keep it here for awhile =) Sorry to disappoint those who expects me to remove it
I know many find that i was too harsh with my words but dissappointment when you put in effort deals great damage to one ... especially for a slacker like myself who don't really put effort in many things ...
Hmm ... life goes on ... alot to think abt ... maths being top on the list of concerns ... exams are going to flood me real soon ... been very slack eversince AGM ... no drive to serve commitment to any of my CCAs ... not studying at home either ... just been very very slack ... A few consolations to myself ... at the very least i've still been able to drag myself to every class ... and i've been jogging =)
Big things in my life of late ?
Well ... 1 thing would be the matters of the heart ... been thinking alot abt moving on ... great times with joyce stills lingers deep within me ... but our break up and the conseqences i faced ... the pain ... that too habours in my mind everytime i want to move on ... there is someone i want to try out ... but there is too much to lose and Fear holds me back ...
2nd thing would be something that would be rather on going for awhile ... "Venturejuwana --- Age Old Addiction to Adventure" This is one of the projects i took up along with brian ... I'll talk more abt it another day perhaps ... But basically its a camp for youths ... been working on it for awhile now ... abt a month ...
Well ... i'm blogging today ... for those who has been following ... you maybe looking for something extreme from me again ... but well not today ... just bored ...

Ngee Ann Outward Bounders Annual General Meeting

Hello ... knowing me ... updating out of nowhere means something extreme muz have happened ... so to those looking for something nice today isn't the good extremity ... so you've been warned ...
Well AGM is finally here ... working hard whole year long just to make it to the commitee and show some worth. Thought getting in the comm would be something to finally boost my morale a little from all those drawbacks last year ... but guess wad ... I lost yet again ... losing is one thing ... losing to people i deem myself as more competent to is a totally different story. I don't mind if i didn't make the position because i'm not as competent to fill the post but this ... its absurb ! Commitment ... i've given more time to OB than to myself or anyother thing i've done ! Skills ? I'm better trained ... 4 years in NPCC ... 3 years in the council ... 2 years as a level head ... 1 year as quaters master and chief of safety ! and fuck ... i can't win someone without as much experience or commitment ? I don't know what they are thinking abt !