Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Life Goes On ...
Hello pplz ... Life goes on for me ... after the camp ... there is much to settle ... work ... emotions ... friends new and old ... everything ... Wanted to update this blog page ... but well a little too bz ... a little too lazy so very sorry ... nothing much to say but test are on their way ... Wish me all the best yar ?
Monday, August 04, 2003
Turning Pt. of Life ...
Hello ppl ... Just Got back from OB interaction camp not so long ago ... alot to say today ... but first ... to apologise for not updating for so long ... Well ... here goes ... the story since my last update back in July ...
Been Busy with school work and cca ... adapting and such ... Well ... as far as things went ... i aced a couple of my recents quizes ... doing justice to my passion of science ... *phew* thank god ... hehe :P anywayz ... things aren't gonna get easier ... those i didn't ace are the more recent ones and their results are not too appealing to my ego :( Haiz ...
Moving on ... CCA wise ... i made it through round one of the ambassadors' interview ... don't know how round 2 results are but i've very little confidence ... Failed the interview for NP strings ... not too sad abt it ... rather happy even ... Trained with the NgeeAnn Fencers ... Wanted to take fencing seriously but ... my family isn't on to it =( oh well ... moving on once more ... we come to Outward Bounders' Camp ... Camp was fun ... day 1 consisted of typical ice breaking under OB rules ... but a surprizing first activity required large amt of teamwork and communication before any icebreaker ... we made it through ... it was a drain crawl event ... unfortunately ... in the most cramp part of the journey i suffered a leg cramp and was unable to proceed ... =( the up part was the team made it all the way and made it a great show ... =) well done Jean Grey (tts the grp name) ... Day 2 was marked by a series of stationed games which tested communications ... leadership and teamwork ... we made it through once more ... and yes we're enthu ... very enthu =P Nite walk and Camp David Games are significant as it showed individual and the whole camp's effort and willingness to help each other and to take up challenges ... Day 3 came X challenge ... Jogging forwards for 15 rounds ... Backwards and Blind-Folded each 10 rounds ... finally with 5 rounds of piggy backing a friend ... all rounds are 1.5 km each (half campus Jogs) ... each team were to finish tt challenge and then report to the pool for other activities followed by a centipide crawl clear across the pool side ... Now having gone through all tt and more ... OB interaction camp members has all reached an unbelievable height in teamwork ... communications and bonding ... I'm proud of all of you ppl =)
After all tt happening and fun ... my life takes another big turn ... after months of persistant waiting ... though not without much failure on my part ... I guess I've finally drilled the idea into my head that my beloved wants to concentrate on only her studies and not to be distractred by a relationship ... though to date i remain in doubt how much she really loves me ... she too cannot give me an answer after today's conversation ... it is today too that she has finally broken the cold wall that has mysteriously built up after our "break up" ... the conversation went well and we've settled in to remain as we are today for till much much further notice ... on my side ... i really don't know what to say ... i want her to stay ... i want us to be more than just friends ... but i cannot live with myself knowing we're not even friends ... so for now ... i guess ... she is rite ... i'll have to live with the fact tt we cannot be together now or anytime soon ... Loving her is something i don't ever want to give up ... but her qnt "wad if one day i tell u i like someone else?" ... i told her it wouldn't matter to me ... i guess its the biggest lie i made to her ... how can it not matter to me ... she means everything to me ... but i guess if she is happy with that someone else in the future ... i would give her my blessing ... Her pt. " I wouldn't mind if u like someone else " ... my comments ... how can i ever do tt ... how can she even ask me to go like someone else ? haiz ... i don't know but i guess so long as we're friends ... it would always be better than losing her totally ... she is leaving for tasamania ... I will be missing her more than ever ... I really want her ... why ... why ... why issit that fate won't grant me her hand for now ? I WILL NOT give u up joyce ... trust me ... my love is true ... I will find my way to win ur hand in marriage in the future ...
Been Busy with school work and cca ... adapting and such ... Well ... as far as things went ... i aced a couple of my recents quizes ... doing justice to my passion of science ... *phew* thank god ... hehe :P anywayz ... things aren't gonna get easier ... those i didn't ace are the more recent ones and their results are not too appealing to my ego :( Haiz ...
Moving on ... CCA wise ... i made it through round one of the ambassadors' interview ... don't know how round 2 results are but i've very little confidence ... Failed the interview for NP strings ... not too sad abt it ... rather happy even ... Trained with the NgeeAnn Fencers ... Wanted to take fencing seriously but ... my family isn't on to it =( oh well ... moving on once more ... we come to Outward Bounders' Camp ... Camp was fun ... day 1 consisted of typical ice breaking under OB rules ... but a surprizing first activity required large amt of teamwork and communication before any icebreaker ... we made it through ... it was a drain crawl event ... unfortunately ... in the most cramp part of the journey i suffered a leg cramp and was unable to proceed ... =( the up part was the team made it all the way and made it a great show ... =) well done Jean Grey (tts the grp name) ... Day 2 was marked by a series of stationed games which tested communications ... leadership and teamwork ... we made it through once more ... and yes we're enthu ... very enthu =P Nite walk and Camp David Games are significant as it showed individual and the whole camp's effort and willingness to help each other and to take up challenges ... Day 3 came X challenge ... Jogging forwards for 15 rounds ... Backwards and Blind-Folded each 10 rounds ... finally with 5 rounds of piggy backing a friend ... all rounds are 1.5 km each (half campus Jogs) ... each team were to finish tt challenge and then report to the pool for other activities followed by a centipide crawl clear across the pool side ... Now having gone through all tt and more ... OB interaction camp members has all reached an unbelievable height in teamwork ... communications and bonding ... I'm proud of all of you ppl =)
After all tt happening and fun ... my life takes another big turn ... after months of persistant waiting ... though not without much failure on my part ... I guess I've finally drilled the idea into my head that my beloved wants to concentrate on only her studies and not to be distractred by a relationship ... though to date i remain in doubt how much she really loves me ... she too cannot give me an answer after today's conversation ... it is today too that she has finally broken the cold wall that has mysteriously built up after our "break up" ... the conversation went well and we've settled in to remain as we are today for till much much further notice ... on my side ... i really don't know what to say ... i want her to stay ... i want us to be more than just friends ... but i cannot live with myself knowing we're not even friends ... so for now ... i guess ... she is rite ... i'll have to live with the fact tt we cannot be together now or anytime soon ... Loving her is something i don't ever want to give up ... but her qnt "wad if one day i tell u i like someone else?" ... i told her it wouldn't matter to me ... i guess its the biggest lie i made to her ... how can it not matter to me ... she means everything to me ... but i guess if she is happy with that someone else in the future ... i would give her my blessing ... Her pt. " I wouldn't mind if u like someone else " ... my comments ... how can i ever do tt ... how can she even ask me to go like someone else ? haiz ... i don't know but i guess so long as we're friends ... it would always be better than losing her totally ... she is leaving for tasamania ... I will be missing her more than ever ... I really want her ... why ... why ... why issit that fate won't grant me her hand for now ? I WILL NOT give u up joyce ... trust me ... my love is true ... I will find my way to win ur hand in marriage in the future ...
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