Merry Xmas !

Of all things ... I nv imagined myself carolling for a church which i'm not even a member of :P but yeah this xmas eve i've dedicated myself to Hope Of God Singapore (Ngee Ann CareGroup) for one nite ... Helping them raise funds for their church building as well as having a great time ... I won't say my motives were right and i definately gained more than i gave ... However it was fun =) Caroling with NgeeAnn, Republic Poly and Various Dipolma Institutions
The spirit of Xmas this year was truely seen ... for once ever since god knows when ...
To my friends (Old & New) : Merry Xmas n may u be blessed
To my family : I may nv show that i love U ... But its cause u nv let me ... Merry Xmas
To joyce : Merry Xmas =) I love U ... Truely i do ... But since u cannot accept that ... I'm sorry I've to move on ... Thanks for everything especially the Great times we shared... may our memories live on =P
To YeeWen : Merry Xmas =) Smile More Kitty :D A little smile goes a long long way ...
To my Brothers n Sisters : U guys had been great ... U've been the closest ppl to me ... perhaps closer than family =) Merry Xmas & thankz for being there when u were !

Hello Hello =P

Got lots of request i make an effort to actually maintain this blog site and put up more than extreme moments ... but tts wad i live on wad can i say :P anywayz here i'm trying to do wad i can abt it ;p
Life goes on ... New semester starting soon ... don't know why but i'm not at all excited abt it ... maybe coz the lecturers aren't very much rumoured as anything tts good -_-" haha ... but i really muz not be prejudiced against them ... Should give them a chance to prove the rumours wrong ! haha ... *rubbish*
For those wondering hows my holidays ... Heres a lil' summary :
-1st semester holidays since joining NP
-Pretty slack ... Very Slack ... nothing to study ahead on ... nothing to study back on ...
-High point: Unlimited chalet ... though not everyone turned up :( it went pretty well ...
-High point again: X'troVenture Camp ... though again not very fun ... but it wasn't too bad :P
-Then post camp days ... very sian ...
-Most recent: whole week of fencing training ... owe them alot of commitment

Thats abt it for now =)

Quote of the day --- > "In The Circle Of Life ... There Is No Definate Right Or Wrong"---Theorem of Le FoX

Ah a good day indeed !

Heyz ... a change of luck ? Haha ... Anywayz ... Freaking excited ! I'm going for an interview with an adventure consultancy as a freelance instructor ! =) This is a dream come true ! Lets hope i pass the interview =P Wish me luck peepz !

Irony Of Life ...

Who am i lying to ... How can life be truely good for me ? haha ...
OH well ... I guess i should complain less ...
Ironic isn't it ... I waited for ages just for her Os to come to an end ... I kept asking myself to believe that there is a chance ... And now the day has come ... Shes talking to me ... I've so much to say ... so much to share ... She is the first person to ever make me feel how it is like to miss someone ... How much it hurts to love one person while not knowing if the person even bothers ... Yet when i got to speak to her ... I could say nothing ... do nothing ... =(
I'm lost ... I'm confused ... I'm dying ... I don't know wad to do ...

Hello

Hmm ... well well ... been very long since my last entry ...
This is a good thing =P means at least not sad news to share =D However rest assured i'm fine today ... just thought i should update my good ol' blog page with something nice for a change ...
Happy thing #1
Exams are over ! Yeah ! Freedom ! Rest ! Relaxation ! Muhahahaha *hysterical laugh* Muhahaha
Happy thing #2
Hazard Chalet ! Yoz 3D2N with my class BioHazard (1f05) on Sentosa ! =D Had lotsa fun ... Dumping into pool ... Truth or Dares ... Boom-O .... Uno ... DiaDee ... Beach Games ... Pool Games ... U name it =P Had loads of fun ! Thankz Guys ! BBQ ... mmmm ... Jumbo Dogs !
Happy thing #3
Ubin cycling trip ! OB on Ubin ... Not my idea of a success but who cares ? we had fun and the victory feast (BBQ @ Changi Beach) was good ! Lots of pictures ... Oh me and my OB brothers had a great time acting like idiots posing for photos =P Magnum Style ? HeHe ... Interested can ask me for it ...
Happy thing #4
Up and coming is X'tro Venture Camp ... The First Time Ever Adventure Power Camp by NP's 4 most solid Adventure Clubs ! NgeeAnn Poly Outward Bounders ... The Adventure Seekers ... Ngee Ann Cannoeing Club ... Adventure Rope Course club ...
Happy thing #5
Unlimited Chalet another Up N Coming Event ! More Fun impending ! HaHa
With all happy things must come sad ones too ... tt i think i don't need but its here and i've to face it =(
Sad thing #1
I'm down with flu from the lack of rest and all tt energy draining events I had...
Sad thing #2
O levels coming to an end ... this means i'll find out wads gonna be my nxt step in expects of love in my life ... I really wish Joyce would stay and cont' wad we started ...
Sad thing #3
Exams results coming out ... really scared
Sad thing #4
Outward Bounders will be out on their courses soon ... all the best ... i'll miss u lot ... i wanted so much to be with u lot ! i really really wanted to ... =(
Sad thing #5
Ah Ben gonna leave singapore ... gonna miss ya bro ...

Hmm ... Damn ~~~

Hello again ... Well seeing this as me updating my blog ... anyone who has been following my sad pathetic excuse of a life would very much know something big or bad must had happened AGAIN ... yes AGAIN and i cannot emphasize more ...
Whats wrong this time ? Well like i said in my last entry ... My life is in a total mess ... and thankz to whosoever planning my life ... THANK U really ... U couldn't make it worse could u ... First it was her ... so fine ... if its the case that i my loving her will only end up in more misery for her... I'll leave ... And seriously thanks ... she cared enough to think for me ... that part i appreciated ... But at a time when i've decided to give up ?
Now ... WHY muz u make it such tt i come across and join OB ... only to earn enough respect and acknowledgement only to eventually know that i cannot go for the goal of all these training ...
Yes .... again i must say i truely muz thank u for giving tonnes of caring friends who remains but as just friends ... friends who from where i view have a nice life ... at least that much better than mine ... N i suppose this is all to CHEER me up ? Compensate for my other misfortunes ?
True ... as compared to many others my life is fine ... but WHAT THE FUCK is it lor ... material needs are covered above average ... But NO FAMILY LIFE ... Love yes i know i'm getting a fair share but i'm not getting it the way i want it ... Love doesn't count unless one can FEEL it strongly enough ...

To Be Or Not To Be .... WAd Kinda Qnt is tt ?

To Be Or Not To Be ? Happy ? Or Sad ? Sad ? Or Happy ? Screw it ... I've HAD IT ... Life ISN"T Gonna be kind to me ... Everything that can go wrong HAS gone wrong ... Everything else that has mariclously gone right ... Ends up it all goes back down to nothing and maybe even worse ... If you kill me FINE ... at least i DIE quickly ... Other wise ... Why give me hope ? Then stab me right back again and leave me bleeding to death ? Life isn't fair ... If anyone is planning my life ... well thank u very much i suppose u are having a great time seeing me die slowly ... in your hands ...

Pray for Mayflower

HiZ ... Well as its always when i'm down and i'm sad that i find myself here on this lonely site in my room all alone ... thinking ... this time not a personal note .... but something more general something out of compassion for my juniors and theirs ... Mayflower my alma mater is now doomed a principal who exploits on the sch and wants nothing more than fame and glory for herself ... everything is now exposed on a public media ... wad shame ... nv liked her but nv thought anyone would be cruel enough to hit that rice bowl off tt old bitch's hands ... she just received a 4 year extension of principalship in mayflower days ago and now in the news comes such open accusition ... lord have mercy upon tt bitch's soul ... she may sux and she may deserve all this and more ... but she is afterall still human ... haiz ... i don't know feel like taking the chance to finish her off but feel bad after doing typing out the feedback to the press ... but she deserves it ... yet i can't pass off hurting an old husbandless bitch ... so unloved and has nothing to depend on ... for love is of such importance as i've learnt from experience ... to remain single all her life for tt i pity her ... but for everything else she did i condemn her ... HECK TO HELL WITH HER ! then again ... its too evil ... oh well u decide ... heres the report and of cos there is more to it ... she has done things worse than this ... : http://www.todayonline.com/articles/5868.asp

Life Goes On ...

Hello pplz ... Life goes on for me ... after the camp ... there is much to settle ... work ... emotions ... friends new and old ... everything ... Wanted to update this blog page ... but well a little too bz ... a little too lazy so very sorry ... nothing much to say but test are on their way ... Wish me all the best yar ?

Turning Pt. of Life ...

Hello ppl ... Just Got back from OB interaction camp not so long ago ... alot to say today ... but first ... to apologise for not updating for so long ... Well ... here goes ... the story since my last update back in July ...
Been Busy with school work and cca ... adapting and such ... Well ... as far as things went ... i aced a couple of my recents quizes ... doing justice to my passion of science ... *phew* thank god ... hehe :P anywayz ... things aren't gonna get easier ... those i didn't ace are the more recent ones and their results are not too appealing to my ego :( Haiz ...
Moving on ... CCA wise ... i made it through round one of the ambassadors' interview ... don't know how round 2 results are but i've very little confidence ... Failed the interview for NP strings ... not too sad abt it ... rather happy even ... Trained with the NgeeAnn Fencers ... Wanted to take fencing seriously but ... my family isn't on to it =( oh well ... moving on once more ... we come to Outward Bounders' Camp ... Camp was fun ... day 1 consisted of typical ice breaking under OB rules ... but a surprizing first activity required large amt of teamwork and communication before any icebreaker ... we made it through ... it was a drain crawl event ... unfortunately ... in the most cramp part of the journey i suffered a leg cramp and was unable to proceed ... =( the up part was the team made it all the way and made it a great show ... =) well done Jean Grey (tts the grp name) ... Day 2 was marked by a series of stationed games which tested communications ... leadership and teamwork ... we made it through once more ... and yes we're enthu ... very enthu =P Nite walk and Camp David Games are significant as it showed individual and the whole camp's effort and willingness to help each other and to take up challenges ... Day 3 came X challenge ... Jogging forwards for 15 rounds ... Backwards and Blind-Folded each 10 rounds ... finally with 5 rounds of piggy backing a friend ... all rounds are 1.5 km each (half campus Jogs) ... each team were to finish tt challenge and then report to the pool for other activities followed by a centipide crawl clear across the pool side ... Now having gone through all tt and more ... OB interaction camp members has all reached an unbelievable height in teamwork ... communications and bonding ... I'm proud of all of you ppl =)
After all tt happening and fun ... my life takes another big turn ... after months of persistant waiting ... though not without much failure on my part ... I guess I've finally drilled the idea into my head that my beloved wants to concentrate on only her studies and not to be distractred by a relationship ... though to date i remain in doubt how much she really loves me ... she too cannot give me an answer after today's conversation ... it is today too that she has finally broken the cold wall that has mysteriously built up after our "break up" ... the conversation went well and we've settled in to remain as we are today for till much much further notice ... on my side ... i really don't know what to say ... i want her to stay ... i want us to be more than just friends ... but i cannot live with myself knowing we're not even friends ... so for now ... i guess ... she is rite ... i'll have to live with the fact tt we cannot be together now or anytime soon ... Loving her is something i don't ever want to give up ... but her qnt "wad if one day i tell u i like someone else?" ... i told her it wouldn't matter to me ... i guess its the biggest lie i made to her ... how can it not matter to me ... she means everything to me ... but i guess if she is happy with that someone else in the future ... i would give her my blessing ... Her pt. " I wouldn't mind if u like someone else " ... my comments ... how can i ever do tt ... how can she even ask me to go like someone else ? haiz ... i don't know but i guess so long as we're friends ... it would always be better than losing her totally ... she is leaving for tasamania ... I will be missing her more than ever ... I really want her ... why ... why ... why issit that fate won't grant me her hand for now ? I WILL NOT give u up joyce ... trust me ... my love is true ... I will find my way to win ur hand in marriage in the future ...

Hmm ...

Hey there ! =) Sorry ... life has been bz =( Alot of adaptation to do and not much time to do just that ... Well ... Got my IS class to make some noise, broke the ice a little ... Got my a CCA more or less i think ... OB(Outward Bounders) ... the idea of it wasn't too appealing but i guess its the closest it gets to good ol' Npcc training at Ngee Ann ... Not that i love Npcc tt much but just that the familarity just seems to appeal to me ... for now at least ... Got to know quite a number of new people over the week ... I guess this will go on for awhile more ... poly life is something i need to adapt to ... the idea of having so many ppl i don't know ard is just disturbing ... then again the "absurbity" (if such a word even exist) of reasons to allow one to know ppl is confusing too ... you can have every reason to know someone but u may not get to know him/her ... however, on the other hand with the most absurb of reasons one may actually get to know someone more easily ... then again it may be the other way ard sometimes ... Academically ... poly is also very different as life gets on ... pace of time seems to be very fast where as pace of learning doesn't seem to take its evolution in myself ... =(
Received a call from an old friend of mine a few days back ... she was complaining abt her life and all ... then after being consoled somehow she led me to straying into talking abt my relationship life and haiz ... thinking back ... I started to feel the pain once more ... of missing that special someone so dearly that i started to feel every heartbeat by its components once more ... every time blood drains from the heart yet nv seems to fully fill back when blood pumps back in ... =( Oh angel ... why ... why does it have to be like this ... being a little more friendly ... a little less foreign ... a tact more warm ... just to an old friend ... thats all i ask ... but why ... even that little request of familarity for sake of old times you will not grant me ?

1F05 Rulez ...

Hello pplz ... Nice day ... simple practical and then there was early lunch cos some funny guy came and obstructed Mrs Tang's tuitorial which had to be moved to a later slot on friday ... Anywayz ... so lunch was good ... 2 bucks for a good meal @ SIM food court much better than anything from canteen 4 which we are supposedly confined to for lunch ... -_-" Moving on ... There was then the registration with the ambassadors for an entry interview ... Wish me luck ppl =) Then came the highlight of the day !!! HAHA !!! Class Activity Day ... 1F05 or BioHazard (as i hope the class would agree to for a classname) which is my class appears to be the only class with such an event so far =) and to my surprize the event was an immediate hit with nearly 75% attendance ... a 14/20 (which for class events of a new class which is like 1½week old is indeed a very good statistic) I do hope this would carry on and the class would thrive as the best there is at Ngee Ann for as long as it exist =) Thankz pplz !
Getting on to my life ... as you can see today clearly cheered me up from the past week of turmoil ... with all the crap abt my laptop ... my ex gf ... and other funny stuff which didn't turn on very funny on me emotionally ... today was indeed a big relief ... Hoping things would run on smoothly from here on in ... though tml itself is a bad enough thought ... I promise i'll TRY to interact with the IS class ... do note i emphazied on the word "TRY"... OKie Time for bed Good Nite World ... Swt Dreams

Stupid Laptop !!!

Arghz having problem with my laptop today ... it doesn't seems to be working ... and ARgZh ... Nv seen this porblem before HOW TO RECTIFY ? Oh well ... On the bright side tml is 05 activity day ... only managed to book 1 pathetic court for 1 hr ... lame ... Well see what we can do abt it tml ... Hmm ... class is coming through more and more ... but then ... i have this weird feeling its gonna take more than what we've done to work this class into top shape academic and "siao on" unity ... In anycase we've got a classname "BIOHAZARD" if everyone agrees to it =P anywayz ... Just got a call from YiXin asking me to go for some funny event at chinatown ... wondering if i should attend it ...
OH well ... Take care ppl ... I thought i could move on ... but moving on things get very very complicated ... Maybe i should just stick to being sad over that matter ... at least the rest of the worldly matters seems of alot less concern to me when i'm in tt mode ...

Oh no ... the thought ... the horror ... Why ? Why ! Why !?!?!?!

Ah just happened to log on ... checked out her journal and guess wad ... Firstly i'm happy ... I truely am that she is getting on fine with life and everything seems to be flowing well for her socially though i must say ... something just isn't right from everything i've read heard or felt of late ... she has been giving me the feeling something is going really wrong ... anywayz ... the horror of it all is the thought tt she might be leaving for Tasamania ... and I've NOT BEEN INFORMED ... Haiz ... I really wonder how much i mean to her or for tt matter anyone nowadays ... Well ... talking abt her ... I remember it was one of her dream to be a Marine Biologist or at least study Marine Biology at Tasamania ... so on one hand i should be happy for her ... on the other ... i don't really want to lose her ... as far as i'm concerned i've already lost most of her ... if she is to leave ... i'd probably lose everything ... even my chances of seeing her ever again ... Haiz ... why me ? why ... why does all these happen to me ... why did i have to fall for her ... why didn't i fall for any other gal ... those are some qnts i always look into but nv find a real answer ... everything is always so ambiguous ... It all feels so right with her ard ... without her ... suddenly everything seems so plain ... maybe i've lost myself falling so deeply ... maybe i've became complacent taking her love to be granted ... maybe i deserve losing her ... for not being nice enough ... for not being caring enough ... haiz ... I guess i'll nv find out ... I can only pray that she would remember me and the time we had together ... remember enough to bother thinking abt me once in awhile ... to actually miss me ... cos i know i always do ... Well ... here wishing her all the best in whichever pursuit she may have locally or abroad ...

Hulk Angry !!!

Went to watch hulk with an old friend ... Graphics were good but i guess the concept of potraying hulk as a superhero ... basically the story emphasize more or less too much on hulk being a freak accident and rage triggered ... To me ... I think its makes Hulk look like an overgrown whinner ... Haiz ... sad ... Oh well don't know wad else to share today ... Take care pplz ...

Anyone Wanna Watch Full-Throttle ?

YoZ Yoz ... Okie ... So today is lecture day ... whole day of lecture and well ... Mr. Changs OBC is as expected lame and nice =P Though there are some new things and some old things i want to revise ... Mrs Tang was entertaining enough to keep me awake =P But WHY MUZ CALL ME WHEN THE CLASS IS LATE ... SO MANY PPL DON"T CALL CALL ME ... BIASED ONE !!! haha Then there was the Ms Suja Physio Lectures which practically put me to sleep literally ... ARghz ... How ? Liddat sure die lor ... So there ... That was contact time for school today ... Then parts of 1F05 went for revision at the library ... er ... not very efficient but i guess nothing much to revise on either =P Had fun anywayz so who cares ... Oh yar ... saw quite a number of ppl today at school ... Miao Yuan on the way to tuitorial ... Linda at the library and yesh met my pet squirel "ger ger" at the library too =P and while at canteen one for "high tea" where we met Frank just as we were talking abt missing him ... haha ... talk abt coincidences -_-"
Mr. Chang enlightened us about community service, travelling and touring ... So he was talking abt head hunter tribes and the school's community learning trips to such tribes to help out ... I'm pretty interested ... though mainly the trip consist of experiencing simple laid back lifestyles and building community halls for such villages ... His description of previous trips were no where near boring ... infact I'm DYING to go for the trip haha =)
Getting late ... I think i'm hitting the sacks soon ... so Nitez ppl ... swt dreams and take care

IS Day ... I Don't Like it :(

IS DAY (Interdisciplinary Studies Day) ... Today is dedicated to my complusory IS modules mainly WAA (Writting Academic Applications) and CATS (Creativity And Thinking Skills) ... Mr Tan of CATS is a nice guy but the class well ... tts another case ... So he is abit into cold jokes which only he laughs at most of the time -_-" ... Mr Gill is on MC (Medical Leave) so there is this Mrs Yap taking his classes ... Mr Gill is well known at my school to be widely loved ... Mrs Yap on the other hand is unheard of but i can tell she was nv well liked for some reasons ... The class well ... IS class is definately not getting anywhere fast ... too quiet ... too reserved ... I dare not approach anyone ... everyone is just too er ... unapporachable ... Glad tt lunch was fine as i met up with my class =) Heng Ar ! HaHa ... Still 1F05 better ... =D
Now for more sentimental things ... Just read the journal of someone who remains important to me and someone i will always keep close to heart ... She briefly touched on the common saying that beauty is but skin deep ... In her journal she brought out two very different views in two very simple poems ... on one hand ... she voiced that sometimes beauty is but skin deep practically wad more can one ask for ? ... on the other ... she also considered the more spiritual side of the phrase and saw it from the fact tt there is inner beauty in ones soul as well ... I was thinking ... Like who is perfect ? How does one define perfectness ? My conclusion for now ... No one is perfect until you know them and accept them for who and what they are ... phyiscally and spiritually ...
Chew on those thoughts for now ... I'm leaving for bed ... wonder how long good class relationship is gonna last ... i have a sick feeling it ain't gonna last long ... but i'm sure i want to enjoy it while it last ... sadly good things nv last long =( Especially for me ... Good things always come to an end and on very ambiguous notes as well ... Guess i should be glad they don't end on sad notes ...

And I thought I Was Lame ...

Okie ... Day 2 at Ngee Ann ... Got to know more of my classmates but mostly the gals ... amazingly the gals seem more willing to make friends then the guys ... sheez ... Anywayz ... Today met my OBC (Organic Biological Chemistry) lecturer and man is he lame ... I've nothing to say ... his lameness way exceeds tt of mine ... haha ...
Well ... Life goes on for those who had been following which i don't really think are many ... OH yeah ... Mag Thankz for following and giving me ur feed back =) Thats abt it for today take care and i'll be updating soon ...

Youth day ? Ha ...

Hello Pplz ... Day one at sch ... ON YOUTH DAY !!! Wah Kao ... Anyways at least day one was good ... Got to know many ppl for the most absurb reasons ... ppl clicked fast enough ... things worked out quite well ... Tml meeting up my class before class just to get to class haha =P Hmm... IT & Programming is the first lesson ... but none of them wanna bring laptops ... so haiz ... hope things turn out well tml =P To my new class *cheers* and to those i already know but hadn't had time to look up at ngee ann i'd find u guys soon =)
OKie ... Gotta go slp ... lessons at 8 again !!! Oh and one more thing need to decide on a CCA FAST !!!

School Starts Once More

HeY hEy Pplz ... So Sch Starts tml ... Ah yes the dreaded sch term ... somehow i'm thankful schs back ... and i think i know why ... first of all ... Need to grind tt brain back into working condition ... less slacking more facts ... Secondly ... Money keeps flowing one way ... which happens to be OUT ... so with sch back in session ... time i have to myself or for my friends naturally decreases ... which comes down to YES less SPENDING and more SAVINGS ... i hope ... hehe ... Then with the lag of time to go ard I get less time to think too much ... which means i do have to feel sorry for myself or guilty for wad has happened ... (which i don't really know why i should but i just have tt kinda feeling) ... And one last one to talk abt would be time at sch ... new friends ... old friends ... new sch ... yeah tt sorta thingy ... sure feels good =P
Hmm today was a good day ... went out with Flash on our first outing organized by urs truely ... made in a rush and well everything didn't go as planned but somehow we pull through and i guess its more than i can ask for ... Thankz to all the Flash-ers who made the effort to come down and support the event and i promise the nxt would be a much better one ... hope u guys and gals had fun =)
gtg slp now ... tata

Welcome ME Back =)

YoZ yOz YoZ ... Back from Camp and ready to kick ass again =) Just got back from camp feeling Really Siao ... Hadn't had so much fun or let myself just flow for a long time liao ... LSCT FOC was Great ... Flash (My Orientation Grp) was great =) Ah yesh ... I love the feel =)
I feel Good *arh* I feel SO GOOD *arh* Oh i FEel So, Oh I FEEL So, OH I FEEL SO GOOD *arh*arh*arh* =P
Camp was G-R-E-A-T, GREAT ! Flash was Good ... But most of all LSCT ROCKS !!! So life restarts for me ... About time i keep the past behind me move on with my life =) Hope life gets better ... Flash I WILL be spending quality time with u guys and gals ... U|td Inc. I hadn't forgot abt you lot ... Tock Seng U better NOT even think abt me forgetting all those great times at OBS , Snoopy ... I love u guys so if i can i'll find a way to regrp and get back to u ppl too ... Everyone else I'll always remember u ppl so just gimme a call when u ppl can ...
To the ONE gal i so love ... I will NEVER forget or give you up no matter how u may choose to act ... So wad if the world changes ... as much as i may change, my love for u shall nv fade ... I swear my life upon tt statement =)

Island Life .... something i won't mind having more of !!! HAHAHA

Hello ppl sorry i hadn't been updating ... grew a little too lazy i suppose ... hehe =P Been busy too ... not working though but more of having fun =) Keep myself off my mind and more on my toes, spent sometime at the class chalet which the first part was nice with all the card games and ball games the guys could come up with =) The second day onwards was a different story ... Most of the gals didn't make it to the bbq and those who did , didn't stayed very long either ... Though not the best and infact one of the worse chalet experience i had it was still not so bad ... Anywayz for a one man show Wilson you did GREAT thankz ....
Then came the Sentosa event yesterday which was though not of full attendance and those who did make it there are some which i rather not had around but oh well somehow it turned out way better than expected ... like VERY VERY MUCH BETTER !!! HAHA
So today is another event ... CISCO BBQ by Joy (Temp. Supervisor) and Sab (Her sister), nice ppl, generous and very interesting and wild too. Nvm occured i could fit in such a grp but well things has it i did =P Then there is the LSCT (Life Science Chemical Tech) FOC ( Freshmen Orientation Camp) at NP (Ngee Ann Poly) ... Whew ... Already tires me out thinking abt it all but i guess its all great ... Fun and it keeps me off thinking too much abt my miserable basic life ... HaHa
OH well time to run sorry ... try to update soon ... any comments just mail me =) Heavenfox@hotmail.com

Days before sch starts today :)

Hello pplz ... I just realised tt my timing abit off ... but nvm ... lets get oriented ... today is the 18th of june but this blog would be for the 17th okie ? =P Anywayz went down to Ngee Ann today ... my new sch ... Collected my laptop lab coat and my pe attire ... feeling pretty accomplished as tts everything i'll need to collect =) Anywayz... holidays are "starting" for me again ... chalets ... bbqs ... outings ... ah yesh ... the life of a teenager once more ... no more work and currently nothing to study either haha ... but it also means $$$ flying off fast ... =(
I guess tts all i have for you ppl today sorry abit tired ... Check back tml i've more i promise

Last day @ work ... :(

" To be or Not to be ? " Indeed as shakespear puts it in one of his famous plays ... life is all about questions isn't it ? For myself today is one of those days where immediate questions huants me so ... The day started with me wondering whether or not to report to work early on my last day of work ... then came the question of whether or not to stay out by the beach ... and then there was the hesistation to really leave work for good ... OH MY ... and one would think tts the end of my worries ? NO ... somethings went screwing up ... we booked a cab but due to last minute changes we had to ask him to leave ... the worse part ... he was one of our regular group of drivers hence he didn't charge us nor did he make any disgruant ... and he actually rushed from town to CISCO HQ to pick us up =( i feel so guilty ... OH well ... tts life isn't it when things screw they screw real bad ... my life better start getting better ... or else ... i won't know how long i want to stay on living it ... haha

Happy Fathers' Day Dad ...

Fathers' Day ... I remember when i was much younger ... the family was more or less cosy ... in anycase definately much cosier than now ... I'm working to rebuild that ... but how do i even go abt doing it ? I want the family to be filled with love once more ... i want the feeling of wanting to be home ... i want to be home sick ... i want to wake up knowing i have a real family one that really gives me a damn ... i want them to care ... i want them to share ... i want my family back ...
I only realised all this when i was in sec 2 or maybe it was early sec 3 ... but that was really when i my friends started to share alot ... when they told me how much love how much family life there was and how enjoyable it really is ... i nv appreciated it when i was young ... infact i wanted freedom ... i wanted my own life ... i wanted independance ... i still want that but i want my family too ... I want to be loved ... i want to feel love again ... i want it to stay ... I sought for love i really did ... but i failed in my desperate attempt and from therein i gave up ... then like an angel from heaven ... she appeared ... she gave me care, concern ... she gave me love ... i didn't really fall in love to start with but as time went by i gradually felt her warmth ... and as we got into a relationship ... i fell into a death trap of love ... far too deep to recover from nv expecting her to leave without a reason ... but she did ... If only love would stay a little longer in every part of my life ... life would be very much better for me ...
She called me a fool when i asked her to engage in a relationship ... but as foolish as it may be i persisted ... now i know why its foolish ... not because it'll end but because i cannot convince myself to end it ... Love has caught me and caught me bad ... I shall NEVER regret being that fool ... and i will not regret be more foolish than ever waiting for her evem when i have no idea if she wants me to ...
Dad if you ever get to read this ... I'm sorry I never told you i got myself into a relationship but she was able to give me what you all had stopped giving me ... but now ... I'm all lost and alone once more ... emotionally at least ....

Back to Nature ....

Hello pplz ... Today I went Hiking, YES Hiking ... Back to the nature, the greenery, the sand, the soil, the mud and the animals... Ah yes ... Its been a LONG LONG while since i did something like that and sadly ... I've developed mutiple cramps on the way from Macritche to Bukit Timah Submit =P Thanks to Racoon's Dad, I made it to the submit and back home safely ... a few aches here and there but nothing more ... I really hafta thank Racoon's Dad cause only with his patience and encouragement was i able to complete the hike and of course, without him as our guide we probably lost our way totally... THANKZ MR.GOH ...
The Trip itself was pretty treacherous with the elements of nature itself possing a direct threat to us in many forms ... the monkeys who tried to attack Racoon , the steep slopes which nearly had me tumbling and rolling downhill ... and much much more ... I definately enjoyed myself ... Physical endurance wasn't the only thing i relearnt today ... I also rediscovered my "long-lost" principles of life ... and formed new ones too ... Life has its ups and downs ... where it goes up it must eventually come back down ... This is something i've learnt again ... I used to believe in that but lost it somewhere on my way in life ... now rediscovering that puts me back a notch higher on the mood-o-meter .... =) Maybe just maybe life will turn better for me soon =)

My First Blog ...

Hello pplz ... I'm pretty new to all these blogging thingy but i suppose sharing life's ups and downs would sorta cheer me up more ? I have NO IDEA ! =) But wad the heck ... just gonna give it a try anywayz ... so some facts abt me to start with maybe ? Well ... I'm Simon AKA FoX, basically i used to think i'm a kind guy and all but as life screws me inside out ... i suppose i can't claim i'm that nice a person all in all ... OKie moving on ... I'm 17 male singaporean currently persuing a Diploma in Biotechnology @ Ngee Ann Polytehnic and i guess i'll share more as we get on ...