Monday, December 25, 2017
As i read more into smiling depression, could i have been in this mild condition since a long time ago and lucky for me, it did not become any worse because i am scared of dying?
Or am i just thinking too much about this to cover up my state of mind or condition currently. I really cannot think now. I have too much to think, too much to bother, too messed up right now.
randomness.♥
1:30 PM
Smiling depression.
The hallmark of smiling depression is sadness. The smile and external façade is a defense mechanism, an attempt to hide their true feelings. A person could be experiencing sadness about a failed relationship, career challenges, or lacking what they view as a true purpose in life. The sadness might also manifest as a constant, overall feeling that “something just isn’t right.”
Other common symptoms of smiling depression are feelings of anxiety, fear, anger, fatigue, irritability, hopelessness, and despair. Those suffering from this and other forms of depression may also experience problems sleeping, a lack of enjoyment in pleasurable activities, and a loss of libido. Everybody’s experience is different. It’s possible to feel just one or many of these symptoms.
Another way to think about smiling depression is to see it as wearing a mask. People suffering from smiling depression may offer no hint of their problem to the outside world. They often maintain a full-time job, run a family household, participate in sports, and have a fairly active social life. With their mask on, everything looks great, even at times perfect. However, underneath the mask they are suffering from sadness, panic attacks, low self-esteem, insomnia, and, in some cases, suicidal thoughts.
randomness.♥
4:21 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2017
It's a very sad day today for shawols and kpop lovers as today marks the leaving of Jonghyun. When I saw the news, I thought it was a mistake or error made by the website. But when I found out that it was real, it left a impact in me. I could feel the heart ache of someone closed leaving me. I have been listening to their songs since their debut and even learn to dance one of their songs. They were a part of me during my 20s and for someone to leave so suddenly, i was dumbfounded. I like others did not want it to be true and hope for a miracle but when the confirmation came, the pain was real. Every tweet, every news that I read, I could feel tears in my eyes. Yes I am an emotional guy but for someone so fine to leave like this, it really is a pity to the industry and everyone who loves him. I hope Jonghyun will finally be at peace. #RIPJongHyun #RosesForJongHyun
Dedicated to Jonghyun of Shinee
Always under exactly the same sky, always exactly the same day
Other than your not being here, there’s nothing different at all
I just want to smile, want to forget everything
Just like absolutely nothing has happened, smiling to live my days
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today
I thought I’d let go, not leaving anything behind
No, no, now I still can’t let you go
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today
Everyday, everyday, it feels like I’m gonna die, what should I do?
Love you, love you, I love you
I hadn’t even spoken the words, I just let you go
Sorry, sorry, do you hear my words
My late confession, can you hear it
I love you
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randomness.♥
9:27 PM
