Sunday, July 31, 2005
hai~ in the morning i was still doin my report and around noon, i went to my granma's house... i watched initial d again there... haha... dunno how many times i watched that show le... everything changed when i returned back home... my parents started to quarrel. i tried to stop them but i couldn't... i was so fed up at tat time tat i think of leaving the house for a moment, but i did not... haiZ~ after so much things had happened, relly dunno to what extent i can take it... still have a test in tueday that need a lot of strenght to study... now, i'm already half dead...
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9:41 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
jUst came bacK frm worK and immediately, i started writing again... haha... 3 days of chaleT, it was quite fun... i haD never enjoyed so much since then.... we haD fun but however, i drank too much and vomitted on thE firSt day... thus, i miSs out on A loT of the fun... we wenT to pasir Ris chalet aNd wenT to beach to play on the second DAy... aLl of us werE so tireD thAt we wenT to sleEP on THe seconD nighT at arounD 1 to 2 pluS... On the third daY, we checkeD out anD wenT to white saNd to haVe breAkfast. on thE way baCK, i recieved a caLL to go to work anD i agreeD... b4 goiN tO worK, we wenT to cAtcH a moviE "wet drEAms 2"... it waS daMn lamE anD soon afTer thaT, i wEnt to work till aRounD 1.30 A.M... i waited fOR the hotEl buS to senD mE homE anD noW, i'm FinallY homE... haiZ~ so tiRedDD... haha...
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3:05 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
3 days haD past sincE mY bloG is bacK... finaLLy, teSts haVe finishEd anD timE to enjoY my onE wEEK bReaK!!! howeVer, it's not reAlly brEak to bE exAct... still goT a loT of worK to DO... afTer thE breAk... on thE weeK stARting on TuesdaY, will bE anothEr tesT again... haha... sincE thN when i saId we stARted ratINg, we haD becomE addictEd to thE gaMe anD keeP on rATing anD ratIng... lol... looKs lik we r aLL to streSSed up le... haha... but iS was fun... At leaSt i wun thinK abT tAT thinG anymorE...
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12:08 AM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
bAck wiT neW thoughts anD blog design whiCh wiLL suiT more to WAt and hoW i am... reAllY thougHt iT over... waT noT meant to be wIll nevER be urs... i couldn'T forcE her baCk to squaRe 1... all i caN do noW is hopE shE will Be hAppY... today founD a nEw "hobBy" wiT jeD thEy all, it'S caLLed "ratE thEM"... thosE boyS in mY cLass should knw... lol... At leASt kiLL off timE wit thAt... tiS is alSO help uS knW hoW higH jEd And ouR expectaionS are... goT bAck thRee tesTs... to mE, thEy Were still noT gooD enouGh... 2 A and 1 C... haiZ... firSt yR only thN get C le... dunnO how to carRy oN studyinG... gOt to pacK up mY feelinGs anD retuRN to mySelf aGain... nXt week schedulE hAd beeN meSSed up... oNly knw thaT enjoY thE chaleT whilE i caN anD thE beSt time to forgET everythinG...
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11:41 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
thIs is mY lasT bloG ever... dunno when am i goiN to wriTe again... mAybe noT evER agaIn... thAnkS foR evEryonE who HaS rEad anD accompanIEd thru this timES... shE haD breAk up wiT me thiS afternooN... i WaS so saD... itS my faulT taT i had loSt her... maYbe it is timE i shouLd leT hER go... i aM reAlly losT at worDs now... dunnO waT to saY at aLL... juSt a brokeN heART... TAt's aLL i can saY... i hopE she will Be haPPy withOut mE arouNd... taT's aLL... thAnkS agaIn...
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8:01 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
wat a WeEk has paSSeD.... so manY thinGs, feelinGs anD blogS i Had writtEn, Seen AnD think About... again, THe saMe olD proceDure, SmsinG her... GoinG to schOOl... All thEsE is juSt paRt anD ParceL of mY wholE lifE... anotHeR "crAck" in mY heARt aS shE saId shE coulD not sMs me oftEn froM todaY onwaRds... tAt meaNs i hAvE to caLL her if i WaNted her replY soon... waT shouLd i do??? buT i'm a guY who doeS not hoW to cOmmunicaTe well wiT otherS... thuS it woulD bE a verY difficulT joB to accomplisH... 2 morE teSTs aheAD b4 i cAn reSt a whilE and go aHead wiT my repoRTs... hopE thesE thinGs woulD affeCt mY plAN foR thE followiNg weeK...
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12:15 AM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
anothEr day... haiZ... wanteD to chAt wiT deaR deAr de but no replY So chaT wiT "this"... haha... She tolD mE somE oF thE feeLingS arE cominG bAck... i Was sO happY... TodaY morninG i wAKe up aRounD 5 pluS anD wenT to heR hSe downstAir to fEtcH her to sChool... It haS beeN a lonG timE sinCe i hAd donE thiS... alThouGh todAy i DId noT do muCh wiT her, wAs quitE haPPy tat shE waS arD, althouGh foR a shoRt whilE onLY... holiDayS gonnA comE in anothEr weEK timE but saDly... stilL goT a Lot of repoRt havEn do... haha... muZ rush finish sO taT i can go ouT wiT her... alreaDy plAn to go ouT wit hER foR a lonG time le juZ tat she and i not fRee... so tHIs holidaY is juZ for thE chaleT, reporTs, mE anD hER, no worK!
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11:31 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
wat a daY!!! went to pasiR ris to watCh a cosplAy exhibit... firsT time in my life seen thIS event... haha... quitE fun... Seen manY diff. ppl in animatioN cosTume... haiZ` but still thinking abt her when thERe... cann't stop thinkinG... sometimEs wan to finD some1 to confiDe to but think this is thE besT way... everYthing i feel can be writTen down anD it cAn listEn... bUt too bAd iS tat it can't undERstaNd me lik shE and 1 caNNpt understanD each othER... todAy, i asK her whethER shE still lovE me... thE anS she giV althougH is somehow dissapointing buT i think is my faUlt... too manY a timE now i aM neglectinG her cuZ more busY than evEr of school aNd worK... can'T see hER home And seldoM go out wiT her... i alWAys beEN pessimistic aBt things... shE saiD thAt it iS fAdinG and i aM scareD it will Fade off... i dun Wish to sEE thIs happeN but i knw tAt it cannOt be force iF she doesn't liK me anymoRe... i hAd no choiCe but to lET go if thiS happenS... howeVer, i treAsure her a loT, more thAN anyone elSE... hEart will aChe foR surE if shE leaVe me... i dun knW wat she thinks, all i can do iS praY haRd foR this relationshiP...
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11:41 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
5 Mths lE!!! so happY... buT thE baD thINg is i spenT my DAy at thE visiT at thE facTorY... haiZ... changEd my bloG design too... hehe... tAt FF desigN a biT old le... muZ updaTed to my conditionS... haha... so faSt 5 mthS liao... feel time really flieS... one teSt over anD nxt wEEk 2 more tEsts On THe waY... got to prePare anD get as manY A's AS posSible tHis seM...
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11:30 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
wat a week... still hopinG i anD her would bE baCk lik olD timeS... waN to see hER smile... haiZ... last weeK got a tesT... cheMistrY... toUgh 1... thougHt taT i coulDn'T scoRe weLL... buT wheN got bAck thiS weeK... actuaLLy got 40\50... lol... bUt stiLL think noT gooD cuZ itS alreadY waT we knW in sEcondAry school... lasT thurS wenT to schooL to sEE her... wenT to fEtch hEr home... on the way although goT holD her hanD, but didn't sEE hEr smilE at all... feeL a littlE saD anD still guiltY... sun wenT to isTana to work foR thE firSt time... WAs quiTe ok buT quiTe meSSy cuZ thERe werE 132 tablEs... wenT back anD WAs so tirEd... monDay still got a liTTle feveR and headache... now alrigHt le...
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6:21 PM
