Tuesday, June 28, 2005
for hEr, i crieD agAin... maYbe i'm too emotionAl le... foR so lonG sincE i waS seC 2 tAt i crieD for a gaL... sincE now.... reAlly dun knW y i See heR niCk "i niD a reSt, feel like letting go of everything..." , tEaRs lik aUtomaticallY flowinG liao... thinkinG so mucH tat shE will leAve me... bUt i dun WaN tat to happeN... dunno WAt to dO now... to holD on or leT go... dun Wan to forCe hER... pluS, studieS anD woRk kepT rushinG thrU mY heAd... iF she LeavE, i ReaLLy wiLl bReaK dowN... i can't TakE it le... FeeL lik rEleaSinG angEr out buT to no avaiL... i afRaid of seeinG eVery stePs taT is in fronT of me now...
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10:22 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005
haIX``` gaLs r so difFiculT to undeRsTand... i tRieD to aSk her buT evERytimE thE answEr i gEt is thE saME... hoW cAn i UndeRStanD hER whEn shE doeSn't waNt to teLL me anythIng... buT i dun Wan to foRce her tO saY... HAiZ... bOth WAY doEsn't helP me to unDerStanD her beTTer wAt shE is thinkinG... maYbE i juZ cannoT undERstanD gfaLs ba... haha... juZ liSten to SP sTudeNtS song writinG competTition sonGS... finD them quitE meaningFUl and nicE... haha... tomoRRow anD sunDAy workinG frM morning TIlL nighT... nXt mon, weD frI anD saT workinG too... tEstS cominG sooN aNd noT yeT revisE... haiz... so strEsS...
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9:10 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
fouR mths pluS le... goiN fivE mtHs As timE paSSes wit everY seconD tickinG awaY... thAnks foR beinG bY my side foR so lonG... i Had mAnY gooD memoriEs wIt u togeTHeR... although it's juZ 4 mthS plus... i seeN u sincE join thE ccA... till noW... sometimeS so noisy... hehex... still rememBer waT we saiD, tHreE yRS... i reaLLy hope we coulD lasT tAt lonG or even longER... somE of thEm saY fEelinG faDe awaY as timE goeS by... buT i dun wiSh we wErE lik thEM... instEAd i hopE taT we wOulD be mOre bondEd together... i dunNo waT u reAlly think buT i truST u completely... luV ya...
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12:42 AM
Saturday, June 18, 2005
shE haD not replY me... for suCh a loNg time... without her, i dun feel lik doiN anythinG... i hopE shE could juZ reply me foR oncE... dun feEl lik goin to worK todaY juZ hopinG tat i could Get a replY at leAst... i knW aS a malE, shouldn't drOp any teARs withouT anY reason... but juz could noT taKe it anYmore... agaiN ihaVe drop teaRs... thiS timE noT becaUSe of any othEr thing... but foR her... am I juZ faCing anotHer failuRe... i juZ could noT stop thinkinG abT the worSE thinG taT could happen to me...
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11:03 AM
Friday, June 17, 2005
finallY have time to updatE my bloG again... hehex... dunno i should bE happY or sAd todaY? hmm... haD claSs in THe morninG, anD deCideD not to go Work todAY as clAss is goin sEntosA foR ouTinG... durinG tat pERioD of timE we playeD volleybaLL anD frisBee... it waS quitE fun... dEar dEAr smS me aBt 12... iT waS thEn my sadneSS coveRed mE... i waS jokinG wit hER anD i smS her lotS And loTS of timE, buT not Even onCe she reply... i wAs so dishearteneD... couldn'T stoP thinkinG waT waS goiN on...i juZ wan to knW tat she iS alrigHT anD i woulD be conteNt... haiZ~ now i'm dowN wit feVER anD i could not stop thinkinG abT her and wish tat she could reply mE asP...
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9:43 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
haiZ... hAd bEEn thinkinG abT the paSt... waS i too Stubborn at tAt timE or waS it toO foOlish anD beinG afFectEd by peERs... stilL dunnO thE anS till noW... ppL makE misTakes so do i... bUt i can't juZ forgeT somE thinGs i shoulD forgET... some pPl maY saY tat i aM "xu wei"... maYbe so... mY buDDies saY taT i Am too "zhi zhuO" whilE some say i am stuBBorn... haiZ~ i thinK is botH ba... i dunnO waT i do now is corrEct or not? or am I juZ lyinG to myselF... heH~ botH in lifE and stuDies r thE saMe... dunno whEther waT i do is coRRect or not... juZ a totaL failuRe in life buT alwaYs seeM so happY anD caRe-frEE =( reAllly feEL lik cryinG out but grown up le, tEars almosT dried up Le... pAst or prEsenT... boTH maKes mE feEL so unbeARablE... reALity is crueL, u juZ see thosE whO leaVe in fronT of u... whEn u trieD to holD on To thEm, thEy juZ eithEr dissApeAr or leaVe in aN instanT...
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10:32 PM
Monday, June 06, 2005
juZ came baCk frm a chaLet recentLy... hmm... dunno shoulD saY is 1 Or 2... hehex... laSt thurS, i wenT to mY previouS ccA chaleT but onlY on thE last daY... went thEre to sEe mY deaR deAr anD also for bbQ... =p but not i doin the bbQ... i'm the 1 being served...haha... wheN reAch homE alreadY 11 plus... so tirEd... luckily, thE next day starTs at 10.30... after nxt daY lesson, rusH back homE again... pack mY bag anD got ready for the other chaleT... haha... so busY... the chalET waS again frm my ccA.. but this timE ourselves... it was so fun although deAr deAr only stAyeD for the 2nd daY.... timE flieS... 4 mthS le... hop tiS relatioNship goEs on everlASting...
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5:40 PM
