Monday, February 28, 2005
haiZ~ saD... today i gOt my reSult... i cRieD... Long time no Cry le... toDAy usEd up all mY teaRs... i didN't fare weLL for mY o lvl aS i hAd expecTed... waT a dIsgrace... i goT the loweSt in p.a fOr thE expreSS seniorS... i got 15 for b4 and 21 for r5... i broke into tEars wheN i sAw the reSult... i diD trY my beSt bUT it DoEs not sEEm sO... i Was prePared to gEt scoldEd by my Mum but sHe did noT... she instead encouraGe me... i waS so touched... noW, my onlY hopE is thAt i cAn gEt inTO the cOurSe and excEL in it...
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9:49 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
timE reALly flIEs wheN u seEMs tO be eNjoYing urselF... haha... itS aLreaDy E 3 wkS tHat i haVe bEen wiT my DeaR le... tomoRROw gETTin resuLts le... ppl r nerVous but I'm Not cUz it hAD aLrEAdy paSS aNd i think i Had done alL rite... yeSteRdaY, wE had teaCheR conceRt reheaRsaL aND thE teacherS weren't gd aT aLL... somE were Fine whil;E the othERs... haiz~ aftER tat, i went Out wit yu ting and li hUi... i wenT P.S to looK for them... aftER taT, we wenT orcharD... haha... MAybe itS fatE ba... mY deAr was also goin orchaRd wit heR muM... afTer we aTe... we weNt "seArching"... hehe... saW heR twicE At the firSt floOR... lol... hmm... tAt's abT iT ba...
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9:55 AM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
finaLLy... thEre is nEWs abOut thE releasE of Result... it wIll be on MondaY... the LasT daY oF februarY... haha... 2 p.m musT reach schoOL, StilL musT wEar unifoRM some mOre... come to think oF it, noW i AM geTTing woRRieD abOut hoW i FareD fOr my O leveL Sia... 4 moRe daYs to gO... reALLy can't waIt to sEE my resUlt... aFter thaT onlY got arounD 5 dAys to choosE sia... waT a Rush... hmm... now MusT staRt thinkiNg whaT coursE to go le... haiz~ stiLL haVE no IdEa whicH to go... Some1 plEase Show mE thE routE to go...
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12:53 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
resUltS arE cominG thiS week... i'm So nerVous aBout iT... dunno whetheR i gOt gOod resUltS or noT... haiz~ reAlly scAred... aLso, i Have tO pReparE fOr thE courSE i WAnt to stuDy buT i dun reAllY knW whicH courSE i wAnt tO get intO...
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1:05 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
3 dAys haD passEd sinCe my lASt updaTe... thE past 2 daYs were quitE tirinG... as i had to work foR the 2 daYs... foR fridaY, i worked in MandarIn hoteL, it wAs thE firsT time in maNdarin taT i spillEd few glAsseS of drinkS but fortunatELy, onto myseLf and not tHe gUesTs... got sColdEd by mY captain aGnes... haiz~ when work'S over, wheN i wenT to collecT my monEy, i knockeD onto tHe pillAR... it waS maYbE an unluCky day for me... afteR work, we mEet wen guAng and sonG miNG and swEE menG hsE... we stAYed thEre tilL 2 pluS b4 we went home... howeVEr, when i reacheD homE, it waS near 3.45... on saT, i wokE up aT 10.30... immeDiaTeLYa aftER i wokE up, i AtE and bAthed, prEpaRinG to meEt my dEAr deaR and frenZ to CatcH a movIe... hmm... thE timinG waS jusT niCe... after thE shoW, it waS abT time for mI to go For wrok aGain, but this timE, it waS at novena, anotheR worKplaCe of mine... pheW, toDay we kept HAvinG fUll tablEs and WerE verY busY... but timE pass fasT... now, i am wRitiNg on the blOg... haha... alSO, toDaY is thE seconD weEK taT i anD my deAr dEaR have beEN togEthEr... haha...
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12:04 AM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
waT a daY it waS yesterdaY... haiZ~ sometimEs reallY tireD of p.a le... don't rEAlly knoW whaT to do to thEm le... yesTerdaY waS suPposeD to hAve trAininG for SEc 1 aNd 2s... but no sEc 2 come eventualLy anD only thE sec 1 AttendeD the tRaining... shoulD i saY what a fAIlure i wAs thAt eLton saId no1 tolD him aNd saId thaT only seC 1 needEd to comE foR trainINg... hmm... scolDing junioRS waS wronG too... i conduCted thE trainIng and i haVe thE authoritY to scolD thosE who aRe latE or noT listeninG, instEAd i waS retordEd by The seC 4s... hah... yu tinG waS rigHt to saY thAt i wAs covERinG for joaNNa any punishmentS thaT shE madE... i admit This waS my fAult, howEver, i diD not liK guaN honG of sayinG me "jian REn".. whAt rIghts does he havE to saY me??? angrY... i waS so fumEd up thAt i wanteD to GivE a punCh rigHt in his faCe... haIz~ hoW woulD thE seC 1 anD 2s listeN if we ArE not strict EnougH? wilL theY lisTen oR plaY arounD durinG dutY... p.a... i reALLy dunnO whAT will haPPen to iT...
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12:07 PM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
hmm... vaLentine'S day oveR... a nEw weeK stArts agaIn fOR me... a wOnderFul weeK as iT is alreadY onE weeK sinCe i haD beeN accepteD by mY deAr deaR... vaLentIne's daY iS jUsT liK any oTheR daY to me as mY deAr dEar hAs total dEfencE day reheaRsal sincE mondaY... tuesDay nighT shE tolD me she had uLcer in her mouth anD afteR i sent hEr home, sHe was sicK...pooR deAr... haiZ~ wisH tat i waS arounD to caRe when shE was sick...
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1:03 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
yESterDay waS a grEat daY to mE... it wAS the firsT timE i weNt ouT with mY deAr deAr together wIth some OtheR friEnds... we wEnt orchARd anD watcH a mOviE... aT firsT, we weRe suPPosEd to watcH a gHoSt shoW buT in The eNd, thE show WAs full aNd somE of uS wenT to waTch anOtheR show... afTer thAT, we mEEt at sOmersEt mRt stAtion And it tOOk uS ReaLLy lonG to deCide whEre aNd whAt to eaT... haha... mY deaR dEAr can't decidE whAt to eaT sO i hAvE to ASk yU tIng to ACcOmpany hEr to gO arounD and chOOse... weLl, it was UnlUcky fOr me aS i atE paRts of an uncOOk piZZa... bUt thE lucky pARt was thAt i didn'T hAve a StomaChe... hehex... i hoPe nxT tIMe we Go out wIll haVe moRe fuN....
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9:47 AM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
fInaLLy, one daY of CNY has passED anD welL, i rEallY miSS mY deaR dEaR so mucH so tHat i can'T leaVe my hanDphonE down fOR a secOnd... hehex... keEP sMS hER sincE new yeaR evE tiLL now... gueSS my dad'S phone bIll is goiN to burSt... lol...onE moRe daY TO tolEratE anD i caN sEE hER in sChoOl on fridaY le... can'T waIT foR tomorrOw to arrIve...
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9:30 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hmM... 6 feB... i shouLd saY iT waS one of mY happieSt daY of my lifE... hahA... my dEar deAR accePted me... acTuallY i didn't plAn to tEll anyoNe bUt in THe eND, on monDay... stIll fOund ouT by mY P.A junioRS... theY evEN wenT to thE extenD of folloWing us... haHa... i didn'T noticE theM untIl one of Them caLLed out mY namE unDEr heR blocK... aftER thaT, theY begaN to "question" mI... LOL... thEy all LookEd as If thEy weRe vERy inteRestEd abOut mI anD hER... haha... CNY iS neAr anD i caN't beAR to sEE My deAR dEAr for 2 daYs... haiZ~ i dEFiniteLy wiLL misS her...
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3:42 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
it's beeN 2 dAys sincE i update mY bloG... anyonE miSsED me? haha... fOr thE last few day, i'vE finally gET "iT" througH anD tRy to Forget her... weLL, it'S has beEN quitE sucessful AnD we'rE stiLL frienDs... maYbe, it'S reaLLy faTe... It'S fate thAt we cOuld noT be together anD I shoulD havE never forCe it... weLL, at leasT i knoW now thAt peoplE can't cHange evEn thE faCtS and shoulD facE it... monDay is cominG and it is the lasT CNY rehearsaL... i hopE nothinG goeS wronG aNd i can't waIt for CNY to come!!! :P
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9:37 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
lOVe is thE word that is irritatinG me again... thiS reminDs me oF somethinG abouT love... to loVe someonE is dArinG...howeVEr, this is not tHe mosT darinG paRt oF love... the moSt darinG part iS when someonE is ablE to lEt go of his\her loveD one anD givE him\her yoUr greaTest blessinG... however, thiS seldom happeN as humaNs aRe posessivE anD theY don't waNt to let go oF peoplE or thinGs... oF coursE, tHIs happenS to mE too... noW, i'm tryinG to forgET anD lET gO oF her... howeVer, i don't knoW hoW loNg it's gOing to taKe aND it'S dIfficuLt tO givE somEonE youR bleSSinG eSPeciaLly when yOU likE thAT persoN...
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12:36 AM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
sometImes, i wonder... what's fate, what's love... tiLl now, i stiLl do noT understAnd the truE meaninG or peRhaps, i wIll never undeRstaNd... to maNy peopLe, lovE is a GreaT thinG anD One thinK thAt truE lovE is thE thinG theY haVe beEn seARching for... howevER, noT eveRyonE caN geT truE loVe... somE oF thEM wIll haVe tO saCrifice something befOre thEy eveN realisE it... (likE friendship etc...) to me, everything is impossibLE... notHing gREat ever hapPen to me anD to me, lifE is jusT faIlure whiCh i HavE to go on... noW, moSt oF the THinG tO mE aRe numB aND onLy thoSe i wiSh tO remEmber caRRiEs my emoTions... buT mosT of thEM arE cruEL faCTs wHIch i don't WsiH to faCe... mY viEW on loVe, SOMe maY say thAt i Am noT realisTic anD do noT have ThE couragE to facE the trUth whilE somE thInk otherWise... in fAct, i actuaLly do noT knoW whethEr i aM stubboRn, hOlDinG ontO thinG thaT canNot bE reAch Or aM i jUst a StupiD gUy who Do noT knOw whAt loVe reaLLy is... tiLl now, i aM holding onTo somethinG thAt i realLy do noT wish to leT go off... i knOw if i let Go oF it, no onlY i wilL losE it forever but aLso DrifT awAy further aWay from me... tHE firSt onE is alreaDy mAdE a mESs out of me... i Am losinG mY confiDence as ThE hopE getS sMAllER and smaLLEr... i knoW thEre aRe no sucH thinGs aS miracLes but this timE i DO hopE thAt miracle wiLL haPPen... howevER whAtevER shE doEs, i wiLL reSpecT hER decISioN... aNd whEn i sEE heR smiLE AnD knowS thAT she's hapPy, i will feel glAd...
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