count down 2010

may be tis year is not a gud year for me...
many many bad thing happen in my family, my study...
but i still finish my tis year course...
and also still continue my study...
hope all the bad thing will end at today...
and all the gud thing will come after a few hour (2010) later
hope all my friend n family will forget all the bad thing tat happen tis year
and have a happy new year 2010

he oredy pass away...

haizz...
tis year is a very very bad year to my family...
thursday(24/12/2009)
my uncle oredy pass away because of cancel....
tis time my grandfather was very very depress...
i as a nurse dun noe how to relax my grandfather mind...
within 6 month my grandfather loss 2 younger brother coz of cancel...
why tis thing will happen???

i hope tat my grandfather will accept tis is the real thing...
n hope tat he will have a very very gud rest...
dun think so must...

why 1 by 1 go from my life???

around may of 2009 my uncle pass away becoz of ureter cancer...
we was very very like the uncle...
he alway bring go here n there to play....

after the uncle pass away my another uncle was be diagnose that having liver cancer
this uncle can cer cells spread very very fast once go check when pain oredy metaltasis to the bone...
is oredy 3rd stage cancer...
n treatment was given b the DR accept give morphine for the pain killer....
tuesday i bring my grandpa go c him,
he oredy pass blood n not urine...
yesterday(wednesday) they call to my house call my grandpa faster go n c him
his life was no longer...
afternoon mhy grandpa go down to his house 1st...
at the nite we go n c him at his house...
he was so tired like my mother site grandpa before he pass away...
my uncle was asking for the food, drink, n want to c all his son daughter wife, grandson n other...

why they will get cancer???
why the gud people will always get this kind of the disease???
who can tell me????

now my mother site de grandmother also like tat having a lot if disease even on treatment...
scare la...
facing all this disease...
i am a nurse but i couldn't help them anything....
haizz....

a very very suprise birthday....

as u all noe 2day 6 of DEC is my birthday...

i having a very suprise and very happy de birthday...

eventhough i cant with my family...

but i still having my college friend help me to celebrate...

is very very happy...

i was very angry wit peiying just now,

when i noe she take teksi go out alone to buy present for me...

but thank you pei ying i was very happy...

want c my present ???

lets me show

thank you to all of u help me celebrate my birthday:

*Shu Zhen *Elaine *Phaik Cheng *Li Chin

*Pei Ying *Ren *Shu Ching *Claudia

*su Fern

thank you very much to all my friend...

sad and bad mood...

2day finish OSCE supost happy coz finiah all my exam ,

i feel sad and i dun noe y i will fail my OSCE...

i din expect i will fail until 2 station lo....

dam sad now....

tis is the 1st time i cry coz i fail my exam...

last time secondary skol i fail 3 subject i also never cry....

now tis is my 1st time cry....

i also dun noe y i will cry....

i was so happy waiting OSCE, but now i was so sad

n no mood to do anything oredy....

a happy day after exam

tat day... monday after the obs exam i go out with my friend...

we go to sunway pyramid...

we was very happy go there even though very tired...

we go take photo la...

i buy a birthday present for myself la....

ear nice food la...

and many many thing

we was so happy...

long time i din feel so happy oredy...

we also din forget to take the photo wit the christmas tree....

as a memory because this year christmas we was in holiday...

i also paste the cute sticker on my keyboard...

i hope i will happy and have a suprise for my birthday

7 day more....

my birthday coming...

6 of dec....

i really hope tat all my friend who stay with me at A-4-10

will be like last time...

i really feel sad after the sport day

coz something was happen between all of us(who stay at A-4-10)

after the sport day some of them din talk to each other coz of something...

i hope tat they will forgive somebody and talk like last time at A-4-10

i hope i will forgive somebody also.... eventhough i dun like her but i hope tat i will forgive her....

because i noe dun talk wit somebody n angry with some1 n like a enemy wit some1 is very very bad... this 3 day holiday i when back my home n i noe tat my relative life is no longer....

he told me dun angry o be an enemy wit anyone...

coz 1 day they going to help us in our life....

may be they are the only people can help us when we nt leaving with our parent but leaving wit our friend....

time go very fast...

last week ...

i thinking how i going to sit for my exam...

dun noe how the exam will come out eventhought tis is nt my 1st time sit for exam...

monday after my CVS exam i feel like oredy finish all my exam

is a very nice feeling...

wednesday i finish my GIT i also feel happy...

after GIT exam i feel like oredy finish all my exam

coz 2day only heamatology ma...

before this i already finish study half of the heamatology so i din study much

only read all the tip tutor give to us...

luckily all the tip i read come out...

so i hope that my OBS and moral also will easy like GIT n Heamatology...

and also hope i will pass my this sem exam....

changing in my friend...

in this sem i realize tat many changes in my friend n me....

now a day even we din call Zhu go eat also she will come n find us go eat de...

park park leh... become a depress people...

last time de her is very happy people... but nw i feel she very depress...

about xiao giou a... i think not much more different at her lo.. still same..

about me a...

after that time food poisoning i have no mood to eat at here

eventough i am hungry when i go down c the food i have no mood to eat...

last time on time i will ask wan go eat o nt...

nw is Zhu come ask me wan go eat o nt....

sad coming back to college....

5 day more...

final exam coming a...

so sad a...

not yet start study leh...

no mood to study...

sad come back class coz yesterday we have no food to eat...

only 1 shop is open n the food all finish when i go there...

so yesterday we only eat maggie...

sad sad sad

2day 1st day go back to posting liao....

my 3 day holiday just finish like tis oredy so sad...

2day go back ward no much more pt but a lot of staff nurse and student nurse...

so not very buzy...

1 day only i oredy miss my mom cook food leh...

hw???? who can cook for me?

2day i go and take my weight nw oredy 65kg...

so sad a...

becoz of food poisoining i only can get 61kg,

but go back home only 3 day i oredy gain weight almost 4kg...

sad sad sad sad sad....

finish exam

so happy finish exam finally...

can sleep well 2nite...

happy at home also...

no need stay at penjara...

can eat mom cook food...

loss weight till now only 61kg...

so happy....

many happy thing happen 2day...

hope the bad and sad thing will go away from me...

and hapy thing will always come to me...

bad bad bad....wat to say???

haizz last week 29 Sept2009 i having food poisoning and

coz of food poisoning i have severe dehydration...

tis week 6 Oct 2009 finish hematology exam

7 Oct 2009 i having Flu and GIT exam...

after having flu then i have sore throat and coughing...

until today i still in sick...

haiz..............

last week food poisoning

tis week flu, sore throat and cough....

next week???

y tis all happen to me????

stress

1st stress coz of tis week exam

2nd stress coz of yesterday nite i noe my friend's tumor cancer rupture and pass away at tis morning around 12am.

3rd stress coz my sis fewer, flu, n go c dr at hosp. sg buluh the dr dun wan her...

4th stress coz 2day i noe they choice me as SNA(student nurses associated) member...

stress stress stress

y tis all happen in 1 time???

who can tell me???

cant sleep for almost 1 week liao lo...

since that time tutor all giving assignment,

every nite i cant sleep very well,

coz in the midnite,

i will suddenly wake up think about the assigment.

since at secondary skol i like to do all the project,

i will immediately do all the project and i wouldn't keep the project til want to pass up only i do.

but nw is a group work,

so i need to wait till all give the information only can do...

cant sleep for almost 1 week liao lo...

since that time tutor all giving assignment,

every nite i cant sleep very well,

coz in the midnite,

i will suddenly wake up think about the assigment.

since at secondary skol i like to do all the project,

i will immediately do all the project and i wouldn't keep the project til want to pass up only i do.

but nw is a group work,

so i need to wait till all give the information only can do...

the nite tat i cant forget...

12/7/09

in the early morning....

also can say we nt yet sleep around 2am...

we are talking something with my other 3 friend.

and when we talking i noe my friend actually gt many think we dun noe.

i noe that she was very sad becoz 1 of her friend dun wan ans and reply her sms

i noe tis is nt she do wrongly bt is her friend did something make her very sad

and we also noe her somethink that she din tell us before...

suddenly we feel hunry, then we all order mcd and eat.

and also she is the 1st time din go back her hostel sleep,

'lepak' with us until 4 something.

very very bored de class

since last sem i never feel sleepy in the class...

today is the 1st time....

do u noe wat is the subject???

i say also u nt believe..

coz last time at secondary skol time i very like tis subject.

tis subject is pendidikan moral...

i also dun noe y they need tis subject... haizz

Sad and Happy day

Sad...

because of the tutor 2day enter class when wan to teaching ,she ask question i dun noe ans...

coz i din study.

last time study tis topic i also study throught only, din study very hard...

Happy...

coz i move to tis hostel i never eat together wit my friend in a big group...

last time at kondominium almost every week end we all 8 o 9 people go out to eat together...

i hope we all will graduate 2gether and can always sit down and all eat together...

1st day of semester 3

1st day of new sem...

haizz...

when tutor coming in all say this sem is very hard...

ask my senior also say very hard...

haizz..

so must study very very hard lo...

2day totur give assignment and must present 2day,

only a few of my group member come and ask when to do,

need help o nt somemore 1 of my group member say dun wan present.

every time my friend and me doing the power point, the girl who din find information, we call her to present, then she say dun wan...

wat can i do???