cAN i stayed at home everyday and not bother about anything else??
dun understand why aM i in this state... i felt so helpless...


my life is in a meSS now....
everythIng juSt dun goes weLL...
hAix... alot alot of stresses and burdens!!
fAmily... money... studies... mySelf...
reAlised i can never be wat i waNNa be and i just cAN't get things goin well...
i haf been dreAMing all this while...
ARGH!!!!!!!!
wat should i dO??
i burstiNg......


i wiSh.. i wiSh... i wiSh... and i wish......

firST time feelin sO bAD.. SAD.. diSappointed in my studieS....
tink i reAlly flunk my CA paper just nOW...
MS 2008 mAgnetic & Electronic propertieS... i HATe U!!
i dun even know how to do 1 complete question loh!!!!
...WTH...
and i dun even haf the chance to look at others' solution and copy loh... hA.. SO pathetIc :(


suddenly feelIn SO lOSt... I dun wanna repeat this module... but i know for sure i'll fail this CA papEr... i did not prepare myself well... tout it will be easy since CA are supposely to help uS... bUT i'M wrong.. totAlly wrong... first time leaving the room feelin so BAd & Upset... that i can't do the pAper at all.... ;( **feel like cryin**
tink i really bettEr wAke uP and STUDY HARD for the eXAMs!!! MUSt MUSt understand all the stuffs no matter how muCh i Dun like tHis Module...


anyway it's tOo late to regret for nOt studyin well enuff for thiS pAper...

yEt anOther diSappointin day...
hOW many mOre to Come???
hAIx...


nOthing seems to go well for mE..


gueSS i'm really tired tHis time round..

lUCk's reAlly nOt wif me these few days.... :(
hoW come?? wat's wrong??


yesterday's NTU training was quite disappointing....
cAn't get myself going... easily defeated & played badly... haix


tiNK i'm starting to loSe myself...
my motivations..determination..faith..desires.. everything!!!


thiS FRiday will be havin my firSt test in Uni... my MOM test... Am i prepared for it?? NOPE...

An Unusual dAy today...


aLL the things thAt wiLL seldom happen actuAlly occuRed today...
yA.. surely a "fruitful day"... hee
firstly... i oVerslept todAY and hence skipped my morning's tutoriAl...
first time durin lecture there was actuAlly a moment when the 4 of us (CF, XY, SM & me) doZed off.. wahaha... somemore we sat in the first few rows...
then supposingly meetin Hwee jiA at lakeside MRT after school to take train together... but i talk wif my frenx tiLL i missed the stop.. only to discoVer tiLL i reached Chinese gArden... heehee... *guilty*
after tat met jEff in yishun and we watched "tHE mAId"...
tHen wE witnessed A cAr accident after we cAme out of the cinemA...
on the way to interchange we saw 2 blind man and we guided them to their respective bus-stop...
on my way home i realised i din bring keys out today (which was nearly impossible tat i'll forgot)... sOmemore when no one's at home...
so i mEt jeff again and we went to MAc to haf some snacks... the auntie there wanted to sweep the floor but accidently swept my leg....


ya... aren't these stuffs quite unusual???
hahaha... can't believe i actually encounter so many things jux today alone... haha... dunno it's good or bad thing siA...
anywAy the meetin wif him today was not as bad as i thought... nOt really awkward as i tout...he's still the same... jOkin around and alwaes havin things to talk abt.. =) wiSh hIm good luCk in his NS.


quite tired nOW... but tink will be doin my Lab reports later on. mAY i faster finish my stuffs...




*quote of the day*
~ sOur, sWeet, bitter & HOt arE juSt pARt and pArcels of liFe ~

wasn't in mOOd to blog this few days...
lAziness + tiredness....


oH ya... WeilIAn won the superstAR compeitition...
sAd thAT KELLY lost coX i felt tat sHE seriously sAng much much bEtter thAn weilian tat nite lohx... especially her last song (Coco Lee's "bei aI de Nu ren")... haix... but it's oK la, anyway i felt she'll be gettin a better recOrd company contract... =)


din went for any NTU basketball trainin last week... mainly due to laziness again and tat thursday was superstAr's FInals.... coAch will be comin down this week i tink... trainin tml le... gonna work hard for a place in the NTU squad? abit half-hearted... but hAIz... i know if i can't get into the team i'll be disappointed... SO contradicting....


in sChool's library now... WAITIN for LECTURE @ 4.30pm...
hate to wait for lectures... cox i will alwaes be doin nothg durin teh break...
wasting my tiME onLy... :/
dunno if i shd meet him later anot... he's goin NS soon le..
received his call last sunday... so surprised... long time never contact liao... then suggested maybe we can meet up before he goes for his NS and tink i'm only free today... hee... but hor i now like dunno wan to meet anot... cox i felt abit awkward to go out alone wif him leh... i like nothing to talk abt... weird weird one... haix dunno la... see how later on.


next week term break le... so fast half a semester's gONe... but i'm still not studying!!!! so pathetiC rite??? hOpe some sense cAn diffuSe iNto me sOOn to remind mE to study.... nonono nOt remind... is Must moTIvate me tO stUdy and wOrk hARd.... i Need MotivAtions to exCEl?


*quote of the day*
~ HAppiness doeS nOt depend ON wat U hAf bUt wat U are satisfied & cOntented wif ~