渺小

你说一生中会遇到几个人？一千？

生命中的的确确出现好多人，有的人只是擦肩而过，有的人是校里的同学，有的是路边的陌生人，有的是生命中重要的人。认识那么多人，其实也没有很多能在自己的脑海中留下深重的印象。人海茫茫中往往觉得自己很渺小，能做的东西也很少，能留在别人的脑海里也不会很深。

自己觉得自己长大后，对一切的感觉都不一样了。以前厌倦的东西忽然都已经麻木，以前喜欢的东西也觉得再也不那么喜欢了。是长大要付出的代价吗？唯一不变的就是变化吧？好讽刺。

若现在的一切都不是真的，就好了。

Photo shoot

Today I went out at the weirdest timing, 3pm where almost half of the day was gone. =) Hahas, today was photog session with my mates. Hmm, I thought that I would not be able to shoot anything good. But it was still okays lah... I was in partner with Peng the whole afternoon.

The instructor only taught us some skills but I disliked his way of teaching us where he instructed us on what to shoot, I feel restrained and it kills creativity. I don't like this at all. But at least I still can learn some techniques. Peng and I shared the same camera and both of us also aimed to shoot different things so that pictures would not clash together with the rest of the people, so that winning competition chances is higher. =) Hahas.

Oh yah, I must chang suai Peng. =D Hahas. He tripped while I suddenly changed the direction to walk. =P and forgot the route to Iluma. Hahas, in the end we had to cross the same road twice. =P Pai seh... =D Hahas. Then we waited till the sky was dark then we tried to shoot the slow shutter technique on the cars. =) It was successful orhs... Hahas, my idea orhs. =D

Hopefully next week shoot will be better. =) Think it will be fun.

Happy days!

I just feel good with my old besties again.. =) I feel safe, secure and just simple happy.

Aw... I miss the old days, where I remembered last year where everyday morning Sha will come find me at my class, then I will go find her downstairs at her class before recess and we will go eat together in the canteen, or even crap nothing and sit on the benches, depriving poor others who need tables to eat. =P Old days... Just miss them too much le.

I guess I won't be able to find friends like Sha, Yuen, Peng, Leng anymore, at least not as close as I am to them. Now everyone is busy with their various school work, so am I. It's a pity all of us can't enter the same school and I'm separated with my laopo. T.T wah... Miss the old days... Those happy yet bitter and stressed days. I guess 2 years later I'm going to say the same thing to my friends. Life is always full of missing and regretting.

Yesterday I met them and we ate at Pastamania, and Sha came up with a surprise for Yuen coz it's her birthday tomorrow and we celebrated it earlier. =) Hahas, I still can visualise Yuen's super red-tomato face yesterday when the manager brought the cake to our table and the 'Happy Birthday' song was played and we singing the song for her. Haha! =D Yuen is just that shy orhs... It's nothing grand or special, just a simple birthday celebration and it's always Sha who is fond and able to do such surprises on people de. =) Love you laopo! Hahas. Then we talk, cam-whore, eat and crap.. just like the old days. And dig out old topics, discover new topics and share our miserable and no-life days in JC. Hahas. It's really good, to feel safe and belonging with my besties.. T.T I want to cry le...

2 years will pass soon, hope that we will always be together... =D hahas.

And Happy Birthday, Yuen! =D Smile more lah... make yesterday's smile your smile every single day. =) Oh, and don't stress up easily... When everything bitter is over, what is sweet will come to you. So no worries and be happy! =D

The cam-whoring photos should be uploaded soon by Shasha laopo... keep a lookout at facebook! =)

Helpless

Nothing can be done to mend up the hole.

'I'm sorry.'

Sincerity doesn't show in words, I know. Now even a simple apology will be deemed as a fake attempt to recover everything. I feel helpless.

Then tell me what I can do.

Perfect holidays

March holidays are finally here.. =) Holidays. At least this March holidays seem like a holiday. I only returned to school this morning and that's all I have to do for this whole week for school. =D Hahas. I can spend my holidays at home or outside and not in school. I'm happy. For once, I am.

Order:

NZ Sirloin steak with fillet

Items in order:

NZ steak (medium well), fillet (cooked), carrots, cauliflowers, broccoli, baked potato with 2 huge tablespoons of mayonnaise

Extra dishes:

Apple pie with suspiciously-mango-looking custard, coffee with 2 packets of sugar

After dinner activites:

Snug in sofa watching Channel 5's Garfield, chat on facebook, identify classmates, lose in finger games, admit defeat

*if only nights to come can be like this