O Week 2007 !!!!

I have no idea how  I managed to keep this with me for so long. =)

I miss you loads wei.

My First Time.

My Rock Wagon is No Longer Rocking Enough.

ACCIDENT!!!

vicky

ok,here's another rant about work.starting to get very tiring.

I got a telling off by boss,to not be rough to the bands,ravi mentioned that to the boss.

Fact, i don't think it's rough when I speak to the bands in their own dialect,or like old friends.
It's always welcoming to me everytime I gig,to have someone on the organizer's side talk with me like we've known each other for ages.

they are cool with it,they contact me after the gig,telling me how they like it.how well it went.
how they really hope and want to come back again.it's fun.I know it's a brand I'm carrying,the
"Homegrown Brand."But, can't I act individualy?I've not said one harsh word to the band,just because you guys can only afford to act profesionally,doesn't mean I'm obliged to as well.

The thing that I'm upset about is my boss lectured me on humbling myself and taking instructions.As far as I can remember,Ravi gave me only one instruction the whole day,which was to remind the bands to lower their volume and I did it.I don't know what is making my boss say that I need to humble myself and take instructions.To make it seem like I am not humble enough to learn really is a lie.

This sucks, 1 up to resignation and doing my own business.


okay update,boss was beating around a bush that's was not even supposed to be there.
now i really hate hip hop.lol=)

resurrection

why am I fighting to live,if I'm just living to fight.
why am I trying to see,where there is nothing in sight.
why am I trying to give,when no one gives me a try,
why am I dying to live,if I'm just living to die.

rowda ya habibi

hey there hadassah,

I learnt something.I was reading about this field I am working in on a few forums.

Most of the people there stated that I need to have a certain skill.The skill is called

"skill tahan maki".

Today I found out what they mean by that.My boss scolded me.It's not his fault la.100% my fault cause I was sleeping at the desk.

But the words out of his mouth, was quite insulting I think,it's still etched in my head.

I guess "skill tahan maki" is definitely needed for this field.

It's surprising though,I didn't assume an organization run by a church goer would work this way.

All the sarcasm and everything,I guess the working world really is unethical and self centred.
I also learnt that NOW it is okay to be hypocritical and lie to the boss.

deng.

yes,it doesn't matter where you are,your position is not going to stop you from achieving your dreams.It's i think how much you are willing to step out of your comfort zone that determines how soon you achieve them.
God works in so many different ways.=) I hope you hold on to that kah yee. =)
Glad you understand so much about God =)

Bryan and I almost got into a fist fight,I'm glad I didn't take him on his offer to come give me a slap.I'm glad I just stared at him and understand what he was.
I wouldn't have want to be in a fist fight with him.


We, being human beings,are just plain selfish most of the time.I know now that people can advice you on everything in the world,but just because they do so,it doesn't ensure that they practice it.
I'm going to jakarta.I want to go.

imalsoarockstar

There must be some kind of way out of here.
There's too much hurt,pain,distrust and assumptions.
Nobody of this worlds's worth it.There's no point to taking things for their worth now.
The only thing that counts is actually how much unfairnesswe can take before we start to give it back.
The best thing to do would be to not give any unfairness back.

I'm not much better than those who wronged me,even if I've not wronged any human,there is a God
I've wronged more than anything else.
That alone warrants me for all the suffering and pain
I can endure and then some.

For you to pick up that call
and then continue it even when you deserve all the rest
you can get,is truly amazing.To take how food is thrown at you in that sense,
is even more amazing on top graceful.
I'm so proud of how you adapted to experiences.
Proud of who you are. Honestly I am.

kawan-kawan aku

Hey there..

It's alright. I replied late to your chat anyways.

Hey, I understand that feeling small bit. And I know how bad it can feel.. Despite trying so hard and doing all the right things, people still make you feel small.

I really have no solution to that.

One thing I do know is that what matters is our reaction - when people make us feel small, we do not retaliate/react in ways that are negative. It will not speak much of who we are.. and make us even lesser.

What I do know and how I know I've been sustained is that I hold on to who God says I am. He says many things about me, many nice things especially.

Read Psalm 139 for example. It's crazy how much He thinks about me!

And Ephesians 2: 10! That He actually BELIEVES in me and in what I have within me. That's another crazy thought.

Does that insulate us from all the negative that people can show us? Nopes. It will still hurt. At times. But it helps more than ever to find our worth in our Creator's eyes.

Who has more right to tell you who you are/to make you feel how you feel? The people around you? Or the Person who Created you and put all those good things within you?

Choose who you want to listen to.

*hugs*

Hope you're feeling better..



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thanks hadassah.