words toward eve.

There is no way I am allowed to feel this way.
I'm supposed to be the strongest,laugh the loudest,
live the liveliest,taste the tastiest,die the happiest.
I can't let them see me this way.

I can't wait for it all to end.
To come back together,to embrace each other.
There's no passing moment not filled with fragments,
fragments from a life I am proud of.

They can't see me,Not this way.
I'm the rock. The tamarind tree.
I'm not budging an inch,for if I move,
They lose their direction.

Sorry to say,I can't play as well.
There's nothing I'd not give for your success.
To see you marching out,as bright as stars,
To know I played a part.

50 years I'd wait,hoping for a day.
A day the whole world comes my way.
To know I can live all ways,
I'd have mingled with the world by then.

I'd be a citizen of the world.
It makes the most sense of all.

Homegrown Space

Hello there,

I'm sure most filmmakers/musicians/artists face this problem after producing their work.
They just can't find a space to display their work.
True right?

Well,recently this month,Homegrown Productions launched the Homegrown Space in Wisma Bentley ,The Curve.

This space is literaly free and the purpose of it is for our Malaysian Talent to be shown.

If you have any form of material and would like to show it at our space,feel free to contact me at @homegrown.com.my or give me a ring at 0149304606.

FYI we will provide you with the Amps,Musicial Instruments,DVD players,Projector,Screen and Sound System.
Best of all,EVERYTHING IS FREE.You will only have to do your own publicity.Also this space is not only for movies,stand up acts,music bands and fashion displays,it's just for any kind of art.

CE Torres Plaza

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

atas nama cinta,terlahir aku,melihat dunia

you know , I just watched a video.
It was a promo video for focus night.
It amazes me how I don't know that person in the video anymore.
Well she seems happy doing what she's doing and I figure it's just for the best.

And my thoughts keep going towards another friend of mine.
Someone I spent most of my twenty first year with.
The way things unfolded in the end,how I wish it could be different,
But even that happened for the best.

I'm amazed at how these individuals are capable of putting memories out of their mind,
How they seem to go on without thinking of the past and what has shaped them to be presently,
I'm tormented by the thoughts and experience I have inside me,how I wish I could escape them,
But no,I am no IGNORANT person,It hurts me if I don't care.

I cannot hold on to a principle and follow it blindly without experiencing the other side of it.
The icing never tastes as good as the cake in the end.


The world has been cruel yet blessfull these few months,
Friendships lost,friendships reignited
opportunities taken,opportunities granted.
It's weird how things go about in the worst way possible,then end up being ok.
But after everything,you still have that experience of getting things the worst way,


Perhaps it's to hold on to and not repeat,
Perhaps it's to be shared?
Perhaps just to be forgotten and gone through again.

It's about kah yee and charlotte.I miss the both of you,SO much.I hope you guys are fine.
One day I'll be able to forget everything like you have.