you are FOS.it's a new term i learnt.
"i'll never leave you nor forsake you" my backside la.
you took so much from me.
don't say you didn't ask.you recieved and you loved it.
you never gave back.don't make it soun likeyou gave back because i never asked you for anything.
you owned up to the fact that you loved it all.so stop pretending like you are holier than me and that i am the epitome of teh devil's work in this world.
you were never the one that waited on me though i never called you to say i have arrived.
you were not the one who walked me home.
you didn't get me things to keep me warm.
you didn't leave my presense so that i would feel comfortable.
you didn't tell me you'd stand by my every decision.
you didn't defend me against others.
you didn't hold yourself accountable for every word you said.
you forsaked me.
you took powerhouse away from me.
you suck.
you're the one who pretended to be happy and sad.
i wish i could get every memory of you out of my head.
i wish you could take back every word you've told me.
i wish i could die with only the sweetest memories of you.
but no.like i said, you suck.you're a disappointment.you only cared about what you'd get out of me coming over...out of me geting you this..out of you coming to my office...out of you going for food..out of you getting me to fix their computers...out of everything.
how could you la?
you're the biggest heartbreak of my life.
i love you very much.more than shireen or ruth or winDatt or J.C. or whoever there could love you.
i left for you.but you're still here in my mind.stop reading my emails...stop even thinking about me.stop breathing the air i breathe.
die.
you didn't come to cook me dinner for CNY because i was lonely and without family.
who's going to be with me for this christmas la? my parents ar? nonsense.
who's going to eat pancakes with me la?....whom do i cook breakfast for now?...whose knife do i accidentaly cut my fingers on now?
whom do i wait for after work or college?
who do i plan my day around la..
who will eat kfc with me now?
whom do i tuck in to bed and leave and lock teh door behind me?
whose apartment do i clean now?
whose bed do i make at 7 in the morning now?
lol..
again....just die la.please.
